The club was dark and smelled like stale beer. I had no idea where I was or where I was going, but Ryder seemed to know his way around, ushering me down a long narrow passage.We emerged in yet another dark room, this one was also filled with the smell of stale beer, but also smoke and the floor felt sticky beneath my feet. Ryder urged me ahead towards the lights of the bar, before making a slight detour to one of the empty tables nearby."I'm going to go to the bathroom quick then I'm going to see if I can find Ash. You'll be okay, right?" he asked turning to go before I could even reply.I watched as he disappeared through the crowd that hovered at the bar with a feeling of dismay. Looking around, I felt a little out of my depth. I'd snuck into clubs with Jenna before, but when I was with her I felt invincible. Standing here at the table on my own in a room full of total strangers felt different. Alien.I stripped off my jacket, placing it on the table beside my purse as I fumbled f
Ryder’s friends exchanged confused glances at my introduction, but they greeted me in a friendly enough manner. One girl in particular, Juno, seemed especially interested in me. She greeted me with enthusiasm, her British accent adding a charming lilt to her words.“Oh, I absolutely love your hair!” Juno exclaimed, her eyes wide with admiration.She had a wild, edgy look with cropped black hair, beautiful blue eyes and pale skin. She reminded me of Jenna in spirit, if not in appearance.“Thank you!” I replied, smiling at her as I absentmindedly ran my fingers through my hair.Ryder returned to the table, handing Ash and me our drinks as he addressed the rest of the group. “Hey guys, I guess you’ve all met Kate then.”They all nodded and Juno chimed in, “Yeah, Ash took care of the introductions. Just curious to know why you never mentioned her before?” There was no malice in her words, only curiosity.Ryder grinned, standing behind me and wrapping his arms around my shoulders. “Because
I watched as Juno, Ash, and Cal made their way through the crowd toward the stage to set up. The energy in the club was electric and anticipation buzzed in the air.Ryder took the opportunity to wrap his arms around me from behind again, whispering in my ear, “I’m glad you came.”I turned my head slightly to look at him, feeling his warmth against me. “I’m glad too. I’m having a really good time,” I replied with a smile.He nodded with a satisfied grin on his face. “I’m going to the bar for another drink. Do you want one?”I shook my head. “No, thanks. I’m still working on this one.”Gizmo, who had been chatting with Ben, suddenly piped up. “I’m heading to the bathroom. Do you want to come, Kate?”“Sure, I’ll come,” I said, realizing that I'd better go now if I didn't want nature to call in the middle of Ash's set.Ryder and Ben headed off to the bar, and I followed Gizmo and Bailey to the bathroom. It was as one may have expected in a crowded nightclub. Grimey and unpleasant. But ne
The drive home seemed to go much faster than the drive there as Ryder and I laughed and joked together, talking about the gig and his friends as the energy from the evening still buzzed in the air between us."So," I began, unable to contain my curiosity any longer, "are Juno and Ash like a thing?" I asked.Ryder chuckled. "No, Juno is more into girls. She likes boys too. Mostly girls though."I was a little surprised. That definitely wasn't the answer I was anticipating, but it didn't faze me. She was cool regardless.I hesitated for a moment before asking the question that had really been burning in my mind. "So, what's the deal with Bailey? She didn't seem to be too pleased to meet me."Ryder sighed. "Uh... Bailey and I were together briefly, but nothing really came of it. It was a while ago."I nodded, having suspected as much but I was glad to hear it directly from him. It didn't change anything really.As we neared his house, I messaged my aunt to let her know that I was staying
(Ryder's POV)She'd agreed to stay over and I was brimming with excitement and anticipation.The drive back home was almost a blur, and the electricity between us lingered on, a sure sign that she'd forgiven me for being such a moron the night before."So," Kate began, her curiosity obvious, "are Juno and Ash like a thing?" she asked.I chuckled, glad for the distraction. "No, Juno is more into girls. She likes boys too, but mostly girls."Kate looked a little surprised initially, but she brushed it off quickly."So, what's the deal with Bailey? She didn't seem too pleased to meet me," she went on, her eyes focused on me as if she already knew the answer and just wanted to hear me admit it.I'd known the question was bound to pop up at some point. Bailey didn't exactly hide her feelings. She never had. We were what you might call 'friends with benefits', and there had been a time when there had been a lot of benefits, but she got clingy and possessive and I couldn't deal with it, so I
Morning came and for a moment, I hoped it had all been a bad dream. I was sorely disappointed when looked down and saw that I was still wearing the clothes I had worn the night before and felt that crusty, burning sensation of having slept with my makeup on. It was real. It had happened.I rolled over, pulling the covers over my head as I recalled the silent drive home with Tyler the night before. He'd been gentle and supportive, even though I had refused to tell him what was going on. He hadn't wanted to leave me, but I was pretty insistent, saying I just wanted to be alone.As I lay in my bed now, I listened to the birds chirping their happy little songs outside. I'd always found it difficult to come to terms with the fact that life went on for everyone else when you felt so depressed.I just wanted to stay in bed and sleep all day, but my bladder and grumbling stomach had other plans for me. I had to work myself up, giving myself a little pep talk to try and summon the energy neces
Me:Yeah, I'll answerAlmost immediately, my phone rang in my hand. A surge of panic flooded through me as I realized I now had to confront this situation with him."Hey," I answered, not sure what else to say really."Hey," he replied, sounding equally uncertain.There was a moment of silence that hung between us, heavy and uncomfortable.Finally, Ryder spoke up. "I'm really sorry about last night. That wasn't how I anticipated the evening going.""I can't say it met my expectations either," I agreed, my voice harsher than I had intended."I never meant to hurt you, Kate," he said, sounding genuinely regretful."You keep saying that but then you keep fucking up!" I blurted in frustration.There was silence for a moment."Are you home?" he asked, his tone sharp."Why?" I asked evasively."Are you home?" he repeated, firmer this time."Yes," I replied simply."I'm coming over," he said, dropping the call before I even had the chance to protest.As I waited for him to arrive, I paced ar
Ryder had left, but not before we made plans to hang out together the next day.Once he was gone, I grabbed my phone and messaged Tyler to let him know. He had been worried about me and I wanted to let him know that I was in a better frame of mind now.Me:Just wanted to let you know that Ryder came over and we talked and I think things are OK. I'm OK. Miss you ❤️Tyler:Glad to hear that. Let me know if you need anything, OK? Miss you too ❤️The rest of the week went by in a blur. Ryder and I spent every day hanging out together at his house again. It was like it had been before, but now that we both knew the boundaries, I think we both felt more comfortable. Neither of us pushed it, and in a way, it was a relief to have that understanding.Friday rolled around, and we were lounging in his recording studio. Ryder was sitting at his desk with his headphones on, working on a track, while I was curled up on the couch, reading a book. The atmosphere was relaxed and comfortable as we were