CHAPTER 47JAMES POVWarm air brushed my skin as the door opened, I was still trying to process every bit of everything that was happening as Irene stomped away, for a moment I stood fixed to the spot I had been unable to move or even say a word as her held a dark storm that was looking to fall and make a torrent if I as little as muttered a word.I stared at her attire—she wore the same clothes she had worn out as she was covered with alcohol.Was that because she had become…a drunkard?I could by no way forget the look she had on her face when she had spoken to me, her expression was equal parts fury, equal parts despair and I felt every bit of it.I opened my mouth, closed it, then waltzed to the bar and pulled out a stool while still running my hands through my hair.I could hear her throwing up and for a minute I thought about going up to check on her but stopped the thought right before it got out of my mind and instead I thought about doing something totally different.She w
CHAPTER 48JAMES POVSoon my car was pulling up at the company, in a way mind was distracted by the recent occurrence but i did well to push away to the back of my mind, while I went on with with I was supposed to do for the rest of the day.There was no way I was going to let the recent occurrence affect my work flow and it was the exact thing I planned to do.Quickly, a guard was at my door and he helped me out."Good morning boss." He said silently while trying to keep a straight face as much as he could.I was in the mood for the greetings and whatever came with it, but regardless, I answered while making my way inside.The office was busy already but still I caught everyone attention as I walked in, and it was either they looked more jovial today than usual or like I was thinking over the board.While the. Cheerful look on their faces held a hint of pity that was so hard to miss, I couldn't help the thought that there was a reason behind it.I couldn't quite explain the phenomen
CHAPTER 49JAMES POVA state of insanity… In a way that was what I felt at that moment.I was trying so hard to keep my mind straight and not say anything mean to hear as I was totally pissed for so many reasons I wouldn't get tired of counting.Who the hell did she think she was?The thought kept flickering through my mind threatening to burst out with a force of unwanted energy if I didn't find a way to stop it.She made me vulnerable, in a way it felt like I was messing up a whole historical principle I had always abided with.At this moment I was done doing that…I thought to myself.I would rip the thought of her out of my heart before she ruins me.I got the keys and walked to the door.The fresh breeze that hit me as I stepped out of the house felt different. The house was filled with a choky air that kept on wafting through every room. Tension between I and Irene was high and I wasn't even sure who was supposed to be mad at anymore.At a point I felt I was to blame for all of t
CHAPTER 50IRENE'S POVOne thing about my feelings was that most times it felt private, too private that I couldn't bear to let it all out.A part of me still wanted to keep most of everything secret, perhaps that was the reason why I was still keeping so much in my mind and it was hard for me to let go of every bit of my past at the moment.The candle on the table flickered and glowed but not like my mind at that moment. My mind was dark with so many anonymous feelings at that moment.I sighed. Just moments ago I was acting crazy but it all felt different now that I was trying to stay away"I think you should go to bed, he'll get home when he feels like it." Marcus grimaced.I had been trying to get James over the phone and it had been difficult to do that, it looked as though he was avoiding me, and considering how I had treated him earlier that day it was expected that he acts that way.Deep down I wanted to believe what Marcus had said and was accepting that he'd call eventually…o
CHAPTER 51JAMES POVit felt like the worst kind of mistake I would ever want to try to make at the moment, no matter how I tried to make it easy for myself by thinking about less of him the harder it was for me it was as though I couldn't get her out of my mind— Even in my drunken stateIn a way I was committing myself to that same mistake, I was walking right on that track.I looked around at her again right where she was standing, it was only the moment she had walked away asking that I give her time to go change.Maybe if I was not that drunk, I would have gotten away as fast as I could.Still, there was every chance I still wouldn't have.It was like she had me wrapped around her fingers then and I could only do what she wanted.At the back of my mind while sitting in that position I was beginning to think all of this lust I was having at the moment was my punishment for the way I had treated women all through my life, it was like karma.While she had touched me and practically
CHAPTER 52JAMES POVThere was only one rule for every man to follow: Stay away from your exes.Right now I was breaching that same rule and was defying its true meaning.I was going to fuck Addie Andrews.Deep in my mind I knew I was soiling the whole solemnity of my union with Irene, but I didn't care—This was lust we were speaking of.One thing about having your past lovers over was the fact that they knew you too well, they could tell each point of your body that made it tingle with expectations.They knew the exact spot to touch and reach out to that would make you mellowed.It was the exact case with Addie, she knew those spots and was taking advantage of it with all totality.At a point, I had forgotten how serial she could be when it came to romance when Irene was a bit laid back … Addie on the other side was ready to explore.One fact was she had been the one to lure me into the dark side of sexuality, and since I went down that path it was hard to come back.I was putting u
