WINTER:At least Calcifrer was no longer wearing his underwear but a robe covering his naked body. Or his boxer shorts. What a pity. It would be best if I could…I mentally scolded myself. What the heck was wrong with me this evening? Was this the right time to sleep?“Do you like what I am wearing, pumpkin?”I cleared my throat. “It seemed comfortable. Where did you get one?” I asked. The issue is not his body as of the moment, Winter. It's his presence with you in the kitchen, okay?He looked at himself. “In the closet. Your Dad prepared a lot of extra clothes. Do you think he is preparing for this day to come? That he will know that one day, I will be sleeping over at his house?”I folded my arms in front of my chest. “Oh, please. Dad was definitely not thinking about that. He was thinking of the other guest. Except you.”“He is thinking about me. This is what he had dreamed of, pumpkin? For us to get together.”“Which won't happen in this lifetime but only in your dreams, Calcif
WINTER:I wanted the ground to swallow me whole at the intense embarrassment I felt right now. I was right from the beginning. The gut telling me that Cali knew I was watching was right and I should have listened to it. But how did he know?Maybe it had something to do with Dad. It was never Ynes since that woman never decided on her own. She let me know it first, leaving it with Dad only. “I don’t know what you’re talking about,” I denied as he sat comfortably opposite me. That was the only thing I could do now. Deny to death even if I was already caught. “I saw you looking at your phone. I was watching the recordings through my laptop.” He smiled and I so badly wanted to wipe out the smirk from his mouth. “Whatever. I really did not know what you were talking about, Cali.”“Oh. You don't know what I am talking about?” he taunted. My hands were already sweating profusely. Dammit. I never wanted to lie like this, but if I didn't, I would lose face. “Did you have a nice view of
WINTER: Shame flooded my senses. My little Liam was no longer little anymore. He was too observant and smarter than his real age."If I did that, I am so sorry if it does not make you comfortable, Liam." “I don’t like you two fighting, Mommy. It’s bad,” he grumbled while squeezing his eyes shut. “My teacher said that families should love each other and not fight.”Oh, God. All along, I was always considering my personal feelings, but never Liam. I was so focused on hating my ex-husband and the pain he inflicted on me that I always forgot that my son was also getting affected.I was such an embarrassment. "Why do you always fight you two?" he asked with an innocent look. "I don't like it when you two fight."How did it feel being grilled by your own son? “Liam…is that how it always looks to you?”He nodded. “Don’t you love each other, Mommy?”I loved your dad once. But he never returned the feelings, and we were all alone now. "Buddy, Mommy and I are not fighting. We were only tal
WINTER:"Mommy, you're also wet like us. Let’s bathe together, please?" Liam pleaded, showing me his puppy dog eyes. "I'm not that..." My words trailed off when I realized I was indeed wet like them. Probably when Liam hugged me earlier. "See, Mommy? You are wet too. Come on. You have to take a bath with us."My ex-husband extended his hand. "Pumpkin, let's go. Our son is waiting for us. Taking a bath will be a great bonding for the three of us."I felt my cheeks burn when mischievous thoughts filled my mind. Damn it. Why was I lusting over my ex-husband?“Our son is waiting, pumpkin.”Our son.Yeah. This was our son and if not for Liam, I would never make him unhappy.Forcing a smile since our son was watching, I said, "I can handle myself well. Thank you so much for your invitation." I went past Calcifer and grabbed my son's hand. "Let's go, Liam."Liam bounced up and down and held my hands tight. Then, he said, "Hold my hand, too, Daddy." Cali did. Liam laughed. "Why are your ha
WINTER:Carmela. That woman will forever leech off my ex-husband. She had no sense of shame and forever forced herself into Calcifer. Good news? Or bad news? One thing was for sure. She was now getting on my nerves. “You take the call. That might be important,” I said nonchalantly, acting to be cool about it even if a lot of thoughts were already on my mind. “No. She might be asking for money again.” Again? Carmela always asks him for money. Did she marry him because of money? Probably. There was no difference between you and her. Calcifer married you because of your family's money and now, the woman whom Calcifer loved for his life married him because of his money. “She is treating you like his sugar daddy. I cannot blame her. You're loaded now, Calcifer.”“She thinks I only picked the money in a garbage can.”“If that's the case, you force her to work. You cut off her allowances except for your daughter.”Why are you so eager to give him advice? You should treat him as if he d
WINTER:Happy? Was I happy those times? Did I ever smile truthfully when I was with him? Did seeing his presence inside the house make me happy? Did seeing him working on his laptop make me happy?The answers to those questions were big yeses. He was my happiness because he was my love. I loved him even if it was unrequited knowing my husband would never love me because that was only a business marriage. “Pumpkin?” my ex-husband asked, pulling me out from my internal musing. “Happy? You’re imagining things, Calcifer. Why would I be happy with someone whom I don’t love and who doesn't have any feelings for me? I was only happy when you stepped out of our house.”He was quiet for a moment.“I enjoyed every bit of it,” he confessed. “Being with you…brought calm in me. I was content and comfortable with your presence.”It was the same for me, though I was not vocal about it.Contented? Lies. If he did, he would never have broken up with me. “But in the end, you divorced me,” I said qu
