Wala ako sa sariling umuwi sa condo. I didn’t even bother to wash my face. I went straight to my room and started crying.
Why is life so hard? Maayos naman ako noong hindi ko pa s’ya nakikilala pero bakit? Bakit ganito?!
I was so frustrated that I threw my phone across the room.
How dare he walk into my life and mess me up so bad?! I was already over my insecurities about liberty. I already accepted my faith as a daughter of a well-known attorney but because of him, everything fell apart.
I'm falling down the same hole I was in before and this time I don't know how to get out of it.
Lord, What did I do wrong in my past life
I had a great dinner because of Kuya. He was not in the operating room, so, while I was reheating the food, we were chatting. Dahan-dahan na akong sinasanay ni Kuya sa magiging bagong trabaho ni Dad."Dad will file his candidacy tomorrow. You and Mom will accompany him," he said while I was busy transferring the chicken to the pan.I sighed. There's really no turning back."May idea ka ba Kuya sa sched ni Dad?" I asked because it seems like he knows our father better."Kung tama ang pagkakatanda ko, He will visit another province. Ikaw yata ang isasama n'ya doon."That trip will surely be awkward. Just me and Dad in the same vehicle is unbearable.
I thought my work here was done when we took the picture, but I was wrong. The politicians decided to host a lunch. We were in a restaurant with Dad's running mates. They were all talking about their achievement. In short, nagpapayabangan.I was busy slicing my steak into smaller pieces when Lyle stood up. Tumingin lahat sa kanya."Please excuse us. Me and Atty. Abad's daughter have some urgent matter to attend," paalam nito. Hindi na ako nag-abala pang tignan s'ya dahil alam kong hindi rin naman sya papayagan ng mga matatanda."Sen. Ramos, your son is so bold to flaunt his intentions," sita ng isang matandang may bigote."Why? Is there something wrong about that?"
Hindi ko na magawang tignan si Lyle. How can he be a mole? Kanino naman s'ya nag rereport kung ganun? Napakaraming tanong da isip ko. "Are you okay? You look pale," sita ni Lyle. Binitawan nito ang kanyang pagkain at inabot ang kamay ko. Agad kong inilayo ang kamay ko at nag iwas ng tingin. "I'm fine. Let's just go back to the hotel." Nagtipa ako sa aking telepono ng mensahe para kay Kuya. To: Kuya ♡ We're staying at Escala Tagaytay. I'm sure you can get your way around the management. I thought Lyle will insist on staying but to
Pagdating namin sa Cebu ay sinalubong kami ng gobernador ng lalawigan. Nakipagkamay ito kay Dad at sumunod naman sakin. Sandamakmak ang media sa labas ng paliparan kaya dali-dali kaming sumakay sa sasakyan. Dad rode with the Governor while I rode a separate car. Cebu is still refreshing to me even though I’ve been here a couple of times. Good thing there’s no traffic so I had spare time to relax in my hotel room. We’re staying at Shangri-la in Mactan. Dad’s secretary booked four rooms in total. One for me, one for Dad, and two for Dad’s security personnel and office staff. We were all staying in the Mactan Suite. Hinubad ko ang aking sapatos at agad na nagtungo sa banyo para maghugas ng kamay. Pagkalabas ko ay inasikaso ko na ang aking mga bagahe. I prepared my outfits for the following days. I hang them in pairs in the closet. I was about to fill the tub when I heard a doorbell. Pag-bukas ko ng pinto ay nakita ko ang secretary ni Dad. He was holding a folder. “This will be our
I woke up in a different environment. Wala na ako sa sasakyan kundi ay nasa isa akong silid. I tried sitting up but I failed. May mga nakakabit sa aking makenarya. Anong nangyari? Where am I? Are we still in Cebu?Aalis na sana ako sa kama nang biglang bumukas ang pinto. My frantic mom entered and quickly attended me. What is she doing here? Lumipad s’ya papuntang Cebu?“How are you feeling, Hija? May masakit ba sa’yo?” tanong ni mom. She was checking every part of me.“I’m fine, Mom. I just can’t sit-up,” panimula ko. She let out a deep breath. Seeing mom this frantic shocked something inside me. My mom is always a prim and calm woman. For her to react this way only means one thing. Some
“Who is it, Er-” I didn’t get to finish my sentence because I’m too surprised to see him. He was carrying a basket and a bouquet of flowers. He smiled awkwardly. This is really bad timing since Erica is here. “Eli, napadalaw ka.” I opened the door widely to let him in. Erica was frozen in place. This is the first time Erica sees Elias sober. I bet she remembers him. Elias was all smiles when he entered the hospital room. He placed the fruit basket beside the bed. Ibinalik ko ang tingin kay Erica na ngayon ay parang pagong kung maglakad papalapit sa akin. Yup, it’s confirmed. She was too stunned to speak. Wala sa sarili itong naupo sa single-seater sofa habang nakamasid kay Elias na ngayon ay abala sa pag aayos ng mga pagkaing dala. “I hope you don’t mind, Ate. Sorry kung wala akong pasabi na pupunta ako,”panimula ni Elias. Mahina akong napamura. Paano ko ipapaliwanag kay Erica na kapatid ni Dwight si Elias at paano kami nagkakilala ni Dwight?! Bigla akong nanlamig nang tapikin ako
