"What are you talking about?" I looked at him with disbelief. Sigurado akong nagbibiro lamang siya.
"Why, don't you want to have a date with me?" He grinned.
Umirap ako. Pinasadahan ng mga daliri ang buhok. "Of course, not. Huwag mo akong igaya sa mga babaeng baliw na sinasamba ka. Don't try your luck on me, Mongreco."
"Ouch, that hurts." I glared at him darkly. A man with such a calibre like him could easily fool any woman. But my case is different. Alam ko kung anong klase ng lalaki siya. The typical playboy type. The one who just wants to fuck and leave.
"Ano na? Saan ba talaga tayo pupunta? I'm sure hindi lang simpleng sundo ang pinapagawa ni mom sa 'yo. Hindi ka naman isang driver."
"We will go to Cebu."
"Cebu!" My eyes widened. "Anong gagawin natin do'n? You must be kidding me!" inis kong saad at nagmartsa palayo sa kanya. I get my phone to contact my driver. Ngunit napamura na lang ako nang hindi niya yun sinasagot. Damn. Siya dapat ang nandito at hindi kung sinu-sinong tao. This is his job!
Reilan followed me. Tiningnan ko siya ng masama. "I'll go home on my own. Kaya ikaw, umalis ka na." Sabi ko at itinuon ang tingin sa daan. Nag-aabang ng bakanteng taxi.
"Listen, your mom is quiet busy. So in behalf of her, you need to attend a conference in Cebu. And I'll be going with you."
Napabuga ako ng hangin at hinarap siya. "If she wants me to attend, then I'll be going alone. Ayokong kasama ka. Maybe isasama ko na lang ang driver ko or si Bianca kung hindi siya busy. No need to bother youself."
"Bakit ba ang tigas ng ulo mo? Pinapasama nga ako sa 'yo, di ba? Ano na lang ang sasabihin ni Tita kung hahayaan kitang pumunta doon ng mag-isa? Think of it, you brat."
"If that's your problem, kakausapin ko na lang siya." But I doubt I could convince her, though. Mahirap baliin ang utos ni mommy. Pero susubukan ko pa rin.
I dialed her number. Reilan just watched me while doing it. I waited, but no one answered. Kaya si Bianca na lang ang kinontak ko. Fortunately, sinagot niya ang tawag.
"Yes, Miss?"
"Ibigay mo kay mom. I need to talk to her about the conference I will attend."
"She's currently on a meeting with the board members. Hindi siya puwedeng istorbohin. You can tell me about your concern as of the moment. Sasabihin ko na lang sa kanya mamaya."
I sighed. "Huwag na nga lang!" Galit kong pinutol ang linya. Nothing would change even if I tell her, anyway.
"Looks like you've got no choice but to go with me." Reilan smirked, mukhang halatang-halata yata sa mukha ko na wala na akong mapagpipilian.
"Follow me on my car."
Nauna siyang naglakad. Wala na rin akong nagawa kundi ang sumunod sa kanya. It would be nice to have some company, pero kung katulad niya lang rin naman ay mas mabuti pang walang kasama. Pero may magagawa pa ba ako?
I'll just swallow my pride this time.
My brow shot up as I saw his black luxurious car. It's too flashy to be ignored and for sure, it costs millions. Ngunit nawala iyon sa isip ko ng makapasok dito. Fragments of memories came back to my mind like a whirlwind. Uminit ang pisngi ko nang maalala kung anong nangyari nung una kaming magkita. That one heated night on his car!
Shit.
Bumalik sa isip ko kung paano ako nawalan ng kontrol sa sarili. How he kissed me torridly with his hands moving around my body. And I hated it. I hate how that piece of memory affects me so much.
"Seat belt, Desire."
Nabalik ako sa katinuan. Ilang beses akong napakurap at napalunok bago inilock ang seatbelt. Inayos ko ang sarili at piniling mananimik nang buhayin niya na ang makina. Katahimikan ang pumagitan sa amin.
