Arian
I step out of the airport building into the blinding sun and quickly retrieve my sunshades from my bag and put it on. I have finally arrived at my destination without looking over my shoulder.
Maybe I did look over my shoulder once or twice on the plane to be sure that Rafael had not sent his men after me or my parents didn't have someone tailing me but I was in the clear and only then did I heave a sigh of relief.
A cab pulls up in front of me and the driver gets out, rounds the hood and comes to stand in front of me with a smile on his face which makes me wary.
"Where are you going, Miss? I can take you there." He offers.
"Uh..." I pause and quickly check my bag for the address of the place I'm going to. It's been twenty years since I moved away and I can see that everything has changed. Hopefully, my resting place will not have changed location or else I'm toast.
"Miss?" He calls.
"Do you know this address?" I thrust my little notebook in front of his face. I'd G****e searched the orphanage to see if it was still in existence and I was surprised by everything I'd read.
It is now the best non governmental organization in the country due to donations received from Emerson Cruz Group. It caters to the needs of the homeless, orphans and single pregnant women who don't have money to take care of themselves.
"I do know this place." The man grins at me. "I grew up there."
"Really?" I stare at him in surprise. I try to recollect if I'd ever seen his face at the orphanage but I come up short. "That's um... nice."
"Let's go." He grabs my bag before I can say anything and goes to drop it in the trunk of his car.
I get into the car with him riding shotgun because for some reason I hate sitting in the back seat. I visibly shudder when the reason for it flashes through my mind.
"Are you okay Miss?" He looks concerned.
"I'm fine." My lips curl up in a half smile. It isn't genuine - far from it - but I don't want him to think otherwise. I don't like the silence in the car but I don't know how to tell him to turn on the radio so I can listen to other peoples voices except the one floating around in my head.
That voice is a sarcastic, insensitive bitch - one I can't wait to tell to get the hell out of my head for good.
"Everything has changed." I say, more to myself than to the driver.
"Yes Miss. It's a good country now." He smiles. "Is this your first time here?"
"Um... No. I was born here." I reply. "I moved away some years ago."
"And you're back for good or just visiting?" He inquires.
"Back for good." I breathe. Hopefully, Rafael will really stay locked up in prison for years and by the time he'd be released... I shiver just thinking about it.
"Are you cold? I can turn on the heater if you want." He says.
"I'm fine." I say.
He must think I'm very weird. I'm dressed in a green sweatshirt paired with black jeans, black baseball cap and black sneakers. He probably also thinks that I have a lot of money from the way I'm dressed but I don't. I only have the money to pay him and that's it.
I don't even know if Mrs Collins would take me in once she sees me. My face is different and I have a different name - of course, she'd probably think that I'm an imposter if I tell her that I'm Kareena Macavinta. I didn't think this through at all.
One hour, Forty five minutes later, we arrive at my destination but I'm awed when I see just how different St Louis Orphanage home is now. It's like a sprawling estate/ amusement park/ Disneyland - slash everything amazing and wonderful.
If we'd had this when I was younger, maybe I'd never have left with those monsters I used to call my parents.
"This is the place?" I turn to look at the driver.
"Yes. Beautiful, isn't it?" He grins.
"The word paradise comes to mind." I say.
He laughs and pulls up in front of the gate. "Here you are, Miss. Let me get your bag." He alights from the car and shuts the door.
I do the same, still staring at the magnificent building in front of me and not quite believing what I'm seeing even though the sign at the gate read 'Welcome to St Louis Orphanage Home'.
"Here's your bag Miss." He rolls my luggage up to me.
"Thank you." I take it from him. "Um... How much do I owe you?"
"Don't worry about it. You're my last customer today so it's free." He smiles.
"I can't let you..." I take out my purse.
"It's okay." He says. "This place must be special to you."
"Yes it is." I nod.
"I come here sometimes to volunteer. Maybe I'll see you." He tells me.
"Um... Okay." My voice comes out squeaky.
He waves, gets into his car and drives off leaving me standing there without any idea how I'm going to go about anything. I walk up to the gate and press a button that I see mounted on the wall and not even five minutes later, I see a woman walking briskly towards the gate and to me.
"G... Good evening." I say when she gets to me finally.
"Good evening my dear, how may I help you?" She smiles at me.
"Um.... I'm looking for Mrs Collins. She owns this place." I tell her.
"Who is asking?"
