"The projections for the next five years look fantastic," Joe says, pointing to the chart on the screen. "I've done the research, and we're looking at a possible one hundred twenty two percent return on investment."
I've endured dozens of these meetings throughout the day, and this one is no exception. Joe, my friend, or Juggernaut Joe as we like to call him, dabs at the sheen of sweat on his brow. I'm not sure why he gets so nervous when attempting to sell us on one of his ideas. We're all friends, and I trust their judgment; otherwise, they wouldn't be working for me.
I flip my pen around in my hand, trying to recall the investment figure Joe mentioned earlier. Except for a few doodles I drew to pass the time, the notepad in front of me is mostly blank.
"Please repeat the investment amounts for me. How much will we have to pay out of pocket at first, and how long will it take before we start seeing some cash flow?" I inquire.
Despite the monotony of the meetings, only one thing can keep my attention... money. I require cold, hard facts. How much do you require? When will I be able to get it back? And how much interest will there be? The bottom line is the most important thing to me; fortunately, the rest is handled by my other board members.
Joe rereads his notes, repeating the information he knows I'm looking for. A single bad investment, a single bad move, has the potential to bankrupt me. Fortunately, I make all the right moves.
The other investors swivel their chairs around to face me as they await the final decision. We work as a group, but there can only be one boss.
"That sounds fine to me," I say. "I'll have Amelia prepare the necessary paperwork, and we'll get this show up and running."
Everyone gathers their notebooks and folders as they prepare to leave the conference room. I gather my belongings and prepare to flee, but Joe blocks the door.
"Slow down, Jordan," he jokingly says. "We just closed a big deal, so let's go and have a celebration."
Celebration. I'm not sure what that word means any longer.
I haven't celebrated anything in ages. I go on a few boring dates a month and occasionally to company parties. I'm usually juggling several things at once, and partying isn't high on my priority list. There are twenty-four hours in a day, and I would rather spend mine earning money.
Normal people can live in the present moment, but I cannot. I like to plan everything, including my leisure time. When I was in my early twenties and someone invited me out for drinks, I would drop everything I was doing and party all night. But now that I'm thirty-five, my priorities have shifted.
"Not tonight, Joe," I tell him. "I'm swamped with work, and there are some loose ends at the building I'm looking to buy."
Joe moves to the side to allow me to exit the room, but he follows me down the hall to my office.
"Even if your eyes are closed, you and I both know you can do this job." "Besides, as they say, all work and no play makes a man's balls shrivel up," he jokes.
We laugh as I stuff a stack of papers into my briefcase and glance at my Rolex. If something is worth having, get the best of the best, is a motto I live and die by. My suits, cars, and general way of life all adhere to this motto, and I must remain focused in order to maintain my standards.
"You're completely correct," I say. "Trust me, my balls aren't in any danger right now, but I promise we'll get together soon and party all night." Meanwhile, go tie one on with the guys. You put in a lot of effort on this deal over the last few months and delivered an outstanding presentation. You deserve to celebrate and have a good time."
We exit my office, and Joe gives me a firm pat on the back before we part ways in the hallway. As I ride down to the ground floor, I enjoy the silence of the elevator. Given the number of meetings I have in a day, I always appreciate the brief moments of silence. I stand out front and wait for my Rolls-Royce to arrive, which is unusual because I despise waiting.
Eric, my driver for the last ten years, is the only one who could get away with such a blunder. He's more like family now, but I still raise an eyebrow when he gets out, tilting his hat knowingly in my direction before opening the backseat door. I go inside and take out my phone.
Amelia has updated my schedule once more and sent a confirmation email about our recent meeting.
Eric gets into the car and adjusts the temperature to my preference. "Are we going to the Hills or to the new place?"
Sighing, I tuck my phone into my pocket. "The new place," I explain.
Eric responds with a grunt and pulls into traffic. The building isn't far from my office, and we arrive just in time for me to notice the maintenance man smoking a cigarette in the alley.
"Stop the car, Eric," I tell him.
The car comes to a complete stop, and I exit without waiting for my driver to open the door for me. Justin, the useless maintenance man, raises his head to look at me. He appears nervous, as his eyes dart from one side to the other, most likely looking for a way out.
Justin stomps on his cigarette butt on the ground. "I haven't avoided you, Mr. Delgado. Please allow me to explain."
This slacker is costing me money, and I need the improvements made in order to increase the asking price on this deal. I take a step back and fold my arms, unconcerned about the creases in my tailored suit.
