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Chapter 35
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2021-11-02 06:49:41Samuel's POV
Pain.
Every pain is different; the meaning of every pain is different. Some pain is excruciating, some are numbing, while some are like the dull throbbing sensation.
And then there is this sweet lingering pain inside your heart that is slowly burning you. It is like a slow poison that kills you slowly, without anyone knowing the reason for your death.
That is the worst kind of pain because it can't be healed. Because the cure which you need is the cure that you can't have.
And this is the kind of pain in which I am living.
How weird is it that the person who heals others can't heal himself?
The void inside my heart constantly re
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