Almost died

I'm lying. My head hurts a lot, but I have to be strong in front of him.

"I'm not saying otherwise, but your experience with alcohol tells me you're lying," I feel a lump in my throat, I'm stunned by everything he's saying.

"You didn't expect me to notice."

I have a lot of anger built up, I even thought alcohol could make me forget all the calamities that are happening to me, but a minute of forgetfulness doesn't make up for it, because I will remember everything at once and even more when feeling that strange sensation that alcohol leaves you... Regret and guilt. Ah, all of this tells me that I am a woman that everyone wants to see as a failure.

I'm not going to deny that his proposal is not a bad idea, but my damn pride doesn't want me to give in. Why does he always want me to bow my head?

Think... Think... Think...

I have to make sure that... Nah, my life is total crap and all I think is "your fault, your fault, and again, your fault."

"No one is saying otherwise, but you wo