Chapter 7 -Broken

I went to the garden before going to my room to think. I already agreed to go out with Xander tomorrow. He offered to be a distraction for my broken heart.

I went to where the tulips were. They’re my favorite flower because they fascinate me, not knowing how beautiful they will be when it blooms. It gives me a positive effect and my heart feels at ease whenever I see them. The smell of the different flowers in the garden made me feel happy for a moment, as I took a deep breath.

"You're here. I was looking for you."

I was startled when someone spoke. It was Kyle. Great! The one person I didn’t want to see today. I didn't want to look at him so I just kept on walking, but I can sense that he's following me.

"Why did you go with Xander? And didn't even tell me. I went home as fast as I could but they said you haven't arrived yet. I was worried. I tried to call you but your phone's off." He said.

Why is he telling me this? If he's like this, I might assume he really cares for me. My heart was so painful, I can't bear it anymore. Before I knew it, I was already crying.

"Hey what's wrong? Did Xander do something inappropriate?" He asked.

He was already in front of me, and was so close to me. His voice was so gentle. I wanted to tell him the truth. I wanted to scream and yell at him. Tell him to his face that I am head over heels in love with him. Instead, I just cried.

He panicked. I was shocked when he suddenly pulled me into his arms and hugged me.

"Emily, please tell me what's wrong? I want to help you. I'm here for you. I'm your friend." He whispered.

"You can't help me!" I pushed him with all my strength.

"How would I know if I can help you if you won't tell me? Is it Xander? What did he do to you?" He was getting angry.

"No! He didn't. He was a gentleman. This has nothing to do with him." I said.

"Then why are you crying? You won't cry like that for nothing!" He almost yelled.

"Kyle please. Don't ask. You're making it harder for me." I begged.

"No! I won't stop until you tell me." He was looking directly into my eyes.

I couldn't take it so I turned around and cried again. Kyle got closer and hugged me from behind.

"Emily, you're important to me. It hurts to see you like this."

God! Why did I fall in love with him? My heart feels like it'll burst out.

Again, I walked away from him to distance myself. He frowned when I turned around to look at him.

"Are you really not going to stop? Can you please stay away from me? Don't act that we're so close and stop touching me!" I yelled.

"Why? Tell me! For God's sake Emily! Why can't you tell me?" He's also getting mad.

"Because starting tomorrow I'll be dating Xander. So you shouldn't be touching me freely. And if it went well, I might become his fiance." I said. I just hope he wouldn't sense that I'm lying.

He didn't say a word. Again, I can't figure out his expression. Is he surprised? Is he mad? For some reason, I can't read him but he can easily read me.

"I was crying because I'm happy. I finally got a guy I want. I was just excited thinking that I'll become his fiance." I continued and tried my best not to stammer.

I heard him sigh. "Well, congratulations! You finally found your dream guy. Your ideal guy. Tall, fashionable, smart, rich and good looking. Good for you!"

It sounded bitter and sarcastic to me. He reiterated each word. It added pain in my heart and I feel like I was stabbed by him.

"Yes! That's what I like, and also my family. They will be glad to know that I'll be dating someone from the same level as ours." I said.

He nodded but his face became dark for a moment.

"How about you and Lily? I saw her kissing you. So is she now your girlfriend?" I asked.

I wanted to kill myself for asking the obvious. Why would I ask something that can only cause me pain?

"Oh yeah! We're a couple now. Thanks to you! Money can really change someone's perspective and impression on a person."

Again, his words were like daggers stabbing me directly to my heart. I wanted to run to my room and just cry. I wanted to go somewhere far away from him.

"I told you right? If you have money, you can even buy a person's love and affection." That wasn't me! I would never do something like that. I wanted to add that but it never came out of my mouth.

Yes. My ideal man has to be richer than me and that was because I grew up with a family that follows traditions. A family with rules. That we should never marry someone who's not richer than us.

He smirked. "You're really disgusting. Money is all you can think of. I thought you're better than those hypocrites I hated. It turned out you're the worst. I hope you'll be happy with that mindset of yours!"

He then turned around and went inside the house.

I wanted to chase him. To tell him it's not true. That I changed when I met him. That my ideal man was now him. That I don't care if he's not rich. I wanted to tell him that I sincerely love him. I wanted to go to his room and begged him to break up with Lily.

But I froze. I just stood there. I don't even know how long. My tears won't stop from flowing.

When I got back from my room, it was already 5 in the morning. I packed all my clothes and left the estate. I won't be staying here anymore. It's time for me to move on and fix my broken heart.