Axis Ford's Point of View
People only want one thing in this world, that is happiness. But how can we attain that? Do we need to sacrifice first in order for us to attain happiness?
Can't we be happy without any pain? Can't we be happy without hurting someone's feelings? Can't we be happy without hurting our own feelings? Can't we be happy because we are truly happy?
Maybe, life is really unfair or it's just that life works that way. Maybe that's the purpose of life. For all we know, life is not life for nothing. Life doesn't only bring happiness, but somehow it also brings challenges—a challenges that might bring us lessons in order for us to become a better and strong person. Yes, that's what life is.
But why me? Of all people, why is it me? Why should I be the one to experience all of these things? I thought if we sacrificed then everything will get better, but why things only seem to get worst?
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I wanted to chase her. I don't want to end this night with us having a quarrel, but I got a call, that maybe, just maybe, that call was a sign for me to let her think first, that I should let her go first. And that's what I did.I took the call. It was Kelly, asking me to come to her because she needs me. I know Yasha needs me too but I chose to go to Kelly, considering the situation she has right now.I learned that her father is in the hospital, in his critical condition. I knew Kelly back then. She's been a friend to me. Both our fathers were colleagues.From her situation right now, no one's comforting her aside from me because she has nothing. Only her father and I can't stand seeing her suffering.That night, her father's condition got worse."I can't lost my Dad, Axis. He's the only one I have. I can't lost him." I hugged her tightly while crying. I can feel and understand her pain and I can't bear seeing her suffering like this.Week
"Yasha," I quickly approached her and hugged her tightly. Prisoning her in my arms, right at this moment I know she is crying. "I'm sorry,baby. Please, calm down. I am already here." I tightened the hug but she pushed me away."Why are you here?" Her voice was cold and that shows that she's mad."You need me Yasha. I won't leave you now." I said but tears rolled down her cheeks."Maybe someone needs you more.""Yasha, please. Let's not talk about her." Because I know she's referring to Kelly again."Then what do you want to talk about? Us? What about us, Axis?" Her voice sounded vehemently."Yasha, I came home because I'm worried about you." I hope she knows that. I hope she understands that."And if this didn't happen to me, will you come to me? I waited for you, Axis. I am expecting that when I woke up, you will be the first person I see. But what?" Her tears couldn't stop and it pains me more to see her cry like this."I have to rus
TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide attempt, self-injury.***What Kelly's asking is not that easy. There are lot of factors to consider. Business is not just a game. Business undergoes processes. The process itself is hard. It can be laborious and complicated.The merging she's talking isn't just about the CEO and the people in the highest positions. The boards of the companies must approve any merger transaction first. State laws also require shareholder approval. To cut it short, even if I'm the CEO, the decision is not merely on me."I'm... I'm sorry. I u-understand." I let out a sigh again because of what she said. "I have to go." Kelly then stormed out my office.I am always ready to help her. Like what I said, I am willing to help her but not this kind of thing.Days passed and every time I'm seeing Kelly here in the company, she's just giving me smiles and then she passes me by. She never brought up the t
I quickly rushed Kelly to the hospital when she lost consciousness. She just lacerated her wrist in front of me! She's crazy!The doctor immediately studied the anatomy of her wrist. In her condition, the doctor told me that wrist laceration is going to depend on two things—the direction of the laceration, and the depth of the cut.The laceration ability to threaten life is dependent entirely upon whether or not the artery is lacerated and in her case, her wound is not that deep.Her attempt was categorized as nonlethal and the doctor did the hemorrhage control. Bleeding will stop on its own, but doctor said it's far better for her to have her wounds dressed and that's what they did.I covered my hand on my face while looking at Kelly whom until now still hadn't woken up after she was treated.What was she thinking? Just because of her situation, she thought of doing this thing? That she's hopeless and having no reason to live? She thought there's
After that day, I never saw Kelly again. I'm still mad at her. I didn't know that after all the things I have done to her, this is what she's going to do with me."Don't work too much. You're not okay yet." I reminded Yasha. She's been resting for weeks now after she was discharged in the hospital. The doctor said she's okay but I can't let her drawn herself in her work again."I'm okay, Ax. I'll just do a photoshoot today, nothing more." She pleaded."It's still a no, Yasha Reese.""Axis, please? Allow me to work now, please? Baby, please?" She asked with puppy eyes and even clung her hands on my nape. What else can I do? I tsk-ed but she just chuckled."Promise. I'll take care of myself." She told me.I also enveloped her in my arms. She doesn't need to take care of herself because I will be the one doing that. I'll take care of this woman in my whole life. I don't want to see her hurting because it triples the pain I'm feeling if that hap
As soon as Kelly closed the door, my gaze turned on the things she left just earlier. I blazingly looked at the paper, took it and crumpled it hard.Ahh! Fuck!After that conversation with her, she never showed up again and for few days, the deal she offered me really bothered me.That's easy after all, isn't it? I have two choices. I will help her so Yasha will not be hurt or to opted otherwise. I'll just choose one of the two choices she said. It's easy, isn't it? But fucking shit, why does she have to involve others? And why is she really targeting Yasha?I know in life that there is no end to our problems. When you're solving the first one, another problem will come. It's an unending cycle and that what's happening to me right now.I was inside my room, thinking what should I do when Yasha entered my room."Hey, woman. What brought you—""We have a problem, Axis." She quickly cut me off. She took out her phone and she handed it to me aft
I quickly followed Kelly and I didn't know why Yasha had to come out of the elevator coincidentally. Her head was bowed down, seemed to be out of herself. I wanted to run and hug her but something seemed to be holding me back."Nice timing." Kelly crazily uttered beside me. "If you love her then make a way to save her," she paused, "before it's too late Axis.""Fuck you, Kelly Jocson," I furiously muttered to her. She just smirked at me and suddenly she walked near Yasha, causing for her to lift her head up."The great schemer is coming." I wanted to hit Kelly that time. Damn her for calling my woman names."What are you doing here? Why don't you just go somewhere where you can gain fame?" I asked and fuck. Please understand me baby, I'm doing this for you.I know how Kelly plays a game. She's using dirty tactics. She doesn't care if she hurts someone else and she's more willing to hurt others just to get what she wants. All she thinks is herself a
Axis' Point of View—present—I did sacrifice our relationship because I don't want to risk Yasha's life but fuck! Why does this have to happen to her?I pushed her away so I could save her, but I didn't know that pushing her away will make her suffer. Seeing her like this is a fucking torture. Damn!I took her hand. I endure those times not holding her tight like this but now that I have the chance to, she's in this kind of pain.No one else has the right to be hurt like this. No one deserves to be hurt. No one deserves to be in pain like this. Fucking shit."You don't deserve this pain. You don't deserve even a bit of it, but I hurt you Yasha. I hurt you in order to save you. I hurt you thinking that it was the best for you but I was wrong. I was fucking wrong. I'm sorry baby I wasn't there to protect you. I'm sorry I wasn't there save you. I'm really sorry."I caressed her face while still holding her hand tightly. Whoever did this to you