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105: Don't Cry. I'm Here.
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2021-02-19 22:47:41Hearing a buzzing sound coming from his phone, Xui Li looked at the screen before he frowned upon seeing the sender’s name.
He slides open the message Xue Mei sent to him, ‘Are you still awake?’
He replies with ‘Yes.’
Then another new message came after that. ‘Are you busy tomorrow?’
‘Kinda.’
‘Oh, okay then. Sorry for bothering you at this time, good night.’
‘Good night.’
Xui Li replies to Xue Mei with a short text. He was still angry with her. Why does she still need to repeat the same mistake? She knew that Ren Zhi would never prioritize her first, and yet she still stubbornly wants to be with him again. What is it he lacks to be her boyfriend?
That is why Xui Li decided, if that's what Xue Mei really wants, then he’ll let her. She didn’t even ask him why he didn’t
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