Anna's POVOne could find out anything about him, his endless source of income which I didn't know ran from arts to hospitality and everything in between. Even the internet could tell you anything about him and I couldn't understand why one would put out so much information about themselves.I searched for information about him when he was younger but I couldn’t find any. I searched about his mother and there was not much information about her, only that she was an artist and had committed suicide.I felt bad for him, I couldn't think of how much that would have affected him as a child, as a teen.Was that why he left New York for England?I mean the time of the event was enough to consider it the reason why he left. He stayed there for a while. That was why he had that slight accent, right?I didn't get to finish that thought because of my phone vibrating in my hand. I opened the message and read it.It was from Erica, she was spending the weekend at Danny’s place and wanted to know
Caden’s POVI didn't know what I was thinking when I asked Anna to walk with me but strolling through the streets of New York was more therapeutic than I could remember. It was the weekend and I was supposed to be resting from the stress of last week.I was restless.I couldn't close my eyes without being taken back to that horrific evening, I didn't need any fucking reminder, I had been there when I was seventeen and I didn't want to be there anymore but it seemed my demons could not understand me because they were ready to drag me into their abyss the moment I closed my eyes. They pounced on me without mercy and I was forced to take those pills again.I hated them, they made me feel sick and weak and strongly dependent on them. Without them, I was like a ticking bomb that could go off at any time.I hate that I need them.I hurried out of my house without my car and the only thing I thought I needed was my credit card and a face cap. I should have grabbed my shades as well but th
Caden’s POV“Are you always this quiet or you'd rather go home than sit here with me?” She hadn't said a word since we got here, she was either smiling at something the children were doing or just not talking.“What?” She squeaked like a mouse, her eyes widened in fear, what was she always so afraid of? It didn't make any sense why a normal human being would be jumpy. It reminded me of Taylor's party when I yelled at her.“Why are you so scared?” “I am not scared!” She said it too quickly, raising her voice and I knew she was lying. “I mean I am not scared” she mumbled quietly.How many more sides did she have?“Your little brother… He seemed sweet” she said randomly, out of nowhere. I guess she attempted to engage me in a conversation, but it was a sorry one.I kept my face void of any emotion. “I guess… I don’t know much about siblings”“Come on, they can't be so bad. I always wished I had one” “You shouldn't, at least you get all of your parent's love for yourself” I hated how bi
Anna's POV“Anna Noel Mackenzie!” Erica was back the next day and I couldn’t understand why she was yelling.“Keep your voice down” I whispered to them and was surprised that this time she made an effort to keep her voice down. “You're a betrayer” I couldn't understand what she meant by that.Why would I betray her? Was she referring to me or someone else? Was there another girl who did? “I trusted you,” She said and I felt a cold chill run up my spine. Who was she talking about? Had I done something wrong?“Chill Anna, you should see your face now” She suddenly laughed in between gasping breaths. “It is hilarious to watch your whole face turn into one big question mark” That comment sent a wave of confusion throughout my head, but I couldn't tell if she was being sarcastic or not. I was confused. Confused beyond belief. “You are scaring me was all I could manage to say” I managed to choke out before taking another step back, trying to get away from her.My legs gave way under my
Anna's POVI met Erica when life had pushed me to the edge when I didn't have any reason to live anymore. I had no money, no friends, no prospects for my future, no family...no nothing. The world had ended and left behind a young child and I was left in a dead end. No one wanted me anywhere. I was stuck in a place I didn't know existed, a dark place in my head, where I lived alone and didn't exist. It was lonely, frightening, but most importantly empty. All the hope and happiness drained out of me and my life was turning into an endless nightmare. Scar had kicked me out of his house. I remember how much I pleaded for him to take me back, I begged to stay with a monster because I had no clue what my next step was supposed to be. He had told me that if I stayed any longer he'd kill me and I was convinced that he was right. So I decided to leave. There wasn't anything I could do anymore. I had lost all chances of finding something better. Something real.I begged on the streets,
Caden’s POVI met Sean in my living room when I had gone back home. I don't know how he got in, I don't think I left a key, so how did he get in?He wasn't even acting as if he just broke into my house - yes he broke in.“Stop looking at me like that,” Sean told me. “I took one of your keys, it's not a big deal” It was typical of Sean to say something like that.I ignored him and started moving to my room but he sprang off the creamed-coloured couch and ran after me.“Caden are you not going to tell me what you have been up to?” He was looking at me and trying not to smirk and it wasn't hard to tell that he had also seen the pictures of me and Anna that were going around.But that didn’t mean that I should talk about it to him, don’t get me wrong, there was just nothing to talk about.“You don’t need to know,” I told him. “Not everything is your business” I added quickly.“Ouch” he feigned hurt placing his hand over his heart but he let out a chuckle.He was used to me and my blunt w