Habang nasa biyahe patungong airport, tumawag si Bianca. Sinabi nito na may staff na mag-aabang sa amin doon para ibigay ang lahat ng kakailanganin. Including passports and clothes for a one night stay in Cebu. Tinanong ko siya kung paano ang klase ko kinabukasan kung bukas ng umaga pa ang uwi namin. She just told me that mom will call the teachers in my school. Ilang beses na rin itong nangyari pero hindi naman ako sinisita ng mga guro dahil sa impluwensiya ni mommy.
Well, thanks of being a Fontana.
We checked in on a hotel when we arrived at Cebu. Dalawang presedential suites ang kinuha namin. Of course I wouldn't want to share a room with such kind of man. Isa pa, hindi pa ako namumulubi para makipagshare sa isang suite. At alam kong afford niya rin. All were charge to him, though. Kahit nag-insist ako na kaya kong bayaran ang sariling kuwarto ay hindi na siya nagpapigil pa kaya hinayaan ko na lang. It was convenient on my side, anyway.
"Anong oras gaganapin ang conference?" tanong ko sa kanya.
"Seven in the evening." Tumango ako at pumasok na sa suite na katabi lang ng sa kanya. I didn't arrange my things and just sat on the queen-size bed instead. Tiningnan ko ang wristwatch. It's almost five in the afternoon. Dalawang oras na lang pala ang meron ako bago magsimula ang conference na gaganapin lang din dito sa hotel. Mabuti na lang at dito kami nagcheck-in dahil hassle lang kung magtatravel pa.
I checked my phone. May mga messages na galing sa mga kakilala pero ang kay Louie lang ang binuksan ko.
From: Louie
Saan ang punta niyo? Are you okay with him?Agad akong nagtipa ng irereply.
To: Louie
Nasa Cebu kami. I'll be attending a conference in mom's behalf. At okay lang ako, don't worry. And also, I won't be able to attend the class tom. Bukas ng umaga pa kasi ang uwi namin.Seconds later, another message from him popped up.
From: Louie
Are you sure you're okay? I can go there and accompany you instead. You don't have to compromise with him.To: Louie
No need to do that. I can handle this. Isa pa, isang gabi lang naman kami dito. Don't worry too much. Mag-ingat ka rin kung sakaling may karera ka ngayon.After that, I went to the bathroom and took a warm shower. Nagbihis at nag-ayos ng sarili. Kahit ayaw kong umattend ng conference or seminars, gusto ko namang makatulong kay mommy kahit paano. I know she's busy handling our business all by herself. Kaya kung maaari akong tumulong kahit man lang sa ganitong bagay ay gagawin ko.
Nag-aayos ako ng mga gamit nang may kumatok sa pinto. I opened it just to see a smiling jerk in a white polo and brown trousers. He looks fresh with damped hair. Halatang kaliligo lang.
"What do you need?" Imbes na sumagot ay nilakihan niya ang bukas ng pinto at walang pasabing pumasok.
Inis ko siyang tiningnan. "Did I told you to come in?"
He shrugged. "No. Myself did." Sarkastikong sabi niya at sumalampak sa couch. Padabog kong sinarado ang pinto at naglakad palapit sa kanya.
"I don't want you here. Ni hindi nga kita kailangan. Kaya huwag kang magfeeling hari na nasa teritoryo mo. Bored ka ba sa suite mo? You should have invited that hotel staff who keeps smiling on you earlier."
"I don't like her," he said boredly.
"I won't buy that." Umupo ako sa sofa na kaharap niya. "I know she's your type of girl. Big boobs and booties that will satisfy your manly needs. Don't you dare deny it."
Tumawa siya. "Why are we even talking about my type of women?"
Nagkibit-balikat ako. "Well, I'm just thinking na hindi ka sana nabobore ngayon kung nag-imbita ka ng babae sa room mo. Your stay would be worth it if you do that."
Nangingiti siyang umiiling-iling.
"Why would I do that? Nandito ka naman. Looking at you is enough to entertain me." Umangat ang isang kilay ko sa narinig. Trying his cheap antics on me, huh?
"Try harder, Mongreco."
He just laughed. Kung iniisip niyang madadaan ako sa mga ganyan katulad ng ibang mga babae ay nagkakamali siya. I'm not that type of girl.
