LanieKaren answered Andrew’s question. “Raven’s friend Jason was driving.”Andrew stopped pacing to stare at her. “Jason? Jason who?”I swallowed. “A friend of hers from school.”Andrew blinked and stared at me. “Okay. How come … Wait, why—?”“I’ve seen him around,” I explained, hoping that was good enough. Raven and I had talked about Jason some, but those conversations were technically confidential, and sharing them wouldn’t change anything currently happening.“Jason.” Hands on his hips, Andrew nodded. “Do we have a last name?”“Um.” Before I could answer, he stomped over to the desk. I exchanged a look with Karen, finding her eyes full of fear and despair. I’d only seen hints of Andrew’s temper before, but I got the sense I was about to experience the full force of it.“I need to know about this Jason kid who was in the car with my daughter, Raven,” he told the woman at the desk.She frowned. “I’m afraid we can’t release any information on patients.”“You have to be kidding me.”
Andrew“You’re sure?” I asked, clenching the phone tighter.“That’s what the hospital’s blood work shows us, Mr. Marx,” Officer Dean replied from the other end of the line.I held my breath, tired of the painful inhales and exhales, and looked over at Raven. Nothing had changed since I last checked her over a minute before. Same machines hooked up to her. Same bruised hands. Same cast on the arm. Same closed eyes.She looks dead.I hated myself for that awful thought, but it couldn’t be helped. I’d carry the image of Danica’s lifeless body with me for the rest of my days. I didn’t want to have to carry a mirror one featuring my daughter as well.“Things are looking good.” That’s what the doctor had said. There was a high chance Raven would wake up sometime in the next few days. Hopefully.Part of what the doctors fed me seemed to be bullshit, carefully-polished phrases and words meant to stop me from becoming hysterical. I wasn’t a fool. I knew nothing was certain and that, at any mom
LanieErica smoothly pulled her car into a spot in the hospital’s side parking lot but kept the engine on. We sat side-by-side, staring at the building in front of us.“Thanks,” I told her again. “You didn’t have to drive me.”She gave me a sad smile. “It’s okay.”I nodded, eyes tearing up again. This time, I blinked the waterworks away. I’d cried so much already, and I didn’t want to walk into Raven’s room and have Andrew see me this way. I didn’t know how much hope he still possessed, and if he saw me breaking down, it wouldn’t help any.“Have you talked to Jason?” Erica asked. She knew the whole story from A to Z. I’d called her on my way home to grab blankets and pillows on Sunday. I knew they probably had those things at the hospital, but I’d needed an hour to break down somewhere Andrew couldn’t see me. Erica, as always, had provided the crucial listening ear.“No. He wasn’t at school today. I called his parents, and they said they’ll send him to me if he wants to talk.” I shrug
Lanie“Let’s go talk in the hallway.” I slowly stood. It had occurred to me while reading to Raven that if she could hear the articles like I wanted her to, she could probably hear everything else we were saying.In the hall, I closed the door behind us. Andrew had already set to pacing, walking up and down along the hall. A bad kind of tingling covered the back of my neck.“What’s going on with the police?” I asked.“They can’t do their fucking jobs. That’s what’s going on.” Andrew pivoted, doing another march away from me. “They keep saying Jason wasn’t drinking, that he wasn’t doing drugs, that everything was normal. It was just an accident.”I bit down on my bottom lip. This again.“Car accidents happen sometimes,” I quietly said.“Not out of the blue. I’ve avoided missing dozens of animals since I started driving. Shit. Hundreds if you count the squirrels. And never once have I driven into a tree because I was trying not to run something over. Have you talked to him?”“No.” I unc
Andrew“This is everything I got.” Keith Shepherd laid the folder on my home desk.I lifted it, testing its weight—or, rather, lightness. “It’s not much.”“There’s not much on him. He’s a seventeen-year-old boy.”I directed a frown his way. I hadn’t hired a private investigator to give me lip.Cracking the folder, I took a brief look at the three sheets inside. There was a page of the basic facts. Date of birth, home address, etc. Nothing that important, and nothing I couldn’t have found out myself.The second page was a printed-out instant messaging chat between Jason and someone named Hayden, dated a month earlier. According to the super-secretive conversation, they had plans to hit the mall, and Jason hoped Raven would be there. Again, nothing special.Then there was a report from school, detailing a few detentions Jason had gotten—all for being late to class or disrupting the learning environment. This late part I probably could have gotten from Lanie, but that was out of the ques
Andrew“It’s me,” Karen softly said, entering my office.As if it would be anyone but my housekeeper. Despite my pain, I smiled a bit at that. “Come in.”The door slowly opened, and she peered in. I’d given her the day off, but she showed up anyway. Her husband had come by earlier in the day as well, offering his help in any way he could.They were both good people. Better than I probably deserved.“I made some soup,” Karen said. “Chicken noodle.”“Thanks, but I’m not hungry.”Karen’s forehead wrinkled in worry. “You didn’t eat any lunch.”“I’m fine.”“And you barely had breakfast.”I started to ask if she was my mother, but I held my tongue. In a way, Karen was just that. My parents lived states away. I hadn’t told them about Raven yet, and I knew why. A part of me felt guilty for keeping her away from them for so long, for only taking her on a handful of trips to see them over the last seventeen years. Raven barely knew her grandparents, and it was all my fault. Danica’s parents had
Lanie“So.” Erica settled onto her couch, curled her legs under herself, and looked at me with a dramatic pause.I raised my eyebrows, waiting.“What do you want for dinner?”“That’s what you were gonna ask me?”“Yeah. It’s Thursday night.”“I remember.”“I have that recipe for white bean stew.” She ticked it off on her finger. “And then we could make lasagna.” Another tick. “If we want anything else other than frozen waffles, we’ll have to go to the store.”“Ugh. The store.” I grabbed the folded blanket hanging from over the back of the armchair and tossed it over my legs. “It’s so cold out there, and the store is so far away.”“True. A block.”“Don’t you have some leftover candy from that Halloween party you went to?”“I don’t want to die.” She pulled her phone from her pocket and started scrolling, eyes on the screen.“That stuff has, like, enough preservatives to make it last for the next century.”“I’m ordering pizza,” she announced, clicking away.“No arguments over here.” Pulli
AndrewI cocked my head, listening as the shower spray hit the tiles around me. Was that …?Killing the shower, I jumped onto the bathmat and yanked my waiting towel from the hook. Tearing ass out of the bathroom so fast I slid slightly on the floor, I careened into my bedroom. The phone, sitting on my bedside table, still rang. I hadn’t missed the call.Gasping, I snatched it up—and blinked in surprise to see Lanie’s name.“Hello?” I answered, heart thundering in the base of my throat.She hesitated. “Hi.”I gulped. “Hey.”It had been three days since she left the hospital, and I wondered often if I’d done the right thing by sending her away. I’d thought I had it all figured out the other night, but the more I mulled over it, the more I realized I didn’t know what the hell I was doing.“How is Raven?” Lanie asked.I could barely draw the breath to answer. “The same.”“Oh,” she said in a quiet voice.“Yeah.” I looked down, noting the wet spot I was creating on the carpet. “How are you