ChanceThe roar of the bike rumbles under me as I ride hard and fast down the long narrow street. What would normally take me a good forty-five minutes, is now going on fifteen. The roads are slippery and still damp from the small snow we got this morning, but I let nothing stop me as I rush to my target.My bike speeds down the suburban neighborhood, car alarms go off as I pass them, but my focus is on one thing and one thing only.Abby. Normally the road keeps my mind free of conflict and aggression, but not tonight. Tonight, my anxious form is hunting, and my bike is merely a means to an end.I can still remember the day I met Abby. Austin was giving me a tour of what would be my new home within the Nightmare Warriors compound. I was done with life, ready for it to take me away. I had hit rock bottom and wanted nothing, but something in her called to me. Some kind of deep darkness that she tried hiding behind the depths of her blue eyes, but I saw right through it. Only certai
AbbyI attempt to maneuver my arms in a more comfortable position, but it seems nearly impossible. I have been here in this hell hole for hours and yet have no idea where I am.A trickle of blood spills down my arm slowly and I watch it with aggravation as it reaches my flowing white dress sleeve I was excited to wear tonight. I blink back a few tears at my situation and give myself a small pep talk. I cannot break down. No there. Not now.I attempt another maneuver to try and get comfortable but the handcuffs that are connecting my small frail hands with the steel beam above me prevent me further. The man that brought me into this small windowless basement of some kind is the same man that had my father in a choke hold with a gun to his neck.My father.Just the thought of the last way I saw him has the damning tears falling without any sort of control. It was the same way I remember seeing my mother just before she died. Helpless is the feeling I could best describe it.I brief
Chance Ten years agoDead eyes stare me down in the mirror as I wash my face in the sink for the second time today. My face is sunken in from the weight I have lost and the scraggly beard I have grown in the last few weeks is getting too long.Rattling pounds the bathroom door and seconds later Laurie opens the door, letting it bang against the wall with a loud crash. I close my eyes, remembering the very first time I laid eyes on her. I was a pathetic sophomore in college, whose whole life revolved around graduating with honors. My parents could barely afford to send me, but with loans, scholarships and hard word, I had my foot in the door. Laurie was a new freshman, whom was in the same boat, but instead of looking at life half empty, full of bills, debt and responsibility, she showed me what it would be like overflowing with joy and happiness. Showed me that we had the chance to overcome everything that was put in front of us. Her deep red hair and dark green eyes called to me
AbbyI watch as he approaches me with the same dead eyes as before. I practiced lifting my legs up and down to see if I could somehow fend off his attack with the lower half of my body while still cuffed, but all that did was aggravate my already raw wrists.My breath hitches when he reaches me, but I release it when I see he isn't going to hurt me, instead he reaches past my sore arms and uncuffs me. My body automatically falls to the ground and I welcome the blood rushing back to the numb parts of my body. Rubbing my wrists and arms, I look up to the see the same dead eyes staring down at me.His face remains calm and blank as he indicates with his finger extended to the only other door down here besides the one he comes through.A bathroom.I walk over, glancing backwards every few feet, only to see him adjusting the steel beam and restraints. Closing the door behind me, I hurry to do my business, not realizing how much I had needed to go. After washing my hands and trying to s
ChanceSitting on my bed, I stare at the white blank wall in front of me. It's strange that just hours before I was sitting in this same spot, wondering if I no longer had a home with the Nightmare Warriors MC.After Max and I retuned, Austin chewed me out for leaving the way I did. I thought for sure he was going to kick me out of the MC, but he gave me one last chance to turn myself around. He told me he understood the panic I must have felt, starring at Candice from across the room as he spoke. I didn't deny my feelings for Abby, everyone knew I cared deeply for her, but I didn't want to see the comparison between Austin and Candice's love versus ours. I'm not worth of Abby's affection, no matter how badly I want it.Walking over to the en suite, I rinse my face in the sink and stare at myself in the mirror. How many times have I been here? How many times have I been disgusted by the reflection that stares me down?Needing to get out of this box, I come out of my room in the clu
AbbyI can still see him. Still hear the sound of the gun going off inside my head. I've been home for a little over three hours, and even with all the noise, the people swarming around me, and everyone comforting me, I feel as cold and lonely as I did while sitting in that phone booth waiting on help.My eyes remain focused on the sheets as I lay on my bed and let Slice check me over. Candice sits in a small chair on the side of me holding my hand and letting her tears fall. I haven't said a word since Austin and Chance picked me up. Simply fell into his arms and sobbed. He did exactly what I needed. Held me, stayed silent and took me home."Abby." I cringe when I hear Chance's voice. It's deep, deeper than normal. Full of emotion and worry and I immediately open my eyes and zone in on him.It's always been him.I notice Austin in the corner on the phone, I assume telling everyone that I am alive and well. He told me when I was first picked up that my father was in the hospital.
ChanceIt's been a week since Abby came home from the clutches of that stranger she was forced to kill. Austin and I spoke and agreed that it was best that I stuck around for Abby. Not only for protection but because she desperately needed to be around someone.Bone came home two days after Abby was home and since then, I have been keeping my distance. Abby was tempting while watching over her. Her small smiles and light whispers made me hard around every corner, but I knew I couldn't act on any of the fantasies I jerked off to in the shower each morning. Abby was the kind of beauty that never saw it for herself. Her confidence was there, but not enough to see herself as sexy. I wanted to change all that, and had I been any other man, I would have. But she deserved more, deserved better. As much as it fuckin' pains me to admit that, I know it's the truth.I pull up to the compound and park my bike right next to Shane's. Ripping off my helmet, I place it on my lap and take in my surroun
AbbyI run the water over the last dish and move on to the silverware. My mind has been working overdrive lately and now that Chance is gone and dad is home, it's like everything is back to normal. I'm invisible once again, the last person everyone thinks about and although it has never bothered me in the past, this time I feel truly alone with my deep thoughts.It's been over a week of nightmares and they don't want to get better. Every single detail of the day I was taken haunts me throughout the day. I feel no peace, no calm. Nothing but panic.Chance has tried talking to me, but I give him the same dejected smile I give everyone else. I tell him that I am fine, and that everything is alright, but the truth is, I am dying inside. I feel alone, even when I am surrounded by a stream of people.Scrubbing the sponge across the knife set, I look up at the clock and see that it's already midafternoon. I have been given a few days off work due to a fake car accident Candice made up when she