When Daisy and I were still in high school, we had another friend named Trina. She was a transferee. Her parents move from one place to another so frequently that she doesn't get to stay in a school for a whole academic year. I was never the friendly one, but Daisy is. She and Trina got so close, and since we're always together, I also became close with her. We would eat lunch together, hang out after class, and I even tutor them when needed. We were friends for about three months when she told us that they're moving again. Daisy and I were devastated. But we know we can’t do anything about. We already had it coming, so we accepted it. But Daisy being Daisy, she suggested we should hang out one last time before she goes away. We decided to go on a picnic- the location, the day and time, the food we will bring, all were planned. All were ready. But on the day that we were supposed to meet, I didn't show up. I was never good at goodbyes. I knew that. Maybe it was a result of my mo
"I should go," he murmured in between the kisses. We parted for a while, but our foreheads remained touching. "Okay..." I said almost in a whisper. I wanted more of the kiss because it's making me feel a thousand different feelings. I could feel his minty breath on my face and it was not helping at all. It just makes me want to kiss him more. He said he should go, but he was not moving. His hands remained around my waist, while mine were around his neck. I felt like losing my breath, so I tried to breathe evenly. But him being this close to me was not doing me any favor. So I ended up biting my lower lip. Zandrey saw what I did and it made him groan. The next thing I knew, he was kissing me again. This time, it was sensual and passionate. His hands remained on my waist and our position was making it hard for me. I wanted more of the kiss, until I just found myself straddling him. His tongue slides inside my mouth, making me moan. Being the only people here, the room wa
The next morning, I woke up with no Zandrey beside me. I panicked so I looked for my phone to call him. But then I saw his text saying he has to leave because his class is early and he needs to go home to change. I stifle a sigh of relief. I thought he left because he already got what he wanted. Then I thought, of course not. He's not like that. If he's anything, he's decent. He may be intense in bed, but I know he's a good guy and I have the rest of time to get to know him even better. I then remembered what happened last night. After what happened, we ordered food and ate. We were so hungry after the deed. I didn’t know it would make you hungry.I felt my face heating up because of my thoughts. God... I tried to erase it in my mind as I started preparing for school. I don’t have the time to prepare food for myself so I decided to just have breakfast at school. I could just eat it while the class was going on. Thank God for not-so-strict instructors when it comes to eating or dri
"Let’s go home, Ai.." Daisy grabbed my arm slowly. I could feel her hands were shaking. I'm also shaking. If it’s because of nervousness or anger, I’m not sure. It's been six years since I last saw him. I was still in College, a young adult trying to make my way into adulthood. But now, a lot has changed. I'm no longer the naive Aira I was before. I have already learned a lot in life. I also went through a lot. That particular event involving him made a huge impact on me. It changed my life forever. Hearing that he's back again made me anxious. And I thought it would take some time before our paths would cross again. Because who would have thought, right? We were just talking about him earlier. But here we are. Face to face. Same people, different levels of maturity. Same people, just a little older. It's been years since he made his way into my life and then left. It's been years, but how come I can still feel the fucking pain? I stared at his face... the face that has been my
"This will be your villa, Ma'am. Enjoy your stay," the woman said smilingly. I smiled in return. It's been more than a month since that encounter with Zandrey. Ever since it happened, I always find myself restless. Every day that passes, I was scared that I might see him anywhere. I was scared that he would just appear out of nowhere. I was so stressed because of that. Not to mention the stress that I feel at work. I couldn't eat well because I often lose my appetite, causing me to lose some weight. So when the workload has become lighter, I went to this resort that Daisy suggested so I can finally relax and forget about all of the things that were bugging me.I looked around the place and I can say it's cool and it looks refreshing. I really wish I can relax here."Thank you," I mumbled and the staff smiled at me before leaving. I looked around the villa. It was a huge room. Too huge for me, actually. The amenities are completed. There was even a private pool inside. Maybe I was r
I was so shocked I couldn't utter a word. It was like I could hear my heart drumming. I couldn’t even move. Heck, at this moment, I don't know what to do. "Aira..." He uttered again. It's really him. It’s his voice. How could this happen? How did he get my number? "I just... I just want to talk to you,” he said softly. There was gentleness in his voice. I know he’s trying to be careful with his words. That’s good, but it’s still not enough. I don't know what to say. I got tongue-tied. My mind just stopped functioning. "Aira, I know you’re mad at me," he murmured. There was something in his voice I can't point out. It's like he's really sorry. But I thought about how he had already deceived me before. There's no way I'll let him get into me again. "That's why I want to talk to you." He was almost pleading. Yes, he could be begging and pleading or kneeling. But still, I won't give him the satisfaction of being able to explain himself. For what? What could be the possible reason th
