Kaden’s POV:Each fucking day, it comes and goes. The pain. The most brutal, intolerable pain that rips your heart from inside out. Suddenly, you couldn’t breathe. Couldn’t see the world around you because everything has faded to dark. And each fucking time, I hated her more. So much more.‘We have to find her.’ Rictus speaks out.‘Yeah. No shit.’ I cuss, making my wolf growl.‘What the fuck is the problem with you?’ he barks at me. How I wanted to see my wolf face to face for the opportunity of punching him right in the muzzle. For once, I actually worried my wolf might be stupid.‘Look at you, desperate to find her.’ ‘Of course I’m fucking desperate, she’s our mate!’ he growled.‘Mate or not, I decide what to do with her once we find her.’‘What do you mean? You’re not…”I could feel his fear. I wanted to laugh. ‘She betrayed us.’ I growl. Nothing, not even my wolf, would make me think otherwise.‘You don’t know that,’ he growls back. It’s the first time my wolf and I ever had a d
Kaden’s POV:Once her scent hits me, I force back my control and ran straight to it. The only building around, and it looked worse than it did on the outside. The sign I passed by says it’s a clinic. Why the fuck would she come here out of all places?Rictus’ worry immediately rushed through me and his panic. ‘Something’s wrong.’ He says just as the metallic scent of blood so pungent it punches me in the face, I recoil. What the—Our senses are on high alert, and I was already preparing myself for what I was about to see. My wolf whimpers, and I knew instantly what caused his fear.Death. It loomed in the air like the blood it gives off so strongly. The moment we stepped foot into the building, I caught sight of a lone head sitting on the floor.My heart raced, Rictus’ panic was getting the better of me as I shook my head.‘It’s not her.’ He suddenly says, and for some reason I felt relief. I shook my head. ‘So you are worried about her.’ Rictus chuckles. I resist the urge to roll
Eloise’s POV:A shiver shoots up to my spine as the wind blew straight to my face where I laid in bed, staring out the window. It was still bright outside. Nevertheless, neither did it stop the cold from entering nor the gloom from invading the house. Everything I touch makes a shiver run down my spine. Being naked also doesn’t help me from keeping warm, as Dexter demanded I walk around the house in a leash right where he wanted me. And each time, he carried around that damn camera. I could feel it following me around everywhere I go, no matter where it turns to, I see it. Watching me.I blinked back a tear threatening to escape me. It’s no use. The tears started since he killed that poor old man. In his eyes, I knew he wanted to help. But of course, Dexter saw that just as quickly as the hope the hope that sparked through the old man’s eyes, and that he also killed all too quickly.A shaky breath leaves my trembling, chapped lips. Closing my eyes, I recall all the events that happe
Eloise's POV:I did as I was told. When he released me from the handcuffs, I let out a sigh of relief, smoothing my hands around my wrists to ease the pain. I don't know how long he kept me like this, but I'm glad some sense was actually knocked into him enough to uncuff me.Then I got up to shower. I have spent thirty long minutes in there, trying to get his scent off me. My skin crawled, and I even broke down a few moments as the water cascaded down my body. Looking down, I rub my bulging stomach gently. "I promise I won't let anything happen to you." I whisper to them, just when I felt one kick, making me smile. Feeling them now makes me feel less alone. That I have reason to fight and hope to escape from this hellhole.Pulling my shit together, I washed the rest of my body. When I reach my most delicate parts, I let out a whimper. I hang my head and look down, but I can't see a thing over my huge belly. I groan and mutter under my nose, yet I know it is aching. I bet it's red
Eloise's POV:Dad is going to flip. Again. I skipped school today, wanting to spend the day carefree without having to worry about Professor Dumberose breathing down my neck because of those missing papers again. I don't even know why my father sends me to school when he practically homeschools me everyday, teaching me everything I need to know before I even get to class. And yes, the classes are all about pack laws, rules, and obligations of everyone in the hierarchy. All the boring stuff my father drilled into my head since the day I could walk.But I know it's worth it. Today, I am determined to make a new friend. All the girls at school are terrified of me because of my status, and all the boys are afraid because of my father. Well, being the alpha he made it clear on the first day he doesn't want any one of them coming near me. I shake my head, trying to rid myself of the thoughts since it's my birthday. I do not want to worry about the pressures being an alpha's daughter would
37 -Eloise's POV:PRESENT.A couple weeks later, he insisted his name to be changed from Devon to Dexter. He was so happy as he came to me with the news, telling me that he officially changed his name, wanting to start a new life with a new identity. And I supported him. I wanted nothing more than to see a man so broken, to rise from the ashes he was buried in.We quickly hit it off after that, though I don't know exactly when my father began disliking him. For some reason, he always shows his disapproval to my friendship with him, yet he was also unable to give me any reasons as to why I should break up my relationship other than his usual "I feel it in my gut" banter almost every other day. After a while, he gave up. Yet he also made sure to keep a close eye on me. My father helped him like he'd do with any other rogue, but I knew there was more. He had a pack. The Nightfall Pack.The Nightfall Pack is one of the closest pack to ours, Heaven Moon Pack. They are long-time allies wh
