I turn and stride out, unhurried. Screams and loud shouting echo in the house. Someone’s shouting for Valentina from the ground floor, screaming for her. She shouldn’t be here. She should be back home, with Noona. She would have been safer there, hiding from my wrath than here, in her father’s home. Her room’s on the floor below. The staff either run past, bleary-eyed, or they pause and do a double take before falling to the floor, hands above their heads. I pay them no heed. I didn’t come for them. Valentina’s bedroom sits on the second floor, right next to her cousin’s, which is why it is no surprise to find the woman huddled on the floor, covering her children with shaky hands. Her teal eyes meet mine and widen a fraction with betrayal and fear. We never hurt women or children. Usually. Valentina’s a special case from hell.The door is ajar when I reach it and all the warning I get is the spark of the muzzle before I shove against the door, narrowly avoiding a damn bullet to t
Nonna rouses from sleep the moment my socked feet hit the floors. She’s always been a light sleeper, frighteningly agile for her age as she reaches underneath her pillow in a flash and aims too accurately for my head. She blinks then, twice, her eyes focusing and she hisses, lowering her hand. “Foolish boy. I could’ve killed you.”I laugh, even if I feel foul. I strut over to her bed and don’t quite meet her gaze as she takes note of the blood on my face and the black gloves covering my fingers. I sit on the floor by her feet, the movement almost natural, reminding me of the days I would sit in this same spot, watching her pace as she tried to figure out how to deal with a mess I created.It was either I came here or went straight home after the kill, still fighting off the high that came with it. I didn’t think I’d be able to control myself if I found Susanna sleeping in our bed.Home. Our bed. How odd, the comfort those words bring. “Whose blood is it, stellino mio?” “Ri
My eyes snap open, heart pounding in quick beats. Bile fills my mouth and I swivel, breathing deeply through my nose to keep my dinner down. It takes a few blinks to realize I’m not in a cage, being tugged by a collar. My stomach churns and I stagger off the bed, in need of some air. A soft snore catches my attention from the left and I find Zefiro by the couch. I halt, watching the slow rise and fall of his chest, the slight part of his lips, his disheveled hair and askew tie. My feet shuffle across, curiosity overpowering the nausea in my gut. He’s bigger than the couch and I know his neck and back must hurt from half-lying, half-falling from it. I lower into a crouch by his side, peering for longer than I know I should. It’s that... I’ve never seen him asleep before. I had no idea he could ever look so...harmless.My eyes lower to his knuckles. They’re busted, like he’d spent the whole evening beating the shit out of an unlucky fellow and re
My fingers thrust into his hair and he grunts his approval as he licks every inch of my bundled nerves, parting my folds with his silky, hot tongue. I scream when he nips at me, tugging at his hair tight enough to hurt, but he licks the ache away until my hips begin to undulate.He moves lower and pushing his tongue all the way in. Moans, deep and guttural, escape the back of my throat. I feel wanton, erotic, beautiful, even womanly as he opens me up with his mouth. He lavishes me, teasing me with his lips and tongue. It feels like every drop of blood in me body has pooled in her clitoris. I could die if I don’t come soon. My moans turning into pleas at the unbearable ache..But then he increases the pressure, pushing in two fingers and rubs my soft inner walls. My head drops back against the couch, my mouth watering while he masters me with his mouth. Possesses me. With his fingers his spreads me so wide, exposing me wholly to himself. I want to scramble back and hide. But there is n
His breathing becomes ragged, the slightest catch of his breath, the subtlest moan in the back of his throat. Has there ever been a more beautiful sound than this?Bracing, I reach back, guiding him into the entrance of my body.Trust. I trust him way more than I trust myself. I widen my thighs and take in the first inch of him.Zefiro gasps from shock or pleasure, I can’t tell. He holds my hips is his vise-like grip and watches the tight movement of my hips against his. I roll them, breathing hard. He’s always been a tight fit, but I had somehow forgotten. He pulses against my seams, hissing sharply. I rise until I have but his tip at my entrance, and holding his stare, I drive back down, hard, taking in all of him at once. His hips buck and a sound so guttural, it almost seems distorted expels from him.I moan in pleasure, whimper in pain and shut my eyes in the joint ecstasy of both. No. I’m not the same woman I had been before them. They created something else entirely. I will n
Breathing, I find, is harder than normal today. With only two days left till the month runs out, I find it hard to concentrate on anything else. Whenever I bring it up, Zefiro tells me nothing of his plans and asks only that I trust him.I want to, but the fear is getting the best of me.“Have you never wanted a family of yours?” I ask Rizzi as I try copying Lucia’s decent carrot cuts. Though, I’d say I’m much closer to chopping off my own fingers than getting the shapes right. Zefiro’s been busy these past couple of days, barely spending time home, and I’ve been stuck with his favoured right-hand, who only lets me out of his sight when I’m not in my bedroom.Rizzi shrugs, the single grey hair on his head glinting in the light as he turns to look over Lucia’s soon who has a piece of half-chewed cake dangling from his pink fingers. “I’ve never considered it before. I’ve been devout to the Viscontis my whole life. They’re family.”“And before that?”He has an irritated look on his face