"Uh... My name is... My name is Arian Macavinta. I just arrived from Mexico and er..." My hands can't stop shaking as I wonder how I'm going to tell this woman I want to see Mrs Collins.
"Calm down dear." The woman reaches out her hand to pat my hand which I have curled into a fist unknowingly. "Why don't you come in?" She unlocks the gate and opens it.
"Thank you ma'am." I step into the premises rolling my luggage behind me and she shuts the gate then locks it.
"My name is Alberta James. I'm Mrs Collins' assistant." She says. "Are you here to apply for a job?"
"Actually... No." I shake my head. "I need her help."
"Friend of the family?" Alberta arches a brow.
"I used to be an orphan here until I was adopted twenty years ago." I bite my lip. "I... I really don't have anyone else to turn to except Mrs Collins."
"Are you in trouble dear? Do you need to call the police?"
"Oh no! Not that kind of trouble." I quickly explain. "I just... I was forced to marry a dangerous man by my parents and um... he made life hell for me." I don't like talking about the emotional trauma I suffered at Rafael's hands but I don't know how else to explain to this woman why I need to see Mrs Collins. "After his arrest, I decided to come back to Nigeria to start afresh."
"What's your name again?" Alberta's brows furrow.
"Arian. Arian Macavinta."
"Your namesake Arian Navarro has been the headline news for months now." She tells me. "She was married to Rafael Navarro who was arrested a few months back. He was part of the most dangerous crime family in Mexico."
"Rafael was my husband." I tell her, swallowing the lump that suddenly forms in my throat. "I changed my surname."
"Oh you poor dear." Alberta pulls me in for a hug which surprises me. "How could your parents have let you marry such a mad man? They should be shot by a firing squad." She releases me. "You're safe now."
"Thank you."
"Come with me to my office. Mrs Collins called earlier to say that she's on her way." She informs me. "You'll see her then."
I mentally send my thanks to God as I follow the woman to her office but I suddenly notice the deafening silence in the Home as if there's not one soul apart from the two of us there.
"Where are the children?"
"It's May 27. National Children's Day in Nigeria." Alberta beams at me. "They all went on a brief excursion. They'll be back soon."
"That's nice." I say. We never did that when I was here but then they weren't so financially buoyant as they are now.
"You said you were an orphan here? What was your name? I assume it wasn't Arian."
"No. It was Kareena Macavinta. I took back my biological father's name after my marriage was annulled."
"Good for you."
We pass by a three storey building which houses the children then another building for the staff and then a third one that looks like a school and I frown at this.
"St Louis Montessori school?"
"Ah yes." Alberta grins, stopping in front of the building. "Mr Cruz thought it'd be nice for the children to also go to school like other kids with actual parents so he bought the land next to us and built this."
"Really?" This person must be an angel sent to earth by God. No human is this generous.
"It's all thanks to the Cruz family that St Louis is now what it is." Alberta sighs. "It's been like that for twenty years now."
"Wow. Any reason why this place is so special to them?" I ask. "No offense intended."
"None taken." Berta replies. "Mrs Collins thought so too and asked Mr Cruz. I think the reason he gave was because of his son who'd found someone special here."
"Are they married now?" Even though I no longer believe in love or fairy tales - I wouldn't mind hearing that a boy had found his forever here and married her.
Berta sighs sadly. "No. The girl moved away and he never saw her again."