CHAPTER 53IRENE POVThunder flashed across the sky as it rained heavily, when the next thunder struck with lightning it gave me goosebumps as I was forced up the bed.I looked around at the room that was still empty, there were still no signs of James— I had thought I would awaken to see him at the side of the bed but as it turned out to be he was still nowhere to be found.The room was dark and cold , as the light had tripped off due to the heavy rainstorm.I covered myself with a duvet and grabbed my phone, hoping at least that I would have a reception.Fuck…I dropped the phone back on the bed, realizing there was no single reception on the phone.I ran my hand through my hair again, rubbing my arms —For a minute, my body kept craving James ' body heat. I wished he was here at this moment and didn't care but it would take me to have him here.My thoughts went back to where he could possibly be at this moment.Was he with another woman?As much as I wanted to believe to myself that
CHAPTER 54IRENE'S POVMy heart break was anticipated all this while, and like in a way it had been like a ticking bomb waiting to explode over my face. Still I could feel every bit of it as it traveled down the nerves of my skin downward through the part that felt pain.At first I had looked at the phone not knowing what to expect before I clicked, yet my gaze was heavy, angry even, and I wasn’t sure how I was going to control the outcome.I knew what to expect but that was only because the message that came with the pictures had stated, it was easy to guess.While one part of my heart was screaming at me to just delete, another was curious to see what it was all about.I glanced at the sky outside that still held the sun in a way that looked so beautiful, but I didn’t believe that this atmosphere, though tinted with a bit of anger, was about to be totally torn apart and ruined.In fact, it looked like I'd prefer not to open it at all-Fuck my curiosity though.I sighed. “Why am I
CHAPTER 135JAMES.I wouldn't have been this worried if I didn't get her text that looked to be in distress, it was hardly twenty minutes that she walked out when suddenly I got a notification on my phone beeping in an emergency.She had been complaining about having weird calls and texts and it was Marcus' idea that we set the safety app up, so we would be able to track ourselves.I was still on the phone talking to Marcus and telling him about the sudden appearance of my mother when the notification came in.As I made my way down the stairs, as fast as I could an awful squeak cut through theair and somehow settled under my skin.I made my way out and saw that she was nowhere around the garage.My phone beeped again with a live location this time, slowly I could see the red round indicator moving away and hitting the main road.At first I thought she might have been going with my mother to heaven knows where,but looking around I saw her purse laying in the ground. My heart skipped ma
CHAPTER 134JAMESIt was still hard for me to believe everything that was happening, well that doesn't matter. I was prepared to make sure she spent the rest of her years behind bars for how she acted out toward me.I couldn't believe that I had been dragged into all of this and was naive all along.It was only two months since I got out of my accident and things had been almost perfect between us.It looked as though we've come to a mutual understanding in fixing anything that was going on between us.We just had to fight it — We just had to fight the fact that we were two people not willing to give into admitting flaws.It was hard to ignore her. Whenever she was near, an invisible string pulled me toward her in a way that we couldn't resist. Gradually we were building back what looked to be broken. It was the only sane thing at that moment as it was impossible for us to just get ourselves back immediately.The feel of having do close left a vibrating feeling behind with the promis
CHAPTER 133JAMESThe first thing I noticed when I fluttered my eyes open was the fact that I was in an empty room which I did not seem to recognise. I winced at the harsh light coming through the window and instantly closed my eyes back up.For some reason I couldn’t turn my head an inch. Even the thought of doing that made me wince in pain. A frustrated grumble escaped my throat at the fact that I was clearly clueless and oblivious of my surroundings and there was nothing I could do to change that except to wait for aid which didn't seem to be coming.Judging by the stiffness of the bed I laid on and the feeling of Iv on my hand, I came to the conclusion that I was in a hospital bed. If that didn’t confirm it then the terrible headache I was having and the pain I felt all over my body definitely did.“For how many hours have I been laying down here” I wondered in silence. Giving up on all attempts to get myself up and waiting for anyone to walk into the room. Judging by the light co
