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60- "Doubts and inhibitions."

Author: Honey Hearts
last update Last Updated: 2023-01-31 11:33:14
"You have always been so precious to me, Ryn as so your future that’s why I needed to control myself. I could not deprive you of a good future back then so I didn’t want to be selfish. Do you know? At the age of my early twenties, I imagined beautifully seeing you being a mother of my children and being the light of my home but it was so selfish of me for thinking of you that way, especially since you were just 16 years old at that time. You were just a senior high schooler back then. You were just in senior high school when I started imagining of you being my wife... It was so wrong for me because it was too early that time and you were so young; both of us were young. Funny and ironic, isn’t it? But that’s how I always visualize you, Ryn. Being a wife to me and a mother of my children. I honestly always dream of you that way…"

"Then again, I had to be unselfish. I always love you so I needed you to respect you and your innocence. I couldn't deprive you of going to college and gettin
Honey Hearts

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