Flynn crossed his arms on the table, assuming a curious and relaxed position. His eyes narrowed slightly, wanting to see below that shell that I kept on my feelings."I have all the free time for you, Tasha.”I rolled my eyes, but ended up opening a little smile."You're a real real real.”Flynn laughed and gestured with his shoulders."I am, and I can't interpret very well who you really are. So tell me, my favorite mystery, what is your relationship with your family?”"Terrible," I replied, swallowing it dry. "I was born into a strange family, which did not think it was necessary to show feelings for each other. My father only married my mother because she got pregnant, so I was a carnival mistake that lasted a lifetime. My older sister is the daughter of another man who was also my mother's mistake. However, the difference is that my mother loves my sister, and hates me. So, as if to remedy the situation of hate and love, they decided to have one more child, who is my brother. He w
Flynn reached a space in my heart that day, while eating a hot dog and lost the composure of a businessman by getting all dirty with ketchup. He didn't complain when I used a napkin to clean his mouth and cheek, and offered me a piece of what he ate while he kept talking about his life. And this time I wasn't pretending to listen, I was really interested in knowing more about every little piece of it. And I was surprised to learn that he also had a tattoo, because no photo showed it.It was the head of a lion at the top of his forearm, whose design was of black and bluish tones, so that it stood out perfectly on his Caucasian skin. Flynn said he still had plans to get more tattoos, but, like me, he had a formed and irreducible opinion about needles: A pain that could be avoided if it was not caused by a vaccine.When we went back to walking around the square, I was no longer holding his hand, but his arm, because I was talking by the elbows about my stressful routine in the supermarke
The sound that our lips produced when they were separated made me regret having moved away. And Flynn's eyes were surprised and frightened. I don't think he expected me to act that way, not after all. I think he thought I had been offended in some way. Especially when he noticed that I started to walk blindly backwards, wanting to move as far away from his presence as possible." Tasha, I'm sorry... I didn't want to force you..." he said, trying to look for words so that I wouldn't feel harassed. "I thought that after what we did...”"No," was the only thing I could say before I started running.I couldn't say I was moving away because I knew how that story would end. That I was scared for having trusted him to say my biggest fears and questions. I was terrified of the way my body reacted to his touch, as if he recognized the longing for a family caress, and that I was already more than surrendered to him in just one night.And I knew he was following me as I started running away, bec
I never liked Cinderella's fairy tale.Since I was little I have always been bothered by the fact that a poor orphan was enslaved by her stepmother, and still had to run away for one night to participate in the ball in which all the women in her village were invited. She thought it was even worse that her life goals began to revolve around the prince, and that she did not realize that she was still imprisoned, even after leaving the residence of her deceased parents, since she now belonged to a kingdom and a prince. I never liked this kind of tale, where a woman needed to run away from her house to have freedom, and that instead had only won a different cell in her personal prison.Although I hate Cinderella, every time that night when I looked at one of my bare feet, I couldn't help but notice the similarities of the tale to my life, considering that I also lost a shoe to run away from a man. Because Cinderella also fled when she came into shock, when she realized that the spell of h
"Because after everything we had ever done, he kissed me, I panicked, I started running through the woods that exists here next to my house, and when I went to cross the bridge, I ended up standing on the floor and losing my sneakers. My hair is like that naturally, it's just that you've never seen it without a flat iron," I explained at once, in a short breath. "And, no, he didn't make me do anything. I just panicked because I felt too attracted and didn't know how to deal with it. And now, realizing your reaction, I think he may also be thinking that he has exceeded some limit.”Beatrice and Gildeon looked at each other, some conversation going on between them without me being able to understand, so Gildeon nodded to his wife and left us alone. I watched him slam the bedroom door to give us total privacy. The television has also been increased. Beatrice put one of her hands on her waist and watched me as a mother would do for a child who has just been hurt in the most ridiculous way
Defeated by the amount of questions in my head, I leaned back on the couch and watched the cup in my hands. The tea liquid still spiraled smoke to my nose, unclogging the airways that had become clogged with my crying. I hated crying in front of others. I hated showing any sign of weakness. Only that night had he acted more inconsequentibly than years."Anyhow, I've already screwed up and I don't want to see him again," I shot with pure pride in my voice.Beatrice sighed, but nodded. She was silent for a moment, just watching the opposite side of the room, reflecting on the craziest friend she had. Beatrice has never seen me cry either. I think if she was used to it, maybe she would have offered me a hug or something. She just stood there, anyway, giving moral support for me to calm down.I couldn't stop feeling like an animal that experienced wildlife and had to return to its captivity. Flynn aroused me so many sensations, so many questions about my way of leading life, that I could