"Anyway, I'm hungry. I'm craving for a green salad and pineapple juice. Get me those foods para may pakinabang ka naman."
Umangat ang sulok ng labi niya.
"Sounds bossy." Aapila pa sana ako nang tumayo na siya agad at lumapit sa telepono. Maybe he'd call some staffs to get my caprices. I smiled wickedly. May silbi naman pala siya kahit bilang utusan.
I just stood up and decided to continue what I'm doing a while ago. I also prepared the formal attire I will wear later in the conference. As mom's substitute who'll represent the Fontana Corp, I need to be presentable and professional-looking. With my corporate attire, height and curves, I know I would look older than my actual age. Kaya siguradong magmumukha talaga akong ganap na businesswoman.
Although business is not my line of interest, alam ko namang ako pa rin ang inaasahan ni mommy na papalit sa kanya. Kaya unti-unti, tinatanggap ko na lang na sa huli babagsak pa rin ako sa pagma-manage ng kompanya. Afterall, it's not a bad work.
And I know, the time will come that I'll learn to love this profession as much as how my mother treasures it.
Ilang minuto lang ay dumating ang pagkain namin. Reilan also ordered another foods and drinks. Tahimik lang akong kumain kasama siya. Though Im on a diet, he purposely teased me with his delicious steak. Kaya imbes na gulay lang ang dapat kong kainin, marami akong nakain na steak. I blamed him afterwards. Pero ang gago, tinawanan lang ako.
"Mongreco," tawag ko sa kanya paglabas ko ng walk-in closet. Tapos na akong magbihis. Nakaupo sa kama ay nag-angat siya ng tingin sa akin. I smiled and showed off how I look with my black and white corporate attire. Nag-angat siya ng kilay. Amazement flashed in his jet black eyes.
"Would I pass for a hot businesswoman?"
He smirked. Pinasadahan ng tingin ang aking buong katawan. I gulped. My smile faded, feeling uneasy because of his eyes. Kanina lang ay confident akong ipakita sa kanya ang hitsura pero ngayong tinititigan na ako ng kanyang madilim na mga mata, may kung anong nagwawala sa aking sistema. The intensity in his stare stripped all the confidence I possessed.
Iniwas ko ang tingin at pasimpleng inayos ang buhok.
"You looked..." His eyes went back to mine. "...hotter." He said sensually with mouth half-opened. Nanuyo ang lalamunan ko at hindi nakapagsalita.
"O-Of course I am!" Kabado kong saad at tinalikuran siya. Kinuha ko ang bag sa mesa at inayos ang nasa loob nito bago muling bumaling kay Reilan.
"Stand up, aalis na tayo. Malapit ng magseven, ayokong malate." He stood up quickly, towering over me even I'm already wearing my four inched heels. Meanwhile, he's wearing a white long sleeves under a black tuxedo. Sasamahan daw kasi niya ako sa conference kahit di naman kailangan. Hinayaan ko na lang dahil baka gusto talaga niyang umattend. He's also a businessman, afterall.
Sinalubong kami ng ngiti at bati pagpasok sa venue. Some faces are familiar in the industry. Ang iba ay mga bagong mukha lang. Many know me as a Fontana, ngunit mukhang mas tanyag yata ang aking kasama dahil halos lahat ay kilala siya lalo na ang mga babae. And looking at those women, it's obviously showing in their eyes how much they want to please him.
Iginiya kami ng mga facilitators sa aming mesa. Pinaghila ako ng upuan ni Reilan na ikinaangat ng isang kilay ko. Acting like a gentleman, huh? Well, siguro'y isa lang 'yan sa mga taktika niya sa panloloko ng mga babae.
"Dami mong fans. Halos mabali na ang leeg sa kakatingin sa 'yo." Mahina kong saad, sapat lang na marinig niya.
He chuckled and looked at me. Ngunit nanatili ang tingin ko sa unahan.
"Are you bothered with that? Hindi ko naman sila tinitingnan pabalik."
Tumikhim ako. "I'm not, and I don't care if you look back to them. Siguradong gusto mo naman silang tingnan. They have big boobs na siguradong malulunod ka sa sarap–"
Natigilan ako nang mas lalo niyang nilapit ang sarili at nilagay ang isang kamay sa espasyo sa likod ng aking beywang. I heard his low laugh.
