CHAPTER 34IRENESomehow, it was comforting that the shirt carried a masculine aura, I lay on his chest listening to the heartbeats -Was he thinking about the same thing as in was?I couldn't think about the possibility that he wasn't, he had silently. Or most probably he had an encounter as I did too and was keeping it to himself.We watched the movie in silence and darkness, with the breeze moving through the room slowly with the siund if our heartbeats.Love fades— The word kept coming back to my mind again and again and this time it was something else altogether— It came with a lot of pending questions— if Love fades then what happens to the soul that were caught loving.Does it mean that they would die, wither and go pale or whatever?Does it mean they'd undergo theess processes until it crumbled and drifted away like dried up leaves in the wind?As much as it I didn't want to think of it, it was right there in my mind, it was right there in my thoughts and caused a pain in my
CHAPTER 35JAMES POVMy mind had never been this distracted, for a while it looked like the weight of the whole world was right there in my shoulders and I was trying so hard to get it off in any way possible.Irene—It was hard for me to think about that woman with endless possibilities —There were two ways in my mind: one part of my mind wanted all of this to work and the other part was my dark part.Everyman had a dark part but not everyone has that side hovering over them all day long.I seemed to be a part of him, for a while I had that perhaps she was the one to break the barrier.Yet again, I found myself sipping into that black hole of my subconscious mind.It was like a Hate—Love then hate again relationship and the devil ruling over this part of my mind was no one else than myself.Perhaps, all would have just gone well and the streak would have continued. If I had not seen those pictures.I then forwarded them to Marcus who did not know who the man was.Still, I had been on
CHAPTER 36IRENEWhat is more confusing than a man's heart?It is the most confusing place anyone would want to be in-One moment he was acting all loving and the other moment he was acting all paranoid, I tried to think about how he got the picture he was talking about.I didn't know how to react to the whole situation. One moment we were together the previous night and this morning he was all about me not meeting with this person or that—To make matters worse he had also asked that I shouldn't step out.I watched him while he walked away, most times it looked like I was dealing with two different people—One moment he is acting all sweet and cool, and the other moment he is acting like the demon I was so used to knowing.Regardless of what he had said there was no way I was staying indoors, to start with there was a part of me that didn't want to dare Frank…That same part wanted to know what he was here for.It was obvious he couldn't just show up at a time like this without a purpos
JAMESTonight was one of those off nights that a man always found it hard to sleep.On my part it had something to do with a confused mind.Was I that bad a man?Loving hasn't been my thing right from the onset and most times while I had tried to show it, it all came out the wrong way.I was starting to think that I wasn't cut out for it, while for some it had been quite an experience for me it had been mythical.It took one look from her to see all that, she was almost jittering when she had seen me and in a way, I felt all bad about it because I was also speaking to Addie earlier that day.The only way I could have gotten rid of the guilt I was feeling was to walk away from everything in such a way that won't leave me looking like I was all lost and damaged.I rolled over in my bed and looked at the time on my cell phone, still unable to sleep. It was 4:30 a.m. and somehow it was looking like the white synapses of my brain were still burning active.I glanced out my bedroom window t
CHAPTER 38JAMESTemptation I could feel every bit of it going through my nerves at that moment, she was standing right there in front of me and all I could think about was how beautiful she was naked.I could come down to every conclusion I wanted about her and the fact that I didn't want or was battling with the feelings I had for her but despite all it was easy to come down to two conclusions about myself.The first was I was a pretender— I could act up all I want but at the end of the day at the end of it all there was only one thing I could practically focus on… One goddamn thing and that was the woman before me.Irene, of course. Standing before me so fucking wet and trying as hard as she could not make body contact or at least keep it minimal.Yet, as she stood there dripping water into the drain and looking at me with that body all naked and eyes that looked to be piercing deep into my soul.As she looked at me with that sweet expression sending waves of temptation down my ve
CHAPTER 39JAMES POVConflicted in my mind!I woke up to the blinding lights penetrating through the opened curtains. I had slept off in anger yesterday and had forgotten to shut them after making love all night with —You know who…Turning to my side, Irene was fast asleep and sprawled all over the bed. For some reason, her position made me even more angry than I already was. Memories of last night flashed through my mind as I stared at her in her natural state.Sex, which was supposed to relieve me of my stress, had turned into a rigorous activity and it was infuriating. She always made me feel sexually weak, it was weird. This was one of the things I loved about Addie, sex with her was great, too bad things didn't work out.As if on cue, my phone rang, the caller ID indicating that it was Addie. I wondered why she was calling as early as 10 am, what was this about?I lifted the phone anyways and put it to my ear while getting into my pajama slippers and exiting the room."Hello, top
