Nocturne put that journal down and picked up the journal that Leo had written in a past life.There wasn’t much to read in there. It appeared that Leo had not been interested in documenting his life as the ruler of the underworld. It made sense knowing that they spent most of their time together and Leo couldn’t exactly write about his secret dating life.The handwriting didn’t feel familiar either. The Leo he had known didn’t write in cursive like this. He traced his fingers over the loops and curves nonetheless.“I am going to do it. It does not matter if I get punished,” he told himself resolutely. “I just need a plan.”Potentially he could get out of the throne room and out into the wilderness and somehow find Leo’s soul out there. That wouldn’t be enough. He had to get back and get Leo’s soul back into the cycle so it could be reincarnated. He had to do all of this before he was caught by the entity.There was one thing the entire situation had shown. The entity hadn’t known abou
The conversation in the meeting room continued and Nocturne learnt more about himself and where he was. His name was Nathan and he was the CEO's son who had just been put in charge of a new band project. The purpose of the project was so he could prove himself to everyone at the record label and be known as more than the son of the CEO.The calendar came into his sightline as he followed the men out of the meeting room. It was March 1994. His vision swam momentarily and when it stabilized he was standing outside a room. It was labeled as a practice room and he opened the door. The men from the meeting were behind him. The man who had spoken most of the time was a recruitment manager. There were four people sitting around on the laminated floor.The brunette girl looked up with interest and he recognized Celeste. Nocturne wondered if she was about to fall for him. Her cheeks flushed as she looked at him and he suspected she had. Leo was the next person to look at him.He was struck
“I’ll take it then,” Leon replied and held out his hand for the teddy.Nathan handed it over and their hands brushed past each other. Leon didn’t seem to be bothered by the skin contact. He was too busy arranging the teddy bears together on the bed.“The bathroom is through that door over there,” Nathan added and pointed. “It’s an ensuite so you aren’t disturbing me at all. Remember to set your alarm. We all have an early start tomorrow and you’re going to be picked up at six by Dave outside this building.”Leon dug around in his bag and eagerly pulled out an alarm clock.“I’m on it now,” he said. “Goodnight and thank you for letting me stay.”“You don’t need to thank me. I’ll try to get Celia and Dean sorted out again,” he said and withdrew from the bedroom. “I’ll see you in the morning. Sleep well.”He closed the door and walked back down the hallway. Was it strange that he had someone else that he was in charge of in his spare bedroom? He reminded himself that he was doing it for t
Nathan was lost on how to reply to that. “I see. Did they pass away?” he asked.Leon sucked in a breath. “No, they disowned me because of my job. I should have expected it really.”His eyes glistened and Nathan retrieved his handkerchief from his pocket for Leon. He passed it over and Leon took it silently.“What’s so bad about being a performer?” Nathan asked. He struggled to keep the indignation from his voice.The words came out of Leon’s mouth in a rush. “Lots of things. It’s sinful that I’m in a band with girls who aren’t married. Some of our choreography is sexy. The lyrics we sing can be interpreted as sexual too. It all added up. I got a phone call one day to tell me I am never welcome at home and if anyone asks, they don’t have a son.”Nathan’s heart throbbed with worry and he put his arm around Leon. He really should have paid more attention to the band members’ health.“I’m sorry to hear that,” he replied. “Your parents sound like shit.”“They are,” Leon agreed with a smal
Things made more sense to Nocturne now. He had never had the impression that Nathan was going to act on his feelings for Leon. The move had to come from Leon himself.He felt turmoil in Nathan’s heart as he processed the question. The record executive took a moment to work out how to answer.“What makes you think there is a chance of that happening?” he asked in a tone that indicated he found the question boring.Leon simply looked at him in a way that made Nathan feel like his brain was open for mind reading.“I’m not dumb. I know that you like me.”Nathan’s reply came out as a nervous splutter. “I don’t like you any more than I like any other member of your band.”“Why do you never meet my eyes when we pass each other?” Leon enquired archly. “You don’t do that to Celia, Dean or Mary.”“That doesn’t prove anything.”Leon finally paused the movie and came to stand right in front of him. He gently tugged on the book Nathan was still trying to pretend to read. The older man let it go.“
As planned, only Leon was offered a contract after the breakup of the band.Mary announced to the media that she wanted to settle down with her boyfriend and have a family in peace. Celia and Dean were not so happy about the split of the band and gave several interviews to newspapers stating how disappointed they were with their management.Leon held up the entertainment section of the newspaper with a tight smile one evening.“Nathan, you’re being bashed by Dean again.”The record executive looked up at his boyfriend with a fond smile. “He’s holding a grudge against me. There is nothing he can do. The group contract is over. The contract never stated the label had to keep a solo contract with each band member.”Leon put the newspaper down and snuggled under his arm. “Dean was never one to care about the finer details. He was the main instigator in wanting to split up.”Nocturne had watched the break up of the band in real time. It had not been pretty. Celia and Dean had formally anno