"What are you talking about? At malulunod? What the hell is that?" Natatawa siya. "Your choice of words is making me laugh, baby."
"Bakit, hindi ba? Sa laki ba naman ng mga hinaharap ng tipo mong babae ay gusto mo talagang malu–"
"Shh." He chuckled. "Let's just listen to the speaker. Kung anu-anong naiisip mo d'yan."
"Why are you even holding me?" I said, looking at the speaker in front who's already talking. Ngunit di naman ma-absorb ng utak ko ang mga pinagsasasabi niya. Distracted of the man beside me and what we just talked about.
"Because I want to and I can."
Bumuntong-hininga ako. Hinayaan na lang siya dahil ayokong makuha ang atensiyon ng ibang tao kung mag-aaway kami dahil lang sa isang maliit na bagay.
The conference lasted for almost two hours. I was just silent the whole time. Ganoon rin si Reilan. Ngunit sa tingin ko hindi naman nakatuon ang atensiyon niya sa nagsasalita sa harap. Panay kasi ang tingin niya sa 'kin. Nailang ako doon pero hindi ko na lang siya sinita at nanatiling tahimik na nakaupo. May isa pang hindi nakatakas sa mga mata ko, yun ang panay na sulyap ng mga babae sa kanya. They look thirsty dogs wanting so much to devour him.
I cursed in my mind because of those worldly thoughts.
"Tired?" Reilan asked. Naglalakad na kami papunta sa elevator, planong bumalik na sa suites para makapagpahinga.
"A bit. Nangalay ako sa kakaupo."
We're already walking on the hallway towards our rooms when a woman bumped on me. Dahil sa impact ay natapilok ako at bumagsak. Napangiwi ako sa sakit ng aking kanang paa. I think I just sprained my ankle! Damn!
"Oh my, I'm so sorry... I'm sorry."
Walang hiya! Todo kasi ang tingin kay Reilan kaya hindi na nakita ang dinadaanan. I wanted to curse her so bad but my ankle is badly hurt! Ni hindi ko nga ito maikilos ng maayos.
Agad akong dinaluhan ni Reilan. When the woman saw my furious eyes, she immediately walked away like nothing happened because of her stupidity.
"Saan masakit?" He asked gently.
"My right ankle!"
"I think you got sprained."
"Wait, what are you–" Hindi na ako nakaapila pa nang buhatin niya ako. I gulped when I saw the way how the veins in his hands protruded while carrying me. Ang tigas ng kanyang katawan ay damang-dama ko, which made me wonder how much work out did he have gone through to earn such well-developed muscles. Yet I got more distracted of his pleasant smell. It's a manly perfume mixed with his natural scent that made me close my eyes for a second.
Shit, ang bango niya.
"Y-You don't have to do this," I said, doubtful with my own words. Sa sakit ba naman ng paa ko ay siguradong di ako makakalakad ng maayos. But my hurt pride won't just accept the fact that I need him even just once.
I felt him sniffed my hair and laughed a bit. "I love your smell..." Diretso akong napatingin sa kanyang mga mata. His lips are half-opened, tila ba nauuhaw sa kung ano.
"And I think... I'm addicted to it." Bumaba ang tingin niya sa aking labi. I was about to utter a word when his warm lips covered mine that almost made my whole system crumble.
