I received a text from Daisy telling me she's at the the new cafe near gate 2. So after talking to Zandrey, I went there directly.
I don't have any idea what it is that she's going to tell me. I don't know if it's that important, but I went anyway. Daisy's stories sometimes keep me sane. I have so much going on in my life, causing me tons of stress- from school stuff to personal life. I was glad to have someone like her who makes me forget those things. If it weren’t for her, I might have gone crazy. The moment I got to the cafe, I saw her waving at me, that's why it was easy for me to spot her. She was sitting in a corner. While I was nearing her, I looked around the place. It was fine. The ambiance was okay, and there's just a few people. Maybe because it was still new and now a lot of people knows about this place. But I’m pretty sure in a few weeks, they will get a lot of customers. The location was very strategic because it was near the school."How did you know I was there?" I asked. When we got out of the building, I almost fell to the ground because my knees were so weak. I even had to be escorted by him to the nearest bench near the entrance.It's indeed already dark. There are still students but I could count them with my fingers. When I looked up, there were already a lot of stars above. It would be nice to just look up and watch them twinkling. But I couldn't shake the fear off from what happened just a while ago. If Zandrey didn’t come, I couldn't imagine what could've happened. "I tried reaching you but you were not answering," he replied. "So I asked Daisy and she told me you're probably still in class. So I went there," he added. "Why are you looking for me?" "I was gonna ask about dinner," he replied. "You didn't reply to my texts," he added. I nodded, still looking up above. "Are you okay?" "I wasn't, until you came." This time, I looked at him and tried to smile. But as I smiled, the tears fell. They we
If someone would just see me now, they would think I have a huge problem because of my visible eyebags. I know and I can see it because I'm staring at myself through the mirror. And I don't like what I'm seeing. My hair was quite messy. It was evident in my face that I haven’t slept at all. How could I ever sleep when that kiss kept on coming back to my mind? Before, I used to worry about Charles pestering me. Now, I was worried that what happened last night wouldn't leave my mind. I don’t even know how I would handle facing Zandrey at this point.Am I a slut for allowing it to happen? I know I don't have any reference as to how it should feel but at that moment, I just knew it felt so good. I never kissed anyone and I never thought it would feel like that. I thought it was gross and disgusting and whatever because hello? You're exchanging saliva with other people! I was so conscious about even touching someone else's saliva before and now that I've discovered the wonders of kissin
I've heard people confess to me before- saying they like me and that they want to court me. Upon hearing those confessions, I instantly said 'no' because I know all too well that I don't feel the same towards them and I respect them enough not to waste their time. All those times, I thought I was incapable of liking someone. But then here's Zandrey telling me he kissed me because he likes me. And I don't know what to say. I don't know how to comprehend my feelings. Do I like him as well? Are the feelings mutual? I'm not sure. "You're not required to say anything, Ai," he said. "I just wanted to tell you because I don't want to keep things from you. I want to be honest with you." Okay. How do I reply to that?I heard him heave a sigh. "Now it feels lighter now that it's out." But what about me? I don't know what to say! He leaned on the back rest, his arms stretched out in front of him. My eyes landed on those and I couldn't help but admire his arms. God, I'm in a serious si
The next morning, I woke up to my phone ringing. My eyes were still closed when I reached for it. "Hello?" I mumbled, my voice a little hoarse. "Airaleen." My eyes automatically opened upon hearing the voice from the other line. My whole system automatically awakened when I realized who it was. That voice is more effective than caffeine."Dad!" My father doesn't usually call, but when he does, I know for sure that it's important. "Come home today," he said. "Okay," I quickly replied. I have a few things I need to do today, but when Dad says something, I always follow. If not, it will piss him off. And I don't want that. Even if I wanted to talk to him more, he already ended the call. I guess that’s just what he needed to tell me.I already said yes so I just got up. Daisy's still sleeping beside me and I don't want to wake her up, so I just let her sleep. She knows her way out when she wakes up and she already knows what to do. She always sleeps here and I also sometimes leave
When Daisy and I were still in high school, we had another friend named Trina. She was a transferee. Her parents move from one place to another so frequently that she doesn't get to stay in a school for a whole academic year. I was never the friendly one, but Daisy is. She and Trina got so close, and since we're always together, I also became close with her. We would eat lunch together, hang out after class, and I even tutor them when needed. We were friends for about three months when she told us that they're moving again. Daisy and I were devastated. But we know we can’t do anything about. We already had it coming, so we accepted it. But Daisy being Daisy, she suggested we should hang out one last time before she goes away. We decided to go on a picnic- the location, the day and time, the food we will bring, all were planned. All were ready. But on the day that we were supposed to meet, I didn't show up. I was never good at goodbyes. I knew that. Maybe it was a result of my mo