Everything fell apart over the next month. The one good thing was that Leon’s album release was financially successful and was well received by the music critics.As Nathan had predicted the staff at the record label suddenly paid them both close attention. Men who would be happy to share the elevator with him or chat with him at the vending machine would practically flee at the sight of him. “I’m not interested in your ass,” he muttered under his breath one morning after the elevator rapidly emptied out at the sight of him.Who knew that straight men felt so fragile at the sight of a gay man?He knew it had to be worse for Leon when he overheard a conversation at the vending machine.“How often do you think Leon sucked Nathan’s dick to get that solo album? The producer he used always makes hits and is hard to book,” one man said a little too loudly.“I bet Dean is mad to know that all he had to do to stay here was to flirt with Nathan,” another man laughed.Nathan turned round the co
As Nathan took in his last breath, Nocturne’s breath came back to him in deep gulps and he nearly collapsed onto the sand of the wilderness. He caught himself and then his legs gave out under him.That had been horrific to experience. He found solace in the fact that he was now out of the memories of his past life. He touched the sand underneath him to ground himself as he tried to evaluate everything he had seen.At first it had been interesting to watch how his past self fell for Leo in another life and then it had been heartwarming to watch them together. The end of it had been the complete opposite.The ruler of the underworld analyzed the memories carefully. Who had caused the end of their relationship and their deaths? There had been lots of factors at play.The news articles had played a part as had homophobic attitudes at the time. Leon’s parents had been terrible to him with their verbal abuse.When he thought about it, it was clear that it was a combined effort between Celia
“I don’t have any romantic feelings for Atlas,” Leo said as they looked up at the sky.Nocturne glanced at him in surprise before replying. “I’m fully aware of that.”“I just thought I would tell you. I know you have complicated feelings about the entity,” the blond told him. “The only person I love is you. I don’t love your former self in any way. I feel sorry for him instead.”It was a relief to hear those words even though he had never suspected Leo of harboring romantic feelings for the entity.“I think anyone would have mixed feelings about the person who made them go through painful lives because they saw falling love as a weakness instead of something normal,” he said lightly. “I’m mostly neutral on the subject of the entity now. He apologized and he has arranged this new life for us.”“I wonder what our next life will bring,” Leo said wistfully. “We’ve both achieved a lot this time. I’m a successful author in my genre and you’re the CEO of a profitable company.”Nocturne’s foc
Nocturne found that he still had the folder with all the wedding planning information in the same place on the kitchen table. The most important thing to do was find out if the wedding was in the same place. Everything else could wait.“We are using the same wedding hall in this life,” he told Leo. “It seems this wedding was more expensive. The price for the decorations and the catering are higher than before.”Leo put four slices of bread in the toaster.“Glad to know that we’re not going to turn up at the wrong place,” he said. “My headache has gone now. What about you?”The former ruler of the underworld gently touched his head and was relieved to feel nothing.“I’m fine now,” he said.He experimentally tried to teleport to the underworld and nothing happened. It was odd to think that he would never see the underworld again whilst he was alive. When he would see it again, he would just be yet another soul there to be judged.It was bittersweet.His job as the ruler of the underworl
“I want to be with you,” Leo said fondly. “I admit that I also want to get married tomorrow. If we could somehow be transplanted back into the human world I came originally from, it would be amazing. I’m just worried that it’s not possible.”Nocturne ruffled his hair. “That was what I’m hoping for too. I would also like for the underworld to be stable after we leave as well.”Leo considered the different worlds. Technically they had all been created because of him. Atlas had created another human world after he had died as well as the current system of life and death.The other two people at the table had been created because of him too. They wanted to sacrifice themselves to help him as well. He was conflicted about everything.A while later, a stone faced Atlas approached their table.“Leo, can I speak to you in private?” he requested.“You may,” Leo said.It made sense that Atlas would want to say something to him. This was all because of him. The throne room disappeared around hi
