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Chapter 60 – Play As The Variable
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2021-11-10 20:40:50"Whatever it is, let's do it. I want all these to end. Where do we start?" All of a sudden I regret saying this to Albert.
"M-Marco?" I stuttered as I mentioned his name. I couldn't deny the goosebumps I felt just by merely hearing the name. I despised him, but if he was the last person on earth who could help us, then I would have the face my past the most painful way.
His forehead creased and pressed his lips, perhaps to keep himself from talking. He heaved a deep sigh and pulled me closer to him.
"Are we out of options?" I asked, and at this time I wish I could just wake up and go back to the way things used to be. I would rather put myself, my life in misery than make other people suffer just because of me.
Going back in time made everything complicated. I wanted to be happy and change my future, but how could I sleep well at night if it would only affect the people I love.
Where will my selfishness lead me? It ached my hea
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