Pregnancy

I felt like crying, but I think I had already shed all my tears earlier that day. I lay curled up on the bed, feeling worse than I ever had in my entire life. To me, no situation could ever be worse than the one I found myself in. I had been hurting so badly for the past week, and to think Silas knew about my pain and chose to keep the reason behind it to himself. Did he hope I would never find out I was pregnant until I was pushing a baby out of me? I thought he loved me and had promised to always protect me no matter what, but now he had decided that he would rather protect his unborn child than me. That was a betrayal on a whole different level.

I was mad at him, and honestly, I wish I could hate him enough to just fuck off entirely, maybe move away somewhere I could get my thoughts together. But the thought of how hurt Silas would be at my actions made me discard the idea immediately. I'm such an idiot; I always thought of him first despite everything that had happened. Despite everything that was to happen, because honestly, I had no idea vampires were even born these days; I had never heard anything about it.

And since I wasn't a vampire, it would explain why I was always in immense pain. The baby was draining the life out of me. Which was why Silas was always feeding me blood to replenish my energy. This sounded a lot like that scene in the Twilight Saga where Bella nearly lost herself having a baby. Only this wasn't a movie; this was real life, and I had no protagonist halo to protect me from certain death if I didn't do anything to protect myself.

I shuddered when I felt pain run through my body. With a sigh, I reached out for Silas' phone, which was on the nightstand. I had no idea how it had gotten there; I just knew that I had woken up from my short nap to find it. The screen had been displaying my mother's number. The thoughtful bastard assumed that if I spoke to Mom about it, everything would go back to the way it was. That I would forget he had nearly killed me with his careless actions? I wasn't going to be forgetting this anytime soon, and I certainly wouldn't be forgiving either.

The phone rang for a couple of seconds before my mother's voice echoed from the other end of the call. The moment I heard her voice, the tears which I thought had dried off sprang to my eyes, and I was crying all over again.

"Kerry? Kerry, what's wrong? Are you alright, sweetheart?" She asked, both anxious and worried.

"Mom, I... I feel like I am dying."

"What?! What do you mean you feel like you're dying? What happened? Kerry, please talk to me, I'm worried here."

"Mom, I'm pregnant."

I heard something crash in the background, and my mother's voice went silent. I figured the news had taken her by surprise, so I wanted to give her enough time to process it. But the more the silence dragged on, the more worried I became. Would she be angry at me? Disappointed that I had been foolish enough to have sex with Silas without proper protection? I bet she was feeling ashamed. After all, Silas and I were still considered siblings since my mom was still very much married to his father, and I had gone and gotten pregnant for him. Everything had been going well, yet a single mistake made it seem like the world was falling apart.

"Are you well?" The voice that spoke wasn't my mom's; it belonged to Bill, and he sounded even more worried than Mom had been. "Do you eat properly? How many times have you blacked out?"

"I... I can eat, but I have to force myself to do it sometimes. Food smells disgusting. And I have fainted, at least twice now."

"Be calm, nothing bad will happen. Your mom and I are grabbing tickets today, we're coming to see you."

"Y... You really d.. don't have to do that, Bill. I know how busy you are, you have important things to take care of."

"Don't be silly. Nothing is more important right now than your well-being. Kerry, please don't panic. Everything is going to be alright. Okay?"

"Alright."

"Good. I'm giving the phone back to your mom."

"Okay."

"Kerry," Mom said, "Did you want it? The pregnancy, I mean? Because if you don't want to keep it, there are multiple options to..."

"Can we have this conversation when you get here? I don't want to talk about it over the phone."

"Of course, sweetheart. I'll let you take some rest now. I won't let anything bad happen to you."

"I know, Mom. Thank you. I'll see you soon."

"See you soon."

I placed the phone back on the nightstand when the call ended. Somehow I felt a lot better after speaking with Mom. I really didn't want to involve her in this; I knew how easily she could get worried. She was probably giving poor Bill a heart attack right now (except Bill's heart doesn't beat). But I felt like I needed her support. I wanted her to be here with me more than anything. She had been my support for a long time, and even the thought of seeing her again made me feel relieved.

