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2024-10-29 19:42:56“Why do we love the sea? It is because it has some potent power to make us think things we like to think.” -Robert Henri
As much as she reminded me that her name was no longer Sea, and that she was never actually Sea in the first place, I still couldn’t help but compare her to the sea. How deep and enchanting she is, how she makes me want to go dive into her and know more about what she can tell and offer me. I wanted to explore her more, I wanted to know her better.
She is still a mystery to me. And as much as I do my best in knowing who she really is, I know I wouldn’t be able to fully know her if she would dodge all oy questions. I needed answers, I need her answers to be exact. I just hope she’ll realize that I’m someone she can trust and share her secrets with. I’m her girlfriend, her partner, and her bestfriend. I want to know her as much ass she knows me.
Because I love her. A lot.
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