Chapter 110."Oh for fucks sake! I've just about had enough of this fucking bullshit," I groaned as I walked beside Kathy. She hushed me silently and we continued walking.I pushed through the crowd with my eyes hidden behind thick dark shades and my head ducked under a scarf and stealthily tried to avoid the reporters and cameras as I struggled to make my way into the hospital.That kind of attention was the last thing I needed especially at a time like this, I had made the news once again but this time it was more absurd. The news headline read 'BOYFRIEND DRAMA TURNS DEADLY'. I felt my blood boil at the folly of it all. "I swear if I find the reporter behind this I'm going to toss them off a bridge," I said angrily. "Shh, you'll draw attention to yourself, let's get past the lobby first," Kathy said as she led me past the small crowd of reporters that he'd snuck into the hospital.It annoyed me how persistent and mindless the reporters were. Anyone with a small sense of empathy wo
Chapter 111.The next four days after that day had been the slowest and most trying days of my entire life. As Elliot had promised, the news had died down the next day as some other celebrity scandal took my place, the timing was too convenient and I had a hunch that he had staged the whole thing but I never bothered to ask.The firm gave me a week's leave off work without me even having to ask and I was more than grateful. I spent every day at the hospital hoping with every fleeting second that my father would wake up and we could all go back to how things were.I told him about how my days were going, not sparing any detail no matter how boring it seemed. I reminded him how much I missed him and how I was waiting for him to wake up so I could take him to his favorite restaurant. I refused to give up on him even though he showed no signs of improvement, I still stuck with him because I knew deep down he was fighting. Fighting to get back to us. Elliot was by my side throughout, no
Chapter 112My mind was foggy and my head was splitting from pain. I couldn't see much past the tears that brimmed my eyes and rolled down my cheeks endlessly leaving a salty taste on my lips as it seeped into my mouth. The air around me was tight and the small crowd of people who had gathered to console me was making it worse.My nails dug into my hair as I clenched my teeth in a desperate attempt to bite back the pain that had me in a chokehold. I had never felt this way in my life, I felt like my whole world had finally crumbled and I was about to crumble with it.There were so many voices all around me, each of them a whisper honing words of consolation, but I was far from consoled if anything I was furious.How could they expect me to 'take it easy'? To 'calm down'? To believe there was any truth in the words 'it's going to be fine'? It wasn't alright, nothing about what was happening was 'fine'."Time of death?" My mind flashed back to the doctor's voice who stood over my father
Chapter 113I had it all under control. I had moved on. I had decided to be there for my brother and friends. I had started succeeding in ignoring the pain.So why?I sat on my bed dejected, depressed, and sullen. I felt like my body was an empty shell as there was practically nothing left out of my essence. I had lost weight drastically and my eyes had swollen and reddened from the nights I spent crying in my room.Everyone seemed to be getting tired of my shit, but I couldn't help it. I was in so much pain and guilt and I couldn't ignore the feelings any longer. In the end of it, it really was my fault.All I had to do was visit him frequently, that's all he wanted, to see my face a couple of hours every day, to talk to me, to laugh with me, to eat with me.That's all he wanted and I ignored that, giving him a big empty house instead and neglecting the poor old man to his own thoughts and look where that got him.I was a murderer. My father's blood stained my hands and I could do no
Chapter 114.I swung the door close behind me but Kathy pushed it back open. I turned to her in surprise as I wiped my eyes. I hadn't even noticed her running behind me. She stood there looking at me."Why are you looking at me like that?" I asked. "How long are you going to keep this up, Zora?" she asked, and I sat on the bed and looked away."You're making it sound like I'm doing this deliberately," I said defensively and she walked to me and slumped beside me. "Whether it's intentional or not is not what matters, what matters is that you've let your emotions drain the life out of you and now draining the life of the people you love," she said."But I can't help it, Kathy, do you think I like being like this? Do you think I don't know how tiring this is? I just can't look the other way and act like my hands are clean," I said."Except they are actually clean, you're just riding on some inexistent timeline where you murdered your father, you were going through so much at the time an
Chapter 115."Why can't we just drive straight to wherever this place is?" I groaned as we strolled through a decorated pathway. There were plenty of trees on either side of the pathway and all of them shed light petals that fell to the ground and sprawled all over the pathway."Because… the scenery Zora, this place has a peaceful aura to it, like a healing essence is just emitting from the trees," Kathy said as she turned to look at me. I offered her a smile and hoped the ingenuity of the smile wasn't obvious.She mirrored my smile before turning back to Aaron. "You think this is going to work?" she whispered. "I just hope it does," he replied in a similar tone. Kathy turned to me and I pretended as though I hadn't heard them.We continued to walk through the park and I soon got tired and bored of it all, there were other people around us. Families, couples, kids, friends, and they all had wide smiles plastered on their faces.I began to feel disgusted with all of them. Why were peo
Chapter 116. I sat on the table across from Bella and Derek the sun hit against my skin as I fiddled with my cup of coffee which was going cold. We sat in awkward silence as I tried to think of something to talk about. The last time I saw Bella was when the three of us sat in the kitchen of a restaurant discussing our plans for our lives and the next thing I knew I had moved on to the modeling agency and Derek moved on with his life. Bella had always talked about wanting to open a restaurant and I wondered if she had yet. Finally deciding upon what my conversation starter would be, I opened my mouth to speak when she interrupted suddenly. "So Zora how have you been? It has been a while,” she said softly. My mind began to panic at the thought of me being the center of the conversation. “Oh, I've been all right just here and there you know,” I said dismissively as I shrugged. "How about you? How's everything been?” I asked. "Oh well we've been here and there as well, still trying
Chapter 117.I almost tripped as I ran up to my room, anger still flowing through my veins. I was pissed and unsettled. It seemed like everyone knew what was best for me without actually asking me how I really feel and it irked me to no end. Why can't everyone just let me be?"F**k" I yelled, exasperated and tired of people telling me what to do. I knew I was being a little dramatic but I didn't care. I was tired of listening to what people had to say. I had a right to feel the way I did. I just lost my father for Christ's sake.Counting one to eight I let out a sigh and sat at the edge of my bed. I was feeling considerably better now. Deciding to call Elliott, I plucked my phone from my pocket. The light came on as I tapped on the screen. I typed in my password and tapped on the contact icon. Elliott was the first name on my call log. My finger hovered over his name.I wanted to call him to hear what he had to say after all he hadn't done anything wrong, all he had done was be there