I might be caged but I’m not beaten. So Lyra woke and shacked up with Declan. She’s signed her own death warrant for touching me like that. Dragging me by hair in front of everyone! I heard the gossip. It was relentless. Weeks I’ve spent listening to them laughing about my face hitting the concrete wall, how Lyra went easy on me. It left my nails bitten to the quick in frustration. I was so close. I might be stuck in my fathers room but an open door allows a lot of chatter to float my way. She doesn’t even realise the whole reason my father kept her alive was as bait for her mother to return. She is nothing more than a maggot on a fishing line as far as the rest of the world is concerned. Of course, my fathers room still contains no codes. Howen has been helping. He carried all my furs and belongings in too. Grinning proudly, his long red beard constantly brushes against me. He acts like we have moved in togrther.. His broad shoulders, six-pack and thighs like tree trunks have not
The fourth full moon of the Freeze is just hours away. Everyone is in the Black Hall setting up the sordid array of mattresses and testing the speaker system. Something’s coming. Fabian and Dill won’t look me in the eye. Men I’ve spent the past seven years of my life fighting alongside are turning the other way. Whereas Mitra and Naji give me silent assurances that they stand with me. Fabian simply tosses his blonde curls like an impatient horse and walks away. I’ve asked Arlen and Sol to keep their ears sharpened. I know my Rogues. They are excellent fighters but cocky bastards. There is every chance they will discuss their plans in the earshot of servants because they don’t see their value as people. Lyra has mentioned getting roughly brushed past in corridors. Dill scowls openly at her as she walks past on her rota. It makes rage flare inside me, but then she tells me not to act savagely on her behalf. She runs her hands through my hair, standing on tiptoe and I yield. I can’t t
Declan storms in and stops in complete surprise. Well, I was stood on top of his wooden chair, my purple dress on the floor as I examined my shrinking figure in his tiny mirror. Any funny quip I might have been tempted to throw his way vanished when I saw that livid purple bruise on the side of his cheek. His white long-sleeved cotton top didn’t hide the tensed shoulder muscles that formed sharp ridges. “Declan!” I flew to him, placing my hand over the bruise, “What’s happened!” He didn’t answer, just shut his eyes and allowed me to fuss over him. He does nothing but care for me and to see him hurt burns. His warm hands land on my bare skin, stroking up and down my waist from the hem of my pants to my bra. “Why are you losing so much weight Lyra, you’re going to end up so ill,” he groaned. “I’m fine, you’re the one who has been attacked!” I cried, standing on my tiptoes so I could cover the area in kisses. “Howen? Did Howen do this to you? Are you okay?” “This is definitely hel
A few hours later I am straddling Declan. Naked, sweating, more alive than I’ve ever felt as I bare myself to him. He doesn’t flinch at my scars, nor I his. We are perfectly imperfect. In a brief moment of clarity, Declan explained how he saw Howen and Corina enter the Black Hall hand in hand. Whatever they were planning wasn't going to interfere with their wolves' passion for each other tonight.. I couldn't bring myself to answer as I my body shook and gave way to the overwhelming pleasure of feeling Declan inside me. I chased his noises of pleasure. I allowed myself to be guided by him, how I gripped his chest, the speed at which I rose up and down upon his solid cock. His hands and mouth ravaged my nipples, teasing them into taut bullets that brushed achingly against his chest every time my body gave way and crumbled in ecstasy.Declan's thighs are so solid and wide it is almost uncomfortable to be seated upon him but then every other sensation makes up for it as I place my hands
Howen can’t say I haven’t kept up my end of the bargain. The instant the moon rose I hit that mattress and barely came up for air. I don’t know if the Rogues could tell if there was something in the atmosphere but I was swiftly becoming a one-woman orgy. One man entered me. I howled a deep, primal moan as I gave my wolf exactly what it had been craving. Two others were waiting for me. One pine-scented and another a dark, tantalising chocolate note. Into each ear I whispered the same lines about when the music stops; it's time to change the leader of this place.Fabian and Dill shared me. At least the scent of berries told me one of them was Fabian anyway. I barely remembered to shout the instructions as I felt the pair of them enter me. Stretching me beyond anything I’ve ever felt before. “Tonight! Howen will save us all…Tonight!” I gasped as they started to slowly move inside me.A finger landed on my lips as I babbled about waiting for the music to stop. Then the lights. They did
Howen’s lost his mind. There’s no other way to describe it. He’s gone and shot at us all Attacked his own so-called allies at the same time. I’ve definitely been hit about ten times, breathing inwards is fucking agony. how he's missed my head I dont know but all down one side of my body is peppered with pinpoint pain. Hearing that shrill little bitch encouraging him is a bitter pill to swallow. How easily her words encourage him to fire upon the men he has known since a teen.We had been fighting. Man to man, scrapping and punching, refusing to yield. I knew Reu had my back. That pistol kept back the meatheads like Fabian who might try to sneak a low blow. It was impossible to see who was betraying who in the dimly lit corridor. A melee of fists, punches and snarling as some brown wolves appeared out of nowhere.My jaw took a pounding from Howen’s huge fists. All the lessons Reu and I gave Howen out in the woods over the years. Tactics he was now using against me. He had a crazed ene
