The cold wind on the eve of Christmas night touched my hair, moving them away from my face as I raised my head to the traffic light in the middle of the intersection, which had just turned red and allowed a small group of passers-by who surrounded me to cross the crosswalk. I walked with a certain hurry, listening to the friction of the jump of my boot against the smooth The people around me, like any Paulista "regardless of whether that was a city in the interior of São Paulo", walked to worry about nothing but their own destinations, so no one looked once again when I went to one of the most remote and unsafe areas of the region.Even in the interior, it was possible to see the very peculiar and customary difference between the social classes of our country. On the one hand, some buildings and a civilization that showed that they were always well with life or so rushed that they did not bother to pay attention to others. On the other side, peripheral houses and young people who gath
I didn't always remember which version of a sad story I invented for people. Lany knew the same as Beatrice, by the way. The story that I had left home because I had controlling parents and that even from afar they kept sending me messages to ask for money. Of course it was a lie. And of course I didn't always remember to support the same version more than once."Well, if it's any consolation... "I gestured with my shoulders, keeping my hands in my coat pockets. "I still have a job, but it's not enough for my accounts.”"I would even tell you to get out of there, but I understand that it's hard for us like us to get something else," Lany said in a sad tone. "People insist on saying that slavery is over, but don't they really get real? The difference is that now even whites are being enslaved. That will never change. And for black people, like us, the situation seems to only get worse. Did you hear about the kid who died because of police officers this morning, Tas?”My face of astonish
" Yeah, Tasha, you think very well about things," said Leo, reflecting on himself. He didn't even notice that the corners of my lips shook to smile and I contained the reaction at the last second. "I think I'm going to take another walk around the neighborhood. Seeing someone who's sick. Not only poverty, but everything, you know? Someone who wants to give up. So she'll steal without a problem. When we have nothing to lose, we don't care what you're going to gain either.”"That's it," I agreed out loud. "You're too smart, Leo. You need to use this to your advantage. You know you would win the easy world if you had the opportunity. You have to go after it the way you really can.”Leo agreed, and a moment later, the uproar of the drunk young people got too high for us to stay there, so he took me back towards the alley. At that moment, some boys were leaving the house and passed us with quick and serious greetings, certainly going to the square in order to join the other lost young peop
The woman who was sitting on the couch of Beatrice's house that night next to a Flynn Ashton who smiled happily, did not even look the same as thirty minutes before she had been convincing a man to commit murder. Because that woman was smiling and felt truly grateful to have people with whom she could celebrate one of the most important festive seasons of life, even though these same people were so oblivious to the fact that that woman did not have much zeal for the lives of others.I was celebrating Christmas Eve with my friends, since I couldn't count on the expectation that my sister would call me to be with her, and, in fact, I didn't even worry about sending a message wishing me happy holidays, since I doubted that she would at least receive the message, considering that I was still blocked. And since Flynn also said he would have to go alone in his big mansion, since his father was still traveling, I invited him to be with me that night. But as soon as the company of Beatrice's
But when it came to Flynn, the situation became much more complicated. I confessed to everyone who wanted to hear that I was really in love with him. I just didn't have the courage to confess to myself. I was still trying to deal with those emotions touched on by the intimacy acquired with Flynn. Every moment next to him made me want more, and every distant moment made me sad for his absence. Still, I bravely fought against the idea of accepting that not even my thoughts were only mine, since now they used to revolve around Flynn even more often."I'm not in love, no. I've been a little happier than before, but this is a reflection of all the good things that have been happening in my life. And I haven't been giggling since the day we met "I disguised my smile, curling my lips. "As because we are still getting to know each other, trying to understand how we feel, what we want when we are together. Everything happened very quickly. We tried to maintain a friendship, so we realized that
"Forgive my delay," said Izabel, hurrying with a platter of passion fruit mousse in her hands and two bags in her arms. She leaned over to kiss her daughter on the face and turned to me. "Hi, Tasha, my beautiful. It's a pleasure to meet you in person.”"It's my pleasure, Mrs. Iza," I replied, mirroring the smile she gave me."And you, who is it? "She asked curiously.Flynn got up from the hug he gave me and stretched out a hand in the direction of the plump woman."I'm Flynn," he said. " Tasha's boyfriend.”My heart suddenly inflated."Nice to meet you," she said, holding his hand briefly. Although she still smiled, Izabel frowned lightly as she stared at Flynn. "Do you feel good?”I turned around in the chair to look. Flynn frowned and also looked at me, making an expression of those who find someone else's question amusingly strange. Beatrice, who watched the scene while moving a spoon in a jar of juice, narrowed her eyes slightly towards her mother."I am, of course," said Flynn, s
