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I Have To Go Back

Author: D Fox
last update Last Updated: 2024-10-29 19:42:56

Evie

It is not much of a kiss. I strain myself up on my toes and my lips press Max’s lips sloppily. He freezes in his spot. He doesn’t move and his stillness is in such a horrible contrast to my beating heart that I realize what a mistake I am making. I pull away, abruptly.

The bad thing about drinking for me is that when I am drunk the funny things are funnier and the bad things are horrible.

“Oh, on, “ I say, looking at him. “I am so sorry. Really, I am. “

Before I embarrass myself more I rush into the building. Max tries to stop me but I am already walking away. At some point, I break into a run.

I take the elevator and rest my head against the metal, sliding doors.

What have I done…

The elevator reaches our floor and I walk blindly ahead. I unlock the door and get in the apartment, the entire time feeling like shit. Max won’t hate me, I know that because he doesn’t care about what happened, most likely.

I hate myself. And that’s enough. I am drunk and I kissed the only person
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