When Daisy and I were still in high school, we had another friend named Trina. She was a transferee. Her parents move from one place to another so frequently that she doesn't get to stay in a school for a whole academic year. I was never the friendly one, but Daisy is. She and Trina got so close, and since we're always together, I also became close with her. We would eat lunch together, hang out after class, and I even tutor them when needed. We were friends for about three months when she told us that they're moving again. Daisy and I were devastated. But we know we can’t do anything about. We already had it coming, so we accepted it. But Daisy being Daisy, she suggested we should hang out one last time before she goes away. We decided to go on a picnic- the location, the day and time, the food we will bring, all were planned. All were ready. But on the day that we were supposed to meet, I didn't show up. I was never good at goodbyes. I knew that. Maybe it was a result of my mo
"I should go," he murmured in between the kisses. We parted for a while, but our foreheads remained touching. "Okay..." I said almost in a whisper. I wanted more of the kiss because it's making me feel a thousand different feelings. I could feel his minty breath on my face and it was not helping at all. It just makes me want to kiss him more. He said he should go, but he was not moving. His hands remained around my waist, while mine were around his neck. I felt like losing my breath, so I tried to breathe evenly. But him being this close to me was not doing me any favor. So I ended up biting my lower lip. Zandrey saw what I did and it made him groan. The next thing I knew, he was kissing me again. This time, it was sensual and passionate. His hands remained on my waist and our position was making it hard for me. I wanted more of the kiss, until I just found myself straddling him. His tongue slides inside my mouth, making me moan. Being the only people here, the room wa
The next morning, I woke up with no Zandrey beside me. I panicked so I looked for my phone to call him. But then I saw his text saying he has to leave because his class is early and he needs to go home to change. I stifle a sigh of relief. I thought he left because he already got what he wanted. Then I thought, of course not. He's not like that. If he's anything, he's decent. He may be intense in bed, but I know he's a good guy and I have the rest of time to get to know him even better. I then remembered what happened last night. After what happened, we ordered food and ate. We were so hungry after the deed. I didn’t know it would make you hungry.I felt my face heating up because of my thoughts. God... I tried to erase it in my mind as I started preparing for school. I don’t have the time to prepare food for myself so I decided to just have breakfast at school. I could just eat it while the class was going on. Thank God for not-so-strict instructors when it comes to eating or dri
"Let’s go home, Ai.." Daisy grabbed my arm slowly. I could feel her hands were shaking. I'm also shaking. If it’s because of nervousness or anger, I’m not sure. It's been six years since I last saw him. I was still in College, a young adult trying to make my way into adulthood. But now, a lot has changed. I'm no longer the naive Aira I was before. I have already learned a lot in life. I also went through a lot. That particular event involving him made a huge impact on me. It changed my life forever. Hearing that he's back again made me anxious. And I thought it would take some time before our paths would cross again. Because who would have thought, right? We were just talking about him earlier. But here we are. Face to face. Same people, different levels of maturity. Same people, just a little older. It's been years since he made his way into my life and then left. It's been years, but how come I can still feel the fucking pain? I stared at his face... the face that has been my
"This will be your villa, Ma'am. Enjoy your stay," the woman said smilingly. I smiled in return. It's been more than a month since that encounter with Zandrey. Ever since it happened, I always find myself restless. Every day that passes, I was scared that I might see him anywhere. I was scared that he would just appear out of nowhere. I was so stressed because of that. Not to mention the stress that I feel at work. I couldn't eat well because I often lose my appetite, causing me to lose some weight. So when the workload has become lighter, I went to this resort that Daisy suggested so I can finally relax and forget about all of the things that were bugging me.I looked around the place and I can say it's cool and it looks refreshing. I really wish I can relax here."Thank you," I mumbled and the staff smiled at me before leaving. I looked around the villa. It was a huge room. Too huge for me, actually. The amenities are completed. There was even a private pool inside. Maybe I was r
I was so shocked I couldn't utter a word. It was like I could hear my heart drumming. I couldn’t even move. Heck, at this moment, I don't know what to do. "Aira..." He uttered again. It's really him. It’s his voice. How could this happen? How did he get my number? "I just... I just want to talk to you,” he said softly. There was gentleness in his voice. I know he’s trying to be careful with his words. That’s good, but it’s still not enough. I don't know what to say. I got tongue-tied. My mind just stopped functioning. "Aira, I know you’re mad at me," he murmured. There was something in his voice I can't point out. It's like he's really sorry. But I thought about how he had already deceived me before. There's no way I'll let him get into me again. "That's why I want to talk to you." He was almost pleading. Yes, he could be begging and pleading or kneeling. But still, I won't give him the satisfaction of being able to explain himself. For what? What could be the possible reason th