So, when dinner was over and we went back to the living room until the food settled down and we could eat dessert, I was very happy and anxious. Flynn was always by my side, with one of his arms on my shoulder, while talking nonchalantly with Gildeon and Beatrice. I spent much of that moment observing his expressions, wanting to write down every spontaneous gesture and every curve of his features. Not that I still needed that for my book. I had already advanced much of the work, and now I was just reviewing some scenes before sending the manuscript to Beatrice's editor. I was doing that out of a real fascination, the reason I could no longer hide.Flynn Ashton has become the axis of my world. So that despite every turn, despite every action I took or choice I made, it would be he who would bring me back to my place of peace when I needed it. Flynn managed to break down the barriers I've been keeping around my heart, to deliberately prevent anyone from reaching the place where I wanted
I turned my head very quickly in the direction of Flynn. Not that I really believed that Izabel could say something genuinely worrying, since despite liking her presence very much, it was inevitable not to consider her a charlatan. I just didn't want to pay to see if Flynn's ancestors were already aware of my plans for his future."Yes, I would like to, ma'am," said Flynn, leaning lightly on the couch. "What do you need to see my future?”Izabel seemed to inflame, as radiant as she could be to see that someone unknown was interested in hearing her predictions. Beatrice deeply regretted, but obeyed when her mother asked for the witches' deck, and left dragging her feet to bring the item to the room. So Izabel began a series of preparations to make the environment more susceptible and pleasant to her deities, and this caused Beatrice to have to turn off all the lights and light candles. I started to feel a little weird. First, I had drunk because I didn't feel vulnerable in front of tho
I almost no longer needed to use the tracker I had installed on Flynn's cell phone at the beginning of everything. I only used it because I still couldn't stop that mistrust when I noticed that he spent too much time working. But the conversations were always the same with the customers. And I didn't suspect that he was going out with other people, because there was no time when we weren't together. Still, I couldn't totally trust him. There were days when I didn't sleep. Not until I was really alone at home.My sleep problems remained the same. Always caused by that fear of being vulnerable next to someone else, and also by the constant nightmares about the murders I've been orchestrating with the help of someone else. I never told my therapist the truth. I never let him reach more than the edge of my feelings. At the same time I was policing myself to act and speak the way everyone expected Tasha Santos to do, although deep down there was that rabid animal that was always ready to a
"Can you behave like educated children? "He scolded my sister, pulling one of my nephews by the ear. "That's why I never go out with you!”" Jenyfer, it doesn't have to be so hard," countered my brother-in-law, reaching the smaller child who wouldn't stop climbing on the couch and throwing the cushions up. "They are too small to understand. And I'm sure your sister doesn't mind them playing, does Tasha?”"They will understand very well when their aunt put them on platters and bake for our lunch," shouted Jenyfer, looking with her eyes for any confirmation that I would be really furious.I left the platter with pasta in white sauce on the table and stretched my neck to see through the open door of the kitchen, finding my brother-in-law with my three-year-old nephew on his lap who kicked and shook his golden curl hair, in a desperate attempt to get back to mess up everything he found on his way. While my sister held her eldest son, ten years old, by the tip of her ear. It should be hurt
I still hid many secrets from Flynn. The biggest of them was also a surprise that left me in shock for at least three days, until I remembered that I needed to act normally so that he had no idea what was happening to my body, until I found the perfect opportunity to use this against him. At the moment, we were fine. We had sex every day. We ate in fancy places. We slept in the moonlight. And sometimes we resumed the sexual provocations and attacks within the company.Everything seemed very good in my life. So good that sometimes I even wondered where the hidden cameras of the prank were. Because trying to compare the woman of months ago who barely had time to eat and sleep because of the two jobs that they couldn't even pay the bills, and trying to find similarities with the woman who was having the life of dreams, was impossible. I still worked during the day and dedicated myself to writing in my free moments, wanting to reach higher and higher levels in that achievement, and willin
