As we nestled in our individual apartment provided by our hospital's human resource team, Liz and I immediately begin to unpacked our things. As I was arranging my stuffs, I called my mom through zoom meeting to let them know that I have arrived safely and to show them my new abode for the next 6 months. I dialed my mom's number and turned on the video conferencing.
"Hi mom!, where's Althea and dad?", I asked as I am busy unpacking the rest of my stuffs. "Ben!!, come here and bring Althea. It's Jessica!", my mom shouted with excitement on her voice, as if singing out the top of her lungs. Dad is in a hurry. He's a little excited to see how things are going on as I landed in my little apartment.
"Hi dad, I'm here now in London!, and this will be my temporary home" I turn the camera to let them see the space I got. "oh sweety, it's amazing. That place is gorgeous", he said as he run his eyes on the four corners of my place. "momma!", my precious Althea greeted me with glee. She misses me and I missed her so bad that it breaks my heart. If my life with Nick was better, I would not leave my daughter behind to find good future away from her. It is hard to forget about the how's and why's. However, my father and mother always encouraged me to do better for the sake of my child. I don't want to let them down anymore. Not anymore.
We talked and chatted my parents until I finished decluttering my stuffs. I bid goodbye to my family to meet with Liz and start our day by meeting our Human Resource personnel. Liz knocked on the door and I leapt from my seat.
"Coming.. Wait a second". We both went to the HR office and meet various of important people in our hospital. Each one of them welcomed us with warm and glee on their faces. I couldn't be more happier seeing them be so much glad of our arrival. Liz and I are the only ones from Alberta, while other co nurses who joined with us came from different part of the world.
It was a day full of orientation on what are our responsiblities would be. The director talked about the foundation of the establishment, our affiliates and so on as so forth. They have delegated us our different areas and Liz and I were assigned in the operating theatre. As my experience in the operating room is not that much, I have to undergo a various training program before I could finally scrub in alone. Exciting as it sounds as I didn't have enough cases to handle when I was still working in my home town. Liz on the other hand can immerse immediately in the OT as she has enough experience way back in Alberta.
They handed us a couple of orientation sheet booklets, a vicinity map and a starter kit. It felt like we have the whole things right here to be able to adapt the ways of this new environment. Our accommodation is only within the hospital premises, like it is just few minutes away from the main lobby. It is amazing how it turned out. It is not that hard to adjust after all.
By the end of the day, we finished our hospital tour and all of us went back to each of our apartment. Liz and I were neighbors as well. It is a small space, like perhaps 300 square feet, but you got your own personal area. A bathroom, a little kitchen, tiny living room with your bed, a bedside table--- it is like living in a dorm privately. It is not that much, but it is enough. I am pleased to know that we could decorate this room according to our liking. I have several plans on how I could maximize my space. However, knowing that I would just be staying here for 6 months and have to move out in a different flat, I will not do any hard works on my interior. Just a touch of my creative side.
I heard a commotion outside the lobby and I peeped out to see what it was. It's Liz who ordered a bunch of food supplies for me and for her. I feel so relieved that she is with me and tahnkful that she is so thoughtful on the things that I need. "Hey Jess, this is our food supply for the month. As per the contract, they would only provide us with a month supply until we get our first salary", she explained. "This will be for you, and this will be mine" she handed me a full basket of groceries and toiletries. "Thank you Liz, this is more than enough".
I kept all the groceries in my cupboard, each I arranged so nicely that I felt so satisfied after. Then I started cooking some pastas for dinner and invited Liz to come over to eat. She brought with her some red wine for a welcome celebration. "Welcome to a new US!", we cheered our glasswine and we talked almost about everything. We were both excited for tomorrow as it will mark as the first day for us in LUH.
Liz went back to her apartment and she promised me to make us breakfast tomorrow before we'll go to the hospital. I, on the other hand, is preparing my stuffs for my training will also start the next day. I laid my uniform as I ironed it, then prepped some booklets and chat notes for it. "I am ready. This is all for you", I encouraged myself as I was looking at the screen of my phone where Althea, and my family is on.
I went to bed and remembered everything. I was thinking of Nick and what is he going to do now. I know back in my mind that he is planning of something. But all this time, not having heard of anything from him is killing me. I know he is not that kind of person that easily gives up. I am just worried that if that time comes, I won't be ready. I sigh. All I can do for now is to prepare myself and to make a stronger version of me.
I set my alarm and went to sleep.