Anna's POVI hated the week that followed. I could see the stares my colleagues were giving me at work, I could tell they were suspicious.Trevor was still not talking to me. He didn't even look my way, he just went on as if I was invincible and unimportant. The others too. They avoided looking at me when I was close in a way that felt like I was a disease.But from afar I would feel their gaze that followed me like a cloud or shadow.It was worse when Erica started her three months professional course.It simply meant bye-bye to my free rides to work and back, bye-bye to her company, and a whole lot of other things.I missed her already. I didn't expect to feel this way once the job was done and she was leaving. But I did. And so I was feeling miserable.Even though I didn't want to admit it, something seemed to have changed between me and Trevor during the week.It was like a weird tension between us.He treated me differently than he usually did and I tried not to read too much i
Anna’s POVI woke up to blinding lights and plain white walls as my eyes adjusted. It looked like someone had painted a picture of a hospital room. It was hard not to think about how I’d died when I just woke up in one for the first time.It was a whole dèjá vu feeling. As if my body remembered every moment I’d gone through. My eyes took in my surroundings again, this time with more depth. A couple of empty chairs sat next to my bed with a small window. There were IV poles on each of them but they didn’t seem connected to anything except for me.I tried to adjust but the door swung open and there stood Erica who looked like she was shocked to see me awake.She rushed to my side with different emotions flashing on her face and I could tell she was trying not to cry. “Oh, my god. You’re awake,” she breathed as she reached to touch my head.The contact felt odd. I couldn’t feel any warmth or pressure from her hand so it made me feel weirdly numb. I tried to pull myself up to a seated p
Caden’s POVHow was I supposed to find her? I turned on the tracking app on my phone and followed its directions. She was in front of a hospital, curled in a corner.Her arms were wrapped around her as she rocked herself back and forth, rocking slowly. I hurried towards her. My feet stumbled over some debris and I almost fell. She didn't notice me yet but when she did... I froze with terror when I realized how fragile she looked. How much she needed help. The pain that was radiating off her wasn't physical; it was mental and emotional. It radiated from where I stood and all I wanted to do was wrap her up in my arms. Soothe her mind and take away this pain for good. Instead, I just watched her, afraid if I spoke or made even the slightest movement she might collapse and not wake again.She was mumbling words, words I couldn't hear and her eyes seemed to be fixed on something yet unfocussed.I hadn't seen such raw pain from anyone before and I could feel the heat of it coming off of her
Anna’s POVPanic engulfed me in a warm hug that grew tight, almost suffocating as I stared at the man in front of me.The hair in my arms stood straight up like spikes, my breath caught in my throat.I could hear my heartbeat racing and I couldn't think, could hardly breathe. I couldn't speak or move, as I tried to focus solely on his face, which seemed to glow with a light from within. His hair was dark like ink, and shiny.But his eyes, those eyes were cold and danced with mischief and danger. Like liquid ice.I knew those eyes. I had seen them so many times, burning in my nightmares. Eyes that looked deep into yours like they could read your deepest desires. Eyes that screamed chaos, he was looking at me like a cat playing with its food before devouring it and leaving the bones to crumble underneath the weight of his appetite. I knew those eyes. “Not exactly who you were expecting, am I right?” he murmured amusedly, taking in the sight of me as if he had planned this whole encoun
Anna’s POVIt was hard to decide but I decided that I needed therapy. I had to continue with my session if I wanted to be better and I needed to be better.Not just for anyone but for myself, too. It wasn’t as easy for me to get help in a professional setting but some people could. People like the person who had been there with me all through this whole process. She sat quietly in her chair in my room, listening to my every word with patience and understanding. She forced me to be better, ignoring the fact that I was a handful.I couldn't pretend that I wasn't anxious, it felt like it's been ages since the last session. It felt like the first day all over again.Beads of sweat formed on my forehead despite the cool air conditioning in the waiting room. The steady drip of water from a faucet sounded in the background and my heart beat faster than normal. Sweat dripped onto the table as well as the palms of my hands. A couple of strands of hair fell into my face and I brushed them bac