Zefiro’s hand on the small of my back feels like a brand and I hate it as much as I hate him right now. The cool air hitting my lungs makes me choke and my heels scrape against the floors as I refuse yet another step forward.I had been silent the entire night, refusing to fall into the despair that awaited me in the dark. Refusing to believe still that he would take me back. But I had awoken this morning to a midnight green dress and a pair of heels laid out for me and balked from it. I wore the dress and hated how pretty it looked on my skin, hated how much my body had filled out again, hated the color that returned to my skin and the light he had brought back to my eyes.Lucia had fussed over me with quick fingers, curling my hair into perfect waves, brushing color onto my cheeks like it would matter when Jaxon slams his fist into it. I hated her for it. Hated the woman in the mirror looking back at me, hated the high slit in the dress that exposed my legs, the strappy golden heels
We’re taken to a different section of the casino, led by a couple of guards, and my heart breaks with every step we take forward, every sob that tears from my lips and Zefiro’s glaring indifference. He only cuts me a look back, once, and it is one of annoyance when my crying begins to echo.Why then? Why bring me out of here, try to make me better, get me out of that dark place only to bring me back? Why save my life? A bullet hole is still in his shoulder from taking a shot meant for me. It’s barely even healed and he’s handing me over to the enemy? My thoughts are in complete disarray and it only makes me more frantic.At long last, we reach a smooth metal door down a sleek, gray corridor, far from the music and more on the officiated, sophisticated part of it and I am shoved in, yet again, half stumbling into the large, dimly lit room.Gazes…too many flit in our direction and I seize completely.A long table large enough to fit a group of thirty runs along the room. There are two s
Alessandro There’s a woman by the bar. A friend of Susanna’s, I suppose. Nice tits in that golden silk dress, jade green eyes that seem haunted, yet alive in a strange way, a trim waist and a dip in her hip. Usually, I hated those. But she’d turned slightly and I had been graced with a fucking boner when I caught sight of her ass.Round and fat. Fuck.And then, she’d opened her mouth and sang for Susanna. While everyone around me had been held captive by a voice that didn’t quite belong in this world.My mood had gone from zero to a thousand. A steady bitterness coated my tongue at the sight of Visconti’s tongue down Susanna’s throat, while my sister rotted in the hell of his choosing, the guilt and hatred eating me alive. I wanted to have even a taste of the sweetness Zefiro had in his life. Wanted to have his wife and his son. Wanted to have his power and his lack of fear. Wanted to be the mother fucker.And a little dainty thing had walked past my line of sight and distracted
Zefiro Eighteen months laterThe spoon smacks back. Soup hits me square in the cheek, thick and warm, sliding down my white shirt.Silence.Golden-hazel eyes blink up at me, wide and innocent. Then, a delighted squeal. “Fa-fa!”Nonna laughs, reaching down to pluck Dominic from his high chair. I wipe my face with the back of my hand, scowling, while she presses a kiss to his chubby cheek, murmuring, “Stellino mio.” My little star.I wonder what that makes me. Everyone has forsaken me for the little shit.Even Susanna calls our boy her greatest love, giving him most of her time, kisses and affection. It’s been nine months since she delivered, and due to the difficulty of her delivery and the severe degree of tears and trauma, the doctor advised strongly against…penetration.I understand this. I refuse to let her cajole me into ripping more of her stitches, but it doesn’t mean I don’t get jealous when Dominic has his lips latched around her nipples, blinking up at me with eyes too
He says nothing as he carries me inside. I spot Fabian and Erica pressed against one of the stone gargoyles, kissing like they’re about to rip each other apart.I look away quickly, swallowing the longing in my gut. “You have been avoiding me.”His eyes flick to mine briefly and his throat works slightly. “I’ve been occupied.”“You’ve been sneaking out of your bedroom before I wake,” I counter as he walks us through the crowded hallways of his mansion. His lips press together. His ears go slightly red. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”I sigh, looping my arms around his neck as he ascends the stairs. “I know you’re still mad at me, but you can’t ignore me forever.”He doesn’t answer.“What do I have to do to get you to forgive me?”His gorgeous eyes slant at me suspiciously, but he stays silent. When we reach his bedroom, he sets me down gently on the bed. “You should rest. The party will go on past midnight, and I have business to attend—”“It’s our wedding night.”His eyes