I didn't know they were planning on going home from the US. They didn’t say anything to me, that's why I was really surprised. Daisy and I were supposed to go home after lunch, but because of the excitement, we left after breakfast. I was so excited to see them. I haven’t seen them for how many months. "Ai, chocolates," said ni Daisy when we were just a few minutes away from home. We went straight home because she also wanted to see them. "Like you did not come from abroad," I said, chuckling. “I wasn’t able to buy a lot, okay? I came home impulsively," she murmured. I just shook my head while smiling at her. When I saw our house from a distance, I suddenly wanted to jump out and ran there.. But of course, I didn't. I can't afford to hurt myself right now. I almost ran inside our house, leaving my things in the car. Even Daisy also ran after me. When I entered the house, there were luggage and boxes in the living room. Everything was unopened so I figured they were waiting for
When I reached home from work the next day, I saw Andrei sitting outside the house. He was holding one of his toy cars and was playing with it, but when he heard me, he hurriedly stood up. I automatically smiled. My son is very adorable. "You're home! Let's go, Mommy! Let's go to Andres!" He excitedly said. My smile even widened with how excited he was. I know he still hasn't fully understood the concept of death yet, but I love how he always seems so excited when we’re about to visit his brother. Although there are times when I really get sad. I can’t help but think about what could’ve beens. For sure, these two will be the best of friends. I can’t help but think about the what ifs. "Where's grandpa and grandma?" I asked, changing the topic. Not doing so would probably just make me cry. "They're inside!" "Okay. I'll just change my clothes then we'll go," I said and he nodded. I hurriedly went inside the house and saw Mom and Dad sitting on the sofa. "He’s been waiting ther
I instantly felt how much I missed his lips the moment it touched mine. I knew I miss it. I just didn't know I miss it this much.His kisses were slow but I don't feel the need to take it fastly. It was like both of us were savoring the moment and just don't want it to end.I know he was thinking about me and my bikini. There was fire in the way he looks at me. I was expecting him to be ruthless at this moment, but it is not ruthless at all. In fact, he was careful yet passionate.I know I wanted something to happen between us, but suddenly, just kissing him like this was enough. It felt like nothing will surpass the feeling his kisses give me.When we parted, our noses remained touching each other. My eyes were closed, feeling his minty breath on my face. I don't know if he's closing his eyes as well. I don't want to open my eyes just yet, because the moment might end once I open my eyes to our reality.I felt the back of his hand touching my cheek. "You're cold," he mumbled.I slowl
After our "photoshoot", I went back to the villa. Daisy decided to stay there to play with Andrei. Dominic also followed so he's with Zandrey right now. They say they wanted to go to the deeper part of the beach.I don't really know how to swim so I couldn't care less right now.While they're enjoying the blue water, I spent my time sleeping. That's why when I woke up, I was in a very good and light mood. A good sleep can really contribute a lot to my mood.It was already dark when I woke up. They're already preparing to go to the resto to have dinner. Thaniel also followed us because he wanted to relax, as he said. But he just got teased by Daisy, saying she knows he's not here to "relax", but to observe the place. Him and his businessman self."Hey, quit observing the place," Daisy muttered when she saw Thaniel looking around. We're already in the resto, waiting for our food.Thaniel quickly looked at Daisy and knitted his brows. "I'm just admiring the place."Daisy raised a brow, w
I really wanted to tell them that Andrei's going to have a sibling soon. But I still wanted to be firm with my decision in keeping it first until everything's okay. I know they'll be happy about it. Daisy seems okay about it. But I'm still not confident in telling them. I still need more time.When Zandrey looked my way again, I saw how he's suppressing his smile. I wanted to widen my eyes at him, or pinch him because he's being too obvious. But I tried my best to control my reactions and actions as well. That would make everything more obvious then."Daddy, I wanna swim," Andrei said."Did you finish your food already?" I asked."I'm full, Mommy," he said. He then pouted, trying to look cute. He doesn't have to try so much though. Andrei really got his charm from his father. And he knows how to use it so well.He really got so much traits from his Dad. I can't help but also think, who will the upcoming baby take after? Will he or she still looks like Zandrey? Or will he or she look l