I lied so well that sometimes I even convinced myself of that. But as much as I repeated that out loud, I couldn't believe it. I won't forget the way Flynn kissed me, the rubbing of his beard against my face, the way his hair was soft to the touch... I would never forget how he used his finger to try to prepare me to receive his penis, and that it was of no use, because it hurt as if I was losing my virginity, and it was pleasurable as if I were dying.Beatrice seemed to read everything on my face, and her smile became a shadow of pure malice. I coughed and straightened my shoulders, wanting to get over the situation. My friend studied me very coldly." Stop thinking about what you should or shouldn't say, Tasha. You're not a machine.”I gestured with my shoulders."It turns out that I don't really know who I am, Bia. And I'm tired of disappointing people.”"All right. Do whatever you want," said Beatrice, sighing with frustration. "I'll still be here, in case you need it. But don't p
Somehow I managed to get rid of Beatrice's sermons, but she gave me a considerable amount of tea bags to take to my apartment, and made a point of accompanying me to my door. In general, I would rather have tea than coffee, but nothing served to calm me down, and the mess in my head seemed like a whirlpool. I wouldn't be able to calm down even if I took medicine.Beatrice grumbled a few words of farewell and reprimand, however, I decided not to listen, not to absorb. And I entered my apartment as fast as I could, leaning against the door and sitting on the floor. The cold floor came into contact with my lower thighs, and my whole body seemed to get cold from one hour to the next, so I pulled my legs up to my chest and hugged, laying my head on my arms.I knew it would all be easier if I could really say loud and clear the way I felt, but I just didn't know how to do it, and I thought that meeting Beatrice at that time of night would help me think more clearly. However, I had only been
I almost no longer needed to use the tracker I had installed on Flynn's cell phone at the beginning of everything. I only used it because I still couldn't stop that mistrust when I noticed that he spent too much time working. But the conversations were always the same with the customers. And I didn't suspect that he was going out with other people, because there was no time when we weren't together. Still, I couldn't totally trust him. There were days when I didn't sleep. Not until I was really alone at home.My sleep problems remained the same. Always caused by that fear of being vulnerable next to someone else, and also by the constant nightmares about the murders I've been orchestrating with the help of someone else. I never told my therapist the truth. I never let him reach more than the edge of my feelings. At the same time I was policing myself to act and speak the way everyone expected Tasha Santos to do, although deep down there was that rabid animal that was always ready to a
"Can you behave like educated children? "He scolded my sister, pulling one of my nephews by the ear. "That's why I never go out with you!”" Jenyfer, it doesn't have to be so hard," countered my brother-in-law, reaching the smaller child who wouldn't stop climbing on the couch and throwing the cushions up. "They are too small to understand. And I'm sure your sister doesn't mind them playing, does Tasha?”"They will understand very well when their aunt put them on platters and bake for our lunch," shouted Jenyfer, looking with her eyes for any confirmation that I would be really furious.I left the platter with pasta in white sauce on the table and stretched my neck to see through the open door of the kitchen, finding my brother-in-law with my three-year-old nephew on his lap who kicked and shook his golden curl hair, in a desperate attempt to get back to mess up everything he found on his way. While my sister held her eldest son, ten years old, by the tip of her ear. It should be hurt
I still hid many secrets from Flynn. The biggest of them was also a surprise that left me in shock for at least three days, until I remembered that I needed to act normally so that he had no idea what was happening to my body, until I found the perfect opportunity to use this against him. At the moment, we were fine. We had sex every day. We ate in fancy places. We slept in the moonlight. And sometimes we resumed the sexual provocations and attacks within the company.Everything seemed very good in my life. So good that sometimes I even wondered where the hidden cameras of the prank were. Because trying to compare the woman of months ago who barely had time to eat and sleep because of the two jobs that they couldn't even pay the bills, and trying to find similarities with the woman who was having the life of dreams, was impossible. I still worked during the day and dedicated myself to writing in my free moments, wanting to reach higher and higher levels in that achievement, and willin