Elvie was right. The fear in Corina’s eyes as she saw us come around the corner was an undeniable rush. We strode out completely naked, heads high, our wolves pushing and urging us to shift. Corina stood there with her mouth dropping open, knowing full well she was caught. “Corina,” Elvie scowled as she backed against the wall. She looked past us, as if help was coming to rescue her. It wasn’t. It was just us three. “I’m not part of this! Howen’s gone mad! He’s just shot everyone, all of them!” “He wouldn’t do that without you agreeing to it,” I replied in a low, flat voice. Knowing the machine gun fire Elvie and I heard had been aimed towards Declan left me feeling woozy. My heart ached just under my ribcage for him. He had to be alive because I am certain that part of me would just crumble and die if he were to leave this earth. She could still be lying. She will say anything to get out trouble. “I’m telling you!” Corina screeched desperately. “I wanted a fist fight but I would
Accompanied by the clanging of door locks and the rumble of the boilers, Reu arrived with the shy, stocky Samir to carry Declan back to his room. Everyone else was locked down in their dorms.I knew other Rogues had been shot and injured but selfishly I only cared about one man. Even so, in the midst of my panic about his dazed state I managed to notice Reu taking another lingering stare at Elvie’s naked body. He must not have taken a full dose of the Monks Pepper because the hunger in his eyes was clear. Even as he struggled with the weight of the passed-out Declan in his shoulders he was diverted. Until he realised I was observing.“Back to your rooms,” he grunted roughly at us both. Samir grabbed Declan's legs to help Reu share the weight. Elvie was eager to fill Mara in on the drama. She explained how she tied up Corina with devilish zeal whilst Mara dried her hair."She's in with Ronan now! Not the same cell which is a shame but still, she's no Luna now!"Mara smiled, she wasn'
### FIVE YEARS LATER ### The truck has seen better days. More grey than black it trundles us wherever we need. Declan has become the expert at fixing it, fully aware that I absolutely love it when he gets oil on his hands or face. Rolling up his sleeves, showing his huge forearms that are solid from hard work, I offer up a daily prayer of thanks to the Goddess. “You are sure this is the place?” “I heard about it from the others back home.” Home was our small fishing village named Filney. Today was an unusual adventure for us, having barely left our little world for so long. Leaving the fortress all those years ago we had just headed south. With no more diversions or magnetic tourist attractions to show me, Declan took me to the very furthest tip of our nation. It still took a couple of months to get so far south. Just as he had dreamed, I fell asleep in the truck, waking up to him gently nudging me. However back then there had been no bump, just the first twinges of nausea and
The rumours were true. Only a minute or two after we got Howen and Pearl onto the ground did a silent shaft of light blaze down. Watching from outside the fortress it appeared painful, the way everyone dropped to the floor covering their eyes. Even I had to shield my eyes with my hands.From what I could see amidst the whiteness Elvie appeared to have lost her mind, stood tall, flailing her arms and shouting upwards. Declan held me close, wrapping his leather jacket back around my shoulders and kissing the top of my head.“Thank you,” leaning into him, loving the warmth of his huge body against mine.“What for?”“For not wanting to change us.”Declan shifted, leaning against the black truck door. “Can I say I am happy with myself without sounding like a dick? I’m covered in damage but I don’t care anymore.”“Well you are perfect, to me at least.” I smiled, watching him roll his eyes even though he squeezed me a little tighter. As quickly as it descended the beam vanished. From a dista
The past few months have been a blur. When the Goddess light first appeared I didn't have a clue what to do. Instinct took over as I shredded into Reu's jacket with my claws, my wolf somehow emerging for the first time since I accidentally shifted at fourteen. I was whipped so severely for just my claws emerging in front of a Beta that I never tried it again. But when the light subsided, returning us to cold darkness I was sprawled underneath Reu in my wolf form. "What the fuck just happened?" Dill shouted, as everyone rubbed their eyes and huddled. Nearly everyone had dropped to the floor, unable to find their way indoors in the searing brightness. "Is everyone okay!" Reu shouted, clambering to his feet, his white hair a ragged mess. "Does anyone need help!" Everyone gasped as he stood up, revealing my shifted form. All the originals knew what a big deal it was. "Elvie is that you!" Arlen cried out, pointing in surprise. Then Sol gasped. "Arlen your…your hands!" "Dill your fac
