21EMILY’S POVOuch.I couldn’t deny the stinging sensation in my chest, as I watched them. In my head, the girl changed to me, and it was me and John again, brimming with love for each other as we kissed. I wanted to tear my eyes off them, I really wanted to, but I couldn’t. My eyes were stuck staring at them. I didn’t want them to see me staring, but…Damn. Even though all the feelings left in me for John was hatred, I still couldn’t help feeling hurt.Maybe I connected with the part of me that had been in love with John. Staring at him kissing the girl madly, made me wonder if I was just another girl. It made me wonder if I was just a stand-in. A default person to always go to whenever he needed someone.Those lips he had kissed me with… he was kissing someone else with them… Everything about it seemed wrong.If I thought about it all, it was too painful. If his love had been fake, if our moments had been fake… if… if my idea of his feelings towards me had been fake…I blinked hard
22LUCAS’ POV.“Wait… You need to breathe. You need to calm down.” I said, dropping my notepad, on which I had been jotting down new tech ideas.She plastered a hand against the window with wide eyes, trying to breathe.“No… no, please take me off. I can’t stay here, I’m going to start screaming. I’m going to. I can’t… I can’t breathe.” She said, looking around frantically.I went to her immediately, and pulled off her jacket, which was heavy, and could contribute to her feelings of suffocation.“Wait a sec. Wait…”She tapped my shoulders, trying to get to her feet, but I stopped her.Tears welled up in her eyes, and she couldn’t even speak. She kept on trying hard to breathe, and it seemed to be getting harder, and more intense.Her mouth stayed open, in an attempt to let air in, and I got really scared. We were high in the sky, and I had no idea on how to calm her down because I knew people didn’t get down from Ferris wheels on ropes.“Breathe, please, breathe…” I said, getting more
23EMILY’S POV.Nothing… Nothing…The way he had casually said it made me feel like a fool. The fool for loving him, for being with him. All those moments had been fake.How could a person act so well? How could he have fooled me so well that I didn’t even know about it?It was unfair.It felt like my heart was being pricked horribly by a needle—like it was being cut mercilessly by a surgeon’s scalpel.I had never hated John more at that moment. To think that I had almost married a man like that was sickening.He and his family were alike. Rude, arrogant—only doing the things they wanted, without caring if it was wrong or right, or if they were hurting others. But then, what did I expect? Did I expect him to say it meant something to him?Or that those times were his best times? What exactly had I been expecting? Why did I even ask that question?Thinking about it, it was a little weird…Like… Wow… the John I had known all along was fake. This was the real one, and for years, I hadn’t
24LUCAS’ POVI stared at Stephanie speechlessly, and immediately bent to her, trying to see if she was still breathing.“Damn.” I muttered, realizing she wasn’t breathing, and lifted her into my arms. She was quite heavy for a woman, and I had to grunt to adjust her properly in my arms.Then, I placed her back into the car, and got in, trying to drive to the nearest hospital. I didn’t know if she had a medical condition, but if anything happened to her, I could easily be blamed, and apart from being blamed, I’d feel terribly guilty.I hated being around victims. Somehow, my mind always found a way to blame me for their condition. Crazy, isn’t it?Damn…There seemed to be traffic on the road, and I kept glancing back at her, to ensure she didn’t fall off or stop breathing.No matter how I disliked her, I didn’t wish for her death. This was the second time she was showing signs of being a weakling—something I hated in women.They all thought they had to be weak to be perfectly feminine
25EMILY’S POV.I sprang to my feet, staring at the smashed laptop in disbelief. What had just happened? Was it really John’s laptop that had been smashed to the floor?Why would she do that!?“Why would you do that?” I asked hotly, turning to her, but the only thing she did was glare at me, like I was the one who had done something wrong.I was confused.“If you answer my question, then I’ll answer yours.” She replied haughtily, “Why would you do such a thing?” She asked, leaving me in more confusion than I had been.“Why would I do what?” I asked, my brows knitting together.“How could you even think in all your lowliness to raise your voice on John? I mean… each time I hear how it all played out, I get mad. I boil with so much rage that it feels like I’ll go crazy if I don’t do something drastic.” She spat out, using her hand gestures to show how she felt.“And what is so bad about that? People raise their voices when they get mad, they…”“Not you! Not to John. He’s a freaking Alph
26LUCAS’ POV.I decided to wait, and listen to whatever it was that Stephanie had to say. She finally got to me, and laid her hands on her knees, panting.She looked as if she had chased after me immediately I left. She was in an apricot satin shirt, and shorts. The design made me aware it was her nightclothes. Then, she wore a long red coat over it.Finally, she raised her head, and looked at me, still breathing hard. Her eyes shone with tears.“I’m sorry. Okay?” She swallowed. “I’m truly sorry. I admit I was cheap, brazen, and… disgusting, but… I don’t know. I just… I’m really sorry.” She said, still breathing hard, and her tears became larger bubbles in her eyes.I had to admit I was taken aback. Was she really apologizing?“I took some time to reflect on myself, and discovered the reason for my short-term relationships. Maybe I needed someone like you to tell me the harsh truth. No…nobody bothered to tell me, you know. It hurts to hear it from someone I really like, but perhaps i
