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Chapter 40 - Rawls and Claire

Author: Dakota Lyons
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It was so hard to leave her. I know that I have a long way to go before Claire will let me back into her life completely. The way her body responded to me made me so hard. I wanted to be inside her again. I haven't even pleasured myself since we have been apart.

I left her house feeling both hopeful and frustrated. I knew that Claire still has feelings for me, but the wall of fear and pain she has built around herself was going to take time to break down. I know that I can't rush her, no matter how much I wanted to erase the hurt and make everything right.

As I walked back to my place, I couldn't help but think about what I could do to prove to her that she can trust me again. I knew that words alone weren't going to cut it. Actions were what she needed to see, consistent and loving actions that would show her that I was in this for the long haul.

The next few days were a blur of work and planning. I made sure to keep my distance from Claire, giving her the space she needed t
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