I knelt before the well-kept and immaculate tomb of one of the farthest cemeteries in the city, depositing my set of small yellow flowers below the concrete tombstone, which read "Diana Garcia. 08/23/1991. 12/24/2020."Despite bringing a handkerchief in my hands and touching it from time to time in the waterline of my eyes, I wasn't crying. In fact, the only emotion I felt was the pure satisfaction of having accomplished all my goals without anyone realizing where I was wanting to go. Diana Garcia had been the woman who gave the bad luck to cross her path to mine, when she decided to mistreat me and demoralize in front of her ex-husband, and my current fiancé, Flynn Ashton. I persuaded an unstable and deeply shaken man to take his life. I manipulated and orchestrated every step taken, and I still became some kind of national victim who was too traumatized to give clear statements to the police. Diana Garcia was my perfect victim, and Landon the criminal who freed me from paying for an
"What's going to happen now? "I asked against your chest. "What do we do with life? With the police? The investigator was here earlier. He asked me about my relationship with Leo, the man who held me hostage at the end of the robbery. In the researcher's opinion, I seemed to be too friendly with someone who always presented unstable behaviors.”"I knew," he said, leaning his chin on my head. "They want to discredit us in every way, Tas. But you don't have to worry. I have a real team of lawyers. No one will get enough arguments to cause fear. They have nothing to suspect, at the end of the day. The point is that it is much more interesting to focus on the relationships we had with the people involved in the crime, than to actually solve it. That's the problem with the police in this place.”"I'm still afraid, Flynn. "I commented in a trembling voice. "I'm still afraid that they might catch me off guard and make me confess something I didn't even do. I've never been in front of police
"I don't feel vulnerable," I said, already feeling in which direction that conversation would take. I had to show that I was very stubborn and the owner of my own will. "And I think this whole situation may have made you a little paranoid, Flynn. I'm not criticizing. I think anyone in their normal state would become a little suspicious. But if you're suggesting that I need security guards, I refuse. I can’t work every day knowing that when I leave the supermarket I will get into a car with two armed men and that they will leave me at home, or that they will take me to your house, because you no longer trust the people who live in my building, and that’s why you prefer to avoid it. I don't want bodyguards, just like you don't want to either. And I don't think that being with you will make me a target. I think this can even increase my security, since no one will want to mess with someone so powerful.”"I know the question is strange to you," he said, still without looking me in the eye
Flynn totally entered the room, and seeing him was like opening the curtains in a dark room. He was my sun on that rainy night outside, and I was really happy to see him. The hair was loose on his shoulders, and the smooth and silky strands slipped smoothly to make the face even more beautiful and shiny. He took off his mask and kept it in his pocket, while still watching me, looking as happy and radiant as I should be."The nurse told us that the number of visits was limited," Cristiano said somewhere far from my attention. "I don't think she'll be happy to see so many people in here. Tasha just went through a traumatic situation. She needs rest. You can't keep getting so many people in the room like that.”"You're right," said Flynn, looking away for a quick moment to observe Cristiano. "You can leave now. I've arrived.”"I'm not going out," Cristiano said with a dull giggle. "I arrived first.”"Oh, for God's sake! "Beatrice grunted, rising from a jump. She pulled Cristiano violentl
"Look, Cris... I really like you. I really loved you more than anything in this life. But you're not the guy I can call when the situation gets tight, you know? "I said, performing a mouth-in-mouth. "You're the guy who amuses me, makes me laugh, but that's all. All you do besides that is hurt me. And I know you may be being sincere in saying that you really realized that we were born for each other and that we should continue together, but now, after all, you no longer fit into my life, Cris.”"No, Tas. You don't have to say anything. "He interrupted, pretending that I hadn't really said anything. "I understand that you are already with someone else. And I don't want this guy to suffer, thinking that you'll be able to love him as you love me. I know you can't love anyone the same way you loved me, and I think he'll need some time to understand that. But I don't want to force anything. I don't want you to tell him out of nowhere that you don't want to see him anymore. We can make it wo
Beatrice snorted, but went to sit in one of the chairs, watching Cristiano like an eagle watching the chicks in her nest."What do you need to know? "He asked."How did the police arrive so fast? "I asked Beatrice, disappointing Cristiano's expectations. "How did they know what was happening in the supermarket, if the employees were surrendered before they had time to call them?”"The police had been following Flynn since the first crime," she replied, undoing the angry expression. "They considered him a suspect, yes, but the point was that they believed that the bandits would not leave Flynn alive to tell the story of what had happened. And, being a billionaire man in the middle of Brazil, they took on the role of following his every step to know if they would not meet the bandits at some point. And the moment came when Flynn came to pick you up that night. They were waiting across the street, in plainclothes, when they noticed that masked men entered the establishment. All we really