"You look like shit.""Thanks for pointing that out to me," I roll my eyes while Emily hands me my cup of coffee."Was your date with Evans that good or that bad?" She wriggles her eyebrows at me. "I didn't hear you come back. It must have been late.""You were curled up in front TV, watching Shadowhunters without me. Or shall I say, you slept to it?""Yeah, I probably ended up wanting to have it off with Jace after seeing him do his workout, so I could only fall asleep to have that in my dreams."I chuckle at her boldness. "But you are distracting me now. Is that a bad thing?" She brings us back to the topic."Jake turned up," I sigh.Emily gasps loud. "Wait, what? What happened?"I tell her the whole story, how I kicked Evans's ass and Jake appeared and challenged me. How I escaped with Evans and we spent time in the park talking about how we texted and Jake's eyes haunting me that I couldn't sleep.She lets out a long sigh after I have finished my story."So, Jake didn't spill the
I see he is staring at me while he comes straight to us."Hey Evans, you're here early today. Thought you need to work?""Yep, well I need to leave soon as I start working in two hours.""You lost your shirt," Jake says mockingly.Evans chuckles, "It was kinda my only chance of winning this battle today. You saw her yesterday. Thought I'd distract her a little, seems like it worked, "he says while smirking dirty in my direction.While Jake's look has changed, he is now glaring at me. "You staying Skater girl?" he asks in a rough voice.I decide to pretend I didn't hear him and trail off in the direction Emily, who now is staring at Jake."What the fuck?", she exclaims whispering to me."Sorry I know you were enjoying this, but can you help me get away from here asap? I don't want to exchange a fucking single word with him.""Sure Babe, I'll take care of it. Just stay here and sit down for the moment."She walks off talking to Evans pretending not to know Jake. God she is good, even be
"Wow what a show", one of the guys laughs.Emily meets my eyes and I see the worry written all over her face. I simply shrug it off. Deep down inside I know it fucking hurt me to see him like that, it's something I will never admit to though.Instead I decide booze and fun is what I need right now. As I've already had three Tequila and four sour shots I decide to stick to beer now instead. One thing I always keep an eye on, is who is handing me my drink and watch it being poured. No way I am letting anyone drug me. Emily is already quite canned and enjoying a hot dance with James, making me chuckle. She knew exactly what she wanted and she's getting it. You go girl, I think to myself. Evans follows my view."You know, she might be the girly type wearing dresses and such stuff. But you are so damn hot, you don't need anything like that.""Evans are you just trying to woo me?" I laugh."Told you I wouldn't give up. And right now, I am certain to be quite wasted and unable to keep mysel
⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️AN: Trigger warning: This chapter might trigger you if you have been through abuse in any kind of wayStrong arms wrap around me, lifting me off the ground into a cab. His arms don't leave me and I am seated on his lap. Tears keep streaming down my face."I've got you Statement girl. We are taking you back home now, ok?" Evans whispers soothingly.I simply nod, while the sobs get even louder."Can you stay tonight Evans?", I hear Emi ask. "I don't know if I can handle this on my own. In all those years I've only seen her once like this and that was the night it all happened.""Don't worry as long as she needs me, I'll be right there."I hear him sigh loud. "I had no fucking idea.""She doesn't talk about this, she's been through hell because of it. And what you heard tonight is only a very small part of it.""Why didn't she mention she knows Jake?" He questions. "That's not for me to answer. You will have to ask her yourself and to be honest, I don't know if she is going to
Ok, how do I answer best to this question. Yes, I like to fuck around in between and have one-night stands wouldn't really help getting away from the image of being a whore. Which I'm definitely not. Evans doesn't seem to be the guy to judge people that fast and I still feel guilty not telling him about what happened with Jake this week. So, I guess sticking to the truth as answer is my best option."I hope you don't get me wrong for what I am about to tell you now and besides Emi no one knows about this", his eyes are soft and full of curiosity."First of all, I hope you don't think bad about me after what I am telling you now, but I want to answer your question truthful. As mentioned I lost my virginity that night. The moans, the smell, the touches just everything about it, is burnt into my soul. After everything that had happened I wasn't able to trust anyone and didn't want to either. Two years ago, I started working in a pub in a nearby town. I did notice I still feel attractio
Looking in the mirror, it tells me I had definitely been crying way too much during the weekend. My eyes still look puffed and underlined. So, I decide to use some concealer and a light make up to cover it up a bit. Fuck I am not going while looking like some sort of zombie, on my first day at college.While pouring myself some coffee and putting some scones into the oven, Emily enters the kitchen."Fuck, you are wearing make up?", she exclaims baffled."Oh, this girl has her eyes already open, even without a coffee in her hand", I answer sarcastically."Have you slept at all? You still look like shit."Yeah thanks for pointing that out, the mirror told me the same. "Has anyone ever told you, sometimes it's better to keep your bloody mouth shut?""Yep, billions of times", she chuckles innocently while taking her cup of coffee I made her."Doesn't seem to have helped", I roll my eyes.We have a quick breakfast, before leaving way earlier than needed but I don't want to be late on my