"This has to be good."
I take the elevator down to the lobby and take a quick look in the mirror at my outfit. Unlike Romina, I don't need high fashion, especially for my bi-weekly grocery store runs. My tank top, shorts, and favorite pair of sandals are ideal. I take a hold of my hair and wrap it around the top of my head in a knot. It's hot outside, and I despise being hot, especially when my hair is stuck to my neck.I reach into my pocket for a folded piece of paper to double-check my shopping list. Romina stays at home with Andy on rare occasions to go grocery shopping. It's a welcome respite, and I'm grateful she agreed to let me go grocery shopping on my own. I adore Andrew, but it's difficult to shop for fresh meat and vegetables while also caring for a fussy baby. I'm not sure how hands-on parents do it without the help of a nanny or other help. I guess my maternal instincts aren't quite as developed yet, because Andy is constantly grabbing things, trying to rub everything al
I try to wave her off and sidestep Mrs. Morales. "Well, I can—"But before I can finish, she shoves the leash into my hands and waddles right past me."Thank you, darling; I'll be right back," she says as she walks inside and into the elevator.I look down at Trixie, feeling... duped. Romina only gives me an hour and a half to shop, and my time is already running out. I take out my phone to see how much time I have left.Shit.I return my gaze to the lobby, hoping to see Mrs. Morales, but it is empty.What is it that is taking her so long? Maybe I'll just tie Trixie to a post and apologize to Mrs. Morales later.Trixie begins to pull away from me, as if she can read my mind and knows I'm trying to get rid of her. Given her size and strength in comparison to mine, she easily wins the brief tug-of-war and the leash slips from my grasp
Joe is a man after my own heart, if I were ten years older and still woman crazy. More importantly, neither of us knows how to accept no for an answer, which is how I ended up on this boring blind date. I like to think that his no-holds-barred attitude is what makes him such a successful partner at my firm.I'm not trying to ignore my date, but I can't help but glance at my phone for the millionth time. I work hard to hide my boredom by pretending to be at least somewhat interested in my date.My date, like every other woman Joe seems to know, is a model. He insisted that this one was different from the others, and I had to meet her. What I should have done was think about where this information came from. I should have known better, but I also knew that I wouldn't be able to avoid Joe or the date for long, so I reluctantly agreed. Big blunder.I'm willing to put my entire fortune on the line. Joe discovers all of these
I take another bite of lobster and pick up my phone. My mailbox icon flashes, and I focus on the documents Amelia has just sent over. Thank you very much!"I must be pretty boring," Alma says, pouting. She stabs her salad lazily and looks at me."Of course not," I respond. "However, money never sleeps."She smiles, leans back against the table, and runs her fingers through my hair. "I understand, but perhaps it can take a break." I'm confident I can divert your attention away from your work after dinner. Or, if you prefer, I can perform my magic right now."You have a snowball's chance in hell of taking my mind off anything. Not now, and never."Tell me more about what you do," I say, trying to steer the conversation away from the possibility of us getting naked together.Alma returns to her favorite top
"Now, let's talk about this telescope thing. Yes, I have a room full of telescopes, and they may be aimed at you, but I wasn't spying on you."I arch my brow and slant my head to the side. He laughs once more, revealing his white teeth."I'm telling you the truth," he declares. "It's a scout's honor. Besides, I'm pretty sure I'd remember seeing a lovely lady undress."In response to the compliment, my skin flushes. He's becoming less creepy, but I'm still not convinced."You mentioned staying in the area for a short time. "How come?" I inquire.He sighs again as he runs his fingers through his dark hair. "Long story short, I'm conducting research that requires me to be hands on.""Oh," I say, eager to put this conversation to rest. "From now on, make sure your telescopes aren't pointing into my freaking window, or I'll call the cops on you." Please excuse me;
We don't take long to arrive at Aliyah's building and park right in front of it. Normally, I would prefer to accompany my date directly from her home, but because I'm not sure which location is hers, I wait anxiously in the lobby near the elevator. To calm my nerves, I twist and turn the paperclip in my pocket. It's my lucky paperclip, and I don't leave the house without it. After I mentioned that public speaking makes me nervous, an old college professor taught me the trick. It no longer does, but I still keep the paperclip with me.Every time the elevator doors open, I perk up for a split second before slumping back in disappointment. I look at my watch for the hundredth time in the last ten minutes. To keep my mind occupied, I pull my phone from my pocket and check my messages. I have several emails from Amelia, a few text messages from Mr. Tanaka, and a text from Joe inviting me out for drinks instead of going on my date. I'm so preoccupied with my