“Don’t worry, I’m at the lobby na. Let’s just say that I got here late because a douchebag decided to start a fist fight,” he said from the other line. Agad akong kinabahan. He got into a fight, siguradong may pasa or sugat s’ya.“You got into a fight at the club?” tanong ko. Nakarinig na lang ako ng mahina tawa. He didn’t speak but I heard a ding. Looks like he’s already coming up. Shortly after the ding the call ended.In my hospital gown, I stepped out of my room to fetch Elias. Nurses were looking at me. Wala na akong pakialam sa kanila at pumunta na ako sa may elevator. Saktong pagdating ko sa tapat ng elevator ay bumukas ito. A drunk Elias with a bruise on the lips greeted me. He spazzed out from the elevator. He looks like
I finally gave up arguing with kuya since there’s no point. We stopped by a coffee shop to pick-up coffee and pastries for Mom. Hindi ko alam kung anong itsura ng bagong bahay namin. The worst is I don’t even know what my room looks like and how they arranged my things!“Kuya, who moved my things?” tanong ko kay Kuya nang makasakay na ulit kami sa kotse. He placed our coffee in between us and the pastries at the back with my things.“Isla was the one who moved and arranged your stuff,” sabi nito matapos ikabit ang seatbelt. Hindi na ako umimik pa. I just hope that my new room is not that different from my old one. I opened the window to let the wind blow my hair.I guess I’m part of the c
My relationship with Dwight didn’t get any better after our talk. Emotions got the best of me when we last talked. At this point, I don’t even know if we really have a relationship.He’s busy training with the national team while I’m at my dad’s office. It’s just a few days before the election, so our security is at its max. Our house security system has been upgraded. More bodyguards are deployed.“Caily, you should ask your manager to reschedule all your shoots to a week after the election. It’s your dad and aunt’s request,” Mom said when she sat beside me. My schedule has already been pushed far too long. If I do what I was asked, I might lose a few contracts in these coming years.“Mom, I hope they will understand me. I’ve pushed the shoots far too long. I might lose my contracts next year, or worse, they might sue me.” I fidgeted with my phone. Mom sighed beside me. Modeling is becoming my full-time job, and I know my mom has something to say about it because she did modeling as
“Dwight?” He was horrified when he saw me in the lift, but he tried to hide it.“Sav,” matipid n’yang bati. By the sound of it, I already know what’s up. This is not the proper way to handle the situation, keeping in mind that our relationship is not public. Bumaba ang mata ko sa bitbit nya. He held a bouquet of red roses and a Starbucks paper bag. Breakfast for Sam, I guess?The elevator ride was awkward. We couldn’t talk much because there were other people on the lift. Nang tumigil ang elevator sa fifth floor ay tinignan ko muna s’ya bago lumabas. He better explain why he’s been avoiding me these past few days.The sound of my stilettos against tiled flooring was eerie. It is straight out of a movie, if I must say. There is so much tension and anticipation.I hate to admit it, but seeing Dwight holding a bouquet of flowers pains me. He was busy with Sam while I desperately waited for his texts or calls. He even partied out with Eli and didn’t bother to inform me.Bumalik sakin ang
“Alam ko na kung bakit umuwi ang jowa mo!” sigaw ni Brithey. She showed me her phone. It was a news article with Samantha as the headline. It turns out that Samantha and her family got involved in a car accident. Bigla akong kinabahan para kay Samantha. Is she okay? Gaano kalala ang injuries n’ya? Kamusta naman ang pamilya n’ya?I grabbed Brithey’s phone to read the article. The Chen Family was involved in a car accident in Cebu City. Is it a coincidence? We were also in Cebu when we got ambushed. Samantha was with their driver, her dad, her mom, and her younger sister. It was ruled as an accident because of the heavy rain. Agad naman silang naisugod sa malapit na ospital. I doubt that it is an accident. There is something fishy going on in Cebu. “Minor injuries lang naman siguro ‘yun,” Brithey commented. “It’s nothing compared to what happened to you.” I was pissed at what she said. Oo, aminado ako hindi maganda ang relasyon namin ni Samantha but to say that is unacceptable.“Kahi
“It’s been a while, love” Tumayo ang mga balahibo ko ng maramdaman ko ang mainit n'yang hiningi sa likod ng tenga. It sends shivers to my spine. I looked at Isaac. He was stunned."Hey," malumanay kong bati sa kanya. He's wearing a black polo shirt and khaki pants. How can someone look so good in such simple clothes?I almost lost my breath when he leaned over to kiss my forehead. Damn!“Hey,”malambing n’yang bati pabalit at umupo sa tabi ko. Nararamdaman ko ang titig ni Isaac sa’min. They already knew each other so introduction will be stupid.“How have you been, bro?” Dwight casually asked as he placed his hands on my thigh. Wala akong magawa kung hindi ngumiti na lang ng hilaw. Someone’s getting teritorial.“Thanks for asking. I’ve been busy establishing businesses after we graduated from college. What about you?” Isaac answered before drinking one of his shots.“I’ve been busy with training. It’s only just now that we got our vacation. When I found out my girl flew to Thailand for