He kissed me gently. My mind is telling me to stop him, yet my body is urging me to do the opposite. Overwhelmed by the feeling, my hands found its way to his nape. Sinuklian ko ang kanyang mainit na halik nang hindi nag-iisip. Submissive it may seem, but I can't stop myself from wanting more... more of him.Habol ko ang hininga nang tumigil siya. I looked away as he opened my suite. My face heated so bad. Ramdam kong para itong nag-aapoy dahil sa init. It feels like my whole body is on flame. Burned by the fire he ignited on me.Nang makapasok ay pinaupo niya ako sa couch. Yumukod siya sa harap ko at tinanggal ang straps ng sandals na suot. His lips were pursed while doing it, looking so serious. Napalunok ako. Pinagpapawisan ng kaunti kahit malakas naman ang aircon.Matapos matanggal, nag-angat siya ng tingin. Eyes are dark and unfathomable. His adam's apple moved as he gulped once."Hihilutin ko ang paa mo. It would hurt a bit, but I'll be
"Are you home, hija? How's the conference?" tanong ni mommy sa kabilang linya. I sat on a wooden chair on my room's veranda. Halos isang oras na rin mula ng dumating ako sa mansyon."Yes, kakauwi ko lang po. And regarding with the conference, everything went smoothly just like what you expected.""Well, that's good to hear." I sighed when the call ended. Yes, everything went smoothly except one thing. Isang bagay na hindi ko inaasahang mangyayari. But I can't do anything about it right now. Isa pa, that time ginusto ko rin yung mangyari. Reilan even gave me a choice to stop. Kaya wala akong ibang dapat sisihin sa katangahan kundi ang sarili.I just stayed in my room for the whole morning. I texted my friends that I just got home. Hindi sila nagreply. Siguro'y busy sa klase. So, I just browsed my social media accounts. Nang mabored sa ginagawa ay napagpasyahang matulog na lang.I woke up at one in the afternoon. Nabanggit ni mom kanina na wala munang tutor
"Why did you went out on your own? Sana nagpasama ka," he said, as if concerned."Napahatid naman ako sa driver. Isa pa, malapit lang ito sa amin. And I want to be alone. Kaso, umepal ka."He smirked. "Why so harsh on me, Desire? I'm not doing anything to you."I stayed silent. Matalim ang tingin sa kanya. Napansin ko naman ang mga sulyap ng mga babaeng dumadaan sa amin. Kay Reilan, specifically. Hanggang dito ba naman? Napairap ako. Meanwhile, he just stared at me like I am some sort of puzzle he wants to solve.Napadako ang tingin ko sa daan. May isang batang lalaking naglalakad sa gilid. Umiiyak siya, nag-iisa at tila ba nawawala. Some people glanced at him, but no one cared to ask him what's wrong. Hindi naman siya mukhang batang-kalye. In fact, maayos ang kanyang postura at mukhang anak-mayaman."Mongreco," He looked at me. Tinuro ko ang batang lalaki. His forehead creased."What?""Lapitan mo. Palapitin mo dito. Mukhang nawawala
"Hija, naghihintay ang mommy mo sa ibaba. Sabay daw kayong mag-almusal," bungad sa akin ni manang paglabas ng kuwarto. Inayos ko ang uniform na suot at sinuklay-suklay ang buhok habang naglalakad sa hagdan."Morning, Mom." I kissed her cheek before settling down. My eyes observed her face. She looks sleepless and tired. Ngunit hindi niya iyon pinapahalata sa postura."Good morning. By the way, how's school? Are you working good with Mr. Mongreco?"Nilagyan ko ng pagkain ang sariling pinggan."I'm doing good, po. Actually, I've already got some improvements. Maayos na rin ang pagsosolve ko. He's a good teacher.""That's good to hear, Desire. Akala ko talaga wala ng tutor na makakapagpatino sa 'yo. But looking at your state right now, I feel relieved. Ipagpatuloy mo 'yan."For the next days, I realized that I'm slowly building connection with Reilan. We share kisses and make out when we have time during tutoring sessions. And my problem