ArianI didn't comment because I realized that I have nothing to say. It would have been an epic love story if the boy had married the girl and they lived happily ever after but it's none of my business so we just continue our tour of the place until we get to her office."Tea?" She offers after telling me to sit."Um... Water will be nice. Thank you ma'am." I reply as I take my seat. I look around the office and sigh, suddenly feeling very exhausted. I didn't sleep a wink last night due to the nightmares I had and the fear that I would never get to leave Mexico in peace but sitting here now - a million miles away from Mexico - I am able to relax and think about what the future would hold for me."Here you go dear." She walks over to hand me a cup of water with the coaster."Thank you." I receive it, careful not to let my shaky hands spill water all over the floor and I take a sip.It's silent in the office after I finish my water but I don't mind it. I take out my phone, turn it on a
Gabriel Arian Macavinta.The name floats around in my head all through the drive home. Like I expected, Kareena conked out not even five minutes after I drove out of the premises. We'd both enjoyed ourselves and today is a day I'll never forget because even if it was for a few hours, I'd had my reprieve from Lucille.She'd not called or texted to ask me where I am except the one where she told me she had a photoshoot and wouldn't be home until tomorrow.I flex my fingers on the steering wheel and frown when I still feel the lingering aftereffects of touching Arian's hand. It had happened only once and that was twenty years ago when I first met Kareena and stole her first kiss. I'd have remained single and searching for her if Lucille had not spoiled my plans by making me sleep with her and getting her pregnant. Even if I were to finally meet Kareena after so many years - still be in love with her after so many years - I wouldn't be able to do anything about us because of Lucille.I
Gabriel "How was school today sweetheart?" I ask Kareena after I hugged and rained kisses on her face making her squirm. "Good daddy." She beams. "My teacher gave us an assignment to do. It's going to be tough." "Why's that?" I frown. "She wants us to write about our mothers. Why do we like our mothers better than our fathers." Kareena makes a face. "But I love you more than mommy, daddy." I lift her up in my arms and hug her. "It's okay to love your mommy too, Kar. I know she doesn't show you that she loves you but I know she does." I tell her. "You just told a white lie, daddy." She pats my cheek, making me laugh. "You and I both know she doesn't love me." "She does." I insist. "She just doesn't know how to show it." Kary shakes her head. "It's more like a debate though. I'm on team mommy while Shania and Amber Grace are on team daddy." She pouts. "I wanted to change mine but teacher Nora said I can't." "Fine then. Just write about an imaginary mommy. How you want your momm
ArianI sit in a corner in the cafeteria just watching the kids interact with each other. During my time here, we would all queue in front of a table with our plates and wait for the staff to serve us. Then, we really couldn't afford to eat three square meals a day but the meals we ate were enough to satisfy us. Some of us.I look down at my food with a small smile playing on my lips, I say a quick prayer then begin to eat."Hi!" A cheerful voice greets behind me.I lift my head and turn to look at the person. It's one of the female staff and I force myself to smile."Hi." I say."Can I join you?" She asks."Um... Sure." I nod and gesture for her to take a seat."Thank you." She smiles and settles down on the chair opposite me.I continue eating my food in silence hoping she'd do the same but I have no such luck as she takes her first spoonful of rice into her mouth, chews and swallows, then takes a sip of water and smiles widely at me."You're new here like I am?" She inquires."You
Arian The sound of my phone ringing wakes me up but I don't bother opening my eyes and just reach out my hand to pick it up from my bedside table, swipe up to answer the call and put it to my ear. "Hello Diane." My voice comes out slurred because I'm still so sleepy but I don't care either way. All I can hear is someone breathing which makes my brows furrow and I force my eyes to open and remove my phone from my ear to look at the screen. It isn't Diane's number but an unknown number. "Hello... Who is this?" I am more alert now. I hope it's not my father playing pranks on me because he used to do that after I got separated from Rafael. "Missed me?" The dreaded voice I thought I would never hear again speaks in my ear and I freeze. "Raf... Rafael?" I ask to be sure. "Hello sweetheart." I know he's smiling even if I can't see him. "How're you doing baby?" "How did you... How did you get my number?" I've not had the chance to go out and get a new local SIM card but I didn't think
Gabriel "Stupid." I curse myself as I make my way to School Kit which is a store that sells educational materials. Kareena is all out of her favorite glitter pens and School Kit is the only store I can get it.I know I shouldn't have asked her out but I couldn't have stopped myself even if I'd had a gun to my head. Ever since I met her last week... she's been on my mind and I don't know why. I'm married to Lucifer's queen for the rest of my life so I don't think I have any business thinking about another woman. "Good morning Mr Cruz." A sales attendant walks up to me with a smile on her face. "Morning. Do you have Sparkle glitter pens in stock?" I ask her. "Yes sir." She nods. "It just got delivered this morning so you're in luck."I smile. "Very well. I want to buy twelve packets.""Okay sir. Anything else?""Six coloring books and two sketch pads." I reply."I'll get them for you sir." She smiles and leaves.I walk around the store just taking everything in when a woman bumps in
