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Not Today, Alphas! Fading Into White
Chapter 52: Fading Into WhiteEris~It continued like this for days or even weeks, to the point where the Autumn was replaced by the cold winter snow.I wanted to peel off my skin at how disgusting it was to feel Darius inside me.The chains dug into my wrists, bruising them over and over again. Darius finally let me go when the snow came, but by then, I was too broken to stand tall. My body was bruised, my legs trembled beneath me.The snow crunched under my feet as I walked to the river. The place where I first met him, the fae. The air was cold, biting against my skin.‘Why are you doing this, Eris?’ Seven’s voice in my mind spoke softly.“I don’t want to talk, Seven,” I whispered, the cold air filled my lungs.‘You’re hurt. You need to transform. The snow’s too cold for you like this.’“I came here to lay down and vanish.”‘You’ll die.’“That’s the plan.”The river wasn’t far. Ice formed along the edges, the current slow, sluggish. The snow was falling heavier now, covering eve
Not Today, Alphas! I Can’t Change Your Fate
Chapter 53 : I Can’t Change Your FateSibil~The sound of snow crunching beneath my feet was muffled by the thickness of white that stretched in every direction. The winter had come faster this year, a cold so sharp it cut through the air like glass. I walked with some purpose, though I wasn’t sure what had drawn me here. Something had been pulling at me for days, like it was a whisper of magic in the air that I couldn’t ignore.And then I saw her.Eris, lying in the snow, her body was blue, her skin was pale against the cold white. Her chest was barely movinh, the rise and fall so shallow it was as if life was slowly slipping away from her. Blood stained the snow near her mouth, the blood coming from her mouth turned into red ice.I stopped a few feet away, staring down at her for a long moment. What was I supposed to do with her? A girl was so lost, so broken? I had told myself before, I can’t interfere in her fate. I wasn’t meant to. Her path was her own to find out, as it wa
Not Today, Alphas! Sleeping-Frozen Beauty!
Chapter 54 : Sleeping-Frozen BeautySamuel~The cold wind bit at my skin as I trudged through the snow toward the graveyard.It had been three months since we buried her and started our invasion plan.Three months since we had lost Eris, and yet the ache in my chest hadn’t dulled. Time wasn’t healing the wounds—it was only making them deeper. I had told myself that coming here wouldn’t change anything, but I couldn’t stay away. Not today.Her grave was just ahead, a small mound of snow-covered earth beneath the skeletal trees. It felt wrong, seeing her name etched into that stone. Eris shouldn’t be there. She shouldn’t be gone.I slowed as I neared the spot, my heart pounding harder in my chest. But something was off. There, lying on the ground near her grave, was a body. It took me a second to process it, but when I did, my entire body went still.It was her.Eris!!!She was lying in the snow, covered in a thick fur cloak, her hair was like a wild tangle around her face. Her breat
Not Today, Alphas! Our Home
Chapter 55 : HomeSamuel~I ran through the snowy forest, my paws pounded against the frozen ground as I held Eris securely on my back. The cold wind whipped against us, but her warmth pressed against my fur was telling me she was alive. I couldn’t believe it. My mind spun with questions—how was she here? Why now? But none of that mattered. She was with me, and I wasn’t going to lose her again.As I ran, the moonlight filtered through the trees, casting long shadows on the snow. I focused on getting home, to my own territory where no one could take her from me. I had to protect her. I was thinking a lot, and alongside me, Sibil’s ring and the red hair still fresh in my mind. He had brought her back, for some twisted reason I didn’t yet understand. I would deal with him later.Eris moved slightly, her body shifted against my fur as I ran. She was still asleep, unaware of the danger we were in, but I felt her presence like a weight in my heart. I’d mourned her for months, felt the
Not Today, Alphas! The Weakness