"You missed me that much, huh? Isang araw lang naman tayong di nagkita." He chuckled.Nabalik ako sa katinuan at lumayo ng bahagya. I sighed as he turned around to face me. May ngiti sa kanyang labi."H-Hindi kaya..."Naglakad ako pabalik sa high chair at muling umupo doon. Gusto kong huminga muna dahil pakiramdam ko may kung anong nag-iiba sa nararamdaman ko. And I'm afraid to name it. Dahil alam kong hindi ako dapat magkaroon ng malalim na koneksyon sa kanya. It's too risky and dangerous.I looked ar him as he turned off the electric stove and walked towards me."O, ba't ka sumunod? Tapusin mo yung ginagawa mo, Mongreco. Sinabi ko sa 'yo di ba, gutom na ako."Imbes na makinig ay mas lumapit siya at pumwesto sa likuran ko. Itinukod ang dalawang kamay sa magkabilang panig ng counter top habang nasa gitna ako ng mga braso niya. He planted a soft kiss on my cheek and buried his face on my neck. Enough for me to feel his rough
Pagkalipas ng halos dalawang oras ay napaalis rin ni Reilan ang mga kaibigan. Mukhang tumalab na ang kanina pa niyang pangtataboy sa mga ito. Mas lalo kasing nagsungit si Hitler sa kadaldalan ng mga kasama kaya nauna na itong umalis. At doon na sila sunod-sunod na nagsialisan."Baby..." We're now sitting on the long sofa. Nasa gitnang bahagi siya habang ako'y nasa dulo at nakaharap sa kanya. My legs are on his lap while his hands are resting on my knees."It's already six in the evening, Reilan. Kailangan ko ng umuwi.""Just sleep here. Sabado naman bukas. You don't have classes.""Kahit na. I still need to go home. Ayokong pag-aalahin si mom."He sighed. "I'll just call her. Sasabihin kong dito ka matutulog, so she don't have to worry.""Pero Reilan--""We won't see each other for the next three days. That's why I want to spend a night with you because I know I'll miss you so damn much."My forehead creased."Wait, what
"Des!" Lili exlaimed as she ran towards me. Looking so excited of something I don't know. Pinanlakihan ko siya ng mga mata."Shh! Ano ka ba, huwag ka ngang maingay. Nasa library tayo." Napatingin ang librarian sa amin kaya ako na ang humingi ng paumanhin. Kahit kailan talaga ay pahamak ang bibig ni Lili.Umupo siya sa harap ko. I closed the book I'm holding to pay attention to whatever she'll say."Ano ba ang sasabihin mo?""Si Rios nandito na ulit!" She giggled. Kumunot ang noo ko."Huh? What do you mean nandito na siya?""Bumalik na siya ng Pinas! And guess what, dito siya mag-aaral!""And then?" I asked boredly.As if I care about that man. Pero kung totoong bumalik na nga siya ay sana hindi na siya gumawa pa ng kalokohan. I hate his playful stunts. But who knows? Years passed, and maybe his feelings for me has changed. I even doubt if he really liked me or he just made me a subject to have fun with."Aren't you excit
Rinig ko ang mga bulungan ng mga estudyante paglabas ng classroom. It was my last class for the day, that's why I immediately packed my things. Susunduin kasi ako ni Reilan ngayon. And he said that he'll date me.Ngunit nang makita kung sino ang nahihintay sa corridor ay napasimangot ako. Bahagyang nadismaya."Hi Des!"Napatingin sa akin ang ibang mga estudyanteng naroon at nagbulungan. Siguro'y iniisip nilang may kung ano sa amin ni Rios dahil nandito siya at pinapansin ako. When the truth is, I don't even want his attention.I just glanced at him once before walking away. Ayaw kong ma-issue lalo na sa kanya. But like how persistent he was years ago, he followed me as I walked fastly on the stairs."What is it this time, Rios?" Patuloy siya sa paglalakad, coping up with my speed."Well, I just want to invite you for a snack. You know, a little chitchat. Hindi mo kasi piunlakan ang imbitasyon ko. I thought you will come last night, but
The first time I laid my eyes on her... I got hooked. So bad.She was dancing wildly in the middle of the crowd, not minding the men's stares at her. Nang mga oras na 'yon, hindi ko pa alam kung sino siya o anong ugnayan niya kay Analiese Fontana. I didn't even think about that while watching her.I'm not sure why I got hooked by her at first glance. Maybe because of her drunk, yet mysterious innocent eyes. Maybe because of her sweet smiles while dancing. Maybe because of her fragility. I don't know.I've met different women. But I never do the first move. And dancing wasn't even my forte. Kaya kung anuman ang meron sa kanya ay gusto kong malaman. She was so submissive, but at the end of the night, I felt so frustrated.He mistook me for another man.I got confused and angry because of that. Ni minsan wala pang babaeng tinawag ako sa ibang pangalan. Especially in that kind of heated moment