I knelt before the well-kept and immaculate tomb of one of the farthest cemeteries in the city, depositing my set of small yellow flowers below the concrete tombstone, which read "Diana Garcia. 08/23/1991. 12/24/2020."Despite bringing a handkerchief in my hands and touching it from time to time in the waterline of my eyes, I wasn't crying. In fact, the only emotion I felt was the pure satisfaction of having accomplished all my goals without anyone realizing where I was wanting to go. Diana Garcia had been the woman who gave the bad luck to cross her path to mine, when she decided to mistreat me and demoralize in front of her ex-husband, and my current fiancé, Flynn Ashton. I persuaded an unstable and deeply shaken man to take his life. I manipulated and orchestrated every step taken, and I still became some kind of national victim who was too traumatized to give clear statements to the police. Diana Garcia was my perfect victim, and Landon the criminal who freed me from paying for an
"What's going to happen now? "I asked against your chest. "What do we do with life? With the police? The investigator was here earlier. He asked me about my relationship with Leo, the man who held me hostage at the end of the robbery. In the researcher's opinion, I seemed to be too friendly with someone who always presented unstable behaviors.”"I knew," he said, leaning his chin on my head. "They want to discredit us in every way, Tas. But you don't have to worry. I have a real team of lawyers. No one will get enough arguments to cause fear. They have nothing to suspect, at the end of the day. The point is that it is much more interesting to focus on the relationships we had with the people involved in the crime, than to actually solve it. That's the problem with the police in this place.”"I'm still afraid, Flynn. "I commented in a trembling voice. "I'm still afraid that they might catch me off guard and make me confess something I didn't even do. I've never been in front of police
"I don't feel vulnerable," I said, already feeling in which direction that conversation would take. I had to show that I was very stubborn and the owner of my own will. "And I think this whole situation may have made you a little paranoid, Flynn. I'm not criticizing. I think anyone in their normal state would become a little suspicious. But if you're suggesting that I need security guards, I refuse. I can’t work every day knowing that when I leave the supermarket I will get into a car with two armed men and that they will leave me at home, or that they will take me to your house, because you no longer trust the people who live in my building, and that’s why you prefer to avoid it. I don't want bodyguards, just like you don't want to either. And I don't think that being with you will make me a target. I think this can even increase my security, since no one will want to mess with someone so powerful.”"I know the question is strange to you," he said, still without looking me in the eye
Flynn totally entered the room, and seeing him was like opening the curtains in a dark room. He was my sun on that rainy night outside, and I was really happy to see him. The hair was loose on his shoulders, and the smooth and silky strands slipped smoothly to make the face even more beautiful and shiny. He took off his mask and kept it in his pocket, while still watching me, looking as happy and radiant as I should be."The nurse told us that the number of visits was limited," Cristiano said somewhere far from my attention. "I don't think she'll be happy to see so many people in here. Tasha just went through a traumatic situation. She needs rest. You can't keep getting so many people in the room like that.”"You're right," said Flynn, looking away for a quick moment to observe Cristiano. "You can leave now. I've arrived.”"I'm not going out," Cristiano said with a dull giggle. "I arrived first.”"Oh, for God's sake! "Beatrice grunted, rising from a jump. She pulled Cristiano violentl
"Look, Cris... I really like you. I really loved you more than anything in this life. But you're not the guy I can call when the situation gets tight, you know? "I said, performing a mouth-in-mouth. "You're the guy who amuses me, makes me laugh, but that's all. All you do besides that is hurt me. And I know you may be being sincere in saying that you really realized that we were born for each other and that we should continue together, but now, after all, you no longer fit into my life, Cris.”"No, Tas. You don't have to say anything. "He interrupted, pretending that I hadn't really said anything. "I understand that you are already with someone else. And I don't want this guy to suffer, thinking that you'll be able to love him as you love me. I know you can't love anyone the same way you loved me, and I think he'll need some time to understand that. But I don't want to force anything. I don't want you to tell him out of nowhere that you don't want to see him anymore. We can make it wo
Beatrice snorted, but went to sit in one of the chairs, watching Cristiano like an eagle watching the chicks in her nest."What do you need to know? "He asked."How did the police arrive so fast? "I asked Beatrice, disappointing Cristiano's expectations. "How did they know what was happening in the supermarket, if the employees were surrendered before they had time to call them?”"The police had been following Flynn since the first crime," she replied, undoing the angry expression. "They considered him a suspect, yes, but the point was that they believed that the bandits would not leave Flynn alive to tell the story of what had happened. And, being a billionaire man in the middle of Brazil, they took on the role of following his every step to know if they would not meet the bandits at some point. And the moment came when Flynn came to pick you up that night. They were waiting across the street, in plainclothes, when they noticed that masked men entered the establishment. All we really