Do you have to fit in to this kind of society? Do you have to look approving for them to accept you? Do you have to take it all in and be someone you are not even comfortable to be? Do we have to?
Do you want to?Yes, of course, I know you've been craving to be part of them. I know how it feels like to try your luck but fail because you feel like your character doesn't fit to be that kind of person, for instance. It just doesn't feel right, you would say that to yourself.So maybe, as I had said, maybe we are just born on the wrong society. That maybe it just sees what's outside a person and not what's purely on the inside. I just can't help but say this, you don't have to push yourself to fit in. You're not born for people to look down on you. You are born because there's something unique about you, and that, my friend, may or may not be for this group of people. So you just have to look everywhere, discover what's out there and fall and cry and fail, andI told my new lover about you.How we used to break silencewith our stares,targeting each other like guns withhundred bullets.I told my new lover about you.How we argue about table cloths,about which one is better;"A cup of coffee or a tea?"But now I don't drink both.I told my new lover about you.How you inspired me to write poems about the boy I like;not knowing until now that-you were that boy.I told my new lover about you.How you filled my ink with joy;but never the sorrow.You told me that words will never break me,So I continue persisting on writinghoping it could heal broken partsof me.When you told me that my body is the happiest place on earth,I just have to learn how to live on it.I told my new lover about you,us.How we kissed under the moonlight with my haircovering half of my face.I
An Open Letter; The One I Never SentI know I might not have ended things the best way possible. But trust me, it was for the better, especially for me and my inner peace.I have lived my life behind high walls, the ones I put up so no one could penetrate. But you were a bomb. You decimated my walls and trespassed. And for whatever reason, I let you. I was a fool, I know. Then, you started to dominate. Since we started interacting, there had not been a day I did not anticipate you. Somehow, I had found comfort in your existence. You'd become my confidant— I had given you a dagger I smithed myself. I had told you my desires and aspirations of being the man I hoped to be. And I was glad you did the same. Worry not, your dagger I'd keep concealed. Please keep mine as well, it's a part of me that'd always be with you, even in the infinitesimal amount. Perhaps, I'd gotten used to your presence that I badly wanted to know how your day had been, what you'd been up to, or
Words can deceive the listenersBut not the readers.You heard it 'I want to live my life'But I read it as 'I want to leave my life'.Words can deceive those who can hearBut not those who can feel.You've heard 'I loved you'But I felt 'I lied to you'.Looks can deceive those who took a look partiallyBut not those who can see wholeheartedlyYou looked like an angel descend from the sea of cloudsBut I saw you as a demon hiding your face at the crowd.Stories can deceive those who just read itBut not those who appreciate it.You easily read the passageBut I got the message.A smile can deceive those who are happyBut not those who are waryYou put it to your face easilyWhile I had to wear it having difficulty.Tears can deceive those who see itBut not those who feel it.You saw it as tears because of happinessBut I felt it as tears because of weakness.
My faithful readers, this recently week my mom died after her operation. This is the reason why i paused for a while in writing. Hope you understand. See yah on next month. Are you an introvert?Well I am.I have been suffering and experiencing isolation since I was young, it is not because I'm pretty shy or whatever. But because I just can't afford words to present in front of human beings. I can stood up, talk, and socialize with others , but I always feel like I belong to a world where all I can spot is myself, I hated people for making me feel that I deserve nothing just because I am different. You never knew what an introvert is going through, a lot of thoughts inside their minds but they chose to say no to sharing it because they are being judged, and never felt acceptance from the world. They may seemed to be weird and anti social but believe me, they need to be heard, they needed you to come in and save them from the silence that became the only sound for t
To My Lovely Readers,This previous week I lost my dearest Mom and niece, for now, help me to keep reading and remain for a meantime, and can't wait to write again for an update. Hope you understand. Thank you so much. Out of the ringing roar of the train; out of the sound of a hundred hopping passengers; and out of the loud beats of my heart — swinging in my ears all at once, I will always remember how you came into my life unexpectedly — like a lost gentle wind in the wintered wilderness.I will always remember every inch of your angelic face, from your lucid and mysterious brown eyes; the perfect traces of your nose; and your intoxicating sweet paragon lips, whether or not it is crystal clear to you, no doubt the heaven is unveiling as it should. I will always remember how you speak your truth and share your worst faults; and listen to my side, even the dull and nefarious; they too matter to you. Therefore, I say, "I am the luckiest person to have someone l
To My Lovely Readers,This previous week I lost my dearest Mom and niece, for now, help me to keep reading and remain for a meantime, and can't wait to write again for an update. Hope you understand. Thank you so much.I remember when you made a mistake — you were afraid to face, stand up, and fight, thinking that you might not be able to cope. A few nights and days have passed before you learned to lift yourself to the surface. So many opportunities were wasted, afraid that you might not be enough. Those days that you're hated are the days you become a hatred yourself.Through it all, I still admire you. Your bravery in fighting your flaws and sins are unimaginable. But most of all, your eagerness in trying things that you are afraid to deal with, is beyond applauded. Everything that happened was just a phase, no matter how your personality is portrayed like garbage — everyone doesn't have the right to bring you down.We have our issues and
To My Lovely Readers,This previous week I lost my dearest Mom and niece, for now, help me to keep reading and remain for a meantime, and can't wait to write again for an update. Hope you understand. Thank you so much. As the years went by, the memories of what I was, what I dreamed of, and the people I once cherished slowly faded away to blurriness through the mist of time. Mornings, I see the sunrise only to find my desolated soul walking in broad daylight. Hopelessly wandering around looking for a spark, hope, a cure for the lost cause I have become.I started pushing people away, started killing the aspirations the young me once created. I started to believe in what they said, that I will never reach anything in life. The cracks itself showed in my arms and the unfixable damage that I have endured through the time I have spent trying to survive.I can feel how the warm breeze slowly shifts to cold, rainy weather. I loved seeing the blue sky, but n
To My Lovely Readers,This previous week I lost my dearest Mom and niece, for now, help me to keep reading and remain for a meantime, and can't wait to write again for an update. Hope you understand. Thank you so much. I've always admired arts for their mesmerizing beauty that brightens up this world, they taught me that a simple art can make you feel something even just by looking at them. That's when I knew I wasn't wrong when I considered him as an art. By staring at his glimmering eyes, that's when I found the most aesthetic art. Thru his eyes, he lightens up the dimmed and doomed place I was once in. He was the colorful painting and I was the lifeless and monochromatic one in a museum. With his contagious smiles and laughters, I've been released from that dark and gloomy room. With his kisses and affections, the facade I was once behind has now vanish. With him, I never wanted to look at other pieces anymore. Thru his eyes, he made me realize that the greatest kin