"This will be your villa, Ma'am. Enjoy your stay," the woman said smilingly. I smiled in return. It's been more than a month since that encounter with Zandrey. Ever since it happened, I always find myself restless. Every day that passes, I was scared that I might see him anywhere. I was scared that he would just appear out of nowhere. I was so stressed because of that. Not to mention the stress that I feel at work. I couldn't eat well because I often lose my appetite, causing me to lose some weight. So when the workload has become lighter, I went to this resort that Daisy suggested so I can finally relax and forget about all of the things that were bugging me.I looked around the place and I can say it's cool and it looks refreshing. I really wish I can relax here."Thank you," I mumbled and the staff smiled at me before leaving. I looked around the villa. It was a huge room. Too huge for me, actually. The amenities are completed. There was even a private pool inside. Maybe I was r
I was so shocked I couldn't utter a word. It was like I could hear my heart drumming. I couldn’t even move. Heck, at this moment, I don't know what to do. "Aira..." He uttered again. It's really him. It’s his voice. How could this happen? How did he get my number? "I just... I just want to talk to you,” he said softly. There was gentleness in his voice. I know he’s trying to be careful with his words. That’s good, but it’s still not enough. I don't know what to say. I got tongue-tied. My mind just stopped functioning. "Aira, I know you’re mad at me," he murmured. There was something in his voice I can't point out. It's like he's really sorry. But I thought about how he had already deceived me before. There's no way I'll let him get into me again. "That's why I want to talk to you." He was almost pleading. Yes, he could be begging and pleading or kneeling. But still, I won't give him the satisfaction of being able to explain himself. For what? What could be the possible reason th
I didn't know they were planning on going home from the US. They didn’t say anything to me, that's why I was really surprised. Daisy and I were supposed to go home after lunch, but because of the excitement, we left after breakfast. I was so excited to see them. I haven’t seen them for how many months. "Ai, chocolates," said ni Daisy when we were just a few minutes away from home. We went straight home because she also wanted to see them. "Like you did not come from abroad," I said, chuckling. “I wasn’t able to buy a lot, okay? I came home impulsively," she murmured. I just shook my head while smiling at her. When I saw our house from a distance, I suddenly wanted to jump out and ran there.. But of course, I didn't. I can't afford to hurt myself right now. I almost ran inside our house, leaving my things in the car. Even Daisy also ran after me. When I entered the house, there were luggage and boxes in the living room. Everything was unopened so I figured they were waiting for
When I reached home from work the next day, I saw Andrei sitting outside the house. He was holding one of his toy cars and was playing with it, but when he heard me, he hurriedly stood up. I automatically smiled. My son is very adorable. "You're home! Let's go, Mommy! Let's go to Andres!" He excitedly said. My smile even widened with how excited he was. I know he still hasn't fully understood the concept of death yet, but I love how he always seems so excited when we’re about to visit his brother. Although there are times when I really get sad. I can’t help but think about what could’ve beens. For sure, these two will be the best of friends. I can’t help but think about the what ifs. "Where's grandpa and grandma?" I asked, changing the topic. Not doing so would probably just make me cry. "They're inside!" "Okay. I'll just change my clothes then we'll go," I said and he nodded. I hurriedly went inside the house and saw Mom and Dad sitting on the sofa. "He’s been waiting ther
I’ve been inside his car for a few minutes now, but he still has not spoken. He was just looking ahead, like he’s thinking about something. He's been asking me for a chance to hear him explain, but now that we're here, he can't seem to find that courage to give answers to my questions. "My dad was abusive," I heard him start. My eyes instantly fell on him. He was still just looking ahead still. "I made myself believe that we're fine. Because in the eyes of other people, we're the perfect family. He’s a doctor and he has a son who’s following his steps. No one wants to let the world know how he would hurt me and my mom every time he would lose his temper because we think no one would even listen." I didn't know this part of his life. Well, I didn't know much about him before. We never got to that part where we got to know each other more because before we could even do that, he ran away. "When my stepmom and I finally got the chance to leave him, we took it," he murmured. "I wanted
When Saturday came, Daisy asked if she could borrow Andrei for the day. She said she will just take the kid to the mall so I just let her. I know she'll take care of my son. And it made her really happy when I said yes. She’s been sad lately so I’m glad to see her happy whenever she’s with Andrei.Daisy told me last week about her 'one night stand' that happened weeks ago. I didn't say anything because that's her life. She's an adult now. But still, I worry about her.She keeps on saying that she wants to get pregnant, even if she would have to take care of the child alone. I wanted to tell her how difficult it is but I couldn't bring myself to say so. I was on my way home from the shop and it's almost 6 in the evening. I decided to call Daisy to ask where are they now. But I have been calling them a few times already but she’s not answering. I called home and asked if Andrei's there already but Mommy Miranda said he’s still not home. My chest tightened when a thought came into my m