Chapter 56: The WeaknessEris ~When I opened my eyes, I was ready to meet our Gods.I wasn’t sure where I was. My body ached, my skin felt tight and bruised, but something soft and warm was wrapped around me—a fur blanket. It smelled familiar. I blinked a few times, trying to make sense of it.I wasn’t dead.I tried to move, but a sharp pain immediately came through my limbs. The memories started coming back in pieces—Darius, the torture, the cold room. Months of suffering.But now, I was here. Wherever here was.I glanced down at my arms. Bruises covered my skin, but they were faint now, healing. I noticed something else too—a thin layer of medicine had been carefully spread over them. Someone had treated my wounds.I didn’t remember being cared for. The last thing I recalled was the icy grip of Darius’s guards as they dragged me back to my room and then a very cold snow. But now, here I was—safe, it seemed.The door opened, and I tensed, instinctively expecting more pain. But i
Not Today, Alphas! Walking Among The Snow
Chapter 57: Walking Among the SnowEris ~I watched Samuel as he left, his words stayed in the cold air. He had promised me I was safe here, and for the first time in months, I believed it. I pulled the fur blanket tighter around me, feeling its warmth.‘Eris…’ I felt Seven and almost could hear her breathing.‘You should rest,’ Seven said in his quiet, familiar voice.“I’ve rested enough, Seven,” I replied softly. “I need to see where we are.”Stretching my arms, I stood up. My legs were shaky, but I managed. Seven followed as I walked toward the door. I pushed it open, the cold air hit me immediately, but it was refreshing—alive. I stepped outside into the snow.It was beautiful, even though the world around me felt strange. This castle, this village—it wasn’t home, but it was peaceful. The snow fell in thick, quiet flakes, covering everything in a blanket of white. People moved around the village below, some carried firewood, others tending to their homes.As I walked down the p
Not Today, Alphas! The Mark Of Fate
Chapter 58: The Mark of FateEris ~The fire crackled softly in the room as I sat on the edge of the bed, staring down at my hand. There, on my palm, was a bruise like a faint, star-shaped mark. I rubbed at it, hoping it was just from the cold or from clenching my fists too hard earlier, but it didn’t fade. It was as if the bruise had formed with purpose, as if someone—or something—had placed it there.I flexed my fingers, trying to get rid of the feeling crawling up my spine. I had healed quickly from the torture of Darius faster than I should have, even for someone like me. But this bruise… it wasn’t like the others.‘Eris.’Seven’s voice drifted into my mind, calm but watchful. ‘That’s not just a bruise. There’s magic in it. I can feel it.’“Magic?” I whispered, staring harder at the star. It glowed faintly under the firelight, almost like it was alive. “What does it mean?”‘I don’t know. But someone marked you, Eris. You need to be careful.’Marked. The word left a bitter taste i
Not Today, Alphas! Stranger In The Woods
Chapter 59: The Stranger in the WoodsEris~The cold air nipped at my face as I walked through the woods, my breath came out in small puffs. Snow crunched beneath my boots, and the thick trees around me stood silent, their branches looked heavy with snow. It felt like the world had been swallowed in white, everything so quiet that I could hear my own heartbeat.But something was off.I stopped, my senses suddenly sharpened. There was someone out here. I could feel it. The hair on the back of my neck stood on end, and a low growl rumbled in my throat.‘We’re not alone,’ Seven warned in my head, her voice tensed.I turned, scanning the trees, trying to find the source of the feeling. My eyes locked onto a shadow moving between the trunks. It was quick, but I saw it. My growl grew louder, and I bared my teeth.“Show yourself,” I commanded.A person stepped out from behind the trees. He was tall, wearing a long black cloak that blended into the dark woods. His hood was pulled low over
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Not Today, Alphas! Leina’s Death
Chapter 66 : Leina’s DeathKaya ~ Chapter 65:I was standing at the edge of the square when it happened.Leina was just about to finish the ceremony, about to pass the Luna’s power to Tessa. I watched her closely, the way she moved slowly, the tiredness in her eyes. Something about her seemed off today, but I thought it was just the annoyance of the ceremony.Then, she coughed. It sounded sharp, unnatural.At first, no one reacted. We all thought it was nothing. But then she coughed again, and this time, blood spilled from her mouth.My heart stopped.“Leina!” I shouted, pushing through the crowd. I didn’t think. I just ran.She collapsed before I could reach her. Tessa tried to catch her, but she wasn’t fast enough. Leina hit the ground, hard. I was there a second later, kneeling beside her, my hands started shaking as I reached for her.“Leina, no!” I shouted again in a voice that seemed to lose control.Her body was limp, her skin cold. Blood covered her lips, and it kept coming,
