Chapter 4

I initially thought it was just a dream. 'I've been manipulated once more', 

I yelled to myself with so much pain in my heart! 

Unfortunately, it is not a nightmare; it is the truth. My heart is terribly heavy, and I am filled with rage and disappointment. 

'How did I allowed a stranger to deceive me?' keeps coming back to my mind. 

I made an effort to look around before getting up and looking in the bushes, consoling myself with the thought that perhaps he was still coming back for me. But since I was unable to contact anyone, I decided to accept my lot. My body is trembling with rage and hatred as tears stream down my cheeks like a pool of water. 

Why would the moon goddess approve of men using and manipulating me? Why did I not actually die at the Park after all, why was I even born? I keep asking myself all of these questions. I sobbed uncontrollably because I was so depressed that I was unable to cry any more. My legs aren't moving at all. 

Then I thought, 'Poor wandering orphan, you have nowhere to go; perhaps Lucy and the park people were right!' My parents' death is the reason I'm being punished. Even though I don't know what happened to my parents, guilt devoured me. Maybe I'm a witch!  

I was able to stand up, but I struggled with confusion in my head. my first impulse, which told me to return and continue serving Alpha Shaun as a concubine and slave, but, Another impulse makes me think back to everything I experienced in my park, including all the hate, suffering, and bullying. Then I came to the decision that I should keep running and see what my future holds. 

When I ultimately decided to continue travelling... From behind me, I heard a voice. 

"Evelyn!  What exactly are you doing? 

When I finally had the nerve to turn and gaze at the speaker—Alpha Shaun—I shook with dread. He's been looking all over for me, and now he's found me. 

I swivel to face him, With such intense rage in his eyes, he forcefully grasps my hand. I told you that we belong together, and I need you in the park as my maid and my concubine! Why do you make this so challenging?  What if something bad had happened to you in this woods?  You have nowhere to go, as I warned you... hence, give up trying so hard! 

His criticism pierced my heart like a sharp dagger, causing me severe pain. 

I felt furious when I heard him talking to me in that manner. I'm on the verge of crying again because of how heavy my heart is. I didn't want him to win, though, so I controlled myself. Suddenly, I was brave. I suddenly lost my cool and blew up! Still trembling, 

"Shaun! Why do you relish inflicting me with pain? Let me go! 

Than to return to you and Lucy's pain and suffering, I'd rather die in these woods.

  

"I want to be free. You've already decided against choosing me as your mate. Allow me to be, Shaun". 

I made a valiant effort to release my hand from his grasp, but he persisted.… suddenly! The shrub made a noise. The recently passing object, shook the arid leaves. A wild animal I presume,..Shaun's focus returned to it. As a result of his diversion to see what it was, I took my hand away from his in a hurry. and begin to run... "Hold on, Evelyn!  You won't be able to elude me once more. He yelled. 

My feet were moving as quickly as they could, and I could hear Shaun whistling in the distance. 

Guards from the park immediately surrounded me.  I struggled to stop running out of sheer terror and gave up. my heart is heavily breathing. 

"Evelyn You know I enjoy having sex with you, so I urge you to stop trying to run away.  Reluctantly, Shaun said. Taking a step towards me, he snatched me from the ground like a small child, dropped me back on the ground, and then he ordered the guards to take me back to the park. 

As soon as we arrived at the park, I noticed that everyone there was visibly angry with me. I could see the venom in their obstinate darts, scorching like fire. 

"Take her to her room, and make sure she doesn't try to run again!" Order from Shaun.  

 

As I was being led to my room, Lucy stopped me in my tracks. "You this filthy bitch!. Why aren't you just dead or gone? What draws you back repeatedly? 

Though I made an effort to ignore her, she shoved me up against a guard. 

"Lucy, I don't want a fight with you!  Why don't you ask Shaun why he wouldn't just let me go?

I exclaimed sounding really enraged. 

I was aware that Lucy could kill me with that, but I no longer cared. She appeared to be trying to divide me in her gaze. 

She hit me in the face with a crude slap. 

"You foolish slave, do you have the nerve to respond to me when I'm speaking to you?  However, I'll make sure to ruin your life in this park so badly that you'll regret returning.

I was taken to my room by the guards and imprisoned there. Once more, all of the thoughts were racing through my head. Then I started crying... That stranger was certainly nice, and I could still feel his warm touch on me. I could even picture it in my thoughts. I had a great time during our brief encounter with that him. But it enrages me so much when I remember the unpleasant reality that he tricked me! 

I could not forget that part. I soon started crying again. This time, I sobbed out loud and inaudibly. 

Why, moon goddess?  Why do you continually let people take advantage of me? 

Shaun refused to let me leave even after he rejected me. Despite doing a lot of housework, he turns me into his sexual slave. Lucy graps every opportunity to beat me.. Yesterday, that was my last hope to finally escape from all these suffering, a stranger.. Moon goddess. A stranger took advantage of my situation to deceive me?! Why did you allow me to spend the night with a stranger?  Since you couldn't let me know my parents… why didn't you take my life, too? "

I spoke out loud all of these things. crying and sobbing loudly while being careless. Due to the tension and excessive pondering, I was sobbing uncontrollably on my bed, and sucking in my tears. The door suddenly opened. I instantly regained consciousness and stopped sobbing as Shaun entered the room and stood on me. I rose from the bed. 

"Shaun!  What do you still need from me?  What are you doing here?

I ignored him, Despite the burning rage that he is displaying. His anger and rage increased. His eyes were turning red, and his heart was racing quickly and violently.he stood there trembling like a palm tree that is being tossed by the storm. 

"Evelyn!  What did you say once more?  You slept with a stranger? How could you!? 

I slipped back into my bed after being slapped by him. "Speak the truth to me!  I was standing just outside your door, so I overheard everything you said. 

When I began shouting, one of the guards who had been assigned to watch over me hurried to call him even though I had no idea that I was saying any of those things; I had assumed that I was only thinking them in my brain. They were afraid I would hurt myself, not knowing that Alpha Shaun was listening outside my room... Surely!  I'll die today, I thought! 

"You are aware that only I am permitted to have sex with you!  How could you possibly sleep with someone else than me? not to mention a stranger!  You are a foolish and senseless girl!" He shouted. 

"But again, you have rejected me since.. If I had slept with another man, why are you upset? I mustered up the resolve to defend myself at last. 

"Start talking. You whore! Tell me how it happened, or else I kill you! "

My body suddenly became hot, almost making me urinate... He's never appeared this way to me before.  I was aware that he would always punish me or, in the best case scenario, kill me because of that. 

I therefore collected myself and did my best to soothe him.I started out by confessing, telling him in detail what had transpired in the woods. 

I simply sat on the bed with my head bowed, anticipating Shaun's next move.