Caden’s POVSebastian and Anna sat not very far, she was so engrossed in whatever he was saying that she even giggled and threw her head back.Anger flew through me like lightning and I began to move to their table. The words came out of my mouth before I could stop them. “Are you fucking serious right now?” I growled, staring at them, his eyes were suddenly wide with fear. His jaw clenched tightly as if he wanted to say something but the words were stuck on the way down. Anna looked red like she had been caught doing what she was supposed to do. She bit her lower lip and turned to look away from me. Sebastian who observed everything just looked confused but soon his usual smile was back on his face as if nothing ever happened. He looked over at me, “Yeah, that’s a good way to sum it up,” he gave an awkward laugh. He seemed amused by me. And he was laughing at me. He couldn't have been more wrong! It wasn't funny!“Nice to see you, Caden”“We need to talk,” I said looking directly
Caden’s POVMy eyes trailed to her exposed thigh as she slept on my bed beside me. It was so smooth, so beautiful and so tempting to reach out to.I clenched my fist, fighting the temptation. My hand itched to touch her, to rub along her smooth leg, to explore every inch of her. I could feel the bulge in my pants, straining uncomfortably, at the thought of it.After a few seconds of contemplating, I heeded finally, tracing my fingertips in a buttery light way, across her exposed thigh, trailing from her knee, down to her midthigh. I kept my eyes glued on her face while I made my journey, taking special care not to wake her up. When I got lower, I paused and stared up at her face once again.My breathing quickened as I continued down. Her eyelashes fluttered, revealing her beautiful brown orbs, as she stared back at me in a dazed manner, while my finger kept trailing down to her entrance, my eyes still trained on her.“Caden?” She called out softly, as it sounded more like a restrai
Anna’s POVI couldn't believe I had let that happen. It wasn't like me to lose control like that, but it just happened. It felt like we were in the middle of a movie set – and we had just finished playing out one scene, and all of a sudden it was raining hard.I couldn't have been so stupid! I had begged him to touch me, I had screamed out his name over and over again last night while he slammed into me like an animal possessed. And now that I had finally gotten what I wanted… he had to say that.Shame washed over me, and tears stung my eyes as I walked down the street, trying to keep from crying in public. I could not believe this – not after everything we had done last night. But when I thought about how it had ended, my insides turned to ice.I didn't know what I was thinking, maybe that I had seen some level of vulnerability from him? But he was Caden Gallagher, the famous playboy. Why was I surprised that he would never want to give up his reputation for something as trivial as
Caden’s POV“I want this,” I heard her say.That was all it took for me to lose the self-control I was holding onto as I went back to kissing her, this time with urgency.It was like my entire world was spinning and I could barely focus. I was kissing her like there was nothing else in the whole world, the world, and everyone but her. Her fingers tangled in my hair as she tugged my hair in need, urging me to deepen the kiss. I didn't mind, I just kept kissing her.And then I lost all control of my actions, kissing her harder and faster as her body became heavier in my embrace, my hands traveling down, slipping underneath her shirt to trace along her skin.She arched into my touch causing me to lose my train of thought. I didn't think much about what I was doing, all I cared about was the warmth radiating from her body and the feeling of being completely engulfed in her presence.Her hand slid under my shirt tracing the curves on my chest, leaving a burning sensation in its wake. My h
Anna’s POV“Do you have any siblings?” The question was a whisper in the wind that night and yet I heard it clear every day as if my ear were ringing with it. I blinked once or twice before focusing on the man opposite me.“No. Erica Is the closest thing I have to one” My voice sounded sadder than I intended it to be.“And what about Erica?” He must have read the meaning behind my words and sensed that something was wrong.“I am not the definition of sunshine, maybe hurricanes and storms, and sometimes people like Erica get tired of dealing with people like me. I wouldn't blame her, I am a handful” The words spilled from my mouth like water out of an overflowing dam. Tears sprang into my eyes and I turned away to gaze at the moonlight shimmering in the sky above us on the rooftop of La Cuisine de Camile, for the first time Caden was letting me pay after much persuasion. I knew it was selfish but I wanted this moment to be special. Even though I had never really been one for physical
Anna’s POVI woke up with a throbbing headache and with the sun threatening to make me blind. I had no choice but to roll over in bed and close my eyes until the throbbing subsided, at least for the moment. I couldn't even find the words to describe my hangover. I only knew it was bad when my eyes stung like they would explode. The thought of doing anything more than lying in bed made me feel even more nauseous. But I knew that as long as I kept my eyes closed and didn’t move, then I’d be fine for now. But I thought wrong and too fast.This is why saying no to alcohol was the best option, I finally understood that.At least Caden had been there, and he brought me home.Sucker! I thought to myself as that fluttery feeling came back and I let out an annoyed grunt. This time instead of trying to suppress the urge to vomit, I felt worse than before, and I wished I could just sleep for at least another couple of hours. I don’t know if I was still drunk, or not hungover enough yet to de