I didn't know they were planning on going home from the US. They didn’t say anything to me, that's why I was really surprised. Daisy and I were supposed to go home after lunch, but because of the excitement, we left after breakfast. I was so excited to see them. I haven’t seen them for how many months. "Ai, chocolates," said ni Daisy when we were just a few minutes away from home. We went straight home because she also wanted to see them. "Like you did not come from abroad," I said, chuckling. “I wasn’t able to buy a lot, okay? I came home impulsively," she murmured. I just shook my head while smiling at her. When I saw our house from a distance, I suddenly wanted to jump out and ran there.. But of course, I didn't. I can't afford to hurt myself right now. I almost ran inside our house, leaving my things in the car. Even Daisy also ran after me. When I entered the house, there were luggage and boxes in the living room. Everything was unopened so I figured they were waiting for
When I reached home from work the next day, I saw Andrei sitting outside the house. He was holding one of his toy cars and was playing with it, but when he heard me, he hurriedly stood up. I automatically smiled. My son is very adorable. "You're home! Let's go, Mommy! Let's go to Andres!" He excitedly said. My smile even widened with how excited he was. I know he still hasn't fully understood the concept of death yet, but I love how he always seems so excited when we’re about to visit his brother. Although there are times when I really get sad. I can’t help but think about what could’ve beens. For sure, these two will be the best of friends. I can’t help but think about the what ifs. "Where's grandpa and grandma?" I asked, changing the topic. Not doing so would probably just make me cry. "They're inside!" "Okay. I'll just change my clothes then we'll go," I said and he nodded. I hurriedly went inside the house and saw Mom and Dad sitting on the sofa. "He’s been waiting ther
Months swing by so fast. It gets slow when you're feeling lonely, but when you're in glee, it's like the clock is in a race.I was having all the fun while Zandrey is here with us. He's so good at taking care of me. Everyone cares a little extra of me after knowing we're having another baby. It's strange, but I admit that I like it. I'm getting used to it and it makes me sad that it's almost ending. But I'm certain it's a different kind of joy when the new baby is finally here.All of them are so excited to meet the baby. So when we decided to finally have the gender reveal, everybody was so excited. They couldn't wait to know the sex of the baby. Even I can't wait. I've had two boys, and I'm secretly wishing it's a girl. But whatever the sex is, I know for sure that we'll gonna love her/him so much."I bet it's a girl," Dominic guessed. It was clearly his guess because he's wearing a pink dress shirt.We are still waiting for all the guests to arrive. Daisy and Dom came first so we'r
I woke up to a quite heavy morning sickness. Weird stuff were going on inside my stomach that I just felt like puking. So the moment I opened my eyes, the first thing I did was stand up quickly and run to the bathroom as fast as I could.Zandrey probably heard me because a few moments later, I saw him following me. I looked at him for a brief time, unable to say a word because I was pre-occupied with my situation. He gathered all my hair for me, allowing me to focus more on my thing. That way, I didn't worry about my hair getting in my way.I feel bad because he's supposed to be sleeping as he only slept for about an hour or so. He just got home from his graveyard shift. But even if he was tired, he's still helping me. I realized just how easier really things are ever since he came here.Just like what I'm supposed to do, I still stayed in bed rest. I avoided work or doing heavy chore as what the doctor instructed. I can only do those things if we're in the clear already. I admit I m
I just watched the two of them unsmilingly. The woman was being so touchy and I have this urge to slap her hands away. They were in public, yet they seem to have their own world, and it made my head ache. "You know, we should catch up some time. How about coffee? When will you be free?" I heard her ask. I don't whether she's oblivious of my presence or she's choosing not to acknowledge me. There's a pregnant with Zandrey, but her eyes seem to only capture him entirely. It was so annoying. She was annoying. "I'll head first," I told Zandrey. I didn't wait for him to reply and just went ahead and left them. I just couldn't stand being around them. I was already a few meters away when I realized I don't have the keys to the car. Zandrey was the one who drove us as I'm not allowed to drive. I could feel my temper boiling up. I looked back at them with a frown. They were still talking. Actually, it was the girl who kept on talking. Her hand was on Zandrey's arm. It looks as