"Where's my daddy, Mommy?" What Andrei said kept on replaying in my head. The time I'm scared to come is here. He's asking who his father is and I don't know what and how to answer him. Seconds have passed and I still can't come up for an answer and Andrei is looking at me expectantly. I could feel my inside trembling- of fear, uncertainty, and sadness."Andrei-" I was cut off when I heard somebody knock on the door. I looked at Andrei and I want to say how sorry I am but I remained quiet as I opened the door. It revealed Mommy Miranda who's smiling at us. "Dinner's ready," she announced. I gazed at Andrei, who's also gazing at me at the moment. "Let's go?" I asked Andrei and he just nodded. I sighed again. Maybe it's really not the time just yet to tell him. I took his hand and we went to the dining room together. If it wasn't for Mommy Miranda calling us for dinner, I probably have broken down in front of my son. And I don't want that to happen. I know he still won't understand
"Who is he, Mom?" Andrei inquired. His gaze shifted from me to Zandrey. "B-baby.." I uttered. I knelt in front of him and held his face with both my hands. He looked at me and I could see the worry on his face when he saw my tears. "Why are you crying?" He asked, his voice also shaking now. I don’t know if destiny’s playing a game with me now. The past few days, I've been thinking about Zandrey and telling him about Andrei. I was preparing myself for that. But things didn't go my way. And now, on the most random day that we thought of visiting Andres, he's here... and I don't know how to tell the two of them about their existence in each other's life. I never thought this day would come this soon. I was preparing myself for meeting Zandrey. I thought of telling him first then I'll bring him to Andrei. I'll give us time to cry and sink everything in first before I let them meet. Not like this. Not a surprise for all of us like this. "You're asking who's your daddy, right? This ti
Months swing by so fast. It gets slow when you're feeling lonely, but when you're in glee, it's like the clock is in a race.I was having all the fun while Zandrey is here with us. He's so good at taking care of me. Everyone cares a little extra of me after knowing we're having another baby. It's strange, but I admit that I like it. I'm getting used to it and it makes me sad that it's almost ending. But I'm certain it's a different kind of joy when the new baby is finally here.All of them are so excited to meet the baby. So when we decided to finally have the gender reveal, everybody was so excited. They couldn't wait to know the sex of the baby. Even I can't wait. I've had two boys, and I'm secretly wishing it's a girl. But whatever the sex is, I know for sure that we'll gonna love her/him so much."I bet it's a girl," Dominic guessed. It was clearly his guess because he's wearing a pink dress shirt.We are still waiting for all the guests to arrive. Daisy and Dom came first so we'r
I woke up to a quite heavy morning sickness. Weird stuff were going on inside my stomach that I just felt like puking. So the moment I opened my eyes, the first thing I did was stand up quickly and run to the bathroom as fast as I could.Zandrey probably heard me because a few moments later, I saw him following me. I looked at him for a brief time, unable to say a word because I was pre-occupied with my situation. He gathered all my hair for me, allowing me to focus more on my thing. That way, I didn't worry about my hair getting in my way.I feel bad because he's supposed to be sleeping as he only slept for about an hour or so. He just got home from his graveyard shift. But even if he was tired, he's still helping me. I realized just how easier really things are ever since he came here.Just like what I'm supposed to do, I still stayed in bed rest. I avoided work or doing heavy chore as what the doctor instructed. I can only do those things if we're in the clear already. I admit I m
I just watched the two of them unsmilingly. The woman was being so touchy and I have this urge to slap her hands away. They were in public, yet they seem to have their own world, and it made my head ache. "You know, we should catch up some time. How about coffee? When will you be free?" I heard her ask. I don't whether she's oblivious of my presence or she's choosing not to acknowledge me. There's a pregnant with Zandrey, but her eyes seem to only capture him entirely. It was so annoying. She was annoying. "I'll head first," I told Zandrey. I didn't wait for him to reply and just went ahead and left them. I just couldn't stand being around them. I was already a few meters away when I realized I don't have the keys to the car. Zandrey was the one who drove us as I'm not allowed to drive. I could feel my temper boiling up. I looked back at them with a frown. They were still talking. Actually, it was the girl who kept on talking. Her hand was on Zandrey's arm. It looks as