I flew to Thailand as planned. Maayos naman na ang lagay ni Bella. It was a miracle that the baby survived. Kuya offered Bella to stay in his house but Bella refuses. Bella reasoned out that it is too dangerous for her to be around kuya after the incident. Kuya Jerome is still investigating. Hindi namin alam kung kami ba ang dahilan kung bakit nangyari yun kay Bella o may sarili silang alitan ng mga armadong lalake. “Caily, we will be staying for 2 days and 3 nights. Tanghali ang dating natin ng Thailand. Your first day is your free day. If you want to explore the city, we can do that. Then, the next days will be filled with shoots. Bali 3 layouts per day tayo. Sa huling araw natin naman, we will have dinner with the CEO.” Sumandal na lang ako sa upuan ko at pumikit. Pinapakinggan ko pa lang ang mga sinasabi ni Brithey pagod na ako.Thailand is not that different from the Philippines that’s why I’m not that interested in exploring the country. Plano kong magpahinga lang ngayong araw
“Baby, you should get some sleep na. Don’t worry about mommy. I will sleep once your Kuya is asleep,” mom said after putting me to bed.It’s Kuya’s Midterm Exam tomorrow. I know to myself that both of them will stay up all night. Leading up to his exams, Kuya always becomes erratic, so mom is scared to leave him alone. “But Kuya won’t be sleeping tonight since his exam is tomorrow,” I said as I tucked myself into bed. Mom was smiling at me while leaning on the door.“Very observant of you, my little princess.” She walked towards me, turned off the side lamp, and kissed my forehead.“Good night, my princess.” She walked away and closed the door.I slept that night assured that everything would be fine the following day, but it was far from the reality I faced the next morning. A loud banging awakened me, not on my door but perhaps in the room beside me, my brother’s room. I went out of bed to check on what was happening. It was my mom knocking non-stop on kuya’s door.“What’s happeni
It’s been weeks since I last saw my brother as well as Dwight. Kuya was true to his words, he didn’t do anything to Dwight. Well, anything physical I guess? It’s not unbeknownst to me that my brother has a sharp tongue.“Caily, I just got an email from an international brand. They are asking if you can fly to Thailand to discuss a potential contract with them,” Brithey said. Kasalukuyan kaming nasa Cebu para sa isang shot. We did five layouts today and it’s all by the beach. Inabutan ako ni Brithey ng tuwalya para takpan ang katawan ko.We shot a magazine cover. The main theme is about standing out so I wore a latex dress accessorized with chunky jewelry.“Kailan naman yan?”tanong ko habang tinatanggal ang suot na alahas.“The day after tomorrow,”tipid n’yang sagot habang nakatutok sa iPad. Tinignan ko ang relo ko. It’s already 5:30 pm. “Uuwi na rin ba tayo ngayon o bukas na ng umaga?” Hindi ako sigurado kung kakayanin ko pang bumiyahe pauwi ng Laguna matapos ang trabaho ko ngayong a
Ever since my early childhood I’m always the type of kid who will just stare around and instantly comprehend what’s going on in my surroundings. Some adults deemed me as mature but the reason that I’m quick to pick up on what’s happening in the surrounding is because in our house we rarely speak to one another. As I grew older, I realized that I’m not that aware anymore of what’s happening around me. It’s like I’ve dived into the abyss.“Are you alright, ate?” I was brought back to my senses when Eli gently racked my body. I looked at him. I can’t figure out his look. Is he apologetic or worried? I didn’t speak. Brithey just looked at me and Eli as if she was trying to grasp what’s happening. I stared at Eli for a few minutes before my phone rang. It was Erica calling. Eli took my phone and answered it. Lumakad s’ya papunta sa may kitchen. Akala ko ba okay na ako? Akala ko tanggap ko na ang katotohanan? Napahawak ako sa noo ko. That’s bullsh*t! I’ll never be alright with it! I neve
I was still shocked from what went down during our lunch. Malapit na bang mamatay si dad? Why on earth is he suddenly sweet and understanding?“Sapphire, I’m talking to you.” I was caught off-guard when dad uttered my name. “Po?” tanong ko dito dahil sa tingin ko mali ang narinig ko kanina.“I’m asking you when you are free. Balak ko kasing pumunta tayo sa ibang bansa bilang pamilya. That’s my graduation gift for you. So when are you free?” paliwanag ni dad.Ibinaba ko ang kubyertos na hawak ko at sandaling inalala ang schedule ko. If my memory serves right, I’ll be free after a month.“I’m not sure if I remember it correctly but I’m free by next month, I guess? I’ll confirm it tomorrow after talking to my manager.” Dad nodded and continued his meal.I swear that was the first time that he acknowledged me. If I only know that this is how I can gain his acknowledgement I should have studied way earlier. Wala sa sarili akong naglakad papasok ng lobby nang bigla akong tawagin ng recept