Not Today, Alphas! Luna’s Ceremony
Chapter 65 : Luna’s CeremonyLeina ~The village square was already filling with people by the time I stepped outside. Faces I had known all my life turned to greet me, with their bright smiles, voices filled with warmth.“Luna,” someone called, waving from the crowd.“Good morning, Luna!” another greeted me.I smiled softly and waved back, though my body felt heavier than usual, and my legs ached as I made my way through the crowd. I should have felt stronger today, of all days. It was my last day as Luna, the day I would officially pass on the title to Tessa.But something was wrong. I could feel it deep in my bones. May had been silent for days now. She wasn’t responding to my calls, and it worried me more than I wanted to admit. I tried to push the thought away as I reached the center of the square where the ceremony would take place.The elders were there, already preparing for the official proceedings. Tessa stood beside them, in a stiff posture, nervous energy rolling off he
Not Today, Alphas! He’s Finally Mine
Chapter 64 : He’s Finally MineTessa ~I’ve always loved Kaya.From the first moment I saw him, I knew he was mine. It didn’t matter that he didn’t see it right away. I was patient. I waited. I was loyal. Always loyal.And then he brought her. Eris.Ugly. From some weak pack on the other side of the mountains. She had nothing. No strength, no power. And Kaya, stupid Kaya, paraded her around like she was some kind of treasure.“She’s going to be Luna,” he had said, like that made any sense. I wanted to scream. I wanted to tear her apart.‘You should have,’ Mei snarled in my head. ‘You should’ve ripped her throat out the moment she walked into our pack. She didn’t deserve him.’“I know,” I muttered under my breath. “I should have. But Kaya… he wouldn’t have forgiven me.”‘Who cares about forgiveness? She was nothing. And now look—he’s still mourning her, like she was worth something.’I clenched my fists, my nails digging into my palms. “She wasn’t worth anything. Not to me. Not to this
Not Today, Alphas! I Will Always Love You
Chapter 63 : I Will Always Love YouKaya ~A few minutes after Tessa left, the door opened again, but this time the smell that filled the room was different—warm, comforting, familiar. Leina.“Kaya,” she said softly and in a gentle voice, as if she knew exactly how fragile I was at that moment. “Can I come in?”I nodded, still staring at the floor. I couldn’t bring myself to look at her just yet. Somehow, everything was crushing me, and I wasn’t sure I could handle one more conversation.But Leina was patient. She always was. I heard her light and soft steps, as she walked over. And then, before I could brace myself, she wrapped her arms around me. Her embrace was warm, and for a moment, I let myself melt into it, letting her hold me together when I felt like I was falling apart.“I’m so sorry, Kaya,” she whispered against my shoulder. “I miss her too.”I swallowed hard, feeling the lump in my throat growing. “It’s like she’s everywhere, Leina. I can’t escape it.”Leina pulled bac
Not Today, Alphas! We Missed Eris
Chapter 62 : Kaya ~It’s been three months since Eris died. Three months, and I still couldn’t wrap my mind around it. The pain felt as fresh as the day it happened, like someone had ripped my heart out and replaced it with a cold, hollow pit.I tried to numb myself, tried to forget, but nothing worked. Everywhere I went, I saw her—heard her laughter, remembered the way her smile could light up a room, how she made everything feel right. But she was gone, and now I was supposed to be preparing for a wedding I didn’t even want.The room felt depressing and everything was pressing down on me. My suit hung on the wardrobe... It felt wrong. I felt wrong. Tessa was supposed to be my bride. She was in the next room, probably preening, getting ready for a life that didn’t belong to her.Kai was anxious too, like he had been for months now. ‘This isn’t right, Kaya,’ he growled angrily. . ‘She’s not meant to be Luna. She can’t carry Leina’s powers. She’s empty. She’s…’I clenched my jaw.