CHAPTER 40IRENEIn a way I would have thought I would have gotten James Fraser figured out by now but that had proven to be far from the case.With the vulnerability that shone in his beautiful eyes, in a way that gives you a glimpse of her soul till it lures you in only to find out it all facades shows why I was still trying to get him figured out.The truth was it all made me want to know everything about him—But that was the problem, he always locked too much away.That was the reason I had not called him at first, cause there was this fear of what happens if he can't or wouldn't pick up as this was a fucking emergency at least that was what it looks like.He was the last person I could have called, who else? Than the self acclaimed savior of women in distress our very own James Fraser.I had seen the look—The one he had given me while we were at it the previous night and while I would have hoped he showed something totally different, he didn't.I guess after all that was wha
CHAPTER 41JAME'S POVI didn't know what happened at all panic rose within me as I picked up my suit and rushed out of my office without a second thought about what I was doing at all."Sir everything okay?" I didn't even see who asked me as I rushed towards the elevator looking at my watch."Cancel all my meetings for this afternoon. I have something very urgent and important to deal with." I called out as the elevator door opened and I stepped in.I drove out of the company's car park like a mad dog and I tapped my y fingers against the steering wheel as I drove off."Sir James, there's a traffic delay on this route you've decided to go back to the mansion." A voice said from the car speaker and I put in my earbuds immediately. I needed to get to Irene as fast as I could. I don't know if something bad happened to her but I don't know why I am acting like this."Tell the road security to clear the path for me immediately. I want to be in my mansion in less than five minutes." I ordere
CHAPTER 135JAMES.I wouldn't have been this worried if I didn't get her text that looked to be in distress, it was hardly twenty minutes that she walked out when suddenly I got a notification on my phone beeping in an emergency.She had been complaining about having weird calls and texts and it was Marcus' idea that we set the safety app up, so we would be able to track ourselves.I was still on the phone talking to Marcus and telling him about the sudden appearance of my mother when the notification came in.As I made my way down the stairs, as fast as I could an awful squeak cut through theair and somehow settled under my skin.I made my way out and saw that she was nowhere around the garage.My phone beeped again with a live location this time, slowly I could see the red round indicator moving away and hitting the main road.At first I thought she might have been going with my mother to heaven knows where,but looking around I saw her purse laying in the ground. My heart skipped ma
CHAPTER 134JAMESIt was still hard for me to believe everything that was happening, well that doesn't matter. I was prepared to make sure she spent the rest of her years behind bars for how she acted out toward me.I couldn't believe that I had been dragged into all of this and was naive all along.It was only two months since I got out of my accident and things had been almost perfect between us.It looked as though we've come to a mutual understanding in fixing anything that was going on between us.We just had to fight it — We just had to fight the fact that we were two people not willing to give into admitting flaws.It was hard to ignore her. Whenever she was near, an invisible string pulled me toward her in a way that we couldn't resist. Gradually we were building back what looked to be broken. It was the only sane thing at that moment as it was impossible for us to just get ourselves back immediately.The feel of having do close left a vibrating feeling behind with the promis
CHAPTER 133JAMESThe first thing I noticed when I fluttered my eyes open was the fact that I was in an empty room which I did not seem to recognise. I winced at the harsh light coming through the window and instantly closed my eyes back up.For some reason I couldn’t turn my head an inch. Even the thought of doing that made me wince in pain. A frustrated grumble escaped my throat at the fact that I was clearly clueless and oblivious of my surroundings and there was nothing I could do to change that except to wait for aid which didn't seem to be coming.Judging by the stiffness of the bed I laid on and the feeling of Iv on my hand, I came to the conclusion that I was in a hospital bed. If that didn’t confirm it then the terrible headache I was having and the pain I felt all over my body definitely did.“For how many hours have I been laying down here” I wondered in silence. Giving up on all attempts to get myself up and waiting for anyone to walk into the room. Judging by the light co
