Chapter 49

It never crossed my mind that such a situation would unfold. What am I doing? What have I done, Ares? I never intended for that to happen! I didn't want what transpired back then! If only I were given the chance to alter the past, that would be the first thing I'd change

 It's the initial occurrence I'd eliminate from my life because it's the root cause of all this. It's the reason I've been slowly grappling with everything until now. I never meant for it to happen.

God knows how sorry I am for that! I even considered forgiving him after discovering his betrayal. I still wanted to love him despite everything. I even contemplated asking for his forgiveness.

Why does it still feel like this? It's as if the more I persist in the fight, the more reasons everyone gives me to give up.