38 -Eloise's POV:ONE MONTH LATEREverything is going well between me and Dexter. Just in case, I took the crowbar without him seeing and settled it under my bed where it is easily within my reach.Since he took me to that attic, he only took me once after that. I gave in while blinking back tears of shame and disgust overwhelming me, but it was over as quickly as it started.Now that my belly is getting even more huge, he wouldn't be able to lay a finger on me until after I give birth.He thinks he can fuck me whenever he wants once they are out.He's wrong. My father was right. He was right about him all along. He had not an ounce of gratitude after everything my father did for him.Taking him in, giving him his own house, car, and everything else is something. But sharing his pack and family, and to hear him tell me he didn't give a fuck made me realize how fucked up his brain was.So once I give birth in a hospital, I'll make sure we get the help we need. After that, I do not wa
Eloise’s POV:It had been a gruesome 36 hours of labor. The fact that I’m pushing out three babies made everything extremely difficult. Besides it’s my first time. But in the end, it was all worth it. The nurses were kind enough to support me the entire time I was in labor, and when they gave me each of my babies, a single tear crept from my eyes. Each time I look at them, the pain becomes less. Soon the pain gradually dissipated, replaced by an overwhelming sense of joy from seeing my pups.The nurses soon came in to take them away. The notion had my eyes widening and I snap my eyes to the nurse still in her bloody gown.“Where are you taking them?” I ask, my grip tightening around them, afraid that if I let any of them go, I’ll never again see them once they go past the doors of this room. My babies cry out loudly, a sweet sound I would soon get used to.“Relax, hun. I will just take them for a bath and some clothes,” she reassures me, and although she wore a mask, I could tell sh
151Eloise’s POV:The sight of him being vulnerable, losing control beside me makes my heart clench. As I watch his lower lip tremble, I couldn’t help but feel guilty. It felt like stealing a part of his life. One I can never give back.A lump forms in my throat. I swallow, instantly feeling the dryness of it in my tongue as I drown in my own guilt.“They’re beautiful,” he says finally, his voice hoarse. “F*cking beautiful,” he chuckles, wiping the tears off his face as if to get a grip.I nod, “They are,”Kaden takes his eyes off the screen for a minute and looks at me. I bite the inside of my cheeks, holding his gaze. There is an intensity in it that made knots in my stomach. For a moment, I forgot how to breathe.Until he rips his gaze away and I let out a breath.“Are there more?” he asks, in a gut-wrenchingly polite way. His eyes move between our triplets back and forth.I press my lips in a line, and we both focus on the screen before I show him other pictures of them growing up
Eloise’s POV:We make our way back to the grounds. I’m relieved Kaden at least saw through the wolf for who he is. A man, and for years, he’d been lost after losing his mate and unborn pup. I couldn’t even begin to imagine how he felt that day, when the rogues clamped their teeth around her belly and ripped it out of her. Even now, outside that memory, I can see it. All the blood, and his hands covered in Maya’s blood and his unborn pup’s, makes my heart break.I couldn’t imagine my life without my pups. They are everything, and I would give my last breath for them in a blink.Still, the anguish and excruciating pain he felt was devastating. He lost everything, and I couldn’t help but feel, in some way, how it must have felt for Kaden.I glance at Kaden walking by my side. He had been awful silent for a while ever since Walter shifted. I noted the shock on his face, but his lips had been sealed shut.Logan left to run some errands, but before he left he winked at me and smiled, earnin
Kaden’s POV:Eloise’s body is flush against mine. I could feel Logan’s piercing gaze glare holes into the back of my head, but he’s the last thing I should worry about right now. I’ve just witnessed my mate search through a rogue’s memory, which is near to impossible, unheard of. I can tell by the way her eyes rolled to the back of her head. Also by the way the wolf whimpered and his eyes flicker like his life had flashed before him. And also because Rictus told me.But how could this be? Even Rictus have no idea. But something else stirs inside me, unsettled.Eloise sobs into my chest. Her body shaking uncontrollably.I lift her chin with my finger, whispering sweet nothings into her ear before she lifts her eyes, locking onto mine.“Tell me,” I rasp, “What did you see?”Her bottom lip quivers before she finally speaks, and proceeds to tell me everything. Apparently, this wolf right here is beta to some unknown pack. And her pregnant mate was attacked by rogues who had the unquenchab