Two weeks have flown by. It's been two long fucking weeks since my date with Aliyah, and I've been avoiding her ever since. I look at her phone number at least ten times a day before convincing myself not to call her. Her background check's blacked-out names make sense now.I've known Jonas for years, and I know that he would gladly pay an arm and a leg to protect certain aspects of his life. Romina is a whole other can of worms that I'd rather not re-open. I've worked hard to avoid dealing with the delicate intricacies of life involving people I know. I don't need the conflict of interest or the headache that comes with it.I just haven't had the words to explain everything to Aliyah. How can I tell her that I don't want to get involved with her because she's the nanny to one of my jerk friends? Besides, the whole "it's not you, it's me" thing is a little too cliché for me to use as an excuse effectively.Instead, I threw myself headfirst i
I close Andrew's door and make my way down the hall to my room. As I check the baby monitor in my hand to make sure he's still sleeping peacefully, he squirms a little but eventually settles back down. My shirt is wet and drenched in sour milk, a small gift from Andrew before he fell asleep. The shirt clings to my skin and is simply too much to wipe away, so I take a shower instead.When I walk into my room, I go straight to the bathroom, turning on the water and stripping out of my soiled clothes before dumping them in a heap on the floor. My mind finally has a chance to wander during my first quiet moment of the day, and my thoughts naturally turn to Jordan.He's been a man of his word since our conversation in the park, but I'm still wary of him. Sure, we agreed to start over, but I haven't forgotten about his behavior, and I'm still curious about what caused him to react in the first place. We've gone on a few quick dates, but nothing compares to our first date. They w
"Hey sweetheart," Dad said as he stepped outside to join me on the porch.I'd been estranged from both of my mom and dad for about a week. Zach hadn't been to the market in a week, either, or I hadn't started to notice him. I still felt so stupid for treating him that way and then fleeing. It terrified me that he'd gone to such lengths just to prove to me that he was deserving of me. All I wanted was for him to get sober. That was it."I noticed you've been a little down lately," Dad said as he sat and rocked a few times. "Boy problems?" ”"How come you didn't tell me?" " I couldn't help but inquire. "That his mother died?" That he'd gotten sober? That he purchased the plaza? ”"You went through so much when he overdosed. I didn't want to reopen old wounds.""I assumed he died.""He actually died for a few minutes.""That's not the same thing.""He was in a coma for a while.We assumed he would perish. Then he
"I can't believe you're going out with that lad again," Mom said as I arranged my artwork in a way that would allow me to transport it easily."I'm not going out with him," I said flatly. "He said I could sell my art at the tattoo shop where he works, so I'm going to do that.""He's just simply attempting to get a hold of you.""Well, if he sells all of this art, I think it's a pretty good ploy.""Honey, he works in a tattoo parlor.He's not much of a catch."I rolled my eyes and decided not to respond to her any longer. Dad sat on the couch, staring at us as we argued."Why don't you start leaving her alone, Maureen?" "Dad explained. "She's an adult now, and she's free to do whatever she wants."Mom turned to make an argument with him, and I took advantage of the distraction to sneak out of the house unnoticed. Dad nodded as he began to argue more vehemently to keep Mom interested in nag
I stood at the deli cash register, staring out the window into the empty store. I'd been scheduled to train to bake bread at a ridiculously early hour. So far, it's not going well; my coworker, Gwen, is too busy rushing around trying to get everything done to teach me anything. Fortunately, I've done this before as a teenager, so I believe I'll be able to do it again."We're getting ready to open. Are there enough sandwiches? " Gwen inquired, terrified.“Yep. "We're full up there," I replied. "I even had time to brew some coffee."“Oh. So, did you pay attention to my training? ”“Yep.”“Oh. Okay. Then I'm going to take a break. "Could you please keep an eye on the last round of bread?"“Yep.”"Excellent, thank you."I didn't turn to watch her walk away. I think I have another five or ten minutes before I have to return to the sandwich grind. People usually don't start coming in un
For a split second, my heart stops beating and time slows to a crawl. Everything around me is moving at a snail's pace, and my eyes well up with tears. I turnedaround to see if I'm dreaming or if everyone else is seeing what I'm seeing. My father has his arm around my mother's waist as she clutches Andrew in her arms, and Rachel gives me a positive reaction as she points her camera in my direction.The room has fallen silent, and all eyes have turned to me. Jordan coughs a few times as I turn my head to face him."This journey with you has been thrilling since the very first time we met. We've got to share so many wonderful moments together, and I want to continue sharing them with you as my wife. You've been everything I could have wished for: a supportive and loving partner, a wonderful mother to our son, and an ambitious and stunning woman in your own right. I don't deserve you, Aliyah; I've never deserved you. But I've always adored and loved you, and I don't