WINTER:My heart skipped a bit at my ex-husband's confession.He realized I was the woman for him? When? Given that he was indeed telling the truth. How come he had to undergo two divorces just to realize that?There was something off about this one.I should not let my emotions handle this or this might create another pain and trauma on my part. "Come on, Calcifer. We are the only ones here. Why don't we tell the truth and nothing but the truth?""I already expected that you would tell that. Never mind. I would show you that my efforts are all real. I will make my actions be the speaker, pumpkin."“I'm not buying it. I don't even know what to give you the benefit of the doubt. I am already tired of your betrayal, Calcifer. That is enough for now.”Heavy silence passed between us until we reached Dad’s house. When I arrived at the mansion, Hawk was waiting for me, wearing a worried expression on his face. However, it disappeared upon recognizing my ex-husband's car. I hope this wil
WINTER:Calcifer opened his mouth but no words would come of it. Then, he closed it again, his shoulders lowering. "I am only trying to make you safe, pumpkin. Is it bad?""I am safe when I am with Hawk," I pressed. "I feel safe around him. I am comfortable around him. Please don't meddle any more with my affairs, Calcifer. I don't like it. Go." I turned my back to him, without listening to his answer. I went upstairs to my room with Hawk tailing me.Glancing over my shoulder, I saw Calcifer downstairs turn his back and go to his car. He thought it was romantic to dictate my life. If he did that while we were still married, maybe it was romantic. I was hopelessly in love with him. It was already late, Calcifer. I moved on with my son. "Miss Winter. Can we talk?" Hawk asked before I could enter my room. I inhaled deeply before I faced him. "Look, Hawk. I admit it was my mistake. It won't happen again. I understand why you are mad at me."“That's…not what I will say.”“What is
WINTER: One week later… Just like what I wanted, it was a small wedding only, attended by some important people. The wedding only happened in the mansion, something Calcifer did not approve of, but agreed to in the end. Did he have a choice? He did not. In the end, he had no choice but to give in. My wedding dress was nothing fancy. It was a simple one which I bought at the mall. Cali wanted to hire someone to make the dress for me, but I declined. I didn't want anything extravagant. It was better to donate the money to some charities. After all, what was more important was the marriage. Our marriage life after the wedding. We only invited the pastor to come into the mansion. The press found out about our wedding. It was all over the news, but I told Cali not to give any statement about it. I will do it when I want. Despite the venue, Cali was still able to ask the wedding planner to transform the hall into something beautiful, with a lot of flowers on each side. The servan
HAWK: The door burst open and saw Miss Nathalia’s angry look. I stopped drinking and looked at the newcomer. The alcohol did not even make me drunk. I need more. “Miss Nathalia. Cheers.” I offered a bottle of beer, but her expression told me she was not a bit happy. “Is this all your plans, right now, sulking in the corner? Smoke. Drink?” Nathalia asked. She put her hands on both of her lips as she looked at me with disappointment. Almost a week of staying in this apartment which she had helped me get. In the meantime. I was supposed to start working on her, to be her bodyguard, but I did not have the strength to work at the moment.It still hurts.Miss Winter was my ultimate love and there was no other woman beside her.The alcohol made me numb the pain, but when I got sober, it was back again. When will this end? "I am only giving you this week to fix yourself. If you will not, I will kick your butt and let someone drag you to my condo and stay there."She had been pestering
WINTER: The crowd was expecting my answer while all I could do was stare at Cali kneeling down, holding an opened box where the ring was waiting for me. “I know this is not the kind of proposal that you’re expecting. This is simple, but I thought that you also did not like anything fancy. This is not like what you see on social media platforms, but there is one thing that I wanted to assure you. My feelings are real. My promises will remain the same. It's the feelings that matter, right?”Cali was expecting my answer, and the more I was silent, the more he grew nervous. My eyes went to Dad. He was already wiping the tears from his eyes while Nathalia was silently cheering for his brother. The servants seemed like they could no longer breathe because of the fast beating of their hearts. “Cali…I…” I bit the inside of my cheeks. Was I ready now? “May I talk to you for a moment?”His mouth fell but was able to get hold of his emotions. Clearing his throat, he said, “Yes, Pumpkin. Wh