This it. The day of my training.I woke up minutes ahead of my alarm and started to prepare. I took a shower, 'ahh, this is so refreshing'. I put on my uniform and looked myself in the mirror. "I look okay with this", I said to myself. I left my apartment and head to Liz's.I knocked on her door and she opened. She was prepared as well. "Well, good morning neighbor", I greeted her. "Jess, I prepared pancake. Let's have breakfast now. I don't want to be late on my first day'". "Your work ethics. That's what I love about you", I teased her as I handed her a cup of coffee. We gulped into the pancakes as we satisfy ourselves by this delicious meal. After that heavy breakfast, immediately, we went inside the hospital premises.Head directly to the Operating theatre. Liz and I went on our separate ways. I managed to go to the training room and wait for my preceptor. When she came, she introduced herself to me. Her name is Lorraine. She explained that this
On my way to work, I saw Lorraine. I greeted her and she wished me good luck. It was fun having to experience a day with her. She is one of the few people who helped me to have a smooth transition of being an OT nurse. Before heading home, Lorraine advised me to check the posted schedule I have this month. "Go check your schedule, starting tomorrow, you'll be working without me supervising you". Then she bid goodbye and exited the theatre. I took my phone and took a photo of my schedule then immediately head back home. All day, the mail still lingers in my brain, hovering my mind this entire time. How dare him made that kind of threat.'Jess, I know you are in London now. By this time, I cannot do anything because of the restraining order that you pass in the court against me, not being able to visit my daughter. But I assure you, that I will do everything in my power to lift it so soon that you will regret this decision. I know I have made your life a little misera
Months have passed so fast that we already have to moved out from our hospital's accommodation to a place where Liz and I decided to live. It is a two bedroom apartment in the downtown, just a few minutes away from work. The place is great and not too shaby for both of us. We each have our own rooms and we have a bigger space where we can enjoy. A kitchen is a safe haven for me and suits my taste. Being able to survive this long in this new city has been a blessing for me. I am able to go through work without causing any trouble and being able to feel a little less than sober.My Althea is two years old now, and she is able to converse perfectly. She is very smart, talented and beautiful. Nick, on the other hand, miraculously vanished from the scene. Five months have passed and I never heard from him, he didn't even try to take Althea away which i am so grateful of. I think that Lord helped me to protect my family. Everyday, my daughter and I always bond over the phone.
As I reached home, I go directly to my room and changed my clothes. Washed my face and put on my night beauty regimen. Got to bed and immediately fall asleep. So deep that I entered my dream in a so vivid way. 'I was in the lobby scanning my notes from my sociology class, just reading important notes that I highlighted. Absentmindedly, I was looking at the group of friends from the opposite side of the building. They were talking so loud that made me so irritated. Then, I saw him---the man of my dreams. He was so handsome, the typical one that you'll easily fall in love with. Nick Richards. He's talking as if it is the end of the world. Then it becomes so blurry, like the fog is devouring him. A few more second and he was gone. Vanished from the scene'.Suddenly, I woke up from that dream. "what a weird dream". I kept on thinking what it was all about. Perhaps I just missed him. It has been so long since I haven't heard from him. And even so, we are still legally married.
"Jess? The court has decided to grant Nick the custody. He also filed for divorce", Atty. Gwen told me as she called me after my work. It is still in the middle of summer weather but I feel very cold all over my body. "Can we ask for motion for reconsideration, Gwen?", I asked her. "It is difficut Jess, specially you are not around here in Alberta. All of the rights are given to your husband". I am deeply wounded, hurt to my core. I couldn't believe that my precious daughter will be taken away from me. "What about child protection program? Nick is abusing prohibited drugs, can we make it as reason for consideration?" "I cannot guarantee that Jess, especially now that the court has given the final verdict". "What am I going to do?" "Ask for some time off from work and fly back here in Alberta Jess", she advised.I called home crying because of the news that Atty. Gwen informed me. My mother and father were both crying. Sobbing. All of us were shocked by the court's decision. I
I am in my deep thoughts while I am bording my flight. The flight attendant offered me a glass of cold water as she noticed my uncomfortable state. I was lost in a moment. I could not find a word to describe my feeling for today. It is as if I am walking towards uncertain things that I know I ended up losing. It's funny how I look back and easily remember how bewail I am with my current situation in life. During the flight, I am not at ease. I always thought about what would my shitty ex husband will do to my precious little one. The flight is not that long however I felt like it has been a century, sitting on this chair near the window, not hearing any words from home.I am thankful to Liz for pushing me in doing this without compromising the job that I left behind. After 2 hours, the plane has landed. Not a busy airport like London but it feels like hope. I grabbed my phone and gave Liz a call. One ring and she already answered, as if she was expecting a call from me
The next day, I updated Liz about what happened way back here in Alberta. I called her and we chatted for a few minutes and ended up the call. At home, Althea and I were playing inside the room when my mother informed me that Atty. Gwen is waiting for me in the living room. I carried my daughter and meet her. Gwen happens to be my lawyer and my high school friend. When I faced the problem with my married life, I entrusted her with my case and she happily accepted it.We discussed the possibility of my case and she gave me a time frame. However, I informed her that my leave from work will just be a week. I wanted to bring with me my daughter back in London while the trial is on going. However, she explained to me the probability of my actions and what it may appear in court. She advised me to meet personally Nick and settle wth him to avoid prolonging my agony. It never is an easy fight.After discussing my options, Gwen left my home and proceed to her firm.
