Tessa’s POVThe moment was gone before it began. We stood only inches from one another. I could feel his breath on my features and his eyes were fixated on my lips. I knew what he wanted, and I wanted it too.I was seconds away from closing that gap between us and pressing my lips against his. To feel the softness and comfort that his kiss provides me. To taste him against me.But he stepped away, leaving me standing alone and vulnerable.I blinked several times, trying to wrap my mind around what had happened.Knowing that he cared enough to do research on apartments for me, I wondered why he wanted to keep the distance between us. Was it all about the professor and student thing? Or there was more than that?He ran his hand across the back of his neck and averted his eyes from mine. My face warmed and I glanced at my feet.“I chose an apartment,” I said, my voice sounding distant.He managed to look at me and raised both his brows.“I chose the one that’s closest to the school,” I t
Tessa’s POVI woke up early the next morning, momentarily forgetting where I was. I forgot I wasn’t at Joseph’s house any longer. My heart was still hurting, for the ambiguous attitude Joseph left me with. It felt as if he was pushing me away and pulling me towards him at the same time.The push and pull made me anxious, but I knew I still had to plant a smile on my face and get through today. I also had to figure out how to get through tonight.It was Monday, which meant I had to get through his class without breaking down. I tried my best to brush the thought out of my head as I grabbed a clean outfit and went to take a shower.Once I was done getting dressed, I looked at myself in the mirror. I wore a skirt that rested just above my knees and a black blouse with sleeves that hung just under my shoulders. I allowed my hair to freely fall around my shoulders but kept a ponytail around my wrist just in case.I added a little bit of makeup under my eyes to keep them from looking red du
Tessa’s POVI tried to pay Brian no attention despite being able to feel his eyes on me the entire time I was sitting with Joseph. Others were also noticing our awkward lunch and I knew they were whispering about it and probably starting rumors.I probably shouldn’t have sat down like this. What was he thinking? Having me sit with him like this. How could he remain so calm and casual?It was like he had no care in the world.“Are you prepared for today’s exam?” Joseph asked just as casually as he looked.Joseph had been talking about this exam for a little over a week. While I was out, he made sure I had everything needed to pass this exam. I studied like crazy, and it seems pretty straightforward. However, I was still a little nervous because it was the first big exam that counted for a bit portion of this quarter’s grade.I had to pass it.I nodded to answer his question.“Yes. I appreciate you for getting me all the necessary materials.”He nodded as well.“You’re my student. It’s
Tessa’s POVMy talk with Brian earlier left a chill down my spine. I could hardly concentrate on studying in the library and I was practically a drone in my next class.Only one more class and it would be Joseph’s evening class. I had a knot in my stomach thinking about it. We had a nice conversation in the lunchroom and I’m hoping things don’t have to be weird between us. But now everybody was talking about it.Once I got to Joseph’s class, he was talking to a few teachers outside his classroom, including Emily.She gave me a smile as I walked by, though it seemed strained and she stepped closer to Joseph, almost protectively. I tried my best to return her smile as I walked into the classroom.I felt Joseph’s eyes on the back of my head.Ruby was sitting at our usual desks in the back of the room, speaking to some girls as I sat down.“They are fake rumors, so, stop talking about it,” Ruby hissed to the others who only gave one another knowing before turning away.I knew they were ta
Tessa’s POV“Do you like tomato and basil soup?” I asked from the kitchen, peering over at Joseph sitting on the couch.“Sounds good,” he answered.I was surprised when he agreed to come inside, even more shocked that I invited him. But now that he was here, I needed to prepare dinner for us both. I was pleased that he was here. Despite our many differences and the fact that I hardly saw him during the day, I missed hanging out with him in the evenings.It was like a part of me was missing these last few days and now that he’s in my living room, sitting on my couch, waiting for me to return with food, it felt like that missing part has been filled.I felt good about our friendship. I’m glad we talked a little bit earlier and cleared some of that negative energy away. But there was still stuff I wanted to say to him. There were still things I needed to tell him.I was so lost in thought, that I hadn’t even noticed that he was now in the kitchen.“Do you need help with anything?” He ask
Tessa’s POV“Tess—”“I’m serious, Joseph,” I said, cutting off whatever he was about to say. “Are you seriously going to sit there and tell me you didn’t feel anything when we kissed? Was it that meaningless to you?”“We’ve both had a little too much to drink,” he said, shaking his head as he stared down at the wine glass. “It’s probably better if we—”“I will never have the courage to say any of this sober,” I told him, keeping my eyes locked on the side of his face. “Do you regret that kiss?”“Yes,” he said meeting my eyes.It felt like someone had stabbed me in the heart. I couldn’t stop the tears from filling my eyes. I looked away from him so he wouldn’t see them as well.“But not for the reason you are thinking,” he continued. “The life that I live is a dangerous one. It’s not for a human. Especially a young human girl with an entire future ahead of her. You deserve better than a vampire like me. It’s a dark and lonely world I live in. It’s no place for you.”I found myself reac
Tessa’s POVHe’s gone.I woke up this morning and he was no longer in my bed. I knew before I even got out of bed and into the living room that he wouldn’t be there either. He wasn’t in my apartment. I could feel it.He left.It must have been in the middle of the night. Maybe he waited until he was sober enough to drive home. Or maybe it was immediately after I fell asleep.This was nothing more than I mental game that I was falling victim to. How was I so easily tricked all the time? First Brian and now Joseph.I knew it wasn’t fair to compare Joseph to Brian. But I felt used.I was still naked when I woke up. I don’t really remember falling asleep, but I woke up covered by my blanket. I remember him kissing my forehead and telling me to go to sleep. I remember feeling like everything was going to be okay and that things were going to be different going forward.Now I was feeling like a fool.I pressed my knees to my chest and allowed a few tears to let loose. That was all I was goi
Tessa’s POV“What do you mean love? You think you love him after he ghosted you?” I asked, trying to hold back my second round of laughter.However, the sadness in her eyes made things less humorous and jabbed painfully at my heart.“No,” she admitted, looking down at her hands. “But I thought maybe I could love him someday. I don’t know why I feel so sad over this one guy. I only knew him for one night and had sex with him once. I’ve had sex with guys before and never felt this attached afterward. At least not since, Todd,” she said, naming her ex-boyfriend.I sighed and took another swig of wine while pouring her another glass. Once I put the wine bottle down, I pressed my knees to my chest and took a sip of the wine in my glass.“I don’t know much about love myself,” I admitted. “But I know it’s a feeling like no other. A connection between the heart, mind, and soul. When you kiss, it’s like you’re the only two people in the room. His eyes pouring into you will keep you in a trance