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Chapter 20 - Claire and Rawls (weekend getaway)
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The weekend ended way too quickly. As we drove home, I could see Claire continually looking at her ring. We had not discussed the real possibility of a pregnancy. We have not been practicing safe sex this weekend or the first time we were together. I feel like I am being the irresponsible one in all of this. Claire having my baby makes me very happy. But on the other hand, she has just started her career in social work and I wouldn’t want to stand in the way of what she has worked so hard to accomplish. I broke the silence, because we were quickly heading back to reality. "We need to talk about what happens next, Claire." I tried not to show how worried I am. She turned to me, her eyes searching mine. "What do you mean?" "Well, you know, about us, and what people might say. And..." I took a deep breath. "What if you are pregnant?" The color drained from Claire's face, and she took her hand away to clutch the ring. "I did not even think about that," she whispered. The truck'
Dernière mise à jour : 2024-12-08My Life Long Crush Chapter 22 - Rawls and Evie
My hand felt empty without Claire's, and the cold metal of the ring box in my pocket was a stark reminder of the promise I had made. I took a deep breath and walked inside, the sound of my boots on the hardwood floor echoing through the house. The television was playing in the background, and I could hear Evie's footsteps as she approached the door. "Dad?" she called out, her voice had a hint of anger. I turned to face her, trying to put on a calm face. “Evie, I am so glad you are home. I have been worried about you.” Her eyes narrowed slightly. "Where were you?." "Out of town," I replied, trying to keep my voice even. "I had some work to take care of." It was a lie, but one I hoped she would believe. Evie looked at me skeptically. "On a Friday night?" She knew my work schedule better than anyone. "It was unexpected," I said, trying to keep my voice steady. "A last-minute emergency." "Yeah, sure," Evie said, her tone dripping with sarcasm. "And I bet this 'emergency' was
Dernière mise à jour : 2024-12-08My Life Long Crush Chapter 23 - Claire
It has been an hour since I texted Rawls and I haven’t heard back from him. I've been pacing back and forth in the bedroom, trying to calm down. The ring on my finger feels like a weight, a reminder of the secrets we've been keeping. The sudden knock on the door sends my heart racing. "Claire, honey, are you okay?" It's my mom's voice, filled with concern. I quickly shove the ring into the drawer, my heart hammering in my chest. "Yeah, Mom, I'm fine," I call out, trying to sound as casual as possible. "Just unpacking.” Mom opens the door, a gentle smile playing on her lips. "You've been in here for ages," she says, her eyes scanning the room. "Is everything okay?" "Yeah," I reply, trying to keep my voice steady. Mom steps into the room, her eyes searching my face. "You seem a bit... flustered," she says, her smile fading into a concerned frown. "Is everything okay?" "I'm just tired," I lie, hoping she'll buy it. "It was a long weekend." Mom nods, her gaze lingering on
Dernière mise à jour : 2024-12-09My Life Long Crush Chapter 24 - Rawls
Having to block Claire hurt me to the core. I can only imagine what she is going through. She doesn’t understand right now, but I am doing this to protect her, protect us. I am in my study, thinking about my weekend with Claire. The faint scent of her perfume still lingers on my jacket, and I can't help but think of the passionate nights we shared. It feels like a lifetime ago. My thoughts are interrupted by a knock on the door. It's Evie, her eyes red from crying. She looks at me with a mix of anger and hurt. "We need to talk," she says, her voice cold. I swallow hard, knowing that this conversation could change everything. "Okay," I reply, gesturing for her to sit down. She remains standing, her arms folded tightly across her chest. "I know you're seeing someone," she says, her voice filled with accusation. "Who is it?" “Evie, we are not discussing this again. I am still your father and I do not need to give you any explanations. What needs to happen now is to get some hel
Dernière mise à jour : 2024-12-09My Life Long Crush Chapter 25 - Claire
I haven’t heard from Rawls in almost two weeks. I feel like I am a shell of the person I was. I don’t have an appetite and I am exhausted. I am doing my best to focus at work, but I feel like I am not doing it effectively right now. I have done my best to just keep to myself at work. Thelma was not going to have any of that. She put a note on my desk saying we were going to lunch, she had cleared my schedule. The very thought of food made me want to throw up. Thelma looked at me with a motherly frown. "You can't keep going like this, Claire," she said firmly. "You need to take care of yourself." I nodded, unable to argue with her. The truth was, I felt like I was falling apart. The secret of my weekend with Rawls was eating away at me, and the fear of losing him was like a constant knot in my stomach. I knew I couldn't keep pretending everything was fine much longer. As we sit in the busy restaurant, Thelma looks at me with a knowing expression. "Is there something you want
Dernière mise à jour : 2024-12-09My Life Long Crush Chapter 26- Claire and Evie
I sit there for what feels like hours, staring at the phone, willing it to ring. But it stays silent, a piece of technology that holds the key to my future. Finally, unable to take the suspense anymore. I am just going to go to Rawls’ house and talk to him. He is not going to avoid me today. When I arrive, the house looks dark. Maybe he isn’t home from work yet. I take a deep breath, steeling myself for the confrontation to come. I knock on the door, my heart hammering in my chest. Evie opens the door, her eyes widening in surprise and anger when she sees me. "What are you doing here?" she spits out, her voice filled with accusation. I stand there, my heart racing. "I need to talk to your dad," I say, trying to keep my voice steady. "It's important." Evie's eyes narrow, her arms crossed over her chest. "What could possibly be important enough for you to come here?" she asks, her voice dripping with skepticism. I take a deep breath, my mind racing for an excuse that won't