I can feel someone holding my hand firmly. Iyon ang una kong napansin nang magising ang diwa. Kaya kahit mabigat ang talukap ng mga mata'y sinikap ko itong imulat. I want to confirm that it's him. Gusto kong masiguradong buhay nga ako at hindi lang guni-guni ang lahat.I saw the white ceiling as I opened my eyes. I blinked several times and checked my breathing. True, I'm still alive."Desire..."Napatingin ako sa gilid. There, I saw him. Puno ng pag-aalala ang kanyang mukha. He's still wearing his suit. Ngunit bahagya iyong nadumihan. Siguro'y nang pasukin ang nasusunog na bahay. Totoo nga, he came to save me. To fulfill his promise of protecting me and our child."Are you okay? May masakit ba sa'yo? Wait, I'll call the doctor. You need to be checked again." He stood up, but I hold his hand.Umiling ako."Please... stay."Muli siyang umupo. Hinaplos niya ang mukha ko. His eyes are filled with genuine care and concern. Pinatakan niya
Emosyonal akong niyakap ni Lili at Marie nang pumasok sila sa kuwarto ko. I'm done with my make up. Nakaroba pa lang ako samantalang sila ay nakaayos na. They look so happy for me. Ako rin, sobrang saya. Na sa huli, ito ang naging resulta. Na sa huli, mabubuo ulit ako."Stop crying, girls. Your make ups would be ruined. I don't want to have ugly bridesmaids. Kaya tumigil na kayo dahil baka mapa-iyak rin ako. Arte niyo, ha." I chuckled.Kumalas sila. Pinunasan ang mga luha."Ano ka ba naman, Des! We're just happy! Alam namin kong anong pinagdaanan mo kaya sobrang nakakagaan sa puso na makita kang masaya ngayon," si Lili na bahagyang namula ang ilong."Oo nga. Kaya hayaan mo na kami! Isang beses ka lang ikakasal kaya kami emosyonal. I'm sure mapapaiyak ka rin sa kasal namin," ani Marie.Tumawa ako."Let's see, then.""O, siya magbihis ka na at baka ma-late ka pa sa kasal niyo. Good luck." They both laughed before going out.Naiwa
Kakabangon ko pa lang sa kama ay agad na akong nakaramdam ng pagkaduwal. I quickly run towards the bathroom. Sinikop ko ang buhok at sumuka sa sink.Umagang-umaga ay ganito na ang nangyari. Kaya hindi ko maiwasang magduda na totoo nga talaga ang hinala ni Lili. As what I've heard, pregnant women sometimes have morning sickness.Narinig ko ang pagbukas ng pintuan ng banyo, hindi na ako nag-abalang lumingon dahil abala ako sa pagsusuka. Wala namang pumapasok sa kuwarto ko ng walang paalam maliban kay Reilan."Baby," his voice was soft.Nang matapos sa kalbaryo, inis ko siyang hinarap. I thought he already left last night but here he is, fueling my irritation again."Bakit ka nandito? Lumabas ka! I don't need you here! You should leave me!"Sinunukan kong lumabas ngunit hinarangan lang niya ako. With our body's closeness, I can smell his manly perfume. I inhaled his scent. Mabangong-mabango iyon sa pakiramdam ko na para bang gusto ko iyon
Reilan opened the car's door for me. Our bodyguards remained at our back as we stand in front of my father's home. The house where I stayed for four years in pain.I admit, living here was really hard. Wala ang mga taong nakasanayan ko. Wala si mommy, o kahit ang mga kaibigan. Though dad is there, he's still a complete stranger. Hindi rin kami ganoon kadalas mag-usap dahil abala siya sa kompanya.Kahit inaalalayan ako ni Rios, sa loob ng apat na taon, hindi pa rin ako nasanay. It was like I am trapped in such an unfortunate reality I can't escape. But despite of that feeling, I know this place helped me grow.I didn't despise living here. Because I know, I owe a lot to them, to my father who helped me live again. Maybe it was really destiny who brought me here. And maybe, at the end, I'll heal completely in spite the scars.Marami man ang masamang nangyari, marami pa rin akong natutunan.The pain made me become the person wh