CHAPTER 132IRENEThere was just one wish in my heart and at the tip of my tongue. That all these was a dream and I will wake up back in my apartment but I knew it wasn’t. This was real, this was my reality and I will have to face it no matter how cruel it might seem.I sighed for the umpteenth time watching as the nurses did their job. I had been sitting here for the past hours, waiting for some form of miracle to happen and James to wake up, I just refused to let the fact that he was going to die into my heart. I just refused to agree that I am going to lose him forever.“No! Absolutely not!” I chanted to myself, shaking my head vigorously in the process. James is strong, he is going to survive this. There is no way in hell he was going to die after all he had gone through. It just wasn’t meant to be like this. James is not supposed to die. NoI stared down at his face, his calm and peaceful face and I realized just how much I missed him. How much I missed looking into his eyes and
CHAPTER 131IRENEMarcus stared at me intensely from his side of the table, swirling his spoon around the plate of food in front of him. His gaze seemed to be directed at me but in reality he was deep in thought with his hand supporting his chin.I was still a bit sick but it was not as severe as it used to be so I had no trouble just sitting down and watching him think, waiting for him to spit out whatever was taking up most of our time together.After a long moment of silence, he sighed heavily, dropping the spoon from his hand and turning to face me completely now. “Irene?” He called.I did not honor that with a reply, instead I just looked at him to tell him I was present and listening to whatever he had to say.“How are you doing?” He inquired. It might sound like it was just a normal question but I could feel all the underlying questions from just looking into his eyes. The unspoken question was actually “how are you dealing with everything? How is your sanity now that James is
CHAPTER 130IRENE“I’m tired of everything, I want James back and I can’t leave without him and I feel like I’m dying.” I said almost choking on my own tears.Marcus was so comforting as he was quiet as he let me rant all I want in his embrace. It’s been so long since I had someone to hug like this and now that I got someone I didn’t want to let go.“I want him back, I can’t let Addie have him forever because I won’t be able to live without him.” I said crying deeply as gently wiped off the tears from my eyes.I finally released myself from my self bondage grip and it was then I remembered the blood of Marcus' body.He looked at me worriedly which made me shiver as I had a very unusual feeling inside of me.“W…what happened to you? Why are you covered up in blood?” I asked, looking at his hands which were covered in blood. His white shirt was also covered in blood but I couldn’t spot any injury on his body.“It’s not me, something happened to.” He said calmly holding my two hands like
CHAPTER 129IRENEI felt like screaming my lungs out to ease the intense pain I was currently feeling in my head but looking at it logically, screaming might only increase the pain so I refrained from doing so.Instead, I squirted my eyes to reduce the amount of light entering into it which in some weird way is only adding to my pain. My heart kept pounding in a way it had never done before, at least not when I am fine.I clutched onto my duvet for dear life, still shivering and gritting my teeth despite the fact that I was under layers of bed coverings. My throat felt so dry and the thought of passing anything through it at the moment made me gagged, but considering the fact that I had vomited more than I could count during this short period nothing came out but air.Overall I felt terrible and after a long moment of denial and thinking it was probably stress which would be gone if I just rested, I finally reached the conclusion that I was sick and I would need to see a doctor in or
CHAPTER 128IRENEI looked around lazily and picked up my phone to check the time. It was already evening and I groaned wishing I woke up the next morning.Now I had to Dave the burden of actually being in this life which was enough of a burden on its own. Everyday I wished it was the next because I wanted to get over everything.By now James would have been engaged and my heart ached as I thought about it. I sniffled hard because I didn’t want to start crying again.The love of my life was getting engaged to someone and it wasn’t me, he was the only one I wanted and now he belonged to someone else and there was nothing I could do.It became hard for me to stop myself from crying so I undressed and went into the shower.I turned on the warm water and gently scrubbed my body like there was no life left in me again.Everything felt so slow and I felt there was no use for anything again, it was all useless now.I got out of the shower and got dressed into a big top and walked out of the
CHAPTER 127JAMESI looked around and the sight of everyone cheering all in my name was so disgusting to me, especially since I didn’t want any of this to begin with.Everyone who walked past me would wave at me but Ignored most of them anyway as I was trying my best not to flare up because I was very upset.My sister noticed this from across the room and our eyes met, I looked away but I knew she was still going to come over anyways.She smiled at me and walked gently approaching me.“Why aren’t you putting on a smile? It’s your happy day. You should be happier than anyone here.” My sister said gently patting my suit like she was about to dust something off it.I looked around the crowd in the area and now the whole hall was jeering with noises from each corner of the hall.“When is this going to end?” I scoffed with a big frown pasted on my face.I didn’t even care about all of these arrangements and all the guests here because I was not happy with any of it.“Look over at your beau