Andrew“Black coffee,” I told the barista behind the hospital’s coffee bar.“Make that two,” a familiar voice chimed in from right behind me.Turning around, I found Bob. Before I could fully register his sudden appearance, he clapped me on the shoulder. “I know you’re probably thinking I should have called.”“I—”“But I did.”My shoulders slumped as my stomach fell. “Yeah. I haven’t been a very good friend, have I?”“You don’t need to be right now.” Bob dropped a bill on the counter and took both of our coffees. “A coffee kiosk in the hospital. Swanky,” he said as he walked over to some seats at the edge of the main waiting room.I followed, accepting my coffee cup and taking a seat next to him. “I haven’t known how to, ah, talk to anyone lately.”“Andrew. It’s fine.” He took a careful sip of his coffee and watched me over the lid. I cringed. Was he here to lecture me about breaking up with Lanie?Well, he could save his breath, because I’d already given myself enough grief about tha
Andrew“Raven,” I gasped, crouched at her bedside. I rested my hand lightly on hers. “Raven, can you hear me?”She clenched her closed eyes tighter and groaned. My heart fluttered wildly as I pressed the button to call for the nurse.“She talked!” I nearly yelled the second the nurse appeared.The woman’s eyes went wide. “She did?”“Yes! I was reading to her, and she said it was boring!”The nurse came to Raven’s bedside. “Honey, can you hear me?”Raven’s eyes slowly fluttered open. Her eyebrows pinched together, and she blinked as she stared at the nurse. “Yeah,” she slowly said.Her voice was gravelly and uncertain, but it was hers. Raven was awake.“I’ll get Doctor Matthews,” the nurse said.I could only nod. Tears filled my eyes, and I pressed my fist against my mouth.Raven turned her face to me as the nurse left the room. “Dad.”“Yeah.” I bent next to her bed. “It’s me. How are you feeling?”“Crappy.”I laughed, and it almost turned into a sob, but I swallowed that down. I neede
LanieI rubbed my eyes, realizing I’d read the entire staff email Principal Stafford had sent out and not understood a single word.“Okay,” I exhaled, leaning in closer to my computer screen. “Focus.”And yet I couldn’t. Again, the words on the screen turned into mush. It was like I’d forgotten all the English I’d ever learned.Dropping back into my chair in frustration, I looked around my office. For a while there, the place had begun to feel familiar. Now it didn’t. Now I felt like a stranger in my own life.Wherever I went, I felt out of place. School. My home. My car.On Monday, I must have spent a good two hours staring at the painting in my living room that Andrew had bought me, overwhelmed by competing urges to burn the thing or throw myself onto it, sobbing. In the end, I simply consumed half a bottle of wine and fell asleep on the couch.I’d been avoiding my parents’ calls, and I faked being sick on Sunday night to get out of yoga and drinks with Erica. Usually, after a break
LanieJason shrugged a shoulder. “Maybe.”“It’s a long break.”“Exactly. And Raven’s gonna be in the hospital for all of it. I need to go and visit her.”The sentiment flowed from his words, and I couldn’t help but smile. Despite my initial impression of him, Jason was a really good kid. His sweetness couldn’t be ignored.“Raven’s lucky to have you, Jason. I mean that.”Smiling sheepishly, Jason ducked his head. “Thanks, Miss Jacobs.”We sat in silence for a few breaths before he looked back up. “This is helping. I might go on that snowboarding trip. I just don’t want to make Raven jealous.”“I think she’ll understand.”“Yeah. Maybe.” His grin broadened, and a faraway look entered his eyes as he gazed at the window behind me.“I think you’re going to do fine, Jason. You’re feeling pretty upbeat now, huh?”“Yeah, why wouldn’t I? Raven’s finally awake. I got to talk to her on the phone for a minute, and she said she doesn’t blame me. I know I have to make all this up to her, yeah, but s
AndrewI paused a few feet outside of Raven’s new hospital room, two hot chocolates in hand.“I felt bad going without you, babe,” Jason said from inside the room.Hearing someone call my daughter “babe,” a kid at that, made me both want to cringe and laugh.“Seriously,” Raven replied. “It’s fine. Let me see that picture of Josh and you again. Oh my god. He’s ridiculous,” She laughed.I smirked to myself. Every time I heard Raven laugh, I was reminded of how lucky I was to have her by my side.I would never slip on the gratitude again.Deciding I’d probably done enough eavesdropping for one day, I entered the room. “Knock, knock.”Raven briefly glanced up from where she held Jason’s phone in her good arm. Her leg and arm were still in casts, as was Jason’s arm.Jason straightened up as I approached. I got the sense he was still a little wary around me, which was fine. Keeping him on his toes was a good idea.“You went snowboarding with your arm like that, huh?” I handed him his hot ch
AndrewRaven’s tone wasn’t cutting, just sad. I opened my eyes and looked at her. The disappointed expression she wore made my heart feel like it was breaking in two.“So why isn’t she here?” she asked sadly. “Does she not want to come?”“Of course, she wants to come, I told you.” I paused. “You really want to see her?”“Yes, I want to see her. She’s, like, I don’t know.” Raven’s gaze dropped to the floor. “My closest friend. I know she’s too old to be my real friend, but whatever. She gets me.”Guilt hit me hard and heavy. I was going to have to tell Raven the truth, whether I wanted to or not.“Lanie and I broke up.”Raven’s jaw dropped, and her eyes widened. “What? Why?”“Because of what’s happened. Raven.” I rested my forearms on my legs and leaned into them. “I haven’t been giving you enough time and attention. A relationship between adults, it’s a lot of work. Having a girlfriend was starting to distract me from caring for you.”“What caring are you talking about? I was just lyi
Lanie“Ring it, Lanie,” Mom encouraged me.Reaching forward, I rang the doorbell of the house half a block away from my parents’. The rest of the caroling group—mostly friends and neighbors of my mom’s, and none of them under fifty—bustled in excitement.Footsteps sounded on the other side of the door, and then it opened, a white-haired man looking at us all in surprise.“One, two,” Mom called out, and all six of us burst into a rendition of Jingle Bells. I mumbled along, hunching down in my jacket and wishing this was all over.I just wanted to go back to my apartment, back to the bathrobe I’d lived in since school got out, and back to all the depression I’d been allowing myself to wallow in.“Sing,” Mom hissed between her teeth, knocking her shoulder against mine.I forced a smile and picked up the tune. The white-haired man was nodding and smiling, enjoying the show enough for the whole neighborhood.“See?” Mom said to me after we wrapped up our three songs and were carefully stepp
Lanie“I don’t think it will be okay, Erica. Not this time. Andrew was different.”“I know what you’re saying. He was special. But, hey, if the guy who made you feel the way he did isn’t for you, then just think about what it’ll be like when you do meet the right guy.”“Yeah.” I rubbed my forehead, not in the mood for a pep talk. I was still mourning the relationship. Taking on a chipper attitude was a long way off.A knock on the door made me jump. “Lanie?” Mom called. “Are you in there? Dinner is ready.”“Just a minute,” I answered. I waited until her footsteps receded to address Erica again. “It’s dinner time. I should go.”“Come over here after. We have enough whiskey to get us through the apocalypse.”“Thanks, but I told my mom I’d stay here tonight.”“Okay. Tomorrow?”“Yeah. Um, maybe.”Erica pursed her lips and gave me a knowing look. “Lanie. Don’t stay holed up for too long.”“Okay,” I agreed, not sure I could stay true to my word.Saying goodbye, we hung up, and I joined my p