It has been a year since my daughter died and I still feel the pain. It haunts me every night. I could not hide my depression as I cried myself to sleep. I am heartbroken ever since the accident happened. Today marks the death anniversary of my precious Althea and I am so down. I called my parents and asked how they are doing. They too are not in good shape. It is true that the melancholy of the past will haunt you forever. Liz saw me crying and called her boyfriend, Leon. They planned to bring me to one of the famous bars in West London just to unwind. "Leon, we have to help Jessica. It has been a year since she's like this babe. Crying herself to sleep". "Ok babe, I will ask Dave to arrange for us an entrance in Midnight Bar", he replied. Liz just stared me while I am sleeping. That night, I decided to go with them to the bar to release what my feelings are: despair, anguish, guilt. Name it all, it is endless. It is the first time ever that I went to ha
Throwback to the night we first met.......JOHN's POVI was offered a job in London as the new medical director in a university hospital that we owned. I did not want the job however my father kept on bugging me to take over for the various businesses we have. So I left with no choice but to live low key and accept to be the new medical director before I take the place as the new CEO. I am a doctor by profession and by heart, and my family is running a good business in health industry and so with sky scrapers.Currently, I am staying in the penthouse where I personally owned and managed. I decided to grab a few drinks before heading back home. I called my friend and told him to meet me in the Midnight Bar for some quick sips and catch ups. As I entered the bar, I was greeted by dancing and happy people. I went to the bar table and ordered a beer. As the music hyped up, I was kind of drawn towards the dance floor when one beautiful and gorge
I decided to wear a sage green colored dress with silky fabrics that hugged nicely to my curves. I paired with a long gold earrings that dangle almost to my shoulders, with my hair in their perfect curls and a good amount of make up to sum my look up. I feel different in this outfit, but I kinda like the way I looked right now. I grabbed my pair of heels and my purse. I checked my self once again in my mirror and I am happy that I agreed to this date. It is just 10 minutes to seven, when I heard someone is knocking on my door. I knew right away that it was John. As I opened the door, I was greeted by the most handsome guy I have ever met in his black suit and fresly shaved face. He is such a breath of fresh air. We made an eye contact that lasted for about a few minutes, none of us was saying a word-- like it was a staring contest. I break the silence and greeted him, "Hi John, you are early." I ushered him inside my apartment and offered him to sit down. "You look amazingly
Today is not like any other day. It was the very first day that I woke up so peaceful and happy after a very long and relaxing sleep. It is indeed true that time heals everything. And with the help of prayer, I am able to experience waking up to a beautiful day once again. I started my day with a shower and a breakfast then immediately drive my way to the hospital for work.I parked my car as usual and I walked towards the lobby. One familiar voice called me from behind. "Hey Jess, wait for me". It was John, the new medical director, who happens to be the guy I met from the bar few weeks ago. "Good morning, you look different today", he smiled as he greeted me. "Hmm, Is it a good different or a bad different. And good morning to you too, Sir", I replied. He chuckled and we both exchange our laughter. It was so easy to talk to him and to make a conversation with him. "A very good different. You look more beautiful, by the way", he teased me. I just blushed and I knew that it s
John and I are now friends after the casual coffee date that we had last week. At work we often saw each other and sometimes exchanged greetings. As I am having shifting schedules, we only bumped into one another when I'm on my morning shifts or got out from graveyard shifts. He also continued to send messages to me asking how's my day, have I eaten yet, what am I gonna do, and so on and so forth. It was very overwhelming to know that he continues to do these stuffs after what I have told him about my past. Slowly, I am getting attached to every messages that both of us exchanged. May it be a random "hi" and "hello" greetings to a small flirty texts of "i miss you" and "I wish you were here". I started to develop some sort of feelings for him however I can't deny the fact that I am too afraid to start over again.The fear that lived in my heart haunts me every night. Each night, the face of my daughter and the time she was taken away from me gave me a melancholic moment. All