There was a knock on the door. I knew who it was even before he walked into the room. I had no idea how long he had been standing outside the door waiting. I didn't care either. The last thing I wanted was to talk to him.

"I brought you some water," he said in a voice that was so soft, I barely missed his words. But no softness was going to melt my heart now. I spared him a single glance, then turned my gaze back to my hand, which was tucked in the blanket. Silas sighed and placed the water on the nightstand. He didn't leave like I expected him to. He leaned toward me.

"I know you are still mad at me, and you have every right to be. But we both need to figure this out. Our child is innocent. He doesn't..."

"It's clear you care about this child more than you do me!!" I couldn't help but snap. I had enough of his behavior. Why did he keep downplaying my emotions? All he cared about was the baby! "I bet you wouldn't care if it killed me! Of course, you wouldn't. After all, it's easy to find someone else to love, right?"

"I didn't mean it like that."

"I'm fucking dying here, Silas! In case you don't see it, I am in a whole lot of pain!!"

"I know, I'm sorry for being responsible for your pain, but it's only temporary... I promise you it will pass. And when the child is born, we can..."

"I don't want to keep it!!"

"Excuse me?"

"I don't want it! I never did! If I knew that I might get pregnant, then I would have gotten birth control or something. We haven't even figured things out between us. Do you think having a rare vampire-hybrid baby would make things easier for us?"

"You can't be serious." His jaw clenched, and the anger was evident in his voice. "You want to abort it? Why do you get to decide whether or not we have this baby? I am the father; I think I have enough say in this matter."

"You are the father, sure, but you are not the one going through what I am. You always downplay my emotions. I told you I was hurting, yet you didn't even think to tell me the truth. You watched me go through so much pain, and why? Just because you didn't want me to get rid of the pregnancy! I bet you were hoping I wouldn't find out until it was too late! Well, too bad for you, asshole, I am not keeping it!"

"You are not getting rid of it either!"

"Watch and see! When Mom gets here, I am having her take me to the hospital."

"This isn't a normal pregnancy, Kerry! You can't just solve this issue in the hospital. I have already told you how dangerous it would be if others found out about this. You are putting both your life and the baby's at risk! I won't let you do that."

"My life is already at risk! Every day I'm living is a miracle. I have no idea when that motherfucker would finally decide he is done playing games with me and fucking kill me!!" I only realized that I had confessed everything when Silas's angered expression changed to a confused one. I ran my fingers through my hair, feeling like ripping them out from the root out of frustration.

"What are you talking about? Who is after you?"

"It's not..."

"And don't fucking lie to me now, Kerry! Come clean, alright? I can't help if you won't tell me what the issue is."

"What do you want me to tell you?"

"The truth."

"All of it?"

"All of it." He replied firmly.

We stared at each other for a long time. With a sigh, I sat back on the bed and patted the space next to me. "You might want to sit for this." He complied. I told him everything, starting from the night he drove me to the Beach House, Deric kidnapping me, and then saving me from Silas, who had no memory of who I was. I told him about his father and my mom, about Carter, the human slavery thing, and finally, I came clean about the demon who had hunted me ever since I met him. Asher, the Vampire Lord. Silas was silent through it all as he listened to my story. The only emotion shown was the burning rage in his eyes.

"Why didn't you tell me this before?"

"I wanted a fresh start. I

wanted to start over with you. But I never thought that the past would continue to hunt me "

" What does he want?"

" That's the problem, he didn't say. He kept telling me that I had something he wanted, and he wouldn't leave me alone until he got what he wanted. But he didn't tell me what it was "

" Has he hurt you? "

" Nothing I can't handle "

" You should have told me "

" I know "

" We'll figure this out "

I buried my face in my hands, a sorrowful cry escaping me " This time, I don't think we will "