ALINAA lot of time had passed since my heart started to soften towards Kai. Since the day he had brought me the chocolate from my pack, somehow I felt like I could warm up to him. Forgiving him did not seem that bad. He did not buy my forgiveness with a pack of exotic chocolate of course, but I just did not feel the same animosity towards him. The fact that he did that for me made me more happy than I have ever had. No one— except Xavier who cheated on me— showed me kindness like this. Maybe forgiving him was not that bad. He has also been coming to my room all the time to talk. He had brought me a stack of books to read, and I almost screamed with joy when I saw them. I never had access to books back in my pack, only when I was about to clean my father’s library would I sneak and read some pages before he came back. He had never caught me trying to do that, but I did not want to imagine what would have happened if he did. But here, I could be myself. I could read a lot of pages eve
KAI I was outside, giving orders to some of the guards, my mind preoccupied with the ongoing issues at the pack border. It seemed like every day, there was a new problem—rebels, rogue wolves, strange reports that I wasn’t sure whether to believe or not. Everything felt like it was on the verge of falling apart, and I was barely holding it together. It did not help that the lords and elders were still adamant about not collecting any order I gave.They were growing impatient with every day that passed and recently, I had a feeling that they were already planning my assassination. Perhaps they already had someone that they wanted to be in line. I wished I could fire them all, but then that would not be smart because I knew that I was going to need them if I was able to get Alina as my luna. They have seen two generations of the alphas of the Seven Isles. They are the best. I was mid-sentence, telling the head of security about a new patrol schedule, when I caught sight of her. Alina.
ALINA I spent the next few days in my room and the next time I came out to take a walk, I found out that the pack was in complete lockdown, and I was starting to get restless. It was the Seven freaking Isles. It was the most secure place in our entire world, and yet it was having creepy killings. They knew that this could be the work of another werewolf. There was something dark that was brimming with us that we did not know. Since Kai had told me about the killings at the border, I decided it was safer to stay inside so I went back to staying alone in my room, even if it meant I was stuck in my room with nothing to do. Days felt long, and despite the initial comfort I had found in my surroundings, the quiet was beginning to gnaw at me.Kai had also visited me every night. At first, I was hesitant, unsure of what he wanted, but over time, I found myself looking forward to our conversations. He wasn’t the same man I had thought he was. He listened. He asked about my day, about my past
KAI The next few days were a whirlwind of me trying to bypass the elders. They had called for me urgently in the past 24 hours more than five times, and it seemed that it was about time since I went to them. I was tired of our meetings. It only consisted of me telling them the one thing they did not want to hear. After a few more summons today, I decided that I needed to go. They needed to be fucking patient. The tension in the conference room was palpable when I walked in, thickening the air. I sat at the head of the table, staring at the faces of the lords and elders, their expressions a mix of frustration and fear. They seemed to be even more on edge right now. They had sent me a letter that ren more guards had been killed at the borders. I offered my sympathy to the families, but that was not enough. Lily told me that people were talking a lot. “We can’t wait any longer,” Lord Armand said immediately after I sat down on the chair. He did not even wait for me to breathe. “The
ALINA Something felt wrong with Kai. I couldn’t shake the feeling that had settled deep in my chest, the sense that something was off with him. He had been acting strangely for the past few days—distant, distracted, like there was something weighing heavily on his mind. And while he tried to hide it, I could see through him. Normally, I would over think and maybe think that perhaps he was not who he said he was. Maybe he was just putting up an act with me, but then a part of me strongly did not believe that. This morning, I hadn’t seen him at all, which only made the knot in my stomach tighten. I needed to know what was going on, so when one of the maids brought my breakfast, I asked her directly.“Is there something big happening in the pack?” I asked, trying to keep my voice casual, though the anxiety in me was growing.The guard’s eyes widened slightly, like she was not expecting me to speak to her, and she shook her head quickly. “No, ma’am,” she said, her voice tense. “Everyth
ALINAWith the hasty decision I made, I was hoping the day was not going to come soon. I hoped that it would take some more time at least, but that was not the case. The day came as fast even though I was dreading it. On top of all of that, instead of excitement or joy, I was filled with a deep, unsettling sense that something was missing. I stood in front of the mirror, staring at my reflection in the elegant gown I had been fitted for, but I barely recognized the woman looking back at me.This wasn’t how I had imagined my wedding day. When I thought about marriage growing up, it was always about love. I never expected to be standing here, preparing to marry someone because I felt bad for them. And yet, here I was, about to marry Kai. Not because I was madly in love with him, but because I had convinced myself that maybe, just maybe, this was the right thing to do.But deep down, I knew it wasn’t. I could not just marry someone because of that. I wanted to be selfless, but I could no
KAI I felt sick to my core. Guilt clawed at me, heavy and relentless, as I stood in front of the mirror, staring at my reflection. I barely recognized the man looking back at me. The weight of the lie I had told Alina was suffocating, and Nyx’s voice echoed in the back of my mind, a constant reminder that I had gone too far.‘I warned you,’ Nyx growled, his frustration palpable. ‘You shouldn’t have lied. You should’ve been honest with her from the start.’ He had been repeating those words in my head since in the morning that they are starting to feel monotonous. Even when I was busy he was still trying to talk to me. I clenched my fists, trying to block him out even though I knew he was right but I did not need constant reminders of that. I had messed up. In a moment of desperation, I had fabricated the story about Nyx being in pain, using it as an excuse to convince Alina into marrying me. It had seemed like the only way to fix everything, the only way to secure the throne and prot
ALINAI felt nothing. As I walked away from the pack, the place that was supposed to be my home, my future, all I could think about was how numb I felt. It was like everything inside me had shut down. My mind kept racing through the people who had betrayed me. Alex, Kai, Xavier. Kai again. I couldn’t even muster the strength to shed a tear. I had cried so much before, but now, there was nothing left. I was empty. I thought I had found a chance to be happy here. I thought that maybe, after everything I had been through, I could finally have a place where I belonged. I was such a fool to believe that.I kept walking, my steps slow and aimless, not caring where I was going. The borders of the pack were dangerous. I knew that when I made the split second decision to leave and when I was packing my bags but as I stepped out, the murders and the threats didn’t seem to matter anymore. What was the point of being careful when everything had already fallen apart? I couldn’t bring myself to ca