"I should go," he murmured in between the kisses. We parted for a while, but our foreheads remained touching. "Okay..." I said almost in a whisper. I wanted more of the kiss because it's making me feel a thousand different feelings. I could feel his minty breath on my face and it was not helping at all. It just makes me want to kiss him more. He said he should go, but he was not moving. His hands remained around my waist, while mine were around his neck. I felt like losing my breath, so I tried to breathe evenly. But him being this close to me was not doing me any favor. So I ended up biting my lower lip. Zandrey saw what I did and it made him groan. The next thing I knew, he was kissing me again. This time, it was sensual and passionate. His hands remained on my waist and our position was making it hard for me. I wanted more of the kiss, until I just found myself straddling him. His tongue slides inside my mouth, making me moan. Being the only people here, the room wa
The next morning, I woke up with no Zandrey beside me. I panicked so I looked for my phone to call him. But then I saw his text saying he has to leave because his class is early and he needs to go home to change. I stifle a sigh of relief. I thought he left because he already got what he wanted. Then I thought, of course not. He's not like that. If he's anything, he's decent. He may be intense in bed, but I know he's a good guy and I have the rest of time to get to know him even better. I then remembered what happened last night. After what happened, we ordered food and ate. We were so hungry after the deed. I didn’t know it would make you hungry.I felt my face heating up because of my thoughts. God... I tried to erase it in my mind as I started preparing for school. I don’t have the time to prepare food for myself so I decided to just have breakfast at school. I could just eat it while the class was going on. Thank God for not-so-strict instructors when it comes to eating or dri
"Let’s go home, Ai.." Daisy grabbed my arm slowly. I could feel her hands were shaking. I'm also shaking. If it’s because of nervousness or anger, I’m not sure. It's been six years since I last saw him. I was still in College, a young adult trying to make my way into adulthood. But now, a lot has changed. I'm no longer the naive Aira I was before. I have already learned a lot in life. I also went through a lot. That particular event involving him made a huge impact on me. It changed my life forever. Hearing that he's back again made me anxious. And I thought it would take some time before our paths would cross again. Because who would have thought, right? We were just talking about him earlier. But here we are. Face to face. Same people, different levels of maturity. Same people, just a little older. It's been years since he made his way into my life and then left. It's been years, but how come I can still feel the fucking pain? I stared at his face... the face that has been my
Months swing by so fast. It gets slow when you're feeling lonely, but when you're in glee, it's like the clock is in a race.I was having all the fun while Zandrey is here with us. He's so good at taking care of me. Everyone cares a little extra of me after knowing we're having another baby. It's strange, but I admit that I like it. I'm getting used to it and it makes me sad that it's almost ending. But I'm certain it's a different kind of joy when the new baby is finally here.All of them are so excited to meet the baby. So when we decided to finally have the gender reveal, everybody was so excited. They couldn't wait to know the sex of the baby. Even I can't wait. I've had two boys, and I'm secretly wishing it's a girl. But whatever the sex is, I know for sure that we'll gonna love her/him so much."I bet it's a girl," Dominic guessed. It was clearly his guess because he's wearing a pink dress shirt.We are still waiting for all the guests to arrive. Daisy and Dom came first so we'r
I woke up to a quite heavy morning sickness. Weird stuff were going on inside my stomach that I just felt like puking. So the moment I opened my eyes, the first thing I did was stand up quickly and run to the bathroom as fast as I could.Zandrey probably heard me because a few moments later, I saw him following me. I looked at him for a brief time, unable to say a word because I was pre-occupied with my situation. He gathered all my hair for me, allowing me to focus more on my thing. That way, I didn't worry about my hair getting in my way.I feel bad because he's supposed to be sleeping as he only slept for about an hour or so. He just got home from his graveyard shift. But even if he was tired, he's still helping me. I realized just how easier really things are ever since he came here.Just like what I'm supposed to do, I still stayed in bed rest. I avoided work or doing heavy chore as what the doctor instructed. I can only do those things if we're in the clear already. I admit I m
I just watched the two of them unsmilingly. The woman was being so touchy and I have this urge to slap her hands away. They were in public, yet they seem to have their own world, and it made my head ache. "You know, we should catch up some time. How about coffee? When will you be free?" I heard her ask. I don't whether she's oblivious of my presence or she's choosing not to acknowledge me. There's a pregnant with Zandrey, but her eyes seem to only capture him entirely. It was so annoying. She was annoying. "I'll head first," I told Zandrey. I didn't wait for him to reply and just went ahead and left them. I just couldn't stand being around them. I was already a few meters away when I realized I don't have the keys to the car. Zandrey was the one who drove us as I'm not allowed to drive. I could feel my temper boiling up. I looked back at them with a frown. They were still talking. Actually, it was the girl who kept on talking. Her hand was on Zandrey's arm. It looks as