I could hear my heart beats so fast like I am joining a marathon. As John delivered his speech, his eyes didn't leave mine. Except for the moments that he has to connect with the others. I suddenly feel like everything is in slow motion. His eyes, his lips, his body, the way he moves-- everything about him made me crazy in addition to the things that we did last week. I feel myself heated up, so I told my fellow nurses that I have to go back to the theatre. As I was about to leave, I heard John let out a sigh, like a sound of defeat. I just stared at him and slowly make my way out from the auditorium. I managed to exit and hurriedly go the Operating Theatre. My mind still in shock and slowly processed what just happened. Once I reached the OT, my supervisor asked me why I was there since the meeting was not yet over. "Oh I suddenly feeling not very well, maybe because I didn't eat my breakfast and it is past lunch now" "Oww then you better eat my dear. Don't want to get you sick. Se
It has been a week since that awkward moment when John and I were in the same room in his penthouse. It was a feeling that I have not felt for a very long time. Since then, John always send me messages and sweet thoughts. He keeps my mind occupied these past few days.Last week when I ended up drunk and slept in his room, he has been so caring. He did not take advantage of my weakness and we did not even had sex, well atleast we kissed a lot of time. He respected me when I resist to our almost intimate moment. Don't get me wrong, I wanted to get laid however this guy is different and with the past happenings in my life, I don't want to just lay my legs on bed and be slammed hard. I wanted to take it slow.I still think of my daughter and how hard it has been for me that now I can no longer see her beautiful smile in that small face. I cried in pain again inside my apartment. Way back home, my parents informed me that Nick has been sentenced of Reclusion Perpetua (life
"Jess, you wanna go out from here?", he asked. "Ok", I replied.I tried to searched for Liz and Leon to tell them that I am going for the night but the crowd was so hyped I could not find them. I just left a message to Liz. I grabbed my phone and messaged her 'will be going out with this handsome man, incase you want to know'.Few minutes after I received a reply from her 'It's about time, have a great time'.As we exited the bar, I felt like my head is spinning. I wanted to vomit. It was so embarassing as I feel like I cannot bear to move. John helped me as he noticed my lack of balance. "Jess, are you ok? If you want to throw up, do it here", he said and led me to an empty pot near the entrance of the bar. I threw up.He handed me a bottle of water. I did not see where he took it but I eagerly complied. "Thanks John, I am not usually like this", I was mortified and I don't care what I look like anymore. Few more minutes and I
It has been a year since my daughter died and I still feel the pain. It haunts me every night. I could not hide my depression as I cried myself to sleep. I am heartbroken ever since the accident happened. Today marks the death anniversary of my precious Althea and I am so down. I called my parents and asked how they are doing. They too are not in good shape. It is true that the melancholy of the past will haunt you forever. Liz saw me crying and called her boyfriend, Leon. They planned to bring me to one of the famous bars in West London just to unwind. "Leon, we have to help Jessica. It has been a year since she's like this babe. Crying herself to sleep". "Ok babe, I will ask Dave to arrange for us an entrance in Midnight Bar", he replied. Liz just stared me while I am sleeping. That night, I decided to go with them to the bar to release what my feelings are: despair, anguish, guilt. Name it all, it is endless. It is the first time ever that I went to ha
The next day, I updated Liz about what happened way back here in Alberta. I called her and we chatted for a few minutes and ended up the call. At home, Althea and I were playing inside the room when my mother informed me that Atty. Gwen is waiting for me in the living room. I carried my daughter and meet her. Gwen happens to be my lawyer and my high school friend. When I faced the problem with my married life, I entrusted her with my case and she happily accepted it.We discussed the possibility of my case and she gave me a time frame. However, I informed her that my leave from work will just be a week. I wanted to bring with me my daughter back in London while the trial is on going. However, she explained to me the probability of my actions and what it may appear in court. She advised me to meet personally Nick and settle wth him to avoid prolonging my agony. It never is an easy fight.After discussing my options, Gwen left my home and proceed to her firm.