~Avery~”It’s telling me to run,”Amber's eyes grew colder, darker, and more distant than they had been before. Her entire body posture went from slumped to rigid and Amber's hands pulled away as she got up on her feet and walked out of the room. Left behind was the cold loneliness I wanted to prevent, I thought telling Amber the truth would set me free in a sense, that I wouldn't be alone. But here I was, on the verge of a breakdown, alone. I couldn't cry because nothing would come out, I felt numb and fearful. Afraid of what lay ahead. Everyone was dealing with their own issues and everyone was on edge due to the upcoming war so I understood, but they dealt with it so regally. They knew of the dangers and their demons, we all had them, but they were handling theirs and I was afraid of mine. I wished I could do what they did, they handled their shit and then moved on with life. ”Here,” a pile of clothes landed at my feet and I looked up to see Amber already dressed in a pair of j
~Avery~”If you wanted to kill me, there are tastier ways to do it,” I said and slowly opened my eyes. The light was blinding and my vision was blurred. White dots were forming before me, blurry and un-symmetric as they bubbled closer together. I shut my eyes and shook my head, trying to regain my composure, I willed my eyes to slowly flutter open, letting them adjust to the lighting and once they had, I felt great. No more nausea, no stomach ache, and no heat. ”How do you feel?” Natashas' hand was on my shoulder, her thumb slowly stroking me as she helped me to the couch. ”Much better, thank you. What was that?””A mix of herbs and-” Natasha paused for a beat, her eyes darting between me and the cup. ”Other things,” Her lips formed a pout as she disregarded my question and placed the cup in the sink. ”What was it that you poured out earlier?” Amber looked at Natasha and both of us noticed the sudden change as Natasha stopped what she was doing. She had frozen, she wasn't moving
~Avery~We sat there and talked, a few moments were silent and peaceful-something we all seemed to appreciate.”Isn’t it hard for you, being away from Carlos?” Natasha scoffed and looked at the clock. ”He will be here in a few hours, there is no way that man would let me leave without coming here to find me. He’s with the pack during the days and then comes here at night. On the other hand, I wouldn't ever forgive him if he didn't come, we need each other and a single night away is one night too many,” ”I hear that,” Amber said lowly.She missed Malia and I understood her. Being away from James before was excruciating and considering they weren't marked either, the fear of losing the bond was there, I knew it because I had felt it too. So I could imagine the pain Amber was going through, only hers was worse because she had no idea when- or if- they'd meet again. But I would make sure they did.”How do you think the war will go?” She was asking Natasha.”Had this been another war, f
”WHERE THE FUCK HAVE YOU BEEN?” James roared as he slammed his fists down on his desk. His eyes were glowing and Blade had surfaced, just as pissed as his human. Fredric, Alex, and Raven were there too and I could see the same amount of worry and anger in Alex's eyes. Raven, however, seemed madder at Amber so I was glad that she too got some of the heat.I winced and stepped forward. ”We went to see Natasha,” I looked back and saw Natasha standing there looking as cool as ever, not bothered a single bit by the tension that was growing. I groaned and looked back at my mate.”There is a war happening any day now and you decide to leave the pack without a single word? How stupid are you, Avery?” Alex spat his words and his hands were shaking, I could tell he was just as mad as James but his anger wasn't justified to me and rather it pissed me off. ”You’re the one to talk? You haven't spoken a word to me ever since the night we saved James, you've ignored me and you chose to ignore ma
~Avery~My patience was running thin and this chaotic group of idiots, whom I loved very much, weren't helping the situation.James took long slow strides towards me and stopped only when my chest was pressed up against his. ”There she is,” he whispered before walking past me and taking a seat. ”Throwing blame and screaming your guts out won't get you anywhere. We understand that we fucked up, and I am very, truly, undeniably sorry for the pain we caused you by leaving, but we had a good reason for it. I told Amber what I’ve been going through and I'm going to give you all a re-cap.” I sighed and looked at all of their faces, one by one they all started paying me their undivided attention and I no longer feared to tell the truth because I now knew how to handle it.”I’ve been fighting this darkness within me, a growing cloud of pain and hate, something that was making me angry and fearful. It was what came over me when James was on the deathbed, it was why I acted out of anger and f
~Avery~ I was standing outside Alex's door, I took a deep breath before knocking three times. When he didn't answer, I turned the handle and let the door slide open. Laying on the bed with Raven on top of him, I could tell he knew I was there in the room. I cleared my throat and Ravens' head turned, her eyes widened and her cheeks became flustered as she saw me. I lifted a brow and placed my hands on my hips. ”May I have a moment with him?” I said and waited for Raven to leave. She hurriedly picked up her clothes and ran out of the room. Alex scoffed and moved up on the bed, resting his back against the wall. ”You’re on fire with the ’ruiner of good moments’, a new nickname maybe?””Why would I need a new nickname when the old one ceased to exist after my first mistake?” He looked taken aback, but I wasn't going to coddle or sugarcoat anything. He was acting like a child and it was time he started seeing the truth. ”One mistake and you turned your back against me. One mistake a
~Avery~”This wasn't out of spite, Avery,” Natasha spoke after twenty minutes of torturous silence.”Why did you take her away?” ”I didn’t, she’s still there only she is dormant so you can't sense her and vice versa,” I sighed and shook my head. ”But why?”Another few moments passed where she didn't speak. I couldn't tell whether it was to build suspense or if she just wanted to get on my nerves, but she was succeeding with the ladder. ”This darkness you’re feeling, has it grown since James told you about your wolf?” Natasha was looking ahead as we walked deeper into the forest. I looked at James and he offered a small smile before turning his head and looking forward. He reached out and grabbed my hand, giving it a light squeeze.I looked down on our entwined fingers, still in awe at how perfectly matched they were. A mate really was your other half, one that fits you perfectly.”Yes, it’s gotten worse,” James stiffened upon hearing my answer and his hand gripped tighter around m
~Amber~I still didn't know how to feel about Natasha taking Xena away from Avery. I couldn't even imagine what that must feel like, to have your wolf gone from your mind and having to rely on human strength to survive. But then again, Avery wasn't normal.Xena was dormant so that Avery could get a better handle on her witchy side, wielding magic and all that. If Avery masters her magic and then has Xena as well, she’ll be one of- if not the most powerful Luna ever to exist. I smiled as I drew the blanket tighter around myself. I was sitting in the common area, staring at the dark tv screen. I was going to watch a movie but then advised against it when after twenty minutes I still couldn't choose. Malia was good at that, at choosing something and going with it right away.Stella, how are you?’I miss mate’Me tooI and Stella were both depressed from our mate being gone. I hadn't heard anything from her and now that Xena was gone, she couldn't contact Malia's wolf.I was getting agit