It has been quite long since we last kissed. It’s still the same kiss, the same fire. It’s familiar, yet it also feels that it’s still trying to know me, to explore me. It has been quite long since I tasted his lips and I didn’t realize I missed it. The searing kiss wasn’t as aggressive as the kisses we used to have. It didn’t promise a long night, but it brought comfort and made me feel at ease, like all of my worries started to fade away. When we parted, his forehead stayed in mine. He's looking down at me, while I was looking up at him. “Are you okay?” He suddenly asked. I felt his thumb on my cheek. I didn't even notice I was crying. I couldn't answer. I couldn’t lie and tell him I’m fine when I’m here crying in front of him. “Hey…” he uttered. He carefully grabbed me as he gave me a hug. “I know everything’s too much right now, and that’s fine. You can cry all you want,” he stated. I let my tears fall. I don't even care now that's he's seen me crying. I am at my lowes
“Bye Mommy, bye Daddy!” Andrei said energetically when got out of the car. We wanted to walked him until his classroom but the kid insisted on going alone because he's already a big boy and that there’s no need for us to join him. I wanted to insist as well but he was determined to go alone. “He’s growing up so fast,” I complained when we were left alone in the car. We were both looking at Andrei while going inside. His classroom isn't that far and I can see he met his classmates on the way. I saw how he smiled when a classmate called his name. They even put their arms around each other while going to the classroom. I bet he got his social skills from Zandrey. Because I'm sure he didn't get that from me. I have no social skills at all. “He is,” Zandrey agreed. I suddenly don't feel like going to work. It felt good to just do this- eat with my baby and drive him to school. Life feels so easy that way. But I’m quite sure life will never be that easy. We all have our own challen
Zandrey looked like he was shocked because of what I did. I was even surprised with myself. After that quick kiss, that was when we realized we were in public. People saw. People were wondering. And some doesn't even care. But God. What if someone we know saw us? I let my emotions get into me. “I’m going,” I just said. But the truth is I feel ashamed. I didn't wait for his reply and headed to the office. I hope he won’t bring this up next time we meet. That would make everything feel worse. I just really wish no one saw me or recognize me. Because if so, I don't know how to explain what happened earlier. I headed straight to my office without looking back and looking around. I feel like people are looking my way but it might just be my imagination, or maybe I’m just overthinking. I’m not sure anymore. When I reached our floor, I was told that people were waiting for me in the conference room. I braced myself for that. Jelyn was even telling me things while we were on ou
We were both trying to catch our breath when we parted for a while. Our faces were still so close to each other that I could feel his minty breath. “Are you sure about this?” He asked. “Yeah,” I replied. “Do you want this?” Zandrey chuckled. “Who wouldn’t?” I smirked. Yeah, who wouldn’t? He grabbed my waist and moved his body even closer to me. I automatically wrapped my arms around his neck as he claimed my lips. But it didn't last long there as his lips went to my jaw, then to my neck. It was like he was in a rush, which I understand because even if this is an empty room, anyone can walk on us right now. So this is a quickie, huh? He exchanged our positions, making my back pinned on the wall. His kisses went back to my lips, while his hands made their way down my body. I was wearing a dress so it was easy for him to pull it up and pull down my panties. I helped him with it and when we finished, I helped him in removing his clothes. Zandrey’s still wearing his white coat and
“Where are we going, Mommy?” Andrei asked. I woke him up early so he can take a bath. Now, I’m currently fixing his clothes. “We’re going to visit Grandma,” I said. I’m not even sure if Andrei will recognize her. I’m afraid he’ll understand what’s going to happen. I know he'll get hurt if he gets what is happening. As much as I want to spare him from the pain, but I also want him to experience his last time with Mommy Miranda. He grew up with her and I’m sure she has become a huge part of his life too. I just have to be strong for anything that might happen. “Niceee,” he mumbled excitedly. Right now, I'm already hurting. After taking care of Andrei, I let him stay with his dad. Zandrey’s already waiting for him downstairs. Zandrey volunteered to go with us to the hospital. His shift will be tonight so he has some time. I let him come with us because I needed it. I know some things will happen later that will break my heart. I just needed someone to lean on. And I’m sure it
People come and go. Everything ends. I already kept that in mind. But when you're in the situation, it still hurts. You can never be prepared for the pain. I just stood there, wearing my white dress, imagining that she's just roaming around and that she's just around us. Her grave was just beside Andres. The burial just finished but Dad doesn't want to go home just yet. So I decided to stay. He finally stopped crying. But the sadness and pain is still visible in his eyes. "Do you know what she said before she passed away?" Dad suddenly spoke. I lookeed at Dad and I saw him staring at her grave. She stayed for two more weeks in the hospital before she passed away. We already expected her passing, but when it happened, it still hurts like hell. But in my head, in our heads, she’s finally free from the suffering. Her pain finally ended. "What?" I asked. "She said she'll be happy if I'll be happy even without her. She said, I should do whatever makes me happy. She
Because of what Zandrey told me earlier, there was a deafening silence when we were inside his car. We even have to go to the supermarket to buy ingredients, yet here we are, awkward again. But why would he say it? Now I feel like our agreement's mixed with feelings now. It's just supposed to be purely sexual. It wasn’t on the plan to take things seriously. The plan was to satisfy each other’s needs and be there for Andrei. If it's mixed with “jealousy” and other romantic stuff, I feel like it won’t work out. Even when he already parked the car, no one between us attempted to speak. God, it’s getting more awkward in each passing minute. Not to think we'll be together for a few more hours. I don’t have the courage to ask him things, or confront him about what he said earlier. I don't want to talk about it. The moment he successfully parked the car, I quickly unbuckled the seat belt and quickly got out of the car. I didn't wait for him and just walked straight to the supermarke
After doing the groceries, we went home. It's already quite late so we need to hurry. Andrei and I will still attempt to bake later. Also, we still have to prepare for dinner because we don't have househelps right nos. Only Auntie Gina was left with Andrei right now. Dad wanted them to take a leave for a while. They'll come back probably after a week. The house kind of feels different now that Mommy Miranda's no longer with us. All of us here can feel her absence. I can really tell the impact of her existence not just to me, but also to our workers. Sometimes, I can't help but smile at the good things she did. But I also can’t help but frown at the thought of her no longer in this world. “You okay?” Zandrey suddenly asked. I just had my nth deep sigh. For sure he heard it that's why he's asking. “Just thinking about things,” I replied. “Auntie Miranda’s free from pain now,” he said. “At least we know she left with a peaceful heart.” Well, he's right. Even when she’s alrea