Gabriel "What's happening?" I demand immediately I settle down at the head of the table and Gabi sits next to me."Someone obviously leaked the information about our new product." One of the directors speaks up. "We're working on it sir.""Is there anything we can do?" Gabi asks. "We can... reduce the price of the laptop once it's released so we can have an edge over our competition." Another says. "No way." I snap. "Is that all you can say?" I glance around the faces at the table. "Can we change the design?""Well sir, considering how close it is to the release date... It'll be impossible." The assistant CTO says. "It'll derail our plans for the release and we can't let Sky Tech get away with what they did. It will also affect the next lineups."I let out a sigh. "Well... If we can't change the design then the function needs to be different. Can any new function be brought from another model?""Yes but the next product will be...""You can't guarantee that there will be a next one
ArianI was very surprised when I got the call about the interview. I'd found the ad on-line and I'd just decided to apply for the job without the hope of ever getting called for an interview because I'd left a lot of blank spaces due to the fact that... Rafael had not given me permission to do anything else except being his punching bag and sex slave when needed.Pushing the thought out of my mind, I grab my suitcase from its place by the wall and set it down before unzipping it then kneeling down to go through my clothes. I didn't come back here with fancy clothes even though Rafael had bought me designer dresses and shoes but I knew it was to show the world how generous he was. He'd wanted women to be jealous of me because I was married to him and they'd been - the women- but until I helped the police show the world just the kind of demon he was, they thought my life was a bed of roses. It had been hell on earth and even now... it still is.I sigh and shake my head, knowing it's n
Arian Six months later Dearly beloved, we're gathered here today in the sight of God to join this man and this woman in holy matrimony. Not to be entered lightly, holy matrimony should be entered into, solemnly and with reverence and honor." The priest begins in Italian. "Into this holy agreement, these two persons come together to be joined. If any person or people here can show cause as to why these two should not be joined in holy matrimony, speak now or forever hold your peace." Gabriel and I turn at the same time to look behind us but no one speaks up and we face the priest again. Majority of the people here probably don't understand what he's saying so we're good to go. "Do you, Gabriel Emerson Cruz, take Arian Katerina Macavinta to be your lawful wedded wife and live together in the estate of holy matrimony? Do you promise to love, comfort, honor and keep her, in sickness and in health, for richer or poorer, for better or for worse as long as you both shall live?" The pri
Gabriel Two years later Dear Gabriel, Two decades ago, I was a little girl who had been abandoned by her beloved father and I'd thought myself unworthy of anyone's love but you saw me, took your time to get to know me and at the end of that day, I went back to the orphanage with the knowledge that I was worthy of being loved by someone. Months ago, I thought I was returning home to get far away from the clutches of my ex husband and I vowed never to get involved with any man but I met you and you turned my life upside down. You made me happier than I'd ever been in years and for that, I'll be forever grateful to you. I'm sorry that I didn't tell you I am the girl you'd been waiting for and I didn't even realize it until you told me about your story. I'm sorry for leaving you and your daughter after I promised not to go, but I hope you can understand why I have to. Rafael is finally dead and I'm free from him forever, thanks to your father. I need to find myself again. I need t
Gabriel Arian probably thinks I'm out of my mind for challenging her ex husband to a fight. He's a dangerous man who has no qualms about killing someone in cold blood but I don't care. He made her life miserable for ten long years and even after being incarcerated in prison, he was still tormenting her in her dreams but it has to stop now. She was his and now she's mine and I will make sure I win this fight, then take pleasure in blowing his brains out with his own fucking gun. I have the upper hand in this fight and I don't give him an inch, throwing punches after punches making him bleed but he also doesn't give me an inch either as he throws a sucker punch that almost knocks me out. My ears ring from the punch and my vision becomes blurry but I shake myself out of it and attack him again and we end up rolling around on the floor trying to get the best of each other. My attention becomes divided as I see Lucille pick up one of the guns from the floor, turn off the safety and