At half past five Evans knocks at the door. Seeing as we work at the same place, we decided we could just as well walk there together.His eyes scan me, and a smirk appears on his face. "What's wrong with you today? No statement on your shirt?"I am wearing plain light blue skinny jeans and a plain white tank top. It's definitely very unusual for me."Yeah, I thought I wouldn't start to piss people off or scare the shit out of them on my first day at work. Anyways I might get more tips if I am not wearing something with like FUCK OFF on it", I shrug it off making Evans laugh lowly. "Besides some might be frightened enough by all my tatts.""Doubt it. Most of us are wearing tatts in there. But none of us are looking so damn hot with it."His words as so often make me blush. "Yeah right, you trying to impress your new colleague already. Think about it differently, it always depends on the point of view.""What the hell do you mean? Ah wait I get it, I am tall and can look right into you
Still a little drowsy, I thankfully take my coffee from Emily. I know there are many people out there who jump out of bed early in the morning, happy and wide awake. Well, I definitely don't belong to one of those people. I'm more like WTF it's way too early, let me sleep. As I never sleep good at night, it just kind of makes it worse in the morning. Without my coffee, I'd probably die or be grumpy the rest of the day. Emily wants to know everything about my first day at work, and I tell her everything, of course also mentioning Jake, while munching down my frosties."He left with two?" She gasps."Yep, such an idiot. And I really don't understand those girls.""Maybe they know of his qualities, I mean after what you told me," she trails off."Oh fuck, shut up. I wish that night had never happened."Well at least not with Jake, the night was great.******Entering the class, fucking Jake is already seated at his place looking quite dishevelled. I decide to have some fun and let my ba
9 months later"Babe, could you please step down a bit with your work?" I hear Jakes concerned voice as soon as he enters the room."Jake, you know exactly exams are due in three months.""Yes, I know. But baby number two is due anytime now. So why do you have to do this book right now on top? Can't you push it a little longer?""No, I have a deadline. Gosh Jake, this is the first book I am getting published. Not many have that kind of luck. Can you push your deadlines while doing your screenwriting?"Jake has been driving me crazy with this for weeks now. Guess he's simply freaking out because of baby number two being on its way. He's even suggested for a midwife to live with us for a couple of weeks, just to make sure someone is there during birth. The doc has warned us that this birth will probably be just as fast. If I feel the slightest difference or contraction to call the ambulance immediately. Well, at least we know what we are in for this time. But I am not going to hire a mid
Jake's POVAll this waiting is killing me. Sam is up there in some room with Emi and Tracey. What if they tell her to think twice? I mean, she still could realize she can't deal with our past, right? What if she does a runner? My heart is breaking just by the thought of it. Damn, I couldn't even be with her last night, because fucking Emi said, if we want to have it traditional we need to stick to this rule. I would have loved to tell her to fuck the rules, but I know how much she has helped Sam in the last few weeks. Not having any family here, is damn hard for her. Another reason I am worried about her right now.At least I had Cara partially with me today, keeping me a little sane. She says mummy is going to look like a princess, and she is too. Cara is nearly as excited about this wedding as Sam and I are, only out of a different reason. For her, it's more like the fairy tales we read out to her each night. And she wants to be a princess so badly. That nearly made me chuckle if I
10 months laterSam:One week to go, and I am a nervous wreck. Today is the day to pick up my wedding dress. Yes, me Samantha Jones, who hates wearing dresses, is going to wear a dress on my own free will, even all in white and all traditional. Jake and I tried to figure out the perfect wedding for us. We did have some crazy shit in store. But then we both realized, for once, we wanted it to be traditional. Even my crazy soul, who hates all this fancy stuff, has realized that when it comes down to the actual wedding, I want to have at least a part of it traditional. Today is my final fitting, Emi and Tracey are in tears when I step out of the changing room. Much to their pleasure, we are being served Champagne. Seriously, we should drink plenty of that stuff by the price of this dress. "You think he's going to like it?" As this dress is so way out of line for me, I feel very insecure all of a sudden."You kidding me, Sam? Shit look at you, you are going to look amazing. Of course, he
