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Chapter 74: A Storm of Pleasure and Anguish
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Perfect Player Chapter 75: An Inevitable Goodbye
ELLIE As much as I tried not to think about it during dinner, it kept tormenting me. There were times when I thought I would simply start crying. I avoided making eye contact with Ethan, unsure if I could look at him without falling apart. When we had finished eating and were all settled in the living room near the fireplace, I sat down as far away from him as possible. I tried to concentrate on the surrounding conversation but ended up getting lost in my own thoughts as I stared into the flames. What could I do? Keep insisting even though it was already hurting me? I knew I should just distance myself before making things worse. Why insist if all his signs were telling me to do otherwise? Even if I were strong enough to take the risk, he didn't seem open to it at all. "Ellie?" Zoe called my attention, and everyone was staring at me. "Yes?" "Rosie was saying she has a friend in Santa Barbara; that's where your parents live, right?" "Yes." "I thought you said you were born in Sa
Perfect Player Chapter 76: Shattered Hopes
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Perfect Player Chapter 77: The Pain of a Broken Heart
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Perfect Player Chapter 78: Consequences Unleashed
ETHANI knew that speaking up wasn't exactly what Anna intended; she would tear me apart. I stared at the blonde sitting beside me on the couch. I was being a jerk to her too. Using Ashley just to push Ellie away. Bringing her here probably made her think I was interested. She would be disappointed when I took her home at the end of the night.“Excuse me,” I told her, and she simply smiled and nodded.I followed Anna down the hallway, each of her steps heavy with anger. I stopped as she did the same in front of me."What the hell is wrong with you, thinking you can bring that woman here?"I didn't have an answer. And I was already expecting this reaction, so I decided to stay silent. She shook her head, furious."She didn't deserve this. She was willing to risk everything for you. And is this what you do?""I can't give her what she wants...""No, you can't, because you're a coward! That's what you are! But that woman... that amazing woman with traumas you can't even imagine, she had
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Perfect Player Chapter 82: Confessions at High Altitudes
ELLIEDespite traveling in first class, the bathroom was still relatively small for two people, so even though we were positioned on opposite sides of the space, we were still too close.He was only three steps away. I took a deep breath, trying to calm my nerves, finally taking some time to notice what he was wearing. Dark jeans, a white shirt, and a black jacket. Hell. It annoyed me how sexy and hot he looked all the time.Unfortunately, Ethan Morgan didn't just look good in a suit. Focus, Ellie; don't forget, he's a big jerk."So?" I cleared my throat. "I don't have all day.""Please consider this with goodwill.""Are you really asking me that after everything you've done?""I know... I know I was an idiot, Ellie. Forgive me, please, forgive me for taking so long to realize how much I want this. Forgive me for being a coward and for trying to push you away...I was scared; everything I went through made me a coward. I was sc
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