“What options can you offer us?” Leo asked.He thought about the wedding that was waiting for them the next day with a pang.“Your first option is to enter the reincarnation cycle and eventually live another life,” Atlas told him. “You two always find each other so there is no need to worry. You two could also take up positions in the underworld."The blond knew that wasn’t something he wanted to be involved with. He was too sentimental to be dealing with death all day.“Is there any chance we can go back to the test world?” Nocturne asked. “I’ve become attached to it and I would like to have the wedding I’ve been waiting a year for.”Leo was pleased that they were thinking along the same lines.An expression of pain shot across Atlas’ face. Leo looked at him carefully and saw how tired he was looking. His skin was almost translucent.“Atlas, are your powers growing weak?” he asked quietly.“I do not have too much left in me,” the entity admitted. “I have lived for a long time and set
The two of them reached the town a little too late to recreate the timing of their first date. The lunch period was in full swing at the coffee shop and they ended up squashed on a small table between two families with crying children.Leo frowned as he thought about how Nocturne had arrived whilst he had been sitting outside the coffee shop all those years ago and asked if he could sit next to him.“How did you find where I was on the day we met for the third time?” the blond asked. “You couldn’t have stalked me beforehand because it was only the morning after I rejected you.”Nocturne stirred his drink. “Remember I wasn’t human. I teleported to your house first and found you weren’t there. I went through your bedroom to learn things about you. Then I transformed into a human and the rest is history.”“I wonder if any other Grim Reaper put in that effort to chase a human,” Leo said. “You went to some trouble to date me.”The former ruler of the underworld winced for some reason and t
Leo burst out laughing. The man in the jewelry shop had mentioned another customer before him buying a ring to propose that very evening. It had been Nocturne all along.What were the chances of them choosing the same ring and the same day to propose?“It feels like we’re fated,” he said. “The same ring and the same day.”Nocturne placed the other ring carefully on Leo’s ring finger. It fitted perfectly. Leo held up his hand and admired it.“I had been planning to gauge your opinion on marriage and then you asked me for mine,” Nocturne said softly. “I guess that should have been the clue we were thinking on the same lines. You confirmed you wanted to marry me and I went to buy a ring that I had seen earlier."Leo smiled as he realized they had followed exactly the same steps.“I was planning to propose to you when you came back from work in the hallway so it would be the first thing you saw when you came in. I was disconcerted to find you had come back early,” he admitted.“In my mind
The blond didn’t waste any time in pursuing his mission. He had seen the ring in the morning and he took the first chance he could to ask Nocturne for his opinion on marriage in person. It wasn't a conversation to have by text or over a call.His boyfriend returned from the office as he was serving up dinner. Leo had expanded his cooking repertoire over the years and had seven meals he could make for dinner. He made dinner on weeknights and Nocturne cooked much better meals at the weekend so it all worked out.Leo waited until they were both sitting at the table to broach the topic of marriage.“Nocturne, what are your opinions on marriage?” he asked. “I mean marriage for yourself.”His boyfriend raised his eyebrows. “That’s a random question. What brought it on?”“It doesn’t matter. I just want to know your opinion,” Leo replied.He had learnt over time that Nocturne was good at avoiding questions he didn’t want to answer.Nocturne frowned over the question and took a long moment to
Something strange happened on the evening of their seventh anniversary together.The two of them decided to celebrate their seventh year together at their favorite casual dining restaurant. Leo had introduced Nocturne to it on their fifth date. Their preferred table was outside looking over the harbor.During the wait between their main course and the dessert, Nocturne briefly left him alone at the table to order more drinks at the counter. Leo occupied himself by taking a photo of the candles on the table so he could post about their anniversary on his personal social media account. He was in the process of writing the caption when someone sat down opposite him.The smile on his face died when he saw it wasn’t Nocturne returning from the counter. It was a man he didn’t know.The man was attractive in a similar way only his hair was long and black and his skin was unearthly pale.“That seat is taken by my boyfriend,” Leo told him.He didn’t entirely know why this man had chosen to tak
He was ready to find this man and give him a piece of his mind. Leo moved towards the door. Angela cleared her throat and he stopped. Maybe he had reacted too fast.“You don’t have to go and punch him. Nocturne spent a lot of time working on a report for HR to get him removed for harassment. He submitted it this morning. There’s so many witnesses to everything, it should be an easy case for HR,” Angela informed him. “Levi is being questioned in the HR office right now."Leo realized that he had been naive to think that Nocturne wouldn’t use official channels to do something about someone harassing him. His boyfriend was thorough like that.It made sense that Nocturne had told him not to worry about him and that things would be sorted soon with the ‘difficult client’.He sat back down at the table. It appeared he didn’t have to go and defend his boyfriend from Levi. Nocturne had already done everything necessary.“I would still go and say something to him on a personal level,” Angela s