My feet ache from being passed from one dance partner to another, and I lean against the table, swirling the orange juice in my glass. No alcohol for me—not tonight. Not for the baby, though. No, someone’s just terrified I’ll get wasted and take advantage of him again on our wedding night.Erica, on the other hand, is drinking like she’s trying to drown in it. Has everything to do with the fact that she just found out her boyfriend is… well, in the Mafia.“Lying, unfortunate dick,” she mutters, glaring at him as a cluster of women simper and paw at his expensive suit and pretty face. “Said his dad was Italian, his mom was French. That he’d only ever stepped foot in Italy last year to visit his father, since they had a terrible relationship. And I believed him. How the hell am I supposed to believe anything else that comes out of that beautiful mouth?”I bite my cheek to keep from laughing. “So, his mouth is still beautiful?”Her cherry lips twist into a sneer. “No.” A pause. A glance
I don’t have my mother or father to walk me down the aisle, but I don’t do it alone. I clutch Rizzi’s arm like a lifeline, nails digging into the expensive black fabric of his suit as we step past the arched hallway and into the garden. My pulse is a runaway train, my stomach in knots that have knots, and my heels suddenly feel two inches taller.“Is it the nerves or the dress?”My nails dig into his black suit and I try to force down more floral coated air. The yard stretches out before us, decorated in wild flowers, vines and lush greenery, the shaded walk way covered in rose petals path draped unraveling under my feet. My train catches, sweeping across the floors and soft ‘oohs’ and ‘aahs’ fill the air as we close in on last row of white Chiavari seats.“Both?”“If it makes you feel any better, I was too.”An ugly snort slips past my lips before I can stop it, loud enough to make even the pianist flinch. Christ. "They must think I’m a mess."Rizzi taps the back of my hand, a smirk t
I’m shown to a bedroom beside Mrs. Della Rocca’s, and I barely have a moment’s peace before I’m assaulted by an army of designers.Dress fittings. Jewelry selections. Shoes. Flowers. Colors. Styles. Over and over again, until it finally dawns on me.I’m getting married. Again.The first had been nothing at all like this. There hadn’t been any arrangements made prior and I didn’t have a choice in a single thing. Now, I am consulted about every detail. The colors for the wedding and reception dresses, as well as the designs. The jewelry—Grandmother suggested I wear something of the family heirloom when I found everything I was shown to be more than exaggerated. Shoes. The type of flowers to be used for the decoration of the yard and halls, since we’d decided on a classic romantic garden theme.Not we. His grandmother did with such glee, I couldn’t say no.I often found myself wondering if Zefiro wanted a romantic wedding. If he even had a care in the world left for me at all. Then I’d b
Zefiro doesn’t take the envelope. Doesn’t even look at it. And for a second—maybe longer—I panic.“I’m twelve weeks.” My voice is hoarse, shaky. “I—I didn’t know. Not at first. Thought it was just the stress from exams, my shitty diet, my lack of sleep. But when I couldn’t keep food down, Fabian dragged me to the doctor, thinking I had the flu, and…”My words taper off into nothing as Zefiro takes a slow step back, then another, before sinking into his chair. He drags both hands over his face, through his hair, down again. Lets out a shuddering breath.“There’s a deal with the Chicago Outfit.” His voice is quiet, almost to himself. “This changes everything.”And then, he’s peering at me with a well -guarded, well-controlled expression. His eyes flick down once to my belly, and his nostrils flare. “Do you want it?”It is phrased like a casual question, but I see it for what it is. Another choice. The last choice I’ll ever likely make when it comes to whatever is left of us. And because
I went through day after day like a wraith. And before I could tell, a month had passed since the encounter. By the end of October, I have succeeded in not only failing every class woefully, but getting enough concern to get enrolled for counseling.November is the longest month. I can’t bring myself to do anything but breathe, bathe, eat, sleep and cry. By the month’s end, my clothes begin hanging off my frame awkwardly and my appetite is as dead as I feel inside.I stop calling him and leaving messages. I wouldn’t forgive me either had I been in his shoes.The loud banging on my front door rouses me from tired sleep, but I have no strength in my limbs to answer it. I draw the covers over my face and nestle back into the pillows.My room door slamming open startles me and I turn slowly at Erica’s remark. “It’s a pig’s sty in here.”The covers are thrown off my body and I voice my protest as larger arms yank me off the bed. “Put me down,” I whimper as Fabian takes me to the bathroom a
The memories return to me in bits over the next few weeks, fueling my need to see him. To explain. To apologize. To plead. But he never returned to London, and it took an embarrassing amount of time to realize why.As the owner, it was only normal that he attended the opening ceremony. The woman who had been perched on his shoulder that night is Diana Moreau, and she will be managing Oblio Nero. He has no reason to be here, when he has other engagements elsewhere.I wasn’t enough reason for him to stay. Not anymore. Because I’ve gone and ruined everything. Again.“I can’t have children!” The words rip from my throat like something jagged and raw, something torn straight from the center of my being. I hadn’t known for a long time. Not until a couple of years into my marriage with Jaxon. He’d returned home one night, drunk and angry. I was ill and didn’t feel like being subjected to his rage. I refused and the beating had been so bad, I’d broken a rib.He’d taken me to the hospital in b