Arian "She has a gun." The voice in my head whispers fearfully. "She has a fucking gun!" I feel the cold sweat that has broken out on my face and I have trouble breathing. I hate guns, hate seeing them because I've had to live with gun-toting, knife-toting men like Rafael and his men for ten years. I'd prayed to God to keep me away from guns when I came to this country, but I'd ended up taking a bullet for this man in front of me and now his ex wife wants to exact revenge on him. Gabriel moves to stand in front of me, shielding me from his ex wife's murderous glare, all the while trying to placate her to drop the gun so they could talk calmly about this, but his words fall on deaf ears. "Did you think I was joking when I told you that I'd kill you and the woman you choose to leave me for?" She asks. "How stupid of you to think I'd just accept defeat like that, Gabriel Cruz! You're mine and no one else's." I don't know why Mrs Cruz and her daughter aren't here to see a certifiable
Gabriel I leave my car running, the automatic gear in Park and the door open as I race up the steps to Lucille's front door and I press the doorbell incessantly until the housekeeper appears to open the door for me. I don't give her the chance to say anything as I march into the house and head straight for the living room. She calls my name but I don't answer until I walk into the living room and my steps falter when I come face to face with my wife - soon to be ex wife - having sex with an unknown guy on the sofa. "Mr Cruz!" Helen stops beside me but she turns her back quickly, unlike me, as Lucille and the guy break apart. "What the hell, Gabe?!" She snaps. "I'm so sorry, ma'am. I tried to stop him but he barged in before I could." Helen apologizes. Lucille picks up her discarded dress from the floor and puts it on as the guy hastily dresses up but he doesn't quite finish and hurries out of the living room with his shirt and shoes. Good for him that he had the good sense t
Gabriel Six weeks later Walking out of the High Court with the knowledge that in a few weeks, I'll be a single guy once again has me grinning from ear to ear. The judge had listened to both sides of our story and even as Lucille had laid it thick on her tears for the judge to rule in her favor... He hadn't and had declared our marriage irretrievable, but it hadn't been his final decision and that was good enough for me. I'd wanted Arian inside the court with me but she'd refused to go in, saying it reminded her of her own divorce and I'd not pressed her. Seeing her waiting for me on the steps of the building makes me very happy and my smile widens when she looks up and sees me. "How did it go?" She asks. "I'll be a single guy in a few weeks." I reply. "I don't know why he didn't just give a decree absolute instead of a decree nisi. It's all good, though, because I have finally beaten Lucille at her own game. She won't be Mrs Cruz for much longer." "It's fast." She remarks. "Min
Lucille Gabriel has finally done it. He wants to get rid of me so he can have a good life with that bitch and my stupid daughter who wouldn't know a good mother from a bad one even if it hit her in the face. She has forgotten that it's because of me, because of my love for her father that she's alive today, but I'm going to let it slide with her because she's just a little girl.I'm sure Gabriel has been feeding her lies about me, which was the reason why she'd not wanted me at the party. One thing Gabriel Cruz doesn't know is that inasmuch as I love him, my love could easily turn to hatred and I did promise to never let him be happy with any other woman. If killing him or her would ensure the end of their budding relationship, then so be it. I'm game."Are you really letting him go?" Samantha settles down on the single wingback chair with a drink in her hand. "It's unlike you.""I'm making him think he has won, Sam." I send her a smirk. "He may win the case in court and we'll get d
Arian"This is so surreal." I mutter. My head is resting on Gabriel's chest after our intense love making. It was better than the previous times. Although, it could be because we'd both gone two months without it and we'd been so starved for one another. All I know is that I'm not so sure I can say no to this man anymore."It is, isn't it?" I can hear the smile in his voice. "Being here with you, like this again. I feel like I'm dreaming.""Then, we're both having the same dream." I chuckle."I love you, Arian." He bends his head to plant a kiss on my hair. "It feels really good to let it out now.""Will you be okay with me saying I like you?" I ask in a tentative voice. "I can't go any further than that.""I'm more than okay with it." He squeezes my shoulder. "Half bread is better than nothing.""Do you think... Kary will hate me if I tell her I don't think I can be her mother? I mean, legally?" I look up at him. "What do you think?""I think she'll love you either way, Arian." He re
Gabriel "I'll go away." Lucille says. "I just came to say goodbye to you."Kary's gaze slides to mine in excitement, as if she's already guessed why her mother is saying that. "Does this mean... She won't be in our lives anymore?""Yes, baby." I nod. "We're finally getting a divorce.""Yay!" She claps her hands excitedly. "Thank you, daddy!" She wraps her small arms around my neck."I guess this is my cue to leave." Lucille's voice cracks with emotion as she finally realizes that even her daughter doesn't want her around. "Goodbye... Kareena. Can I hug you?"Kary literally recoils from her, burying her face in my neck. I stroke her back to calm her down and gesture for Lucille to leave. Thankfully, she listens to me and walks away."Is she gone?" Kary asks."Yes, baby." I reply. "You won't see her again if you don't want to.""I don't want to see her again." She reaches for Arian and I hand her over to Arian. "I love you, Arian. I want you to be my mother."Arian's wide eyed gaze sli