CHAPTER 132IRENEThere was just one wish in my heart and at the tip of my tongue. That all these was a dream and I will wake up back in my apartment but I knew it wasn’t. This was real, this was my reality and I will have to face it no matter how cruel it might seem.I sighed for the umpteenth time watching as the nurses did their job. I had been sitting here for the past hours, waiting for some form of miracle to happen and James to wake up, I just refused to let the fact that he was going to die into my heart. I just refused to agree that I am going to lose him forever.“No! Absolutely not!” I chanted to myself, shaking my head vigorously in the process. James is strong, he is going to survive this. There is no way in hell he was going to die after all he had gone through. It just wasn’t meant to be like this. James is not supposed to die. NoI stared down at his face, his calm and peaceful face and I realized just how much I missed him. How much I missed looking into his eyes and
CHAPTER 131IRENEMarcus stared at me intensely from his side of the table, swirling his spoon around the plate of food in front of him. His gaze seemed to be directed at me but in reality he was deep in thought with his hand supporting his chin.I was still a bit sick but it was not as severe as it used to be so I had no trouble just sitting down and watching him think, waiting for him to spit out whatever was taking up most of our time together.After a long moment of silence, he sighed heavily, dropping the spoon from his hand and turning to face me completely now. “Irene?” He called.I did not honor that with a reply, instead I just looked at him to tell him I was present and listening to whatever he had to say.“How are you doing?” He inquired. It might sound like it was just a normal question but I could feel all the underlying questions from just looking into his eyes. The unspoken question was actually “how are you dealing with everything? How is your sanity now that James is
CHAPTER 130IRENE“I’m tired of everything, I want James back and I can’t leave without him and I feel like I’m dying.” I said almost choking on my own tears.Marcus was so comforting as he was quiet as he let me rant all I want in his embrace. It’s been so long since I had someone to hug like this and now that I got someone I didn’t want to let go.“I want him back, I can’t let Addie have him forever because I won’t be able to live without him.” I said crying deeply as gently wiped off the tears from my eyes.I finally released myself from my self bondage grip and it was then I remembered the blood of Marcus' body.He looked at me worriedly which made me shiver as I had a very unusual feeling inside of me.“W…what happened to you? Why are you covered up in blood?” I asked, looking at his hands which were covered in blood. His white shirt was also covered in blood but I couldn’t spot any injury on his body.“It’s not me, something happened to.” He said calmly holding my two hands like
CHAPTER 129IRENEI felt like screaming my lungs out to ease the intense pain I was currently feeling in my head but looking at it logically, screaming might only increase the pain so I refrained from doing so.Instead, I squirted my eyes to reduce the amount of light entering into it which in some weird way is only adding to my pain. My heart kept pounding in a way it had never done before, at least not when I am fine.I clutched onto my duvet for dear life, still shivering and gritting my teeth despite the fact that I was under layers of bed coverings. My throat felt so dry and the thought of passing anything through it at the moment made me gagged, but considering the fact that I had vomited more than I could count during this short period nothing came out but air.Overall I felt terrible and after a long moment of denial and thinking it was probably stress which would be gone if I just rested, I finally reached the conclusion that I was sick and I would need to see a doctor in or
CHAPTER 128IRENEI looked around lazily and picked up my phone to check the time. It was already evening and I groaned wishing I woke up the next morning.Now I had to Dave the burden of actually being in this life which was enough of a burden on its own. Everyday I wished it was the next because I wanted to get over everything.By now James would have been engaged and my heart ached as I thought about it. I sniffled hard because I didn’t want to start crying again.The love of my life was getting engaged to someone and it wasn’t me, he was the only one I wanted and now he belonged to someone else and there was nothing I could do.It became hard for me to stop myself from crying so I undressed and went into the shower.I turned on the warm water and gently scrubbed my body like there was no life left in me again.Everything felt so slow and I felt there was no use for anything again, it was all useless now.I got out of the shower and got dressed into a big top and walked out of the
CHAPTER 127JAMESI looked around and the sight of everyone cheering all in my name was so disgusting to me, especially since I didn’t want any of this to begin with.Everyone who walked past me would wave at me but Ignored most of them anyway as I was trying my best not to flare up because I was very upset.My sister noticed this from across the room and our eyes met, I looked away but I knew she was still going to come over anyways.She smiled at me and walked gently approaching me.“Why aren’t you putting on a smile? It’s your happy day. You should be happier than anyone here.” My sister said gently patting my suit like she was about to dust something off it.I looked around the crowd in the area and now the whole hall was jeering with noises from each corner of the hall.“When is this going to end?” I scoffed with a big frown pasted on my face.I didn’t even care about all of these arrangements and all the guests here because I was not happy with any of it.“Look over at your beau