79. Deflower- Jacob -.I think I am having a mini panic attack. I want to go all the way with her tonight.I know I want to. But I am freaking nervous.Would it be a good idea to tell her beforehand that I am⊠a virgin?God, I hope she doesnât get disappointed in me if I donât last long. Nobody lasts for the first time. I was bold with her as long as our clothes were on. We havenât even seen each other naked yet.Jesus!My cock goes hard every time I recall her soft breast against my chest this afternoon. Damn, I want her and I want her bad. But I know I wonât last.What If something worse happens and I donât even get a hard-on!God dammit! I need to stop thinking about these stupid scenarios.My phone pings and Here comes the much-awaited message.When I check it, to my dismay, as the messages pop onto my screen one by one and I feel a rollercoaster of emotions.My-Dull-Mean-Happening-Girlfriend: âDad said he will drop me at IraâsâNOOOO!My-Dull-Mean-Happening-Girlfriend: âI told h
80. Torment - Natalie - . A girl rushes toward us with a huge smile and hugs Jacob without giving him time to react or respond. Some old friend? I step away to give them some space, but he steps backward from her and pulls me near him again. Ok... âHow are you?â She says in a chirpy voice. âGOD I missed you.â She throws a glance at me. I smile, but she doesnât acknowledge it. Rude! I take a quick look at Jacob, wondering if he will introduce me. Jacob pinches his eyes and says, âQuit the facade, Sadie!â Her smile drops, and her expression hardens. Now she looks at me again, but with hatred in her eyes. Itâs creepy how her expression changed within a few seconds. Jacob continues, âThis is not Ok! Approaching me... or even talking to me! Nothing's gonna change. Move on for Godâs sake. Itâs been more than a year!â My eyes widen hearing Jacobâs voice. Itâs the first time I have seen him agitated and angry like this. âGot yourself a new girlâŠâ She looks at me with disdain. âD
81. First Night- Jacob -.Natalie walks down the stairs wearing my shirt. I knew she would do that. But I didnât know she would look so hot when my shirt would slide down her shoulder.Itâs too big for her and I think she hasnât buttoned it properly on purpose. My eyes widen when I see her legs.âWhere are your shorts?â I ask her. Looks like she is trying to get even with me for snatching her top away. I cannot help but leer at her.She shrugs and sits at the dinner table.Thatâs ok.I will get back to her. I have the entire night.I serve her dinner and ask, âSo⊠You have finally been to my room⊠Are you happy now?ââVery!â she says, amused.âDid you find any dead body in there?âShe squints her eyes at me and says, âI still need to check the bathroom.ââWill you report me if you find one?ââMaybeâŠâ She shrugs and then adds, âOr maybe not⊠You need to convince me if you donât want me to.âI grin.She loves the food. We talk about school, hockey, exams, and whatnot. I tell her I am
82. Blissful Night- Natalie -.I open my eyes and find myself still in Jacobâs arms. A strange sense of contentment washes all over me. We laid next to each other for hours last night. He traced my body with his finger while we talked, cuddled, and kissed.We ate ice cream in bed after midnight, watched Netflix, and then we fucked. Over and over again until it was dawn in the morning. My body is sore. I donât have strength to get up or walk. I cannot even imagine how Jacob must be feeling... After climaxing so many times and barely getting any sleep, I am not sure how we will go to school today.I never imagined the night would be so intense.Jacob has surprised me. He is a quick learner and a generous lover. He pays attention to details and remembers what I like or say. He made sure to bend me over the kitchen counter and pounded me from behind, just to prove the point. No one has given me so much pleasure in one night the way he did.âGood Morning,â He says in his drowsy voice.âM
83. Go-to approach- Jacob -.Once I tasted her last night, I couldnât control myself. It was like a switch flipped inside me. After spending entire night together, I should be sated. But I want more and more of her. Touching her⊠Making love to her⊠felt so right, as if every part of her was made to fit in with me.This night was a surprise for me too. Itâs like I walked a hundred miles since last evening and I am a changed man. I go downstairs after getting ready and hear Natalie talking on the phone.âDonât you ever do that again!â She hisses to someone and puts down the phone.âWho is getting your wrath on this lovely morning?âShe smiles and says without meeting my eyes. âIt was Ira.ââOk,â I say. But I donât believe her.Natalie doesnât realize that she is a terrible liar.It nags me sometimes. On such occasions, I remind myself we barely started dating three weeks ago. With time, we will open up and trust each other better.âSee, I can cook too!â She chirps and shows me a sand
84. First Freaking fight- Natalie -.I sneak into the school from back door and rush towards the girlsâ room to lock myself in one of the stalls.âDoes it mean you would be a bitch to anyone who ignores you? Donât tell me this is your go-to approach.âIt stings, and it stings really badly. I am shaking with anger and embarrassment.It stings because he is right.This is my fucking go-to approach. Not because they ignore me. But because they cross a line.What are you supposed to do when people fucking bully and harass you? You either turn into a bitch or brawl like a baby. Funnily enough, I have done both, depending on how I feel on a certain day.After taking some deep breaths, I finally come out of the stall and wash my face. I am late for my class and I donât want to see him right now. So I lean on a wall and call Ira.But I am not sure who I should talk to. I cannot let this anger boil within me. It will eat me.She answers after a few rings, âHey⊠what happened?âHer voice soun
85. Trust - Jacob -.When She gets out of the car in anger, I donât stop her. Because I am pissed too. I will talk to her after classes once our head is in the right place. When She doesnât come to attend any of the classes, I look for her. By the end of school hours, I get anxious wondering why she would skip school.I was at the edge when I confronted her in the car. Now I wish I had held my tongue.I check my previous texts.Me: âI guess I said too much. I am sorry.âI had sent this after I didnât see her in any of the classes.Me: âWe still need to talk, but you need to pick my call for that!âand this one when she didnât pick up my call. I sigh and send her one more text.Jacob: âI am heading for practice. I hope you are not sleeping in some corner of the school. Although I checked your usual hiding spots to make sure you arenât left behind like a 5-year-old⊠See you in the evening?âI put the phone in my pocket, dreading that she will probably not answer this text too.âJacob
86. Blood on my hands- West -.Looks like somebody had their first fight. I cannot help but wonder if I am the reason behind it. I wanted to listen to her voice when I called. It didnât take me much to figure out she was at his place late at night.I am not jealous or anything. She can fuck anyone she wants. But the problem is them getting closer would mean she wouldnât even talk to me or give me any chance.Thatâs why I sent that text at unsourly hour. It was a long shot.But I think it worked.I must be damn lucky. I snort at the thought.She refused to meet me tonight and said we can talk at my party this weekend. But with Jacob hovering around her, I am not sure how I will do that. I just need to figure out some way to keep Jacob away from her that night.....I pick up a pile of dirty laundry from Alfredâs room to clean up. It fucking stinks. His clothes, and his room in general, stinks real bad. Sometimes I want to burn his stuff. Truth is sometimes I want to burn this house t