"Do you want to just go home?" Zandrey asked while rubbing my back. I was still puking and it doesn't feel good at all. It's probably because of what I ate- from salty and sour to sweet."No, Andrei will definitely look for us," I quickly said."Okay. But are you sure you'll be fine?"I just nodded as response. I don't think I want to say more words after I vomitted like a mad man.Zandrey handed me the water bottle he took when he got out of the car earlier. I quickly took it to rinse my mouth with it. God, I can still taste that nasty taste..After I felt like the puking is really over, I stood up and headed to the car slowly. Zandrey was tailing me, with his hand guiding my back, like he's afraid I'll fall."Does anything hurt?" He asked while putting on the seatbelt. I buckled mine as well and fully leaned my back on the backrest after reclining it. I need to steady my head or else, the possibility of vomitting again will rise."Nothing hurts. It's just probably because of everyth
Zandrey should know because he's a doctor. I wanted to ask him, but I suddenly felt conscious. Even if we've done it many times, I still have an ounce of shyness in me.I saw him walk towards me. He's carrying our son in his arms. I saw how the kid ran to him earlier and how excitement filled his face when he saw his father. And now, the kid was talking non-stop while they were on the way towards me, yet Zandrey's gaze remains on me.He has that usual smile on his face. He looks so carefree and problem-free. He's always glowing. I feel like the world is really unfair because those who has stressful jobs are the ones more glowing. Zandrey is a walking example. He's busy with his job and does not have much time for himself, but he still manages to smile like that.He radiates so much positivity, and I just realized how much I needed someone like him in my life. I feel like we compliment well. Even when we just knew each other, we already clicked. I know he's a good person and has a good
"Are you joining in the van with us?" Daisy asked. They're currently loading all the stuff we need to the van. Dominic will be driving. All their stuff are already inside. They just dropped by here to get the stuff we will bring. After that, they'll go to Mommy Emily to get her. As for Zandrey, I'm not sure. He's not here yet. "I'm not sure," I answered. They did almost everything, while I just sat there watching them. I wanna help but I know lifting heavy stuff isn't for me, especially right now. I get clumsy sometimes so I should move as less as possible. "Where's Zandrey?" She added. He has work last night. I just don't know if his shift is over. His schedule often changes and he wasn't able to inform me. "I also don't know," I replied. I kind of feel sad that he's not here yet, but I cannot do anything about it. "Can you give me some of that?" I added. She was eating some chips and she was eating it with gusto that I felt the need to eat some as well. She handed me the pack. I
We weren't able to push through our plan of going to the beach after my birthday. When I knew I was pregnant, I told everyone we can't go because I was not feeling well. Maybe I lied well in that part because they never doubted me.However, maybe we were bound to go one way or another, because Daisy decided to set another date. And this time, I was not able to invent a lie, unfortunately. "This will look good on you!" Daisy mumbled. She handed me the hanger with a pair of swim suit. I frowned at her. I shouldn't wear something like that. I'm not sure how visible my bump is. We're currently at the mall, buying stuff for our beach getaway which wil happen this weekend. She wanted to buy some new stuff for herself so I just tagged along. She ended up choosing things for the both of us. "I don't like that," I said. "This really suits you," she insisted. I shook my head and tried to look for something else. I don't want something so revealing. "What do you want?" She asked as she put
Since we haven’t told anyone yet about the pregnancy, we were very careful when it comes to doing things. He wants me to stay at home for now, and maybe work from home too. But I don't want to. People will definitely wonder why I’m not doing my normal routine. So here I am, in the office and doing all the things I’m supposed to do. I even drove myself coming here while Zandrey drove Andrei to school. “Good morning, Ma’am Aira,” Jelyn greeted when she saw me coming. I smiled at her and gestured to her to follow me to my office. This time, I was not wearing heels and was walking as carefully as possible. I'm still afraid I'll trip and fall. Of course, I don’t want that to happen so I’m being extra careful. Jelyn then proceeded to tell me all the things that I need to do today. That includes some meetings and site visits. But I declined the site visits. It's too risky for now. “Can you ask my Dad if he can do the site visit instead?” I asked. “Yes, Ma'am. I'll inform him
I’d like to think that this is my pregnancy hormones craving for Zandrey, craving for his presence and all of him. I’m definitely not the clingy type but I have this feeling that I just want to see him all the time. I want to feel his presence all the time. I want to hear his voice all the time. I’m getting used to this feeling of wanting him to be just around all the time. It has been two weeks since we knew about my pregnancy. I haven't said anything to anyone just yet. Even Zandrey hasn't said anything too. It’s just the two of us who know I’m carrying his child. We have already been to the OB-Gyne. I was so nervous. I was reminded of the time I also went to the OB-Gyne when I was pregnant with Andrei and Andres. I was also very nervous that time. But unlike now, I have someone I can hold when I’m trembling in fear. Before, I used to go to my appointments with Dad or Mommy Miranda. But being accompanied by Zandrey hits different. The entire time I was being checked by the d