27EMILY’S POV.I stared at Katie for a while, who looked like she had a thousand things on her mind. Could she be feeling guilty about sleeping with John? Thinking about it, she had been really shocked when I caught her sleeping with John.She looked at me with fear afterward. Had she been masking her remorse and guilt? Because she was nothing like Mandy. She was more laid back, and calm, and didn’t look like she liked much trouble.Had John forced her to sleep with him? Did he prey on her, and threaten her with something else? No, she seemed quite close with John. She and Mandy called him by his name, and John said he trusted his secretary more than he trusted me.She looked away from the window, and accidentally spotted me staring. She blinked once, and got to her feet.Her head lowered in a little bow, and she gracefully walked away in her black shirt, and fitted white skirt.“What are you thinking? It doesn’t change the fact that John cheated on you with her, and she sounded like
EMILY’S POVSeeing how I broke into uncontrollable tears over something that ought to have caused me to simply bite my lip, and grunt in anger; I finally realized how much I was hurting.I had been telling myself I was fine, and had pushed down my hurt by trying to encourage myself.I wasn’t fine. No, not at all. I was hurt, and broken in the worst way. John had gotten to me after all. Everything about my life sucked. I just wanted to wake up, and realize it had all just been a horrible nightmare.My tears streamed down my face hotly, and it seemed like they emitted steam that heated my whole face.The maids looked puzzled, as they tried to console me.They were probably wondering why I was crying so hard over papers.I want to go home, I wish to leave. Damn, I hate John! I hate everything! Aaaah! Why’s my life so messed up? Three years is a long hell of a time. Three good years living with such an idiot, I couldn’t keep the words blasting from all corners of my mind.Would I ever be
76EMILY’S POV.Why couldn’t I speak? Maybe I was just so terrified by their looks, and awfully aware that if anything went wrong, I was in trouble.It felt like just sitting there watching them would give me a panic attack.“You are sleeping with him.” Lady Mira said in horror, and I shook my hands and head immediately. It was only then that the words came pouring out.“Why would I sleep with him? He’s John’s uncle. I can’t forget that. John would be so mad, and if the news gets out, we’ll be in trouble. I can’t do that to the family. Lucas and I are just friends. There’s nothing going on between us. If you ask Sadie, she’ll tell you. She was the one who wanted us to be friends in the first place. I’m not sleeping with Lucas. He also can’t do that to John. They’re like brothers. I’m engaged to John. That is impossible. I don’t want you thinking I have something sexual to do with him.” I blurted out, breathing faster.“Then why didn’t you say a thing when we asked you?” Alpha Raymond
75EMILY’S POV.I looked at Lucas, but he didn’t look at me. He simply toyed with his dinner. My heart thundered in my chest. Everything was going wrong.No, things weren’t supposed to be that way. I swallowed, and looked at them. They were expecting a reply from me. “Uh, wh…what time?”“We’ll call you whenever we’re ready.” Lady Genevieve said, looking at me like she’d love to just cut me off from the family.If she wanted to do that, I had no objections. I had no interest in staying with a family that had so much rules, and regulations, too many dos and don’ts.It would have been better if they just told me the time, so I could be prepared for it. Why would they say they would call me when they needed it?The dinner was a quiet one, but within me was a storm of fear. Alpha Raymond and Lady Genevieve scared me a lot. They were always looking tight, and angry whenever I saw them. Lady Mira didn’t seem to care about me or anything I did, and Alpha Will looked like he was considering if
74LUCAS’ POV.I was plain shocked to see Emily and me displayed on the screen.There was the photo of us having coffee. The one with Emily going out with the pink dress. Although it was just her. I wasn’t in the picture. Then there was another of us laughing, while grilling meat, right before John offered to join us.It felt like my heart had seized. Everyone was murmuring, and looking for us.“Isn’t that Mr. Granger’s fiancée?”“I thought she was getting married to John?”“Is she the one? I think she is. I saw their engagement poster, and announcements.”“Are they no longer together?”“Oh my God. Is it an affair!?”“Did she cheat on him with his Uncle?”“This is crazy. What is this?”Genevieve got up, looking stiff with anger, and walked straight to the little cubicle where the technical people were working. She probably had a lot to say.I looked at Emily, and saw she couldn’t even take her eyes off the screen. Her eyes were wide open, and I could see the hand which held her glass