Since I wanted Zandrey close to me, we decided to stay in one room. Actually, it was dad who suggested it. He said it would ease his concerns if I have someone with me in my room. Both Dad and Andrei are upstairs, while I'm here on the first floor. Zandrey was busy taking out his clothes from his luggages. I was just sitting on my bed, watching him fixed his clothes. I already emptied a closet for him. It was weird. I have mixed feelings while looking at him unpack his stuff in a room we'll be sharing together until I give birth. But I'm quite sure the baby's happy. For the first time, I'll be living with a guy. I mean, sure, we live in the same house with my Dad and our son. But a guy who's not blood-related staying with us is definitely new to me. Sometimes, I regret not dating around when I was younger. Maybe if I did, I'd have more experience ehen it comes to men and I should have known better. But i chose to prioritize my studies and work. And well, the twins came so I really
Everybody now knows about the baby and it was indeed a good news for them. They even started planning for a gender reveal party, baby shower, and whatnot. But for now, we decided to have dinner together- an intimate one where all of the people close to my heart are present.It was just a small dinner and it was just really with family and friends. I was definitely looking forward to it because this time we don'y have any secrets to keep. Daisy and Dom just arrived. They brought a cake with the message, "Congratulations Ai and Zandrey!" My Mom also brought a pan of her baked lasagna. Auntie Gina prepared all of my favorite food.It is a happy night. I couldn't count how many times I smiled just tonight."What about you, Andrei? What do you want your sibling to be? A girl or a boy?" Daisy asked the kid. We were all gathered in the living room, just talking about things. We just finished our dinner and we're having the dessert here at the living room. I was eating the pie I asked Zandre
I don't know until when can I dodge that question. When no one asks me, it's me who questions myself. It was an easy question, yet answering it was hard. Being asked if I love him is something I think I will never be prepared for. I cannot find the words to describe what I feel for him yet. Or maybe I do. Maybe I'm just being in denial. But when will I ever be sure of what I really feel when everything's still clouded with memories of the past? I tried to look away from my Mom. The ways she stares at me shows she is trying to read me. And I'm scared. I'm still afraid of the things that might happen in the coming days. Even when Zandrey says he loves me, I really still cannot bring myself to easily believe. It can still change. Maybe he loves me now. But the real question is... until when? And why would he love me? Do I have something he's looking for in a woman? Do I possess something so extraordinary? I'm just a mediocre architect girl when we met. We live in the same world, but
I felt Zandrey squeeze my hand while we were waiting for Dad. We arranged a dinner for us- Zandrey, Mommy Emily, Dad, Andrei, and me. We decided to tell it first to them then we'll think about how to tell it to Daisy.Zandrey and I are sitting side by side on the table. I could feel the erratic beating of my heart. I know Dad won't be mad as I'm already an adult. But I still won't feel uneasy unless I've told him. "What's this dinner for?" Dad asked. We just started eating, and I knew he's been meaning to ask it since he came. Why would we invite him out of the blue, he must wondered."Uhh..."I rehearsed what I was gonna say to my Dad a hundred times. I already knew what exactly to say and how to say it. But the moment he asked, I feel as if I lost the ability to speak and my mind can't seem to process anything at all."Mommy, I want the chicken," Andrei suddenly said. I couldn't even move, so Zandrey got the chicken for him instead. "You good?" I heard Zandrey ask the kid."Yes, D
I woke up to a white surrounding. I was lying on a bed and I still feel so weak. When I looked around, I saw Mommy Emily looking at me. Even Zandrey was staring at me, probably waiting for me to open my eyes. "How are you feeling?" Mom asked. I tried to get up dlowly and Zandrey was quick to help me. "You were advised to be on bed rest, Ai," Zandrey mumbled. "Does she know?" I asked, pertaining to Mom. I remember how she was with me when I passed out. For sure it was also her who rushed me to the hospital. "I know," she answered. There was a smile on her face when she went closer to me. She fixed the few hairs that covered my face. "Don't worry. If you want me to keep it a secret, I will definitely keep it to myself." "And the baby?" My heart began beating so fast inside my chest. I quickly shifted my gaze to Zandrey. "How's the baby?" I could even hear the trembling of my own voice. "The baby's fine," he said softly. "But you have to be on bed rest for the time being, Ai. You
Our weekend was quite eventful. After the beach getaway, we spent a few hours at Mommy Miranda and Andres' graves. But it's really true that when your happy, it seems like time passes by so fast. Monday came quickly and I almost don't want to get up from my bed. I was tired from all the activities last weekend that I just wanted to stay all day in bed. But I still have work and I can't just not go to work. I have responsibilities. So even if I feel a little heavy, I got up and prepared myself for work. If I could just use my pregnancy as excuse, I would, but I can't. Nobody else knows about my pregnancy yet aside from Zandrey and I. "Good morning," Jelyn greeted upon seeing me entering. I smiled at her in return and let her follow me to the office. I need to know what are the things that I need to do today. But I have to sit first. I kinda feel nauseous. Jelyn then proceeded to telling me the tasks for the day. "Are you okay, Miss Aira?" she inquired. I looked up at her. My