79. Deflower- Jacob -.I think I am having a mini panic attack. I want to go all the way with her tonight.I know I want to. But I am freaking nervous.Would it be a good idea to tell her beforehand that I am⌠a virgin?God, I hope she doesnât get disappointed in me if I donât last long. Nobody lasts for the first time. I was bold with her as long as our clothes were on. We havenât even seen each other naked yet.Jesus!My cock goes hard every time I recall her soft breast against my chest this afternoon. Damn, I want her and I want her bad. But I know I wonât last.What If something worse happens and I donât even get a hard-on!God dammit! I need to stop thinking about these stupid scenarios.My phone pings and Here comes the much-awaited message.When I check it, to my dismay, as the messages pop onto my screen one by one and I feel a rollercoaster of emotions.My-Dull-Mean-Happening-Girlfriend: âDad said he will drop me at IraâsâNOOOO!My-Dull-Mean-Happening-Girlfriend: âI told h
80. Torment - Natalie - . A girl rushes toward us with a huge smile and hugs Jacob without giving him time to react or respond. Some old friend? I step away to give them some space, but he steps backward from her and pulls me near him again. Ok... âHow are you?â She says in a chirpy voice. âGOD I missed you.â She throws a glance at me. I smile, but she doesnât acknowledge it. Rude! I take a quick look at Jacob, wondering if he will introduce me. Jacob pinches his eyes and says, âQuit the facade, Sadie!â Her smile drops, and her expression hardens. Now she looks at me again, but with hatred in her eyes. Itâs creepy how her expression changed within a few seconds. Jacob continues, âThis is not Ok! Approaching me... or even talking to me! Nothing's gonna change. Move on for Godâs sake. Itâs been more than a year!â My eyes widen hearing Jacobâs voice. Itâs the first time I have seen him agitated and angry like this. âGot yourself a new girlâŚâ She looks at me with disdain. âD
81. First Night- Jacob -.Natalie walks down the stairs wearing my shirt. I knew she would do that. But I didnât know she would look so hot when my shirt would slide down her shoulder.Itâs too big for her and I think she hasnât buttoned it properly on purpose. My eyes widen when I see her legs.âWhere are your shorts?â I ask her. Looks like she is trying to get even with me for snatching her top away. I cannot help but leer at her.She shrugs and sits at the dinner table.Thatâs ok.I will get back to her. I have the entire night.I serve her dinner and ask, âSo⌠You have finally been to my room⌠Are you happy now?ââVery!â she says, amused.âDid you find any dead body in there?âShe squints her eyes at me and says, âI still need to check the bathroom.ââWill you report me if you find one?ââMaybeâŚâ She shrugs and then adds, âOr maybe not⌠You need to convince me if you donât want me to.âI grin.She loves the food. We talk about school, hockey, exams, and whatnot. I tell her I am
82. Blissful Night- Natalie -.I open my eyes and find myself still in Jacobâs arms. A strange sense of contentment washes all over me. We laid next to each other for hours last night. He traced my body with his finger while we talked, cuddled, and kissed.We ate ice cream in bed after midnight, watched Netflix, and then we fucked. Over and over again until it was dawn in the morning. My body is sore. I donât have strength to get up or walk. I cannot even imagine how Jacob must be feeling... After climaxing so many times and barely getting any sleep, I am not sure how we will go to school today.I never imagined the night would be so intense.Jacob has surprised me. He is a quick learner and a generous lover. He pays attention to details and remembers what I like or say. He made sure to bend me over the kitchen counter and pounded me from behind, just to prove the point. No one has given me so much pleasure in one night the way he did.âGood Morning,â He says in his drowsy voice.âM
83. Go-to approach- Jacob -.Once I tasted her last night, I couldnât control myself. It was like a switch flipped inside me. After spending entire night together, I should be sated. But I want more and more of her. Touching her⌠Making love to her⌠felt so right, as if every part of her was made to fit in with me.This night was a surprise for me too. Itâs like I walked a hundred miles since last evening and I am a changed man. I go downstairs after getting ready and hear Natalie talking on the phone.âDonât you ever do that again!â She hisses to someone and puts down the phone.âWho is getting your wrath on this lovely morning?âShe smiles and says without meeting my eyes. âIt was Ira.ââOk,â I say. But I donât believe her.Natalie doesnât realize that she is a terrible liar.It nags me sometimes. On such occasions, I remind myself we barely started dating three weeks ago. With time, we will open up and trust each other better.âSee, I can cook too!â She chirps and shows me a sand