I squealed as Declan roughly shoved me into Pearl, scattering us to the ground.Then I saw why. Holding a long-barrelled shotgun, eyes blazing a furious gold stood Viktor. He was red-faced, sweating with exertion. Blonde hair now hung down to his shoulders, dirty and tangled. “What the fuck are you doing here,” Viktor said with a sneer, keeping the barrel pointed directly at Declan’s face. Manoeuvring so he could see all three of us togethe, his once handsome face twisted in smug victory.Gesturing the gun quickly towards me I gasped in fear as he mocked us. “You’re looking good Lyra, and a pretty friend too. My Declan, aren't you getting adventurous. Or did you fancy a less damaged slut for a while?”“Fuck off,” Pearl growled but this was no time for trading insults. Not when my mate had a gun waved in his face.“You’ve hidden the golden wolf here then?” Declan said flatly, flexing his huge chest, parting his legs to try and cover Pearl and I. From my crouched position I could feel
Lyra, forever formed of kindness and light raced to her side, Skidding into the blood and straw, not caring about her light cotton dress as she cradled Mara’s long blonde hair in her hands. “Mara what happened to you! Shit! Pearl, get some help, quick!” As the guard swore and cursed his bad luck, Pearl ran off. I heard her rummaging around in the guard room at the top of the corridor. Mara spluttered, her teeth stained with blood. Lyra carefully stroked her blonde hair away from the blood on her face, as gently as a mother would a newborn. “Lyra he…I did everything he asked.” “But you hurt people for him? The guards at the fortress, the men in this gold sale?” “I had to! I didn’t want to but he told me it was the only way. The only way we could be together. We put the golden wolf safe then came here to sell the little trinkets,” as she got upset her words became more ragged, her breathing starting to rattle. “We had such a good time…it was, he was perfect.” Pearl came scampering b
I have failed. Six months ensuring nothing harmed her happiness and I’ve gone and trashed it anyway. Those green eyes are filled with confusion and it’s all because of me. Because of something as simple as a dream. Albert having finally waddled downstairs, I slowly walk towards her. For the first time she steps backwards. Fuck. “You want to find Viktor? Howen? Both of them?” “I have to,” I confessed sadly, slumping down to sit on the soft bed. I rubbed at my eyes, running my hands through my short brown curls in frustration. “Lyra, these nightmares…these dreams are telling me I’ve got to do something.” “What dreams?” her voice softening, even though her arms are still folded. I keep my head in my hands, gripping my hair tightly as I force the words out. “Last night, I saw Howen as he was, as a young man being led away from me by Viktor, into a crowded road. I run, I search. I kill strangers in the streets to try to get to him. It drives me feral to the point where my dream ends wi
Of course leaving the Fortress wouldn’t be complete without some final bloodshed. Seeing how Declan’s brotherhood had torn themselves to pieces the instant Beldon died was sobering. When I asked if we needed to tell the rest of the Rogues waiting back at the base, Declan shook his head. “The ones that made it out would have high-tailed it straight back there anyway."“What made Beldon and Morrell so…angry?” “I think they let their Bond fail. I don’t think you can live a life that violent, however well intentioned and not let it taint something pure,” Declan replied flatly. “Once that starts to rot, it all falls apart. Like how you described Corina.”So with Beldon’s body gingerly dragged from the flatbed of the dented black truck, we left. We were silent for the first few hours. Mainly because I was staring out of the window like an idiot at everything new. Declan was content to just drive, and watch me from the corner of his eye. Seeing the cragged black mountains up close, actual
Declan and Lyra left a few days ago. Elvie and I insisted on being the ones to take them back to what was left of the Rogue camp. On the snowmobiles, carrying machine guns and blades, we found a site of devastation. Blood had been spilled. A huge amount of it judging by the snowy corpse-clumps in the ground. Only one truck remained, Beldon’s frosted corpse. Tent sheeting flapped with claw marks, chunks of leather clothing shredded. Elvie and Lyra had shuddered to discover Amelie under one of the collapsed tents. “So this is Rogue law?” Elvie had muttered with a bitter tone. “You never know with Amelie, she may have struck the first blow or tried to lead a group attack,” I said after a minute's consideration. She always wanted to play big.She wouldn’t have even been up here had she not begged to come. Sitting quietly around every campfire for years, I have learned to watch people when they think they aren’t being studied. Amelie wanted more than her usual piece of Dec the instant
Seeing Declan standing above my bed, blanket in hand, face flushed with desire I had for a second assumed it was just another fantasy. Too much hugging of the sandalwood-scented pillow, tricking myself again.Then he kissed me. He was so real. With a desire that bordered on frenzy, he seized and fucked me so exquisitely I felt I was coming apart at the seams. Only his gruff, heavy hold over my body kept me together. There was no feeling like it in the world when he sunk that deep inside. Laid next to him, watching the rise and fall of his chest, my toes curled at the memory of how he grabbed my ass, admiring me even though I knew my back was littered with scars.I love how even in his sleep, if I try to move away he instinctively pulls me closer. So excited to have him home I study him, unable to rest myself. His brown hair is shaggy and unkempt. That brown beard I love is even more ragged and needs trimming after so many days away.Despite the fighting and lack of food, Declan’s bod