Dernière mise à jour : 2024-12-09My Life Long Crush Chapter 27 - Rawls
Hearing Claire’s voice on her message opened up the wound in my heart even bigger. I haven’t talked to her in weeks and I miss her so much. I rush home as soon as work is done, maybe Robert and Mary are at work and I can talk to Claire. When I pull up to the house there is an ambulance in the driveway. Oh my God, Evie has tried to hurt herself. I ran up to the house and they were working on her. As I got closer, it wasn’t Evie, it was Claire. What had happened? Had she been attacked? I wasn’t here to protect her. And where is Evie, had she been hurt too? "What happened?" I demand, panting and out of breath. A medic looks up at me, his face a mask of professional calm. "She fell," he says, his eyes flicking to my face and then back to his work. "Looks like she hit her head pretty hard." My heart sinks as I see the blood trickling from Claire's forehead. "What about the baby?" I blurt out, the words tumbling from my mouth before I can stop them. The medic's expression flickers,
Dernière mise à jour : 2024-12-10My Life Long Crush Chapter 28 - Rawls and Claire
The nurses come in to take Claire down to surgery. Mary and Robert were down the hall when they came in. Thankfully, so. No awkward questions to be answered. The wait feels like an eternity. I really didn't know what to say to Robert and Mary. I know they have so many questions. Questions that I don't want to answer or ready to answer. The minutes stretch into hours, each one heavier than the last. Finally, the doctor returns, his expression hopeful. He pulls the curtain around the bed, giving us a semblance of privacy. "The procedure went well," he says, his voice low and soothing. "We were able to remove everything safely. She'll be moved to a recovery room shortly." Mary's eyes search mine, desperate for answers I don't have. "What did they have to remove?" she asks, her voice trembling. I take a deep breath, feeling the weight of my secret threatening to crush me. "They had to remove...uh...some internal bleeding caused by the fall," I improvise, hoping it sounds convi
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My Life Long Crush Chapter 48 - Rawls
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As soon as I heard the backdoor, I was so happy Claire was home. "Baby, I'm in the kitchen. How was your day?" As soon as I look at her, I know something is very wrong. Her eyes are red and puffy, and she is visibly shaking. I rush over to her, wrapping her in my arms. "What happened? Are you okay?" "It was Jonathan," she whispers, her voice trembling. "He...he attacked me in the parking lot." I pull her closer, my heart racing. "What? Are you okay?" "I...I think so," she says, her voice shaking. "I kneed him and got away. But he's so angry, Rawls. So much angrier than I ever thought he could be." My protective instincts flare up, and I hold her tighter. "You're safe now," I murmur into her hair, trying to soothe her. "Let's go into the living room and you can tell me everything." We sit down on the couch, her voice shaking as she recounts the incident. I listen, my jaw clenched, as she describes how he grabbed her and tried to kiss her against her will. The room fee
My Life Long Crush Chapter 44 - Claire
As soon as I walked into work, I see Thelma. I can't wait to tell her about my weekend. "Claire, you are in bright and early this morning. And that is a pretty big smile on your face." Thelma looked up from her a big smile on her face. She had been my confidant through all of this, and I could tell she could see the change in me. "I have something to tell you," I said, my voice filled with excitement. "Rawls and I are back together, and we are going to make it work, no matter what anyone says." Thelma's eyes widened, and she immediately stood up, rushing over to give me a hug. "Oh, Claire, I'm so happy for you!" she exclaimed. "But what about your parents?" "It's complicated," I sighed, taking a seat at my desk. "They're still upset, but I can't keep living my life to please them. I need to do what's right for me and for Rawls." "Let's go to the park for lunch and you can fill me in on all of the details." "Yes, ma'am. I can't wait." Today was one of those days
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I decided to visit Evie before heading to work. The mental facility had suggested that she was more lucid and calm in the early hours, and I did not want to miss the chance to see her in a calmer state. I wanted her to know how much i missed her, but I also wanted her to understand the necessity of her being there. The drive to the hospital was quiet, the early morning traffic was light. My mind was racing with thoughts of Evie, wondering what she would say, how she would react. I missed my little girl, and the ache in my chest was a constant reminder of her absence. I hoped that with time and the right help, she would find peace and come back to me. When I arrived, the receptionist checked me in, and I was escorted to Evie's room. The halls were painted a light shade of blue, designed to ease anxieties, but it did not do much for my own racing heart. I haven’t seen her in days and I was not sure what to expect. When I walked into her room, she was sitting up in bed, staring o
My Life Long Crush Chapter 42 - Rawls and Claire
The evening began with lighthearted conversation. The dining room table was set with my mother's fine china. The aroma of roast chicken and vegetables filled the air, mingling with the faint scent of my mother's favorite candles. Mom and Dad sat at the table, their faces beaming with pride as they watched me bring out the plates of food. The clink of silverware and the murmur of their approval as they tasted the meal I had so painstakingly prepared filled me with a warmth that was bittersweet. I knew that the revelation we were about to share would change everything. The conversation flowed easily. The laughter was genuine, the kind that fills a room and makes you feel like everything is right with the world. But beneath the surface, I felt the tension coiling in my stomach, tightening with every passing minute. I have never been so scared in my life. Mary looked over at me, her eyes filled with love and admiration. "Claire, this meal is simply delicious," she said, patting h