WINTER: ONE MONTH LATER...“Mommy? Why is Uncle Hawk leaving us?” Liam asked, watching Hawk bringing his bag outside. Not only Liam and I were sending him, but Calcifer was also with us and the rest of the maids. None of us wanted him to go. “He is just visiting his parents, Liam. He does not know when he will be back, that's why he resigned.”He looked at me with pure innocence. “Daddy? I don't understand why he needs to leave us while he visits his parents,” Liam continued. Cali patted Liam. “You will understand when you become an adult.”He pouted. “I don't want to become an adult, Daddy. I want to be your baby forever.”“You will be our baby forever.”A month had passed since I accepted Cali's love. A month of always showing me how much I meant to him and our son. He never failed to show us how much he loved us, by cooking and traveling abroad. Above all, Liam was the happiest. He constantly brags to his classmates that his Daddy is already with us and he constantly wants Ca
WINTER:I rubbed my hands together as I waited for Hawk. Craning my neck, I stared at the gate, waiting for a car to enter— the car I let Hawk lend.My heart continued to hammer against my ribcage. Damn it. Why was he making me this worried? Was he punishing me? It was already six o’clock and he was not here yet. I wonder what happened to him. He was not this late. He also never was the type who never texted me where he was right now.I bit my fingernails while pacing back and forth on our porch.That man. I will give him a scolding for making me worry this much. This was so unlike him. Did he want me to die because of worrying?Cut him some slack, Winter. That man is hurting after you told him the truth. Do you think it is easy for him?But he went out to have some check right? It was nothing to do with me and Cali?I stopped and checked my phone again for the nth time. Still, no messages coming from him. Damn it. What seemed to be wrong?What if I call his number? Why haven't I
HAWK:Nathalia was pretty easy to talk with.The moment I asked for her pin code, she gave it to me without hesitation. Was she always like this to other men? [Don’t be shy to order something online, Sweetie.][Are you there, yet? Your silence is making me nervous.][Hawk! You have to answer me, or I will call the police and declare you missing.]I shook my head while reading the last message.Answer her. She does not joke when it comes to you. Again, left with no choice, I texted some replies and hit the word send.[Yes? Yes? Is that the only thing you could answer me, Sweetie? I’m putting all my efforts into giving you a reply and you’re going to answer short ones? You are seriously hurting my feelings.]I pocketed my phone after telling her that I was going to enter her condo.She was not the one who I was expecting to text. It was Miss Winter. But I did not receive anything from her.I stopped at Room 703 after double-checking it. This was the room Nathalia had given me.I was a
HAWK:I stared at the ceiling like a fool. Now what? Where would you go now? Why did you lie to Miss Winter saying you’re sick? Now, you’re forced to go out and spend the rest of your day there. Now, you’re forced to go out and spend the rest of your day outside while your guilt is eating you away. You never lied to Miss Winter like this. I smiled bitterly. Could I be blamed? When I heard Liam and that bastard’s laughter, I gave in to the temptation and I went to the pool and saw them myself. The bonding of the real father and Dad. Something which I will never be able to achieve. My chest felt like it was being wrung. I held my breath as the pain became too much seeing how they looked good together. The three of them. Liam was happy. Miss Winter was happy with the bastard’s presence in the mansion. When he failed to sleep in this room, something might happen between them.I closed my eyes tightly as images of them being together entered my mind. Something already happened betwee
WINTER:Hawk's silence was not helping at all. “Hawk? I'm waiting.”"May I use this day as my day off? That's the reason why I approached you.”“Day off? Where would you go? You did not usually use your day off, right?”“I'm not feeling well right now. It started last night."Worry flashed over me and touched his forehead. “You don't have any fever at all.” But sometimes, you felt hot inside your body but on the surface, it was not hot. "Do you want me to call our family doctor to check on you?""No, Miss Winter. I already called someone. A friend of mine. I will visit his clinic so that he will know the diagnosis."“Don't you think it's better to stop smoking? It's not good for you.”“I will think about it, Miss Winter. It's not easy to quit.”“If there's a way, there is a will. Do you have a friend who is also a doctor? No offense, Hawk. But I don't see you hanging out with anyone.""I met him on social media.""Oh, I see. Is that person to be trusted? Hawk. Please be careful. Ther
WINTER: I was dreaming. You know the feeling that you were aware that you were inside your dream? That's what I'm feeling right now despite facing Cali in a fine dining restaurant. He wore a suit while I was wearing a red dress. He looked so handsome.“Why are we here?” I asked. “You don't remember, Pumpkin?”“What?”“We are celebrating because we are having our second child. So don't drink any alcoholic drinks from now on.My eyes bulged. “I'm with a child?”He chuckled and grabbed the wine glass from my hand. “This is supposed to be mine.” He emptied the contents. “We're going to have a baby?” I asked.“We are. I'm so happy, Pumpkin.”I looked down and saw that there was indeed a baby bump. Tears simmered down my eyes when I felt the kick of my baby inside. “We are going to have a baby?” I whispered while caressing the bulge on my stomach. “Thank you for approving to have another baby,” he whispered and kissed my hand. “Calcifer!” a woman's voice suddenly shouted. We all lo