I left the café and that hotel without a second look back. No one came after me, neither Elijah nor my mom, and I couldn’t tell whether I was disappointed or not. What I did know, was that I needed space right then, so a part of me was relieved.The hotel was a bit of a distance from the school, so I had to hail a cab. I just barely had the funds to handle it, and it would have been cheaper to take the bus, but the next bus wouldn’t be moving for a while, and I didn’t want to wait around at the bus stop until then.I didn’t know if I was going to break down or not, but just in case, I wanted to do it while I was alone.The ride back, I looked out the window and refused to think about anything. There was too much to think about, anyway, and I felt like I would go crazy if I just let it all spin around in my head. When we got back, the driver had to catch my attention to get me to move and pay up; I was so preoccupied.I nearly ran all the way to my dorm. There were a few people out and
I hadn't spoken to Sophia for the last few days, but I still felt fucking restless because of it. I saw her around campus, but when she caught sight of me, she would hurry off in the opposite direction. She was a sprinter that was for sure.It hurt, just a little bit.Even Logan was happy in his own love life, noticed when I started acting miserable. Then, he saw Sophia’s avoidance routine.“Dude, what the fuck happened between the two of you?” he asked me on Wednesday as we made our way to class, watching Sophia’s back as she hurried off a distance from us. “Don’t tell me you told her in the end, because that’s stupid of you.”I sighed. “It wasn’t that, do you think things would be like this between us? This shit doesn’t have anything to do with me. Well, I can't say it has nothing to do with me, but I’m only distantly related to it!”Logan just frowned at me. “Dude, speak English. I didn’t get any of that.”I sighed again and trudged forward. “Let’s get to class and sit down, I’ll t
I was the one that had been avoiding him like crazy. But, it was bugging me that he wasn’t making the effort to connect with me. I watched Elijah’s back move further and further away as he left the restaurant at the hotel, with me, my mom and his dad all still seated and eating.At that moment, I didn’t have the courage to reach out to him. Because our parents were there, and I didn’t know if I could control myself with all four of us seated at the same table. So, I decided to ignore Elijah, instead, but I just ended up making him mad. I didn’t think I even had the right to reach out to him, and it had hurt.I really messed up this time. It had been a few days already. I got the message from Mom telling me where they were at. They’d wait for us before deciding on living arrangements, but that was the last thing on my mind.I’d tried contacting Elijah a few times, even searching him out, and he’d ignored me. Just like I avoided him, now it was my turn to be treated badly and it fucking
I had been in being angry with Sophia, that I forgot it all started with me in the first place. If I never hacked her computer, stole her information and used it so I could trap her, she and I never would have gotten together in the first place. Our reactions to being step-siblings would have been more along the sides of hate than horror. For a moment, because I was irritated, I got so full of myself.Now, I couldn’t even apologize to her, because after that day, I didn’t see her around anymore. Even when I looked for her in our shared class, or went to find her at any of her classes.For the whole week, Sophia hadn't been in classes.“Could something have happened?” I mused to myself in my room.“Who knows? Maybe she’s trying to get away from you,” Logan replied lazily from behind me.I whirled around in my chair and scowled at him. “Look who’s talking,” I sneered. “It’s your fault for saying that shit to her.”He arched an eyebrow at me. “Weren’t you thinking of telling her yourself
Mom and Ted living at our house. Mom had told me they’d try living in both homes before deciding which one to keep for themselves, so I hadn't been to Elijah’s home yet, but that just left me relieved, because I was in familiar surroundings.Of course, Mom realized I was pregnant and came up with the idea of leaving our house to Elijah and me while she moved in with Ted. I wasn’t sure what I felt about this plan.I woke up in my bed and raised my arms above my head as I stretched out my body. I moved to get out of bed and went to the bathroom for a quick shower. If it were just Mom and me, I’d be a lot more relaxed, but Ted was around. After the shower, I pulled on a pair of sweatpants, a t-shirt, and hoodie, then left my room. Before, I would have just woken up and gone down in the camisole and shorts I slept in.They were both in the kitchen, just like they had been every time I came down here. They stood side by side as they made breakfast, and I couldn’t help feeling nostalgic. Th
We stayed with our parents for a couple days, but we couldn’t wait around much longer. We both had exams to get back to, and Sophia needed to study for them, since all she did after getting home was get a lot of rest.I’d caught a bus, but Dad let me take his car back. The drive was about four hours to the school, and about six hours to my house. It was still a little hard to believe that Sophia and I had only lived six hours away from each other our whole lives. Though since our parents went to high school together, maybe it wasn’t so odd.“Nice of Ted to give us the car,” Sophia said.I glanced over at her. She sat beside me, with her arms folded over her chest, leaning back on the headrest as she looked outside. We’d talked over the past two days, and we were okay, but she was obviously still put out with me, and I’d have to earn her forgiveness. I was relieved, though, because if that was all I needed to do, then I could do it, no problem.“He’ll probably have someone come take it
I ended up in my dorm that night, and Dana sat with me on my bed. I was still feeling a little out of it from earlier. The whole thing still felt so surreal.In less than eight months I’d be giving birth to a baby. I was going to be a mother, and Elijah was going to be a father. Mom was remarried, and she and Ted would help us look after the baby while I finished college and when Elijah was busy with hockey.The thoughts were running through my mind, that this was my life now. It felt like it was someone else’s life, to be honest like I was just on the outside looking in. When Elijah asked for my opinion on everything… I had nothing to say.I told Dana everything because she was curious. We talked things out, and she explained her hand in what happened and apologized for it. I was annoyed, but in the end, what she did was the reason Elijah, and I ever got together, and I’d been so happy before the lies came out, but I couldn’t say I regretted it. I forgave her easily but wasn’t ready
I got out of practice, panting and sweating. After getting scolded by the coach, I joined the other guys in the locker room, and they cursed me out too for not playing well. I couldn’t tell them that there was no way I could be calm and collected after knowing I was going to be a father in my early twenties. In front of Sophia, I had to be put together because I wanted her to trust me, but I was nervous. “Get off the guy’s case,” Logan said defensively. “He’s been out for a few days, do you think he went off to get some beauty sleep or something?”I looked at him, arching an eyebrow, wondering why he was helping me. Usually, Logan would be the first one to complain when I didn’t pay enough attention to the field and messed up the team’s plays. He did laugh when he saw me getting shoved to the ground, which happened a little too many times.Still, the other backed off, and I was relieved. I had enough on my plate without adding them to the mix.I headed to the showers for a quick wash