Not Today, Alphas! The Poisonous Throne
Chapter 61: The Poisonous ThroneAugustin~I closed the door to Darius’s chambers, the smile faded from my face the moment I stepped into the dark hallway. That boy had no idea how much he teetered on the edge of failure. He was too blinded by his anger, too easily manipulated by the words of a girl. A mere girl, yet he let her slip through his grasp again and again. Pathetic.But then, weakness ran in the family, didn’t it?I walked down the cold stone corridor, my boots clicked against the floor, echoing in the emptiness. As I rounded the corner, my mind drifted back to where it all started. Eris’s father. The proud, noble alpha who ruled with strength and fairness. A fool, blinded by loyalty and love.“Too trusting,” I whispered, feeling the bile rise in my throat at the thought of him. He never saw it coming, never suspected that his own ally—his friend—was the one poisoning him from the inside.‘He was a fool,’ Hamex growled in my head, his dark tone always brought a bitter t
Not Today, Alphas! The Hunter’s Wrath
Chapter 60: The Hunter’s WrathDarius~The air in my chambers was suffocating me from failure. I paced back and forth, my fists clenched so tightly my knuckles ached. She had escaped again. Again. I slammed my hand against the stone wall, the impact went through my arm, but it did nothing to calm the tornado inside me.“How could this happen?” I growled through gritted teeth. “How could no one find her?”‘Weak,’ Hunter snarled in my mind, rumbling. ‘You let her slip through your fingers. Again.’I could feel him prowling, his claws itched to tear something apart, anything that would make this unbearable feeling of failure go away. He had been restless ever since Eris disappeared into the snow. Every attempt to track her had come up empty, and it was driving both of us to the edge.“She can’t have gone far,” I muttered, though to whom, I wasn’t sure. I raked a hand through my hair, the strands sticking with sweat. “We’ll find her. We have to find her.”‘You better,’ Hunter growled.
Not Today, Alphas! Stranger In The Woods
Chapter 59: The Stranger in the WoodsEris~The cold air nipped at my face as I walked through the woods, my breath came out in small puffs. Snow crunched beneath my boots, and the thick trees around me stood silent, their branches looked heavy with snow. It felt like the world had been swallowed in white, everything so quiet that I could hear my own heartbeat.But something was off.I stopped, my senses suddenly sharpened. There was someone out here. I could feel it. The hair on the back of my neck stood on end, and a low growl rumbled in my throat.‘We’re not alone,’ Seven warned in my head, her voice tensed.I turned, scanning the trees, trying to find the source of the feeling. My eyes locked onto a shadow moving between the trunks. It was quick, but I saw it. My growl grew louder, and I bared my teeth.“Show yourself,” I commanded.A person stepped out from behind the trees. He was tall, wearing a long black cloak that blended into the dark woods. His hood was pulled low over
Not Today, Alphas! The Mark Of Fate
Chapter 58: The Mark of FateEris ~The fire crackled softly in the room as I sat on the edge of the bed, staring down at my hand. There, on my palm, was a bruise like a faint, star-shaped mark. I rubbed at it, hoping it was just from the cold or from clenching my fists too hard earlier, but it didn’t fade. It was as if the bruise had formed with purpose, as if someone—or something—had placed it there.I flexed my fingers, trying to get rid of the feeling crawling up my spine. I had healed quickly from the torture of Darius faster than I should have, even for someone like me. But this bruise… it wasn’t like the others.‘Eris.’Seven’s voice drifted into my mind, calm but watchful. ‘That’s not just a bruise. There’s magic in it. I can feel it.’“Magic?” I whispered, staring harder at the star. It glowed faintly under the firelight, almost like it was alive. “What does it mean?”‘I don’t know. But someone marked you, Eris. You need to be careful.’Marked. The word left a bitter taste i