Eloise's POV:Kaden slits his eyes and looks at me, "Eloise," "No." I glue my feet to the ground, letting him know I am not going anywhere until he listens.Why does he want me to leave so bad?"You have to listen,"Kaden moves his gaze between me and Logan who tosses a knowing smirk my way.Kaden sighs, "Fine." He grunts.Logan gives me a nod, and I turn back to the wolf, Walter.I extend my hand, slipping it between the bars which inevitably elicits a growl from Kaden. I shoot him a glare and he does not move, but his eyes are glued to my hand, preparing for the worst.Before I can place my hand on the wolf's fur, he leaned forward, pushing his forehead onto my hand instead. The moment my fingertips brushed his fur, my eyes roll to the back of my head as I am transported to a place where my feet is rooted to the grass. I felt my soul leave my body as visions began to flash before my eyes in nanoseconds, but I feel as if I am right there.I blink, opening my eyes slowly. When I look
Eloise’s POV:The cells is probably the filthiest place in the pack house. While everything above these old cages are filled with luxurious pieces from floor to the damn ceiling, everything down here gathers dust and filth. What’s more, I feel like the prisoners here were plucked and tossed into the pit of the abyss, never to be seen or heard from again. And it reeks of blood and feces that can never be seen clearly as not a single ray of sunlight touches these dark cells.Is this what the rumors were all about when they labeled Kaden as the notorious, merciless alpha ever known?I can’t believe this. I can’t believe him.I step towards the cell Logan has brought me to see, and I duck my head to see the same wolf who took my side unexpectedly that day I was attacked in the forest.“Hello,” I speak out, trying to reach him. He was still in wolf form, curled up facing the far wall.“Can I talk to you just for a second?” As my eyes focus on his form, I furrow my brows when I see blood co
146Eloise’s POV:Shaking my head, I hold back angry tears before they rise to the surface. The hallway is wrapped in suffocating silence, which also means he did not follow after me.Good. If he really wants my trust, he would let me wallow in my regret for ever coming back here in the first place. I swallow the lump in my throat, and walk faster before turning around the corner.The next moment, I slam into a hard chest that has me stumbling backwards, and I lose balance. I brace myself for the fall as I feel my body leaning back. I squeeze my eyes shut knowing this has got to hurt but surprise fills me when a hand wraps around my waist and my back hits something hard. And that is not the cold, tiled floor of this ridiculous mansion of a pack house.“Look who finally woke up,” a deep chuckle resounded in my ear, and I blink my eyes open.“Logan,” He flashes me his handsome smile and places me gently back on my feet.“You scared the shit out of me,” I chuckle, unable to hide the ne
Eloise's POV:I groan, blinking rapidly. My mind is in a whirlwind of complicated emotions as I try to figure out where the hell I am. The last thing I remember was the sound of growling and snarling as a fight breaks loose all around me. Rogues. And one I couldn't seem to get off my pounding head.The wolf with blue eyes.He helped me. My head whips up so fast and I gasp when I remembered everything that had happened so far.And that scent that engulfed me while my body felt like it was flying in the air, lingered close. Logan.He saved me, didn't he?"You're awake." My head snaps to my right as a shiver snakes down my throbbing, aching pussy. It hurts so bad. And I'm not even exaggerating it.The voice had broken out so close right next to me, before I was even aware of his dark figure leaning against the wall and his arms crossed against his chest."Kaden," I blow out a breath as I take him all in. His hair sat a sexy mess on top of his head, looking like he'd run his fingers thr
Kaden’s POV:‘Alpha, we found her.’ The pack link split through my head. The words sending an instant relief through me and I come to a screeching halt after running for miles for hours. If I were being honest, the run was driving me crazy.Eloise isn’t in any condition to be wandering around outside the pack house. Hell, she shouldn’t even be one foot away from her bed.Everyone knows that she-wolves mated to Alphas turn extremely weak after their Alpha mate successfully broke their heat. Eloise does not just happen to be my mate, but she is also Alpha by blood. In terms of sex drive, Alpha females are on par, or they might even exceed an Alpha’s sex drive. She may not remember everything from the past three days she had gone into extreme heat, but I had kept my eye on her and could say she had the drive of two she-wolves combined. Her wolf took that opportunity and dominated me in every way and I let her. And fuck, did I relish every singly moment of it.She was beautiful as when sh
Eloise’s POV:I have never seen eyes that glowed like that before, nor have I ever seen wolves, rogues at that, bearing the same eye color.‘Be careful, Eloise.’ My wolf warned me. As I thought, not even Adeline could tell how the hell these rogues turned out the way they are.They exuded a strange aura, the same but strong aura none of them should be able to possess. As a matter of fact, once a wolf turned rogue, their aura ought to be diminished little by little. And by the time they had turned feral and completely lost their sanity, their auras should have been as good as gone.But these rogues…Their aura is surprisingly strong, which was in itself impossible.I gave my wolf a nod of acknowledgement just before the largest wolf lunged right at me. Just in time, my body reacted and I ducked my head, sprinting forward, but the action caused enough pain shooting through my body and I winced.Ignoring the pain, I attacked the largest wolf just as it turned around to bare its sharp tee