73EMILY’S POV.I hid my hands behind a jug of orange juice, and felt the need to leave the place.“I have no idea.” I said, and she smiled.“Isn’t it disturbing to sleep with your fiancé’s relative?” She asked, and my eyes shot to hers.“What?” I asked, finding it hard to breathe.“I mean I’d find it disturbing. Wouldn’t you?” She asked John. “If you slept with your fiancée’s relative, wouldn’t you feel disgusted?” She asked, and John smiled.“If it’s for revenge, then I guess it’s fine. Revenge should be worse than the first offence.” He replied, and Mandy’s face fell.“I do not think the same way.” She said.“Is it a true life story?” Alpha Raymond asked, and Mandy glanced at me briefly, before turning back to Alpha Raymond.“I think it is.” She said, looking like she was giving it a thought.Lucas next to me was just eating, and scrolling through his phone. He didn’t seem to be bothered at all.Sadie kept on smirking, and it felt like I was the only one who was disturbed by Mandy’
72EMILY’S POV.“Mandy!” I called, getting to my feet abruptly.She stopped, and turned around slowly, with a smile on her face.“You can’t just do that. That’s ridiculous. No way. Why would I upload a drunk video and tag the Elders?” I asked, and she walked to me slowly.“You have no other reason to do it, except the fact that I will spill your secrets. Tell me, are you that great? How did you get Lucas to sleep with you? Did you drug him? Don’t tell me he actually likes you, or that you both are in a relationship.”“It’s not that way.”“Then what way? You accused John of cheating, but slept with his Uncle?”“I didn’t even know he was John’s Uncle, and that was after I broke up with him. I was reckless, and angry after finding Katie in his bed, and… look, I don’t even need to narrate anything to you. It’s none of your business.”“You think I’ll believe that shit? Dream on.”“Your choice, Mandy.”“I give you till evening.” She said, and walked away, leaving me fuming.How was it that
71EMILY’S POV.Fear seized my heart, and it seemed iced water was washed down my chest. It was the end. Was I going to be blackmailed by her too? Was this the end?What would happen if the family found out I had slept with Lucas? Already, none of them seemed to like to see me with Lucas.“What are you doing eavesdropping on us?” I shot at her, and she raised her brows.“Eavesdropping? Was there something I wasn’t supposed to hear? I only came to make sure you were sleeping well.” She said, looking at us cluelessly.“Why would you do that? You didn’t do that yesterday, or the day before.” Sadie pointed out.“Tonight was a little intense for Emily. She was stuck with John and was probably boiling inside. I only came to see.” She said, feigning innocence, but to me, that was bullshit.I couldn’t hope she hadn’t heard anymore.“If you have heard something, just spit it out. This doesn’t suit you.” I said, wanting to get it over with immediately, rather than anticipating if she would tell
70EMILY’S POV.We both stopped, and from the corner of my eye, I could see Sadie tense up. My lips trembled, and my heart rate began to pick up slowly, but steadily, gradually rising to maniacal beating.How did it happen that we were discussing such problematic matters in the living room?“Did you both see a ghost?” Mandy asked, smoothing her satin evening gown.“What?” Sadie asked, breathily.“You both are sent for. Dinner’s about to start.” She said, and looked from my face to Sadie’s, before turning around, and walking back out the door.“Do you… do you think she heard anything? She didn’t, did she? Did she look like she heard us saying something?” I asked, with my eyes trained on the door like it would swing open again.“I don’t know. I’m just as clueless as you are.”“What was the last thing we said?” I asked, suddenly forgetting the last thing I had said.“You and the pregnancy.”“Oh my God, oh my, oh my, this isn’t good.” I said, getting up, and placing my hands behind my hea
69EMILY’S POV.I brought my laughter to a stop slowly, and Lucas’ laughter also subsided. As he focused on the meat he was grilling, John walked towards us, with his hands in his pockets.Gosh, Jealousy made him look like an insane psychiatric patient who escaped from the hospital.“What’s the occasion?” He asked, as he approached us.“Burning hot beef against the chilly cold weather.” Lucas said, picking up a slice of beef, and offering it to him.John opened his mouth, and Lucas dropped the meat in. John juggled the meat in his mouth, and sat on the chair in front of us. Why the maids had placed three chairs there in the first place, I had no idea.“Mind if I join?” He asked, with mouth dancing to the rhythm of the hot beef.“Sure. There’s enough to eat.” Lucas replied, and I took a long drink from my orange juice. It was refreshing, but unfortunately, I couldn’t feel it.John stared at me.“Why were you laughing?” He asked, and I got to my feet.“Have a nice night, Mr. Granger.” I
68EMILY’S POV.My heart was thundering and it seemed like it would tear out of my chest, as I found that I couldn’t tear my eyes off his lips.I was finally losing my senses. Even my saliva was hard to swallow, and it took him tilting his head—to try to decipher what was wrong with me—to get my eyes off him.I turned away sharply, stepping into the rain, and stepping backwards after feeling the harsh and direct coldness. I bumped against him, and jumped.It was tempting to place my hand on my chest, and try to make it stop beating hard.“Why? Did you want to kiss me?” I heard him ask, and I turned to him immediately.“No. Why? Why would you say that?” I asked, shaking my head, and playing dumb.He smirked, and his eyes fell to my lips. I swallowed hard, and stepped out of the umbrella.“There’s a taxi!” I shouted, running towards a vacant taxi approaching us in the far distance.He was next to me shortly, covering me alone with the small umbrella.We got into the taxi, while Lucas ca