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87. Mireille

Author: Alle
last update Last Updated: 2023-11-14 23:04:53

Throughout the night, none of us get any rest. Trucks continue to arrive full of expectant fathers and brothers. All who want to believe the rumours aren't true.

The first thing they all do after leaping out of their cabs, wearing and tired, is ask for their relatives and friends. The brave group of men who stayed behind to hand over the supplies to Raze and his crew of machine-gun wielding thugs.

The plan was to hand over the goods and return to the Light, sit out the Freeze, and fight for my freedom. The more I think about the cruel move Raze made, the less I resent Dee’s poisoning.

Cyrus keeps asking me to rest, but I feel I owe every arrival my time. The crushing guilt I feel at surviving multiplies with every arrival.

The guilt is so severe because I haven't just survived, made it out of a husk of a person like poor Hope. I've exploded into a joyous life. Now I'm forced to look into the crinkled eyes of desperate men as they realise their prayers have been ignored whilst mine
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YAILYN
I miss old Cal with the cheesy jokes! He is so gloomy now! I hope he bounces back!
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