Jake's POV:Ok, I am officially more excited than ever before in my life. Today, I am taking my two girls to the fairground. Sam thinks it's ridiculous and way too early for Cara to be going to a fairground. This time, I was the one to stay stubborn.So Cara would be exhausted enough to stay in the buggy, we spent an hour on the playground with her, after her lunch nap. She did want to go to the beach again, but it would have meant showering her repeatedly before going to the fairground. Once she found the swing and the slide, she was happy too. Cara's so funny with her habits. She always wants me to push her on the swing, and it has to be mummy going down the slide with her. I mean, I'm lucky. I'm nearly sure my tall broad build would never fit into that slide. My ass would get stuck and never move again, yet it's a funny habit. Watching Sam slide down with her puts a smile on my face every single time.Sometimes, I chuckle about Sam. Today is such a day. Sam and I are skater and bik
Jake's POV:2 years laterMy eyes scan every inch of Sam's body as she comes walking down the beach up to Cara and me. Fuck, she knows how much I love this red bikini on her. Red bikinis and lingerie are definitely my favourite on Sam, and she knows this weakness of mine too well.My eyes roam up and down that mouth-watering sight.Cara is well occupied, mushing with the wet sand between her hands. Which we've already been playing with the last two hours. So I get up and walk over to my beautiful girl."Cara's awake, and you are killing me, my Sexy. You badass know exactly how much I love that bikini on you.""Well, that's the point in wearing it, Skater boy," she says, smirking. Knowing she's got the upper hand on this at the moment.Putting on that seductive sly smile, she has me in overdrive as always.My arms wrap tight around her, pulling her flush against me, while I give her a long, passionate kiss. I've been so looking forward to this holiday and especially to today. "Daddy w
2:43am Feeling restless, I wake up looking at the alarm clock. That's when I notice dampness between my legs.Oh my god, this is it. A sharp pain takes hold of me, and I squeeze Jake's arm. It was only a short contraction, but obviously, my water broke. So this must be it, right? And that was a contraction, right? I mean, how the hell am I supposed to know how contractions feel like? All I know about it is what I read on the internet as there is no one around me who could tell me. About five minutes later, there's another one of those pains."Jake?" I squeeze his arm again."Hmmm?" He hardly replies, keeping his eyes shut."Jake, my water broke, and I think I have contractions."In an instant, Jake is wide awake, sits up, and switches the light on his night table on."You sure?" I hear the panic in his voice."The beds wet, and I sure didn't pee in it. And aahhh damn," I squeeze his hand. "Yep, I'm quite sure."Jake is about to freak out and jumps out of bed. "Then let's get going,"
3 months laterExcited, I watch Jake from the porch while he is setting up the new fence to make things safe for our little one. I could have told him to wait until the autumn as our baby isn't even born yet and sure won't be escaping our garden that fast. But hell, in autumn, this wouldn't look nowhere near as good as it is now. It's the middle of July, and the summer heat is fully there. "You think we should give them a beer or something?" Emily asks, and Tracey nods while her mouth hangs open.The three of us are enjoying our view to the full. Jake and Evans only in low waist shorts, no shirts, just toned muscles. Their tanned skin glistening with sweat. Fuck, I never knew how hot sweat can look until I met Jake. This is mouth-watering. Hard working men right in front of us. I watch every muscle move on that hot body of my Skater boy.The way they flex with every move lets my temperature rise rapidly."Well Tracey, what do you think about tatts now?" I ask her as she said before t
4 months laterEmi wraps her arms around me while I take a last look around in my room and take the last thing standing on my night table in the hand. A photo from Jake and me as youths. Emi had taken it secretly during one of our first kisses. My heart skips a beat looking at the happy couple. Little did we know what we would have to go through. I press it hard against my chest, cherishing it."So much for boys, booze and party," she sighs."We can still stick to party. I may be pregnant but not sick. I'll just skip the other parts. I'm sure some distractions won't harm me."Emi came back during the night of the gun shoot after Evans had given her a call. I know how sorry she is about not telling me the truth about how my mum got killed and what really happened with Michael and his family. She stuck day and night with me, taking terms with Evans while I was crying my balls out. I don't think me or our little baby would have survived the shock of all what happened if it hadn't been fo
"So was this is what you thought I'd hate you for?"Jake's voice sounds pissed."I don't want to put pressure on you or whatever. You don't have to deal with the consequences. I'll cope with it. Damn, I know we are far too young for this, and it's not what we planned for. But I can't give this baby up. It's a miracle that it survived the crash and all the medication. Of course I know it's your life too and please Jake live it to the full. Live it as you had planned. There doesn't need to be any consequences for you. I'm not demanding anything from you." I think I've never spoken this fast in my whole life, rambling down the words as fast as I can."Sam are you fucking serious?" He's fuming, his hands running through his hair and ruffling it, while walking back and forth. I knew this wasn't going to end well. "Is this what you think about me?" He yells, and I fight back the tears. This is my fault. I have no right to cry."Calm down, mate," Evans interferes."Calm down? The love of my l