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CHAPTER 20. I TRUST YOU, BUT I STILL FEEL UNEASY

RYDER

The few days I spent away from the pack on my business trip was the worst days of my life. Or maybe not the worst, but they were just as bad.

I could barely get my thoughts together. I wasn't articulated enough and continuously zoned out. It's a good thing I still got the deal, regardless of how distracted I was. Back in my hotel room, I was always lost in my thoughts. The name 'Hara' reverberated in the walls of my heart. She was all I thought of, all I dreamt of. I was itchy to get back. I wanted to know what she's been up to. How she's doing. I was scared she might be having another complication with her unborn child. From what I lucked up from her thoughts, she's had a few complications in the past. I feared the constant rain and thunder might scare her at night. I hated that she was alone. I'd give anything to be with her, hold her, kiss her, fuck her. I'd kept Jason on her tail, and that was the only thing that had me a lit
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