Since I wanted Zandrey close to me, we decided to stay in one room. Actually, it was dad who suggested it. He said it would ease his concerns if I have someone with me in my room. Both Dad and Andrei are upstairs, while I'm here on the first floor. Zandrey was busy taking out his clothes from his luggages. I was just sitting on my bed, watching him fixed his clothes. I already emptied a closet for him. It was weird. I have mixed feelings while looking at him unpack his stuff in a room we'll be sharing together until I give birth. But I'm quite sure the baby's happy. For the first time, I'll be living with a guy. I mean, sure, we live in the same house with my Dad and our son. But a guy who's not blood-related staying with us is definitely new to me. Sometimes, I regret not dating around when I was younger. Maybe if I did, I'd have more experience ehen it comes to men and I should have known better. But i chose to prioritize my studies and work. And well, the twins came so I really
Everybody now knows about the baby and it was indeed a good news for them. They even started planning for a gender reveal party, baby shower, and whatnot. But for now, we decided to have dinner together- an intimate one where all of the people close to my heart are present.It was just a small dinner and it was just really with family and friends. I was definitely looking forward to it because this time we don'y have any secrets to keep. Daisy and Dom just arrived. They brought a cake with the message, "Congratulations Ai and Zandrey!" My Mom also brought a pan of her baked lasagna. Auntie Gina prepared all of my favorite food.It is a happy night. I couldn't count how many times I smiled just tonight."What about you, Andrei? What do you want your sibling to be? A girl or a boy?" Daisy asked the kid. We were all gathered in the living room, just talking about things. We just finished our dinner and we're having the dessert here at the living room. I was eating the pie I asked Zandre
I don't know until when can I dodge that question. When no one asks me, it's me who questions myself. It was an easy question, yet answering it was hard. Being asked if I love him is something I think I will never be prepared for. I cannot find the words to describe what I feel for him yet. Or maybe I do. Maybe I'm just being in denial. But when will I ever be sure of what I really feel when everything's still clouded with memories of the past? I tried to look away from my Mom. The ways she stares at me shows she is trying to read me. And I'm scared. I'm still afraid of the things that might happen in the coming days. Even when Zandrey says he loves me, I really still cannot bring myself to easily believe. It can still change. Maybe he loves me now. But the real question is... until when? And why would he love me? Do I have something he's looking for in a woman? Do I possess something so extraordinary? I'm just a mediocre architect girl when we met. We live in the same world, but
I felt Zandrey squeeze my hand while we were waiting for Dad. We arranged a dinner for us- Zandrey, Mommy Emily, Dad, Andrei, and me. We decided to tell it first to them then we'll think about how to tell it to Daisy.Zandrey and I are sitting side by side on the table. I could feel the erratic beating of my heart. I know Dad won't be mad as I'm already an adult. But I still won't feel uneasy unless I've told him. "What's this dinner for?" Dad asked. We just started eating, and I knew he's been meaning to ask it since he came. Why would we invite him out of the blue, he must wondered."Uhh..."I rehearsed what I was gonna say to my Dad a hundred times. I already knew what exactly to say and how to say it. But the moment he asked, I feel as if I lost the ability to speak and my mind can't seem to process anything at all."Mommy, I want the chicken," Andrei suddenly said. I couldn't even move, so Zandrey got the chicken for him instead. "You good?" I heard Zandrey ask the kid."Yes, D
I woke up to a white surrounding. I was lying on a bed and I still feel so weak. When I looked around, I saw Mommy Emily looking at me. Even Zandrey was staring at me, probably waiting for me to open my eyes. "How are you feeling?" Mom asked. I tried to get up dlowly and Zandrey was quick to help me. "You were advised to be on bed rest, Ai," Zandrey mumbled. "Does she know?" I asked, pertaining to Mom. I remember how she was with me when I passed out. For sure it was also her who rushed me to the hospital. "I know," she answered. There was a smile on her face when she went closer to me. She fixed the few hairs that covered my face. "Don't worry. If you want me to keep it a secret, I will definitely keep it to myself." "And the baby?" My heart began beating so fast inside my chest. I quickly shifted my gaze to Zandrey. "How's the baby?" I could even hear the trembling of my own voice. "The baby's fine," he said softly. "But you have to be on bed rest for the time being, Ai. You
Our weekend was quite eventful. After the beach getaway, we spent a few hours at Mommy Miranda and Andres' graves. But it's really true that when your happy, it seems like time passes by so fast. Monday came quickly and I almost don't want to get up from my bed. I was tired from all the activities last weekend that I just wanted to stay all day in bed. But I still have work and I can't just not go to work. I have responsibilities. So even if I feel a little heavy, I got up and prepared myself for work. If I could just use my pregnancy as excuse, I would, but I can't. Nobody else knows about my pregnancy yet aside from Zandrey and I. "Good morning," Jelyn greeted upon seeing me entering. I smiled at her in return and let her follow me to the office. I need to know what are the things that I need to do today. But I have to sit first. I kinda feel nauseous. Jelyn then proceeded to telling me the tasks for the day. "Are you okay, Miss Aira?" she inquired. I looked up at her. My