Since I wanted Zandrey close to me, we decided to stay in one room. Actually, it was dad who suggested it. He said it would ease his concerns if I have someone with me in my room. Both Dad and Andrei are upstairs, while I'm here on the first floor. Zandrey was busy taking out his clothes from his luggages. I was just sitting on my bed, watching him fixed his clothes. I already emptied a closet for him. It was weird. I have mixed feelings while looking at him unpack his stuff in a room we'll be sharing together until I give birth. But I'm quite sure the baby's happy. For the first time, I'll be living with a guy. I mean, sure, we live in the same house with my Dad and our son. But a guy who's not blood-related staying with us is definitely new to me. Sometimes, I regret not dating around when I was younger. Maybe if I did, I'd have more experience ehen it comes to men and I should have known better. But i chose to prioritize my studies and work. And well, the twins came so I really
Everybody now knows about the baby and it was indeed a good news for them. They even started planning for a gender reveal party, baby shower, and whatnot. But for now, we decided to have dinner together- an intimate one where all of the people close to my heart are present.It was just a small dinner and it was just really with family and friends. I was definitely looking forward to it because this time we don'y have any secrets to keep. Daisy and Dom just arrived. They brought a cake with the message, "Congratulations Ai and Zandrey!" My Mom also brought a pan of her baked lasagna. Auntie Gina prepared all of my favorite food.It is a happy night. I couldn't count how many times I smiled just tonight."What about you, Andrei? What do you want your sibling to be? A girl or a boy?" Daisy asked the kid. We were all gathered in the living room, just talking about things. We just finished our dinner and we're having the dessert here at the living room. I was eating the pie I asked Zandre
I don't know until when can I dodge that question. When no one asks me, it's me who questions myself. It was an easy question, yet answering it was hard. Being asked if I love him is something I think I will never be prepared for. I cannot find the words to describe what I feel for him yet. Or maybe I do. Maybe I'm just being in denial. But when will I ever be sure of what I really feel when everything's still clouded with memories of the past? I tried to look away from my Mom. The ways she stares at me shows she is trying to read me. And I'm scared. I'm still afraid of the things that might happen in the coming days. Even when Zandrey says he loves me, I really still cannot bring myself to easily believe. It can still change. Maybe he loves me now. But the real question is... until when? And why would he love me? Do I have something he's looking for in a woman? Do I possess something so extraordinary? I'm just a mediocre architect girl when we met. We live in the same world, but
I felt Zandrey squeeze my hand while we were waiting for Dad. We arranged a dinner for us- Zandrey, Mommy Emily, Dad, Andrei, and me. We decided to tell it first to them then we'll think about how to tell it to Daisy.Zandrey and I are sitting side by side on the table. I could feel the erratic beating of my heart. I know Dad won't be mad as I'm already an adult. But I still won't feel uneasy unless I've told him. "What's this dinner for?" Dad asked. We just started eating, and I knew he's been meaning to ask it since he came. Why would we invite him out of the blue, he must wondered."Uhh..."I rehearsed what I was gonna say to my Dad a hundred times. I already knew what exactly to say and how to say it. But the moment he asked, I feel as if I lost the ability to speak and my mind can't seem to process anything at all."Mommy, I want the chicken," Andrei suddenly said. I couldn't even move, so Zandrey got the chicken for him instead. "You good?" I heard Zandrey ask the kid."Yes, D
I woke up to a white surrounding. I was lying on a bed and I still feel so weak. When I looked around, I saw Mommy Emily looking at me. Even Zandrey was staring at me, probably waiting for me to open my eyes. "How are you feeling?" Mom asked. I tried to get up dlowly and Zandrey was quick to help me. "You were advised to be on bed rest, Ai," Zandrey mumbled. "Does she know?" I asked, pertaining to Mom. I remember how she was with me when I passed out. For sure it was also her who rushed me to the hospital. "I know," she answered. There was a smile on her face when she went closer to me. She fixed the few hairs that covered my face. "Don't worry. If you want me to keep it a secret, I will definitely keep it to myself." "And the baby?" My heart began beating so fast inside my chest. I quickly shifted my gaze to Zandrey. "How's the baby?" I could even hear the trembling of my own voice. "The baby's fine," he said softly. "But you have to be on bed rest for the time being, Ai. You
Our weekend was quite eventful. After the beach getaway, we spent a few hours at Mommy Miranda and Andres' graves. But it's really true that when your happy, it seems like time passes by so fast. Monday came quickly and I almost don't want to get up from my bed. I was tired from all the activities last weekend that I just wanted to stay all day in bed. But I still have work and I can't just not go to work. I have responsibilities. So even if I feel a little heavy, I got up and prepared myself for work. If I could just use my pregnancy as excuse, I would, but I can't. Nobody else knows about my pregnancy yet aside from Zandrey and I. "Good morning," Jelyn greeted upon seeing me entering. I smiled at her in return and let her follow me to the office. I need to know what are the things that I need to do today. But I have to sit first. I kinda feel nauseous. Jelyn then proceeded to telling me the tasks for the day. "Are you okay, Miss Aira?" she inquired. I looked up at her. My