Agad kaming nagsampa ng kaso laban kay Victor. Hindi siya umapila. Instead, he pleaded guilty during the hearing. Naging tahimik ang mga sumunod na linggo. I felt relieved that finally, he's now on jail. That finally, matutuldukan na ang madilim na parte ng buhay ko.I also talked to Rios in person. Pero hindi ako hinayaan ni Reilan na makipagkita sa kanya ng mag-isa. He was with me all the time but he gave us some privacy.Rios, until the end, tried to convince me that the Mongrecos are evil. He said that I will be safer by staying on his side, that I should come back to Scotland with him. Nagalit siya nang hindi ako sumang-ayon sa gusto niyang mangyari.Ngunit sa huli'y wala ring nagawa. My decision was already absolute. Hindi na ito mababago pa ng kanyang paninira kay Reilan at sa pamilya nito.Mr. Lucas contacted me a few days after Victor was captured. Sinabi niyang hindi siya sigurado kung paano nito natunugan ang aming imbestigasyon. I just t
Silence filled the whole place.No one dared to say something after we told them everything that happened including our child's death. Shock was evident on his mother's face. Ni isa mula sa mga kaibigan niya ay hindi nagbalak magsalita, tahimik na nakikiramdam sa paligid. Niyuko ko ang ulo, wala ng masabi. Reilan stayed silent while caressing my waist. Alam kong kahit siya ay gulat pa rin sa nalaman. Sa diin ng kanyang bawat salita habang nakikipag-usap sa mga magulang ay ramdam ko ang poot doon. He is having a hard time controlling his anger. Hindi man niya sabihin, ramdam ko ang galit na nararamdaman niya.I know because I also felt that kind of anger the moment I knew about it.Naputol ang katahimikan nang malakas na tumunog ang cellphone ni Reilan. Nanatili siya sa tabi ko nang sagutin ang tawag."It was Major Bonifacio," he said after the call. Nagtangis ang bagang niya, halos durugin ang teleponong hawak sa pinipigilang galit. I hold his hand
Tahimik akong iginiya ni Reilan papasok sa isang may kalakihang kuwarto. I didn't say anything as he commanded me to sit on a side of the bed. Saglit niya akong iniwan at pumunta sa closet. Pagbalik niya'y may dala na siyang damit. His clothes, probably."Wear these, for now. I don't have your clothes here," aniya sa mababang boses at inabot sa akin ang hawak. It's a mustard t-shirt and shorts.Tumango ako at inalis ang coat. I put it on the bed before looking at him again. Kinuha ko sa kanya ang mga damit saka tumayo.I walked towards the bathroom. Ramdam ko ang pagsunod ng kanyang tingin. When I finally escaped from his sight, I heaved. I looked at my reflection on the mirror. And damn, I look horrible. Ipinatong ko muna ang damit sa sink at naghilamos ng mukha. Ang malamig na tubig ay kahit papaano'y nagpagaan sa aking pakiramdam.When I went out, my eyes automatically darted on the man sitting in the king-sized bed. Madilim siyang nakatingin sa
After dinner, we decided to watch a movie. Sinang-ayunan ko ang suhestiyon ni Louie dahil sa tingin ko hindi ako makakatulog ng maaga sa gabing iyon.I'd just idle and think about the many things I need to fix in my life. Alam kong marami pa akong kailangang ayusin. Pero sa ngayo'y gusto ko munang magpahinga mula sa lahat at sa mga susunod na araw na lang isipin ang dapat gawing aksyon."Anong genre ang gusto mong panoorin ngayon?" he asked. Nakaupo ako sa sofa. Siya nama'y tinitingnan ang mga DVDs."Anything will do. Just make sure it has a good story line. Alam mo namang wala akong specific genre.""Wala ka pa rin talagang pinagbago."Action movie ang pinanood namin. He sit beside me with a bowl of popcorn. Kapag siya ang pumili ay patayan talaga ang gugustuhin niya. I don't have any problem with that, though. Okay naman sa akin kahit ano basta maganda ang takbo ng storya."Ang galing ng stunts!""Yeah. Galing ng bida,"