84. First Freaking fight- Natalie -.I sneak into the school from back door and rush towards the girlsâ room to lock myself in one of the stalls.âDoes it mean you would be a bitch to anyone who ignores you? Donât tell me this is your go-to approach.âIt stings, and it stings really badly. I am shaking with anger and embarrassment.It stings because he is right.This is my fucking go-to approach. Not because they ignore me. But because they cross a line.What are you supposed to do when people fucking bully and harass you? You either turn into a bitch or brawl like a baby. Funnily enough, I have done both, depending on how I feel on a certain day.After taking some deep breaths, I finally come out of the stall and wash my face. I am late for my class and I donât want to see him right now. So I lean on a wall and call Ira.But I am not sure who I should talk to. I cannot let this anger boil within me. It will eat me.She answers after a few rings, âHey⌠what happened?âHer voice soun
85. Trust - Jacob -.When She gets out of the car in anger, I donât stop her. Because I am pissed too. I will talk to her after classes once our head is in the right place. When She doesnât come to attend any of the classes, I look for her. By the end of school hours, I get anxious wondering why she would skip school.I was at the edge when I confronted her in the car. Now I wish I had held my tongue.I check my previous texts.Me: âI guess I said too much. I am sorry.âI had sent this after I didnât see her in any of the classes.Me: âWe still need to talk, but you need to pick my call for that!âand this one when she didnât pick up my call. I sigh and send her one more text.Jacob: âI am heading for practice. I hope you are not sleeping in some corner of the school. Although I checked your usual hiding spots to make sure you arenât left behind like a 5-year-old⌠See you in the evening?âI put the phone in my pocket, dreading that she will probably not answer this text too.âJacob
86. Blood on my hands- West -.Looks like somebody had their first fight. I cannot help but wonder if I am the reason behind it. I wanted to listen to her voice when I called. It didnât take me much to figure out she was at his place late at night.I am not jealous or anything. She can fuck anyone she wants. But the problem is them getting closer would mean she wouldnât even talk to me or give me any chance.Thatâs why I sent that text at unsourly hour. It was a long shot.But I think it worked.I must be damn lucky. I snort at the thought.She refused to meet me tonight and said we can talk at my party this weekend. But with Jacob hovering around her, I am not sure how I will do that. I just need to figure out some way to keep Jacob away from her that night.....I pick up a pile of dirty laundry from Alfredâs room to clean up. It fucking stinks. His clothes, and his room in general, stinks real bad. Sometimes I want to burn his stuff. Truth is sometimes I want to burn this house t
Upcoming Books in 'Not Sure Anymore Series':â Riley and ?? - An age gap Romance after 1 year: 'Ruining My Enemy's Daughter' (onGoing)â West - Making of a Don- after 2 years (Coming Soon) â Norris and June - Brotherâs Best friend Romance after 2 years (Coming Soon)â Ira & Liam - Second chance romance after 5 years (Coming Soon)â West and ?? - Mafia Romance after 10 years (Coming Soon)---- 'Ruining My Enemy's Daughter' (onGoing) ----- "Typical Women. They want everything. Donât they? They want money. A big house. A good fucking bank balance and when you work hard, pour your sweat and blood for them. They cheat.... She hurt me by choosing him years ago. It's my time to hurt them back." - Mikolaj ⌠⌠Riley is reeling under the trauma of her assault. She needs kindness and compassion in her life. Someone to help her pick her bits and pieces and make her whole again. Mikolaj is someone she shouldnât be around. He is a ruthless CEO out for vengeance on her parents. How will she
- Jacob - . âWhen are you coming home?â June pouts over the video call that has been going past 15 minutes. I am surprised how she finds so many things to talk about with me nowadays. Turns out Mom and dad have been breathing down her neck ever since I left for college. Now I realize maybe Mom and dad didn't exactly have any special grudge with me. They just needed someone to bicker all the time. I feel bad about June, because I know how overbearing they can be. âJune, I cannot come this weekend.â I donât have money and time! âWhy!â âI am busy with studies..â âHow come Norris is not busy but you are⌠he is going home the same weekend I am asking you to come,â she says and I frown. Yea⌠Sometimes I wish to switch places with Norris. Especially when I feel I am not giving Natalie proper attention. I could really use some free time. Wait a minuteâŚ. âHow do you know Norris is coming home that week?â She flushers. âUhmm⌠I⌠just know. Gotta go bye!â she says and cuts the call.