a year laterIf you had asked me a year ago where I thought I'd be now, I'd have said curled up on the floor with Andrew having to play with a pile of toys. I might have even mentioned cleaning and cooking and doing other job that fell under my responsibilities as a baby sitter. Never in a million years did I imagine myself sitting on a stage with six other graduates, listening to my culinary mentor speak about how far we've come.More than that, I never imagined I'd have both. And understanding what awaits me after this celebration is almost as exciting as what I'm accomplishing today.Fortunately, I'm surrounded by friends who not only believedin my food, but also in me. Tanner and Ray have both been helpful in my development, and I would not be where I am today without them.As I look out at the crowd thathad gathered in our honor, I fidgetednervously. Rachel smiles and waves at me, and I reciprocate with a small wave. M
Do I cling to the past, or do I let go and move forward with the man who has my heart? My mind is in an emotional fog, and I'm at odds with myself. Jordan's kiss is tender, but I can tell he's reading my body language. He's waiting for me to take the initiative. The last first move as I realize our relationship has progressed to a new level.I recline on the bed and pull Jordan to me in an attempt to begin the healing process. No man has ever made me feel the way he makes me feel, and I believe him when he says he and Romina had nothing in common.The realization that he is Andrew's father is both shocking and relieving. It broke my heart to think I'd never see the boy I'd grown to adore again. Knowing I'll be able to keep my relationship with Andrew is only a bonus to Jordan's reasoning, whether he realizes it or not.My body is craving a primal but necessary release right now. I reach for Jordan's shirt and unbutton it slowly. I run my hands down the front of
My plan is in shambles, and I can't stand listening to Aliyah sob into the phone like this. She requires my assistance immediately. I'm not sure what made me think I'd be able to straighten things over the phone, but I was completely wrong, and I need to think up a new strategy because I need her as well.I walk over to the elevator and press the button for Aliyah's floor, with no specific plan other than to get to her.“Aliyah? Hello? Can you hear what I'm saying? ”She's no longer screaming and shouting at me, but I can hear her crying in the background, so I know she's still there. This isn't what I had in mind. Hearingher cry and listening the pain in her voice twists my heart like a knife. I can only imagine what she's going through if I'm in this much pain.Romina clearly lied to her about the specifics, but I hope Aliyah will allow me to clear the air and set a record straight.I charge out of the elevator and down the hall
The sound of his voice on the other end of the phone ends up taking my breath away, and the cloud nine I'm riding on falls to the ground. My emotions come into conflict, and I'm not sure which one is correct. Part of me is happy to hear a familiar voice on the phone, while another part recalls everything Romina revealed.I'm on the phone with both the first and last people I want to talk to, and I'm not sure what to say. If he hadn't been the source of my grief, he would've been the first person I'd called for comfort, but he is the source. He is the sole cause of this disaster, and he had the ability to stop it at any time, but he did not. Jordan made his bed, and now he must face the consequences of his actions. He does not merit my time or attention."How did you come up with this number?" And why are you bothering to call me? " I yell angrily.It's suddenly difficult to breathe, and every breath I take feels like a labored exercise as I force myself to confr
For the millionth time, I checked my phone, but Nathan had not responded. Despite the fact that my world was collapsing around me, I dragged myself to work every day, sitting through one boring meeting after another. Contracts and business transactions used to consume all of my waking hours, but now all I want to do is go out and find Aliyah. I can't even pretend to be interested in the proposals being put forward.Nate assured me that he would find her and that I should simply trust him and his abilities. He's never let me down before. I stare off into space, completely unaware that my name is being called and that everyone in my office is staring at me.""Wait, what?""We're still waiting from you to agree to terms and sign off on everything so we can keep moving forward," Joe says, waving a thick stack of papers at me. "Have you had a chance to review the documents? We were hoping to resolve this today.""As I sift through the massive stack of papers i