Epilogue - II.- Natalie -.âShe will probably sprinkle holy water all over in there,â Jacob quips as we walk out of my room. It makes me giggle.He is probably right.I never knew she was so devoted to her religion when I came here for a runner program last year.She is nice.. But too rigid sometimes.I try not to judge her, but she judges me all the damn time.âI wish I could rent an apartment,â I say ruefully. He hums and rubs my back.Jacob has his own Two-room apartment he shares with Norris, whereas I had nobody to share the rent. Ira and Riley wanted to stay on campus as itâs much cheaper and with travel costs in picture there was no point spending money elsewhere.We walk towards the restaurant to meet Ira and Riley for lunch. They are roommates now. I feel jealous as fuck sometimes.âHow is Riley doing?ââShe is good.. mostly good⌠She finally started seeing this guy who was following her around for the past two months,â I hope something works out for her. I am glad she is
117. EpilogueâA Year Laterâ- Jacob -.My phone pings for the third time, and I roll my eyes. Jeez.. Have patience, girl! I pull out my phone and check it anyway. Just to be sure she doesn't have some surprising news at the last minute. My-Impatient-Girlfriend: âWhere the hell are you?âMe: âAlmost there⌠your buildingâs security guard is slow.âDamn SlowâŚI am here to see her and right now we are on a timer. According to Natalie, we only have 20 minutes left. I hate being on a timer, but I am desperate too. As soon as the guard lets me into the building, I make a run for her dorm-room.18 minutesâŚI have raced through this building many times. But this time I am too late. Two more minutes to see her. Time is too short today.âOh wow! Hey JacobâŚâI wince at hearing her voice. I turn and wave at Ira.âI⌠will see you at lunch! Bye!â I say without stopping for her.She laughs and yells at me, âI donât think you will make it this time. "Yeah, mock me. I turn and smirk. âOh I will, I a
116. When she went missing - Trigger Warning - Implied Rape- West -.Everything is dark and blurry…Pungent smell of blood and urine is all over the place. I can hear someone sobbing. I blink repeatedly, trying to focus. Dread sets in my heart when I realize it’s Riley.How? What happened?I know it’s her.I am trying to think and turn my head to look for her. I heard her scream.Fuck!They got hold of her… My head is throbbing as I conclude the obvious
115. Make it work - Jacob - . We both lay on the floor in my closet, our limbs tangled in each other. âWe should go to bed⌠âI say, sighing heavily. âNo..â She whines. âI donât want a sore back again, Natalie.. â We have been laying here for the past hour. She hugs me tight with determination so I cannot get up. âThis is not fair! â I grumble. âYou got a nice little mattress called Jacob⌠What about me?â She giggles and gets up. âI have news..â she says while grabbing my T-shirt to wear. I look at her, and she drops the bombshell. âDad asked you to join us for breakfast.â Ahh fuck⌠âI knew this was comingâŚâ I sigh. I cannot keep sleeping with his daughter while avoiding him altogether. âDonât worryâŚâ she says in a fake sympathetic voice, âI told him not to push you around this time.â That makes me laugh, and she grins back at me. âItâs not a pleasant experience to fall on your bum.â I tell her while getting back into the room. âHow would you feel if my family aske
âPresent Dayâ- Natalie -.Nowadays, I spend my time with Riley as much as I can. Sometimes we style each otherâs hair while watching movies. Sometimes we paint. I suck at it.Sometimes we bake. She sucks at it. I can see her mood improving a little every day. I have been convincing her to go to prom with us.âNorris would love to take you as his date.â I tell her as I realize that she is thinking about the date, or maybe West.She isnât angry with him. Maybe she had been telling the truth all along. There was no sexual assault. It doesnât make sense though.She shrugs. âOkay!ââReally!â My eyes widen.She laughs. âYeah why not..âI have to make sure Norris isnât taking anybody else.Sh*t Sh*t Sh*t!Once we exhaust all our options to pass our time, we go out cycling. I take her to the campsite by the lake, where I spent that night with Jacob. We sit there for hours and I tell her stories of college campus. I tell her about my hot coach and how Jacob was green with envy when he met
114. That Day â Three weeks ago â - West - . When I reach home, I stiffen to realize someone is inside. Alfred is usually out at this time and doesnât come back until late at night. I open the door carefully and see Riley sitting by the kitchen counter doing her schoolwork. She still has the keys. âYou are late,â she says. I blink at her. She turns and raises her brow, expecting an answer from me. It makes me smile. âI didnât want to come back to an empty house.â I admit. That damn call from Spain has messed up my head today. I am not sure how I am feeling exactly. âWhat are you doing here?â I ask as I notice a cake box, some flowers and a tiny gift sitting on the counter next to her bag. Considering the way she snapped at me in the parking lot, I am sure itâs not for me. âBought these for Momâs birthday⌠â She says then asks after a pause, âDo you remember who elseâs birthday it is today?â I sigh. She is here to pick up a fight. That day when she saw the pics⌠She was t
113. Confused - West - . Itâs for the first time I have ever been alone for this long. Single is the word, I guess. I tried to convince Riley, and I tried hard. But then I realized she can be God damn stubborn when she wants to be. In the next few days, a few things happened⌠Subtle, but enough to put me on edge and I felt it was better to leave her alone. âWhat happened to your girlfriend?â Caleb had asked. âNone of your business!â He chuckled. âI know you guys broke up.â He shoves my personal information in my face to show me he keeps tabs on me. His tactics are getting old and have little effect on me. His requests to keep his precious packages secured in my house have increased. I have an inkling he is trying to set up a business for himself. I just hope he doesnât drag me in his mess. âYou must miss her in bed.â âDonât push me Caleb.â I warned him. He shrugged. âIf you are not dating her, I guess itâs an open pass for me-â I punched his face before he could complete his